I can't be the hero of a romantic light novel

After being abandoned, Rika did not take the college entrance examination and enter university. Instead, she threw herself into bars and nightclubs, used alcohol to numb herself, and had relationships with different men. During this period, she had several miscarriages. She wanted to take revenge on Matsuo. It worked.

After an attack, Matsuo pressed her number with trembling fingers, and the phone was picked up. On the other end of the phone was a man's breathing and her familiar voice.

Rika told Matsuo everything that happened after leaving her, telling her that she only felt sick when she was with those men and never felt any pleasure.

After hearing this, Matsuo felt as if her heart had been torn to pieces, thinking that her selfishness had ruined her future, and asked to see her again with a voice filled with remorse.

At this time, Rika is no longer the same person she was before. She still hasn't let go of Matsuo in her heart, but she won't look back and resume the original relationship with her.

Matsuo often visited Rika in the next six months, but Rika did not delete Matsuo's contact information. The two chatted together, and Matsuo's illness also eased a lot, and everything seemed to be getting better.

While chatting with Rika, Matsuo wanted to see her again, explain the situation to her, and tell her the regret and apology that he had not been able to express.

They met.

Matsuo dressed up carefully for a long time and got on the train. She had been looking forward to this day.

However, this is not a romantic opera. Rika has no feelings for Matsuo. She indifferently refuses Matsuo's request to get back together, and tells Matsuo that they can be friends in the future, but it is best to keep a distance.

They had not spent a wonderful day. The makeup and expression on Rika's face made Matsuo feel strange, but his love for her remained unchanged.

Matsuo went home.

When she left, Lihua didn't see her off at the platform, and made a date with the next man for a drink without looking back.

Matsuo's symptoms worsened.

The moments when she stayed awake and calm became less and less. When I talked to her on the phone, I could sometimes hear the sound of the tip of a pen penetrating into my flesh.

She began to suffer from insomnia completely, unable to fall asleep for four or five days in a row. No matter how many medicines she took, it was of no use.

You must be curious what this has to do with me, right?

I suggested that Matsuo come to me and I wanted to spend some time with her, and she agreed.

That day we were at the beach, and that was the first time I met Matsuo.

The sea breeze ruffled her dry hair. She was a very petite girl. Her body was as thin as a piece of paper. I was worried that she would be blown away by the sea breeze.

She smiled and told me that it would be nice if it was blown away, and it could float far away like a kite.

I said I won't let you leave the ground. The sky is free, but it's also very empty.

I looked at her and assured her.

I noticed that there were a lot of bloodshot eyes in her eyes. Matsuo said while dripping artificial tears that she was very happy to see me, and her happy eyes became dry.

Her physical strength was very poor, so I helped her sit on the edge of the trestle while she watched the children next to her feeding the seagulls with bread crumbs.

At this time, my girlfriend came. She hugged the arm of a boy. I recognized that boy. He was a rich second generation in the school.

She was obviously a little flustered when she saw me, and then quickly let go of the rich second generation's hand, pointed at me as if she was being deceived, and scolded me, saying that I was actually cheating on her behind her back.

Matsuo explained to me anxiously.

My girlfriend’s voice became louder and louder, and many people gathered around to watch the fun, pointing at Matsuo and me. I never thought that my girlfriend had this side.

Matsuo jumped into the sea.

She fell on the rocks like a broken doll and was swept away by the sea.

Chapter 23

I told my close friend in advance that she knew about Matsuo's existence.

The rich second generation ran away.

She didn't dare to get close to Matsuo, who was lying in my arms.

She stood in the crowd and scolded me mockingly: "Aren't you a good swimmer?"Why did it take so long to rescue the person?

She squatted down and cried, as if she was shirking responsibility, and raised her voice for everyone to hear: How does it feel to go on a date behind your girlfriend's back?

Her face was distorted, and I couldn't believe that she was the person I once liked. Only then did I realize that everything was just her disguise.

Someone went up to comfort her, and the angry eyes around me thought I was the instigator.

The blood coughed up by the kite in my arms soaked into my shirt, and the sea breeze was noisy.

She said: It was you who killed Matsuo!

She was right, if I had rejected her confession, maybe none of this would have happened.

When the doctor lifted the thin Matsuo onto a stretcher, they said her internal organs were shattered and she was no longer breathing.

Matsuo really floated away.

