Secret love becomes a marriage

Ji Zimo was stunned. When Gu Shubai's voice fell, she was stunned. For a long time, she seemed unbelievable. She murmured, "what are you talking about?"

It was very difficult to say it again, not to mention repeating it. However, she had already said it again. What's the harm of saying it again a second time. Moreover, she asked again like this, which undoubtedly gave Gu Shubai great hope.

The man's voice was deep: "it's been a long time. When I learned that you had heart disease, I was diagnosed with gastric cancer." the voice paused and then went on, "so at that time, there were many times when I wasn't around you. The business trip I said was not true, but I went to the hospital and was hospitalized."

In the past, the things that were hidden were revealed to Ji Zimo bit by bit through Gu Shubai's mouth.

Silence. After Gu Shubai's voice fell, there was endless silence. Such a situation seems to be happening all the time. It seems that there is nothing else between them except silence. The once strong love is like ashes or buried by time, Or maybe... Because of the estrangement accumulated one by one, we have to bury it?

But the love in Gu Shubai's eyes is still hot, even more intense.

……

"Silent."

Silence is OK, but at this time, the time has been too long.

Gu Shubai can't hold his breath. It's incredible. It's not Ji Zimo who can't hold his breath. It's him.

But it's true.

He opened his mouth and whispered Ji Zimo.

……

Gastric cancer?

When Gu Shubai said it for the second time, Ji Zimo heard it clearly, but he still couldn't believe it. Did he have gastric cancer, or did it hurt when she was around him? Ji Zimo hasn't had it. She doesn't know, but where will cancer be better? Probably the same as when she had a heart attack, or worse? How many times did he get sick during the period when he got gastric cancer? How many times did you hide her?

How careful is it to hide her like this? No, it should be said, how big is her heart to... Ignore it. It's clear that there are some times when I noticed something wrong with him, but I never thought about such a thing.

Everyone else knows?

"Does everyone else know?" Ji Zimo raised his eyes and looked at the handsome man in front of him. He couldn't hear his emotional voice falling gently. "Everyone else knows, doesn't it? Old five, old six, easy, deep. Everyone, except me, knows it, doesn't it?"

"Yes." Gu Shubai was surprised at Ji Zimo's question from here, but he returned.

Ji Zimo gently pulled the corners of his mouth: "they still help you hide it from me."

This sentence is affirmative.

Gu Shubai was silent.

Now that she had given a positive answer, he didn't have to answer her again.

After he waited for her, he was tall and tight. His intuition was that what he said at this time was of no use and could not help him retain her... Even push her away from him. However, those past times should be made clear bit by bit. Those past times that were concealed were too heavy and should be stripped and spread out layer by layer. In this way, Their love may be seen again.

"Gu Shubai, what am I to you?"

"Tell me, in the past years, what exactly is Ji Zimo your Gu Shubai?" Ji Zimo's voice fluctuated at this time. It was no longer as calm as before. Her voice was angry, almost sharp and harsh.

Without waiting for Gu Shubai to answer, her chest heaved and continued: "is it your lover? Is it your wife? Were we husband and wife?"

"I don't think so. You didn't treat me as a lover or wife at all. We're not husband and wife at all. We're just a pair of men and women in one bed!"

"Otherwise, how could you not tell me anything and tell me nothing?"

"Silent -"

"I know, I know what you're going to say. You're going to say it's for my good, right? You don't want to make me sad, right? But... Gu Shubai, have you thought about it! I don't know how happy I am!"

Ji Zimo's last sentence fell into his ears. Gu Shubai's tall body was stunned, and his complexion quickly turned pale. His complexion was worse than before when he was ill.

"You should be kind to me, I know, but your heart, such a good, Gu Shubai, is not what I want. This is what you blindly want to give me, not what I want. Do you understand that everything you do has no other emotions except that it will make me feel painful."

"Should husband and wife be like this? Shouldn't husband and wife share weal and woe and share life and death? Especially we didn't love each other so deeply?"

"Are you afraid that I will suffer if I know your disease? What if you can't cure your disease and you want to go? Let me know what you have experienced on the day you die? Or have you ever thought about settling me down before you die? Let me leave you, do you know how painful I will be without you? Do you think I will be happy?"

"And my disease, it's my disease, my body is sick, I'm the party, I'm the person who has the most power to know, but in the end, I'm the one who's been concealed the most. Gu Shubai, is this for me?"

"I tell you, not at all."

"I'm afraid of illness. I'm really afraid. Especially at that time, I had a little heart. If I knew I was ill, my mood would be unstable. But with you, aren't you by my side at that time? My favorite person is by my side, what else should I be afraid of? Even if death takes me away, at the last moment, I'm with my lover and I'm with him I have tried my best to resist the disease, instead of being a fool who doesn't know anything, always guessing and always suffering! "

"Gu Shubai, do you understand?"

"You said you loved me. Indeed, you did all these things from my standpoint. For my good, up to now, I can't even blame you, but... Gu Shubai, I don't care at all, because you never care about my feelings. You never know whether I want or not! These good gifts you gave, you think you hide them for my good, or not It's what I want, you don't know. "

"And now, I tell you, I don't want, all, all, not what I want."

"Also, you should hide it from me. Why not hide it to death? Why do you say it now?"