Save Me

Save me chapter 2
“Smile, Shrielle”

After hearing what was said she gave a broad smile. She smiled trying to look as pretty as possible

“Shrielle”

A woman with a fancy dress was reflected across the mirror, She was a woman who had a hair as red as blood, She was me, but the face she was wearing didn’t belong to me
(T/n: this is saying something like although the person reflected is her the face she was making didnt feel like her)

“From the moment you step into the palace, you will become Charlotte”

Charlotte

It was the name of the real companion. With the happiest smile in the world, I was imitating Charlotte’s expression in the mirror.

It was dream

With that I opened my eyes widely

The first thing I could smell was the perfume, as usual it felt like a stab in the lungs. It was dark inside. As I laid still I could feel the pounding of my heart

Even after smelling the perfume I couldn’t bring myself to calm down. I murmured a quiet curse. I wiped the cold sweat and got rid of the after images of the nightmare in my head

It was just a memory of the past

The fate that I repeated five times, I couldn’t be stuck here. I slowly raised my upper body and started looking around

I was definitely about to go and visit the Duke Linne, but somehow, I was stuck on bed

While I was staring at the darkness with a frown on my face, I started remembering one by one.

I once again turned back on time, not long after I woke up I was called into a meeting by my mother and fell down while heading there, there was a lot of blood.

I suddenly looked down at my palm, Although it was dark I could see that my palm was clean and I was wearing new pyjamas that my maid changed me into.

When I had a nose bleed, I carelessly ignored it. But I was in worse condition than I originally thought.

Even though I didn’t do anything It was the first time I shed blood. Was it possible that every time I turned back on time one of my organs were taken away?

I slowly rubbed my stomach, I couldn’t be sure yet, I didn’t know what was wrong. It just felt as though I wasn’t as strong as usual and that I had lost a lot of my physical strength.

It would be nice if I wasn’t in a condition where I had to crawl. Living alone would be hard If I fell down after every step I took.

My throat burned as I was thinking of how to find out about my physical condition. I swallowed my dry saliva
My mouth was dry like a desert.

I reached to the table for water out of habit but the kettle had no water in it. Only a few drops that remained in the kettle fell into the glass cup, It seems the kettle had not been filled

I tried to pull the rope to call a maid, As I raised my hear up I managed to take a few breaths.

I should have been able to walk alone, I slowly got out of bed and started walking to test my physical strength

As expected, because I didn’t have enough strength my legs kept trembling. After going through several difficulties I was finally able to walk out the room with staggering steps.

The hallway was quiet late at night, there was only a Grave-like silence around. I was worried I would fall down again so I slowly held onto the wall as I walked. Only my breathing could be heard throughout the hall

As I was going down the stairs someone was coming up from the other side. The place was deadly quiet so I felt the presence right away.

After taking a few more steps I soon found out who was walking, It was my first brother, Remigio(probably said this wrong)1

Our eyes slowly met each other. I just wanted to walk by but I also didn’t want people talking behind my back So I simply bowed my head and lightly said hello

Remigio, who I thought would ignore me actually stopped walking and started talking to me.

“I heard you collapsed”

“Yes.”

“You are as pale as day” he said indifferently

He started looking me up and down

“Where are you going all alone?”

“I was going downstairs to get some water”

“You won’t ask a maid to do it but instead go down yourself? This is why people of low birth won’t change no matter how good clothes they wear or how much they educate themselves.”

As he said this Remigio gave me a cold stare, he didn’t bother hiding his contempt from his face.

It didn’t make me feel bad because he had been looking at me the same way since I entered this house.

“Either way, don’t overdo it. Tomorrow is the dah you will enter the palace, we can’t make a fuss and disgrace our family name”

Don’t over do it.

If it was me from the past, I would have thought that single sentence showed that he was worried.

“Elder brother.”

He was the first person who I sought love from, because we were family. I was a member of the Linne family just like them, so i thought they’d be happy to obey.

As a result, I pretended to be Charlotte and stood before the emperor even though I knew it was just a shortcut for death.

