Secret love becomes a marriage

Ji Zimo had the hardest time.

She thought it was the six years since she left Gu Shubai. At that time, although her feelings for him had not reached a very deep level, she was also in love with her heart. In the end, Gu Shubai was the first man she liked and fell in love with besides Li Shaoze. Especially at that time, she took off a small life with her own hands.

She really thought it was the darkest and longest period of her life.

Until later, she met Gu Shubai again, fell in love again, experienced all kinds of things, and went to separation. He was in the magic capital, announced to the world that he wanted to get married, and walked into the auditorium with a beautiful bride. She was in a foreign country, running away to fill her stomach, and living strong for her children. She felt that she was really too young at the beginning. The six years of Gray was not gray, This period of displacement, these months of time is dark, longer than any time in this life.

However, you are still young and think less. In your life, you never know when you are luckiest until the last moment. Just like this, you don't know when you are luckiest until the last moment.

After losing Xiang Beiyang, Ji Zimo knew that the longest and gloomy time was waiting for her here.

Of course, at this time, her life did not come to the end, or even just got reborn.

However, she knows that in this life, there will be no time to make her feel more gray and desperate, unless... Unless there is an accident with the liver, unless she is asked to send the white haired person to the black haired person, otherwise, this life will be the most gray, and the long time will be here, losing Xiang Beiyang.

Once upon a time, when he was by her side, he didn't realize how important he was until he lost it.

After losing him, I found that he was very important, more important than I thought.

He accompanied her through the separation from Gu Shubai. For several years in the first six years, he accompanied her through many subsequent times, when she was in pain, when she was helpless, when she... Many, many times, he accompanied her, washed her hands and made soup for her, silently teased her to smile, and told her with his heart that she was not alone, she still had him.

However, it eventually became a memory, a past. He left her, but left her for her. It's a very contradictory statement, but that's it.

But sometimes, Ji Zimo feels that he is by her side. He is still there. When she can't think of it and wants to go with him, she dreams back in the middle of the night in every painful time, and when she can't support it in the daytime, she always feels that he seems to be still by her side, accompany her, cheer her up and let her ignite her fighting spirit to live hard.

Occasionally she couldn't help shouting his name, but she couldn't get a response. Everything she saw was empty and there was no shadow of him. But Ji Zimo knew that he actually responded to her. Whenever she shouted his name and whenever she missed him, he would respond to her.

The beating heart in her chest.

That's from his response.

So, every time her heart beats, she misses him, and every time her heart beats, she responds.

……

How hard life is. As long as you live, you have to live, and it will pass. Whether it is in the passage of time, the wound healed, or never healed, but can no longer be seen, the originally exposed, bloody wound is finally buried by the dust of time, and becomes the most secret pain in the bottom of your heart.

After all, it's a past.

……

Winter goes and spring comes, spring goes and winter comes.

In the twinkling of an eye, nearly a year passed unconsciously at the fingertips.

R country, Sapporo.

Ji Zimo and Aunt Zhang take Xiaoxingan. No, no, now Xiaoxingan is no longer called Xiaoxingan, but Ji Nianbei.

Finally, after Xiang Beiyang died, Ji Zimo fulfilled his wish and named Xiao Xingan Ji Nianbei, implying that she would miss him forever.

In fact, Ji Zimo hates this name, because it feels like Xiang Beiyang will die, which indicates that he will leave the world. Otherwise, how can he miss it.

I wish I had known and thought of this.

But... It's meaningless. I didn't know and thought of it early, so

Xiang Beiyang left, and she missed him as he wished, not only her, but also Xiaoxingan. He and her, their mother and son missed him forever.

……

Ji Zimo and Aunt Zhang came out of Sapporo airport with Ji Nianbei.

Yes, they have just arrived here, not never left here. They came from Z Guojing city. The reason for coming here is to worship Beiyang.

This does not mean that Xiang Beiyang was buried in the r country, Sapporo.

His body had already been transported back to China by special plane. Ji Zimo didn't even see him for the last time and refused to give it to his family.

But this is also reasonable. She killed their proud son. They resented her. They should, or even kill her and let her pay for her life.

But in fact, they didn't even say a word to her. As for the reason, they were like Xiang Beiyang's subordinates, friends and brothers. Although they hated her, she was a person on the tip of Beiyang's heart. His heart beat in her chest. She was the continuation of his life. They wouldn't do anything to her and even took care of her.

For example, now she lives in Beijing, that is, they, and then she and Ji Nianbei passed by.

But this year, she hasn't seen them once. They take care of her and Nianbei, but they don't want to see them, just like they don't blame her, but don't let her see Xiang Beiyang, his body.

This is a kind of resentment and vent.

But Ji Zimo is also willing to accept it.

She felt bad, and they felt even worse. If this could make them feel better, she would be willing to.

This is why she brought Aunt Zhang here to worship Beiyang.

Because I couldn't see him in Beijing, I came to r country and Sapporo.

Because this is where he left and where her life was continued.

No body, no cemetery, it doesn't matter. He's in her heart.

She walked along the road they walked last year. It was good and happy to think of him.

When they came last year, it was dark. Today, they came during the day... Because no one has arranged everything properly for them, they have to come early.

When they came last year, it was snowing. Today, it was snowing too. When Ji Zimo came out of the airport, they saw heavy snow all over the sky.