Rebirth at the end of seventy: my life I make the decision

My name is Wang Xiucheng. My sister said that my parents expect me in my name. They want me to be an honest person.

I was born in a small town called Qingxi Town, y County, Z province. There is a sister named Wang Xiuying, and Ben has a brother named Wang Xiulin, who is two years younger than my sister and four years older than me.

It is said that this brother is very likable and smart. He can speak in ten months and walk very smoothly in eleven months. He is deeply loved by his parents and sister. Unfortunately, this brother drowned a year before my birth because his family didn't take good care of me.

This family is not my parents, nor my sister, but my eccentric grandmother and lazy uncle.

On the day brother Xiulin drowned, he had no work in production for a moment. He asked his parents to take his six-year-old sister with them to weed and grow vegetables in his private plot against the sun.

Brother Xiulin is the eldest grandson of the family. I still love him very much. Naturally, he is reluctant to let the young brother Xiulin expose himself to the sun, so he is left at home for the milk to take care of.

Nai turns around and gives brother Xiulin to Wang Xingyou, who was 18 but idle at that time. Wang Xingyou takes brother Xiulin to enjoy the cool and chat under the big camphor tree in the east of the village. He only cares about making fun of the little girl and doesn't care about brother Xiulin at all.

Until the milk shouted for dinner, Wang Xingyou, who should have taken brother Xiulin with him, went home alone. His parents who had just returned from the field didn't see brother Xiulin. They hurriedly asked Wang Xingyou, but Wang Xingyou said impatiently, "who knows where the dead ghost has gone!"

His parents and sister hurried out to look for him. Wang Xingyou shouted that he was hungry and was about to eat when he picked up the bowl. He was so angry that my father picked up the long cigarette pole and wanted to hit him. Wang Xingyou murmured and slowly followed him to find someone.

Unfortunately, we almost searched Wangjia village and even Hujia village. No one had seen brother Xiulin until someone went to the well to draw water. At this time, brother Xiulin had already lost his breath and his body was a little white.

At that time, my mother, who was just pregnant, was devastated. She almost didn't come up and followed brother Xiulin. I could hardly come to this world in my mother's belly.

The result of my brother's drowning eventually led to the separation of the Wang family. My parents almost came out with my sister. At that time, my sister was six years old and sensible. Now as long as I say, my sister will cry.

You should know that parents who go out of the house with their sister borrow a place to live. If they weren't really hardworking and capable, they wouldn't know how they lived that year!

Even today, decades after their parents died, as long as they were mentioned, the older people in the village still thumbed up and boasted that they were not only tough, but also hardworking and willing to work.

Unfortunately, God did not give them a chance to die. They both died in a car accident on the eve of the Dragon Boat Festival in 1979, leaving their sister who was less than 14 years old and me who was only seven years old.

Children without parents are really like grass. Just after the first seven years of their parents, my parents took my aunts, aunts and uncles to try to carve up our home on the grounds of giving our siblings a good living environment.

At that time, my sister and I were small and weak. Where were we the opponents of these so-called relatives? My sister came forward to rob the things left by her parents, but she was directly pushed to the ground by the milk, and blood seeped from her forehead.

I cried loudly, but these people didn't even look at my sister and me, let alone stop bleeding for my sister. They just wanted to divide up our family.

Fortunately, my sister soon woke up from her coma. The awakened sister, contrary to her previous cowardice, argued with Ye Nai and sought the support and solidarity of village cadres and surrounding neighbors.

With the efforts of my sister, we finally reversed the situation that was very unfavorable to us. Not only did the village agree that our sister and brother should set up their own house, but also yenai had to spit out his parents' pension.

I never knew that my sister was such a smart, capable and eloquent person. In my memory, my sister has always been a very shy person who blushes in front of strangers.

However, after my parents died, my sister was no longer the sister in my impression, but I preferred such a sister. From that day on, my sister was my day, blocking countless storms for me, giving me warmth and growing up.