At the beginning it was all for the sake of the Linne family

“If you were born a woman, I wonder if you would like me more”

Working hard on empty dishes did nothing but make one drool. I asked such a question because I felt sorry for the me from the past who struggled so hard to receive love from others but was met with nothing

Remigio frowned slightly after hearing what I said,

“You must still be half asleep”

“Come to think of it, Its an useless assumption”

If he was born a girl, I wouldn’t have been adopted in the first place. We wouldn’t even have met due to the wide gap in our status.

This gruesome affair began due to the absence of a girl in Linne family in the first place.

“Don’t talk nonsense, Go back to your room”

The fact that he was born a man was the only problem, He thought with a slight irritation.

Gender was the only traitor towards the cold and arrogant Remigio, If he was born a woman he would have been assigned as the emperor’s fiancé from the get go and there would have been no place for the woman, who was supposed to have died, to appear at all.

Otherwise, if the current emperor was born as a woman instead, the old emperor’s second son, Jeremiah, would have been chosen as the fiancé.

However due to the nature of the royal family where more man are born than women, everything had already been decided since the Duke of Linne gave birth to a boy.

“Even If you collapse again, I won’t delay the time of the entrance to the palace”

“I know, I won’t bother you, so don’t pay attention to me.”

“You, now…”

“I am quite pessimistic about life, so I won’t commit suicide.”

I inadvertently corrected his concerns

Throughout all this time, I had trampled my self esteem and tamed myself to only follow them, but when facing death the story was different.

It was the day before I left for the palace, so in the fear for the possibility of unknown, he tried to keep his eyes on me. I could see with a glance that Remigio was now extremely sensitive

If I became the real fiancé and safely conceived the emperor’s child then the Linne family would gain authority within the royal family until the next emperor was chosen.

It was a temporary privilege given to the families who were able to produce a fiancee for them. Remigio was mentioned the most to be the next owner of this household and I had no doubts that he would lead the Linne family in the future.

So if things worked out well he would be the one to enjoy the Linne’s family’s golden power for the longest time.

Because I, who was considered a stain to a noble family, was gonna change my life. things would be difficult and subtle

I looked down at Remigio’s face with a grimace, this man only looked so high and noble and actually had nothing.

I always thought he was a cold person but I couldn’t hide my feelings, As I looked down at him i realised that I lived my whole life with my eyes covered with a blindfold called ‘longing’1

“If you have nothing more to say I will be on my way”

After a slight nod, I moved past him as if I never encountered him.

I was thirsty

Because I talked a lot just now I was even more thirsty, I could feel a gaze that followed me behind my back but I didn’t look back. Instead I straightened my body, I tried making my staggering steps look as normal as possible.

I didn’t want to show any of my weaknesses to him.

Even after I left Remigio’s line of sight I kept walking with my head high out of stubbornness

When I went down to the first floor and entered the empty kitchen I could finally breathe a sigh of relief. With trembling hands I found the kettle

I couldn’t drink until I found a cup. The sight of the cool water made my mouth drool. I filled the cup with as much water as I possibly could and swallowed it down in one gulp.

I felt dizzy

Was it always this hard to come down to the kitchen? I almost collapsed several times, every time I clenched my fists together with my nails digging through fist.

When I looked down at my palm I could see the nail marks left behind. It would be hard to meet a priest tomorrow since everyone was preparing for my entrance to the palace, I would have to look for one as soon as possible after that.

It didn’t matter if the priest said I couldn’t live for long, the real question was what I could do with this body. It would be difficult if the only thing I could do was to smile like a doll

I had to build up my physical strength If I wanted to keep going, I would have to avoid overworking like I did on my previous lives.

After drinking another glass of water I started heading back to my room, luckily this time I didn’t run into anyone else

Instead, my footsteps got slower and heading back to my room became harder than heading to the kitchen, Since I didn’t keep track of the time I couldn’t tell how long it took me exactly but it was probably around twice as long

I barely held onto the doorknob, all I had to do was open the door and lie down on my bed but my hands just refused to work

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As if I was in a wreck, a dizzying pain suddenly took over all my senses, after missing the doorknob I just sat on the floor.

There was no blood. But I was losing my kind. I slowly raised my head towards the door and thought to myself

There will be no more turning back after this.  So I should cherish this chance.1

The sixth life was the one where I made a new choice after my previous 5 misjudgments. Unfortunately even going around the mansion became though