Reborn In the 1990s

After returning to green city, Fang Ruixue temporarily moved back to Qingfeng garden because she suddenly began to be afraid of being alone.

She was afraid of the dark, when night fell, the lights had to be turned on, and those who were sleeping could not be turned off; the fear of sound, especially the sudden sound, even if it was only the sound of footsteps, would frighten her.

She didn't dare to stay alone. She had to sit next to LV Xiaojiang in class. After class, he will be sent to a small restaurant by LV Xiaojiang, and then nest behind the small cabinet at the cash register. His sight has been following Huang Xiaoyun.

But Huang Xiaoyun is going to night school in the evening. Sometimes Li Lanfang is busy with the factory. At this time, she can only ask Cheng Yu to pick her up.

"Isn't it annoying for me to do this?" Once again, when Cheng Yu received Fang Ruixue at the door of a small restaurant, she suddenly asked.

She has not spoken for a long time.

"No Cheng Yu resisted the excitement and leaned to fasten her seat belt. "I hope I can pick you up every day."

"Then why don't you come every day?" She asked again.

Cheng Yu thought about it and said, "because I love you so much. If I come every day, I'm afraid I can't help but steal you back to my home."

Fang Ruixue pinched the pillow in her arms, buried her face in her ears and stopped talking.

Huang Xiaoyun bought the guarantee for her, because she always liked to hold the cat at home, which seemed to have a sense of security. So Huang bought her a cat shaped pillow to hold it in a small restaurant.

When the car stopped downstairs, Cheng Yu helped Fang Ruixue unfasten her seat belt and said, "we are home."

So Fang Ruixue looked out of the window and saw a man riding a bicycle past them.

"I can't ride a bicycle yet." Fang Ruixue's voice sounds a little depressed.

"You can ride, but you're not good enough." Cheng Yu explained with a smile, "if you want to ride a bike, I can teach you."

"You can't teach." Fang Ruixue pulled the hair on the cat's ear, and then got out of the car with a pillow, "didn't you teach me before?"

Cheng Yu follows the footsteps behind her, since Fang Ruixue is ill. She had not said so much to him once in a long time.

After returning from Chu City, Fang Ruixue had a serious illness. She had a high fever in the middle of the night and began to talk nonsense. However, no one could hear her words clearly.

After two or three days of intermittent burning, the temperature finally dropped. When everyone was relieved, he found that Fang Ruixue's mental state seemed to be in trouble.

She began to fear being alone. Always have someone around you. Fear of strangers, even friendly and polite approach, will also cause her strong vigilance. She was afraid of all kinds of sounds, such as the sound of footsteps, the sound of closing the door, the sound of bells, the sound of heavy objects falling on the ground, the sound of moving the table, as long as it was slightly harsh.

Fang Ruixue also realized that she might be ill. So when Cheng Yu said that she wanted to take her to the doctor, even though she was afraid, she still went.

"Would you hate me and break up with me?" While waiting outside the clinic, Fang Ruixue leaned against Cheng Yu and asked him.

"No, I won't hate you." Cheng Yu holds her hand. Hold it all the time, until she is going to be sent into the clinic, and then reluctantly release it.

"And if I can't be cured, will you break up with me?" Fang Ruixue asked again.

When she asked this question, she stood at the door of the clinic, and the doctor was looking at her behind her.

"No. You'll get better, and we'll never part. " Cheng Yu kisses the back of her hand and says with a smile in her eyes.

But when the door closed, the smile on Cheng Yu's face suddenly disappeared. He leaned against the wall in pain, and a tear came from the corner of his eye.

On that day, Fang Ruixue was diagnosed with mild post-traumatic stress disorder. PTSD for short.

"You carry me." Fang Ruixue stood in front of the elevator and said to Cheng Yu.

This is the 60th day after her diagnosis.

Cheng Yu climbs stairs with Fang Ruixue on his back, step by step. Go up slowly.

Cheng Yu consulted a doctor about the cause of Fang Ruixue's illness. The doctor's answer was very obscure, saying only violence.

"The patient's defensive psychology is very strong, which may be related to the environment in which she grew up. She may have suffered violence from others since she was a child, and she has never escaped until she is an adult. Therefore, she has a deep fear of violence in her heart

"But I've seen her hit people." Cheng Yu refers to when in Chu City, Fang Ruixue picked up a stool and hit the driver.

"Yes, you mentioned that. So I guess this may be the cause of her illness

Inner fear of violence, but because they hit people, and induced their own heart has been suppressed hidden heart disease.

Cheng Yu never knew that his ruiruirui was so hard to walk on thin ice in this world.

In fact, Cheng Yu has always had two questions. That is, since Fang Ruixue was afraid of violence, why did she use violence against the driver at that time. What's more, according to the doctor, Fang Ruixue has been subjected to violence from others until he is an adult. However, as far as he knows, since he left Yaoxin Town, Fang Ruixue has little possibility of being subjected to violence. What time does the doctor say about the violence in adulthood?These two questions have been puzzling Cheng Yu, until 60 days later, he still did not find the answer.

"Tired?" They have climbed to the sixth floor, Cheng Yu asked Fang Ruixue lying on his back.

"Are you tired?" Fang Ruixue asked him.

Cheng Yu laughs and shakes her up: "I am not tired."

"Lying." Fang Ruixue mumbles, then reaches out to wipe Cheng Yu's forehead.

Now it's November. Cheng Yu only wears a thin suit coat, but there is a layer of sweat on his forehead.

"Let me down." Fang Ruixue patted him on the shoulder.

Cheng Yu put down Fang Ruixue on his back when he was on the seventh floor. If he could, he actually wanted to carry her on his back for the rest of his life.

"Will you sleep with me tonight?" When entering the elevator, Fang Ruixue asked.

"If you like." Cheng Yu pulls out Fang Ruixue's disordered hair in front of her forehead.

More than two months later, Fang Ruixue's hair has grown a lot and can be tied up.

Fang Ruixue needs someone to accompany her when she sleeps, otherwise she will constantly wake up from the nightmare, and then open her eyes until dawn.

When entering the door, the kitten at home has been around Cheng Yu's feet, has been "meow meow meow" call, urging Cheng Yu to shovel excrement and feed him. Fang Ruixue reaches out to catch the kitten and wants to hold him up, but the kitten doesn't get close to her and "whoosh" runs away from her.