After my parents died, I was really afraid that my sister would leave me. I wanted to stay close to my sister every day, but my sister wanted to go to school, and I also wanted to go to school. Therefore, in the process of my growth, my sister and brother had faced difficulties again and again, but my sister took me through difficulties again and again, and never disappointed me.

I remember the first hurdle I faced was when my sister was admitted to No. 1 middle school in Y county with the third grade in the county only two months after my parents died.

No. 1 middle school is the best high school in Y County, but let's say that going to No. 1 middle school is almost entering the safe of the college entrance examination. My sister is naturally unwilling to give up the opportunity to enter No. 1 middle school, but my sister wants to go to No. 1 middle school, so what should I do if I go to grade 2 of primary school?

Hearing that my sister was admitted to No. 1 middle school with excellent results, I was not happy, but I felt very afraid.

No. 1 middle school is in the county, almost thirty miles from our home in Qingxi Town. At that time, although there was suburban traffic, there were only a few buses a day. My sister must need to live in school to go to No. 1 middle school. What should I do?

Since my parents died, my sister seemed to grow up overnight, which really confirmed the sentence "long sister is like mother". She knew my worries and fears and decided to give up the opportunity to study in No. 1 middle school.

In fact, my sister can entrust me to Uncle Zhang's family. Uncle Zhang's Zhang Ming and I are classmates, and they are willing to take care of me on behalf of my sister.

But my sister didn't entrust me to Zhang Jia, because we have a group of very top-notch relatives led by my milk. If we entrust me to Uncle Zhang's house, I'm afraid Uncle Zhang's family will never live in peace.

Just when my sister was about to give up studying in No. 1 middle school, the headmaster, who was very optimistic about my sister and cherished talents, came with my head teacher, Mr. Jin: "... Why don't you worry about entrusting Xiucheng to the school? Let Xiucheng live in Mr. Jin's house nearest to the school, and you can go to No. 1 middle school at ease."

Although I was still afraid of being separated from my sister, I also knew that I could not delay my sister's reading, so at the age of seven, I lived in Mr. Jin's house and became a bed friend with Mr. Jin's only son, brother Yunting.

Maybe I didn't adapt to the strange environment. I had a dream on my first night at Mr. Jin's house, a dream that I remember and often take out to wake myself up.

In that dream, decades later, I was actually a bully in Y County who was shot in the strike hard campaign. Not only that, I also killed my sister, because in that dream, my sister who was in poor health didn't come up and die after getting the news that I was shot.

Originally, I was so scared that I didn't know what to do, but no matter how Mr. Yun Tingge and Mr. Jin asked me, I didn't say a word, just waiting for Saturday in fear.

When Saturday came and finally saw my sister walking towards me in the afterglow, I rushed to my sister recklessly. Only holding my sister tightly and feeling the temperature and faint fragrance from my sister can comfort my frightened heart.

Although the dream never appeared again, it became a secret I couldn't talk to others and a wind vane to correct my words and deeds at any time on the road of my life.

Although the dream of being shot never appeared again, there was another dream that bothered me for many years. This dream appeared several times in my dream.

The first time I had that dream was after my sister was admitted to Q University as the top student in the college entrance examination of Y county and left home to go to school in Beijing. At that time, because brother Yunting's grandmother was in poor health and brother Yunting was facing the college entrance examination, Mr. Jin had no time to take care of me, and I happened to recognize sister Jingya's parents as adoptive father and adoptive mother, so I lived in the Lin family as an adoptive son.

The conditions of the Lin family are naturally much better than those of Mr. Jin's family. I live in a room alone. Unexpectedly, I always sleep very honestly. On the second day of seeing my sister off, I kicked the quilt and got cold, pulled, vomited and had a high fever, which made Lin's parents toss about a lot.

On the two days of high fever, the dream came unexpectedly.