Secret love becomes a marriage

"It's just," Ji Zimo raised his hand and compared a "one". His voice was almost cruel, "only sleep one night."

"Now, the night has passed, I have slept, and it's time to go."

Ji Zimo said that he was not caught. The hand he just raised broke Gu Shubai's hand pinched on her wrist.

However, the more she broke, the man didn't loosen, but grabbed more tightly.

"Loosen."

She shouted, but the man was silent and motionless.

"Gu Shubai, I told you to loosen it."

And his appearance made Ji Zimo feel sour and angry.

"Let go. We're not children anymore. Don't make such children's awkward tricks. We can get together and disperse in the way of adults."

"Is there a good relationship between us?"

Gu Shubai looked straight at Ji Zimo.

Ji Zimo was trembled by his eyes. She moved her mouth and wanted to say something, but her voice was hoarse and couldn't spit out anything.

The man came closer and closer: "say, Ji Zimo, do we have a good relationship? We have had so many intimate times, we promised each other vows, and even there is a child between us. Ji Zimo, you say, that's it. How do you want me to get together with you, how can I get together and get together?"

"But did I betray you? Did I betray our commitment? Did I want to abandon those intimate times and go away alone? Was it me? Gu Shubai, was it me?"

Ji Zimo's suddenly raised voice pierced the silence on the surface of the ward, like the relationship between her and Gu Shubai at that time. One second they could be close together, and the next they would raise their knives to each other. At that moment of intimacy, they seemed to have nothing between them. Those scars seemed to heal and dissipate in an instant, and they were still them, They still go back to their old intimate time, just need to make a hearty love.

Their bodies are close, and their hearts are close to each other, rather than close to their bodies, but their hearts are far away. They are obviously one body and mind. When their bodies are close, their hearts are very close, and even... Their hearts are closer than their bodies. They have no distance, negative distance and integration.

But

And why.

Their intimacy is maintained on only one surface.

Just a little thing can break those intimacy?

However, there are too many things between them. What is hidden under the calm, and what is hidden under those intimacy are wounds full of holes, which have never healed, turned into pus and can no longer be healed

Like a balloon, it doesn't look fragile and beautiful, but as long as you poke it with a small needle, it will break.

Just like the mud, it looks like a normal road. You step on it with one foot. When you step on it with one foot, your body begins to sink. The mud swallows you, your chest is oppressed, your heartbeat gradually loses its normal beating frequency, your breath is plundered, and you sink into a bottomless abyss.

No matter what it is, you can never see the surface.

The surface is bright, the surface is bright, and there are thousands of wounds and holes inside.

……

Of course, it is not impossible for them to make up.

But, really, it's definitely not that a few sweet words, a kiss, a hug, or a sleep can restore the past.

They need something else.

Those things between them already exist and will not disperse, but... In fact, they can cross, but it takes two people to work hard. One person can't cross the things that lie between them, whether they exist on Gu Shubai's side or Ji Zimo's side.

……

"Sorry, sorry, it's my fault. What do you want me to do? What do you want me to do? You're willing to stay by my side and don't leave anymore."

"You tell me, you tell me, what I should do, I listen to you, what you want me to do, I promise you, please, Ji Zimo, count me, please, stay with me?"

"Or do you want me to die, Ji Zimo? Do you want me to die for you like Xiang Beiyang? You won't treat me like this. I can be with you again and you are willing to come to me."

"If I die, will you guard my grave?"

"Gu Shubai, don't talk nonsense."

"I'm not kidding you. I really can't help it."

"I really can't accept it without you. Yesterday, after you left, I thought I was going to die. No, I didn't think I was really dead. When your figure disappeared in front of me, I, Gu Shubai, was not a living person. I really meant to sleep all the time, as long as you were in my dream."

"But why do you want to appear in reality? Why do you want to leave when you appear in reality?"

"Ji Zimo, is Xiang Beiyang dead for you? I Gu Shubai is nothing in your eyes. Yes, he died for you. I can't replace him. I can't remove him from your heart anymore. Even, as you said, your heart is his now. What do you use to hold me?"

"But, Ji Zimo, don't I hurt? I hurt very much. Your heart is his heart. You have him in your heart. What about me? What should I do?"

"He is dead, but he lives in your heart."

"And I, alive, can no longer live in your heart."

"So, what's the point of living?"

"The living can't fight the dead. I won't fight. Well, he saved you with his life. I won't fight with him. I can't fight, but... Ji Zimo," Gu Shu's white eyes flushed with blood and finally slipped out along his eyes. Such a look is frightening, and no one has ever seen it. It's the extreme pain, the extreme despair, and the extreme love. He spoke, The voice was also hoarse to the extreme: "I'm going crazy with jealousy. I'm going crazy with jealousy. I want to cut open your body, take out the heart Xiang Beiyang gave you, and put my heart in it, so that your heart is still only me. From the past to the present, your heart is only mine, no Xiang Beiyang, no one else, you... Just mine."

"I don't know what other people's love is, but I, to you, want to possess it completely. You can only be mine, and I, all of me, is just, just yours."

"It was wrong to do things in the past, my fault!" Gu Shubai said, shaking his head and feeling very excited. "But can't you give me a chance? Let me, even if it is atonement, can't you? You sentenced me to death for the rest of my life? You just removed me from your life, in the life of our children?"