Lihua was also present at the funeral, and she said with a pale face:

I miss Matsuo all the time, but I am already dirty and not qualified to spend the rest of my life with the most beautiful person in my mind.

Rika is wearing a white dress, which she said she wore when she first met Matsuo.

In the black wave of mourning for Matsuo, she was so miserable.

Pear Blossom left and jumped off the rails on the platform on the way back and died.

I locked myself in my house during those days, and my memory is intermittent.

When I returned to school, my classmates heard about it from somewhere, and some people started talking about it.

Her eyes were swollen from crying and she was surrounded by a group of people. I could probably understand that she was scared.

But it didn't matter. I pushed away the crowd and formally broke up with her. I packed up my things and left that day.

The funny thing is, I was so trembling that I couldn't even pick up a book.

I chose to say goodbye to my family and friends and came to Tokyo alone.

.......

Wuma Xingjin tried to speak calmly from the perspective of a bystander, but did not realize that his face was filled with tears and his vision was blurred.

It’s so strange, why can’t my eyes see clearly?

Arakawa Kotoyuki showed a distressed look, raised her hand and gently touched Wuma Xingjin's face, wiping away her tears with her slender fingers.

Mr. Wuma, your expression is so painful now.

Arakawa Kotoyuki embraced him and said motherly: "It's okay, it's over."

"Don't be sad for those who have hurt you. I believe Matsuo also hopes that you can come out of it soon."

"People will fail many times, no matter how perfect they are."

"Failure, frustration, despair..."

"Me too. Every time I think about my previous failures, I want to cry out, 'Ouch!'"

"'Did you do well in your first life?' I would tell myself that."

"But the road ahead will continue to stretch, and I hope we will gradually become good at dealing with them."

“To turn away from despair and become a shining person, that’s what it’s all about.”

"I didn't expect you to say such a thing."

"What? You look like you're meeting me for the first time."

“Recently, I’m learning how to comfort lovelorn viewers during live broadcasts.”

Because he was dissatisfied with Wu Ma Xingjin's performance, Arakawa Kotoyuki knocked his forehead with her delicate chin and shook his fist:

"I'm not spinning around in circles. I'm also studying seriously. Don't underestimate others."

"It's just surprising that Kotoyuki Arakawa can also trigger the preaching mode."

"Lie in the arms of this beautiful girl with gratitude. I will make an exception and allow you to sleep in my arms. This is today's special benefit."

Arakawa Kotoyuki will definitely become a great person in the future. From this point of view, it turns out that he is the only one who is standing still.

Arakawa Kotoyuki's body was very soft, and in her arms, Wuma Xingjin's tortured and exhausted spirit gradually relaxed.

The voices in my ears became softer and softer.

"Only for this time, don't misunderstand that I like you."

After a while, Arakawa Kotoyuki felt her breathing even in her arms, and then she became shy. She subconsciously wanted to push away, but she was afraid of waking her up.

...............

The next day, the alarm clock on my mobile phone broke the peaceful morning.

Following the sound, he touched the unknown softness, and the owner of the body made a seductive sound.

Wuma Xingjin froze and recalled what happened last night. He hadn't slept so deeply in a long time. He sighed softly and felt much more relaxed.

Carefully, he carried Kotoyuki Arakawa to the bed and covered her with a quilt.

Arakawa Kotoyuki's delicate and cute little face was frowning, as if she was worried about something.

Really, even though her situation is not much better, she still worries about herself. What a strange girl.

Open the entrance door and go out for a run as usual.

The fishing guy is still by the river, as if he was there on the day of the typhoon.

I really like fishing.

Some men know nothing about current fashion trends, but they have their own unique views on fishing.

They can talk all day long about the direction of the water flow, the growth of aquatic plants, weather conditions, the ratio of bait for making nests, and the selection of fishhook.

You can also infer the body data of a hot girl on the street by looking at her for a moment.

But asking them to tell how many processes are used in a manicure is as difficult as riding a bicycle on a mountain track and passing a motorcycle called BIMO.

Wuma Xingjin didn't rush home after running. He put coins in the vending machine and bought a bottle of Bozi soda.

“Very difficult to drink”

Okay, so it turns out it's cantaloupe flavored and a little spicy.

In order not to waste it, Wuma Xingjin still endured drinking it all.

Putting this flavor of wave soda on the blacklist in his mind, Wuma Xingjin was thinking about how to face Arakawa Kotoyuki when he went back.