Are you really not behind the scenes?

"Well, let's put this issue aside for now. If you don't say it, I won't say it, and everyone will just let it go."

"But there is still a problem, Tong."

"This time Komachi survived safely, but what about next time?"

"Northfield's plan must have been known to other alien beasts that are about to appear. What should we do if other alien beasts start to stare at Komachi, or Hikigaya's other friends? "

"Those cunning guys from the alien beasts will never be stingy with using tricks to attack their hearts again."

"Even if you have endured this kind of pain once, no one knows if Hikigaya will be able to stand up again if it happens again."

"This incident is a lesson. We must recognize this lesson and there will never be a next time."

"And after all, I am somewhat responsible for this situation..."

Chapter 67 I...have thought about not wanting to be Nexus anymore.

Komachi was targeted by Northfield and was involved in such a battle. In the end, he was seriously injured and barely managed to survive.

Without the system, Komachi would probably be dead by now.

For such a situation, Bai Mu feels that he is responsible.

Whether it was because he gave Hikigaya the Trustee of Evolution, which caused Hikigaya to become enemies with the alien beasts, and eventually implicated Komachi; or he allowed Hikigaya to go and get injured in battle, but in the end he didn't even take care of his family and friends... ....It all made Bai Mu feel that he needed to take responsibility for this matter.

How should I put it? He was obviously the one who got Hikigaya and Komachi involved in this matter, but now that he is talking about it, it still feels a little bit wrong.

The system also said this as if complaining.

[If the host really feels sorry for Hikigaya, then why not take the evolution truster back and choose the next suitable one?This way they can stay away from danger, right? 】

"Huh? Take it back? Tong, Hikigaya had a hard time transforming into the red youth form. If I take it back like this, wouldn't I feel very sorry for Hikigaya?"

【......? ? ? 】

Host, do you remember what you just said?

I have never seen such a brazen person!

[In human terms, is this considered hypocrisy of the host? 】

He gave the light of Nexus to Hikigaya and let Hikigaya fight. In the end, it caused Komachi to encounter this kind of thing. In the final analysis, it was all because of Shiromu handing over the light. If Shiromu takes the light back, then Hikigaya The Gu family's life will return to its original state.

No longer have to fight alien beasts, no longer have to run around the world, my family and friends can return to safety, and I no longer need to endure these pains.

Yes... as long as the light is taken away, everything will return to its original state.

However, Bai Mu knew this clearly but still did not choose to take the light back. He spoke loudly but ignored such a most direct method.

There doesn't seem to be anything wrong with describing it as hypocrisy.

Bai Mu himself was stunned for a moment at this comment, and then laughed out loud.

"Haha...hypocrisy? Ah, there seems to be nothing wrong with this description."

"I am indeed a hypocrite after all."

"What's more, if I take Hikigaya's power back and then give it to others, wouldn't the same thing happen? As long as I can't use the power of this world, something like this will definitely happen."

"This won't be the last time."

"So, I have to face this choice."

"But... no matter how you say it, it doesn't matter even if it's hypocrisy. Do something for them... I wanted to do it, so I did it."

Sometimes, hypocrisy is really needed...

[Now that the decision has been made, what does the host want to do?Although you have energy that you can call upon now, the amount is not much, and it is one-time use, so there are not many things you can do. 】

"It's okay, this is enough."

The white curtain raised his head slightly, and the dazzling sunshine penetrated the dark clouds and shone on the earth. The fresh wind after the rain rolled up his hair, and the white shirt stuck to his chest.

He looked at the clear sky, smiled, then turned and left...

"..."

"..."

Well, Shiromu was supposed to be ready to go back after he was done playing cool, but as soon as Shiromu turned around, he saw Hikigaya pushing open the rooftop door and running up panting.

TNND, I’m blocked!

Fortunately, with some experience pretending to be the Riddler NPC, he quickly sorted out his emotions and restored the smile that only the Riddler could have on his face.

"Hey, Hikigaya boy, you look a little embarrassed."

"You come to me in such a hurry, what's wrong?"

The clothes Hikigaya was wearing now were the ones he wore when he fought with Nosfer three days ago. Because he blamed himself for killing his sister, he had been hiding in his room without eating or drinking, without even changing his clothes.

