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"...Regret is a sad and painful thing, and shame makes people unable to look directly at it, and I agree with that."

"Ah~!?"

"It hurts to see the past, it's a real pain, but I think the past should be tolerated and accepted.

As you said, the witch is vicious, and I will never forget the hatred of trusting her but being betrayed. "

Even the temporary world, the virtual parents, are nothing more than fake farewells that reproduce memories.

But Laiyue Subaru faced the biggest regret in his heart, and got an answer and parting there.

He hated the witch who gave everything to him, and that hatred has not disappeared, but the other feeling is not deceiving.

"I am grateful to the witch. I am very fortunate to have faced the past. I ran away, escaped, and kept running...fortunately, I didn't escape to the end."

Neither Emilia nor Garfield could understand Laiyue Subaru's gratitude to the witch.

He hadn't told them he'd defied the grave, so it might have been taken as gibberish, but that didn't matter.

Because at least in Subaru's mind, the "past" already had a place.

and--

"Garfield—do you hate your mother who left you?"

"What……!?"

Lai Yuesubaru's question made Jia Feier's face change suddenly.

Red with anger, pale with astonishment, and finally lose color, dumbfounded.

"Is it an old woman...? You bastard, casually asking about other people's past...!"

"Sorry, I take off my shoes when I enter the house, but it's the Nazuki family tradition to step into people's hearts unceremoniously wearing shoes."

The witch's words, the sister's words, a grandma, and another grandma.

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Last night, Lai Yue Subaru confirmed from Shima, who was worried about Garfield, that "Alma"'s speculation was correct.

The past that Garfiel saw——was when he was separated from his mother.

In order to understand Garfield's heart, she took the initiative to tell herself that she had trampled on his heart unceremoniously.

"I only know fragments of the past that you saw. You and Frederica's mother left you and left the "Sanctuary". You saw this, and then, what happened?"

Tell what Sima said, but only the conclusion is blank, so he throws a question.

Faced with Lai Yuesubaru's question, Jia Feier shook his head in disgust, the rattling sound came from his teeth, the two rows of teeth lost their arrogance and trembled with fear.

Subaru stared at him closely, and in order to prevent him from running away, he took a step forward and repeated the question.

"Flanderica left the 'Sanctuary' because she believed that one day you would liberate the 'Sanctuary', so she first went outside to build a residence for the people here, and what did you do inside? "

Rejecting the warm helping hand extended by her sister, Garfield has been nestling in the "sanctuary".

Lai Yuesubaru felt a sense of guilt for exposing scars, but he still suppressed that feeling and dug his fingers into Jia Feier's wound until it bled, forcing him to tell the truth.

"Abandoned by your mother, so you hate your mother, hate the outside world that snatched your mother, so you want to close the "sanctuary" forever? Because you don't want to get hurt here!"

"No...! What do you know...don't think you know it, just talk about it!"

"That's right! What I said was all my own imagination, and what I said was what I thought I understood.

Only you know your true words, and I am not your family member who will understand without telling them! "

Laiyue Subaru's severe reprimand beat up Garfield who reflexively replied.

"I don't know if you don't tell me! You can't tell everyone what you think if you don't tell me!"

"—!"

"If you hate the mother who abandoned you, then rush outside to take revenge or do something for me now! Stop venting your anger on us who came in! Am I right? Are you venting your anger!?"

Jia Feier's expression was contorted, and he put down his foot on the stone steps, ready to leave.

Unable to let him escape, grabbing his hand, Leyue Subaru moved his face as close as he wanted to bite him.

At the distance between breathing and touching, staring at the blood-stained mournful face, he kept asking questions.

"You hate your family, if it weren't for that..."

"That's not true! My uncle... My uncle...!"

Ryuzu's words, Shima's truthfulness, Echidna's suggestion, Roswaal's and Frandelica's attitudes - Subaru found different answers from them.

Garfield's code of conduct stems from his hatred of his mother and fear of the outside world.

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Just like now, he didn't come to kill Subaru and Emilia, but wanted to hinder the liberation of the "sanctuary" by destroying the grave.

Not allowing Emilia to accept the "trial", in addition to fearing that the "sanctuary" will be liberated, also can't see Emilia being tortured by the past.

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——Garfiel does not hate or reject the past.

"What the hell are you thinking! Tell me!!"

"My uncle... I, I... hope...!"

Taking a breath and looking up at the sky, Garfiel said in a voice that was about to cry, shaking his teeth.

"I hope mom is happy...!"

"Because it's in the way!? My sister and I are hindering her happiness!?"

Garfield's accumulated emotions for ten years gradually overflowed.

"Of course I know! My sister and I were abandoned, right!? Both unwanted children and 'hybrids'.

If you want to live outside, this kind of child will of course get in the way!It's so strange to leave it alone... She didn't do anything wrong...! "

He didn't hide the trembling voice, but covered his face with his palms, trying to hide the trembling in his eyes.

"It's normal to be abandoned, so I don't hate leaving our mother behind.

... This is normal, my sister and I are obstacles, and my mother wants to go out to get happiness! "

The young Garfield watched the mother who abandoned her children leave the "Sanctuary".

Later, Garfield, who challenged the "Trial", once again saw his mother abandoning the two of them.

Jia Feier was abandoned by his mother twice, his young heart was broken, who can blame him.

However, what really drove Jia Feier to a desperate situation was not the abandonment of his mother.

"But, I saw it. I went into the tomb without telling grandma, and I saw inside...the mother who left us to go out...not long after I went out, I encountered a cliff collapse, and then...!"

"—!"

"Sister, she doesn't know...she thought her mother lived somewhere far away.

...But, that's not the case!As soon as mother left us, she died immediately! "

Garfield confessed the real episode he had witnessed by crying.

This cruel fact shocked the informed Laiyue Subaru and the uninformed Emilia.

"My mother died... I died without being happy..."

Garfiel, who covered his face with his palms, wept sadly.

"Why? Isn't she going to the outside world just for happiness?"

Lai Yue Subaru couldn't answer.

"You left us because you wanted to be happy, didn't you?"

Emilia couldn't answer.

"Obviously they have abandoned us, but they died immediately before being happy, so..."

Garfield continued to throw unanswered questions to the two who could not answer.

That must be the question he has been repeating countless times in his heart——

"Our lonely thoughts, the sadness of being abandoned, what should we do?"

——He has been looking for the answer for ten years, but he can't find it anywhere.

"I hope my mother is happy...!"

Crying began to force, and Jia Feier gritted his teeth.

His teeth were clenched so hard that they were about to splinter, and his chapped lips began to bleed, he barked.

"Sad mood! The loneliness of being abandoned! It's all meaningful for her happiness, I hope she can make me think so! I hope my mother can make me hate her...!"

Losing her feelings for her mother, Garfield's heart was sealed in the "sanctuary".

Lost the passion of the projected place, and had to use the soul as food to ignite an inextinguishable fire.

In the blackened heart and flames, Garfield swore to himself.

"I absolutely won't let anyone go to the outside world."

The voice trembled.

There was anger, there was sadness, there was the residue of passion, and the fire that still burns now.

"Changing can't be called happiness, there are so many people who can't do anything! What are they going to do! Do you want them to sacrifice for happiness and leave sad memories! Do you want them to become like me and my sister!"

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Carrying the "sanctuary" isolated from the outside world, Garfield spread his hands.

"I, my uncle—to protect them."