This resulted in Hikigaya still wearing the clothes from three days ago.

In addition, he was forcibly taken to the hospital by Bai Mu, and he just went to fight with Northfield again. After the fight, he came to block Bai Mu's door non-stop.

To say he was a little embarrassed would be putting it mildly.

But Hikigaya didn't care about this.

He panted and bent over, and after a while he said breathlessly: "I don't know...but I just feel that I should block you..."

"..."

What's this? You don't even know what you want to say. You just block my door like this. Isn't it too willful?

Shiromu was complaining like this in his heart, and Hikigaya seemed to see what he was thinking, and then said: "After all, don't you have a lot more to say? I will rush after finishing that guy. If you come here, you should be more or less complimented, right?"

"Wait a minute, Hikigaya boy, when did I say, 'There's a lot more I want to say'?"

Bai Mu blinked, did I say this?Why am I not impressed?

"The last three chapters, according to the plot time, are less than 3 minutes. You should remember clearly what I said!"

Hikigaya couldn't help but complain, and now it was Shiromu's turn to be embarrassed.

"...This...I think I did say that."

He sneered slightly, as if he was a little embarrassed.

But soon, he came back to his senses.

Three chapters?No, wait, why did you break the dimensional wall too?Didn’t I tell you not to break the dimensional wall casually?Can you respect the dimensional wall?

Bai Mu complained in his heart again.

Then, he smiled and turned around to the edge of the rooftop.

Just stood there, looking at the distant scenery.Hikigaya also came to Shiromaku's side after taking a few breaths.

The two stood side by side, the wind blowing on their faces, and the air after the rain was always so refreshing.

They were silent among themselves, as if they were just admiring the scenery in front of them.

But after a moment of silence, Shiromu suddenly spoke: "Hikigaya boy, is it really okay to stay here with me? Don't you still have to accompany your sister?"

"If you have anything to say, just say it. I'll just listen to what you want to say for now."

"Of course, this is an exception, so you have to seize this opportunity."

Shiromu smiled like this, and Hikigaya was silent for a while, and then said something that surprised Shiromu, but he didn't feel surprised at all.

"I...have thought about not wanting to be Nexus anymore..."

Chapter 68 The bond of light begins to pass

"I...have thought about not wanting to be Nexus anymore."

On the rooftop, Hikigaya looked at the sunlight falling, the golden light, and whispered these words.

Although this sentence was very light, as if it was a joke, Bai Mu could hear that this sentence contained a heavy weight.

This was the result of Hikigaya's choice after careful consideration.

He indeed had the thought of not wanting to be the light again.

This conclusion reached...this decision made...such a gentle sentence contains such a great determination, I am afraid no one will know except Hikigaya himself.

But Bai Mu is not incomprehensible.

From getting the power of Nexus inexplicably, to being unable to protect others, to taking the lives of others with his own hands.

The feeling and pain involved in this was something that no one except Hikigaya could understand.

Nexus is the power of protection, the power to protect others.

Becoming Nexus means taking on such responsibilities.

but......

Hikigaya failed to fulfill such responsibility.

When he realized that life was passing away and when he took it with his own hands, his heart began to waver.

During those three days of despair, Hikigaya kept recalling the scene where he killed his sister and was tortured by pain. In this endless torture, he finally came to the conclusion.

——He does not deserve to be Nexus...

The boy who suffered the blow...the boy who could bear the pain better than anyone else, finally chose to give up and escape...

This is Hikigaya.

Hikigaya Hachiman.

Would he actually choose to escape?

Although it was a bit unexpected, this was Hikigaya's decision, and this was Hikigaya's regret for himself.

"Indeed... the Evolution Truster has given you powerful power, but it has also given you endless pain. Although this thing is easy to use, the price paid is too high, and... really speaking, it is difficult to say evolution What can those who trust you give you? This power does not belong to you alone. Abandonment may also be the right choice."

"Even now, it's not too late. You still have a choice, Hikigaya boy."

As Bai Mu said this, his expression didn't change much, and he was still smiling.

It was as if he was giving Hikigaya advice.