Secretly, Secretly; But Unable to Hide It

After returning home, Sang Zhi put on slippers and sat back to her original position.

Sang Rong and Liping were still in the living room, but they didn't talk much. One is watching TV and the other is reading a book. There is only the cheerful sound of the TV in the room, which is not much different from the atmosphere just now.

Li Ping looked up at her and asked casually: "Come back so soon?"

Sanzi took a maiden fruit from the fruit plate and stuffed it into her mouth. She reached out and took off her jacket, and said, "Sent to the gate of the community, and applaud me to let me back."

Liping nodded and didn't ask any more.

Sang Zhi biting on the fruit, her eyes turned round and round, dangling on Sang Rong and Li Ping. She felt that Duan Xu was doing quite well, and carefully said, "Parents, what do you think?"

Liping's gaze re-emerged on the TV: "What's up?"

"It's not been a few years that I haven't seen it," Sang Zhi whispered, "I've met now, and I've talked about so many things. Have you changed your attitude?"

Sang Rong laughed: "The young man is very good."

Sang Zhi quickly agreed: "Yes, people are nice."

"It's really excellent, and it's very good in all aspects. At the university, although he hadn't met a few times, he also felt that he would be able to make a difference in the future." Very kind, "For so many years, it must be uncomfortable for a person to come over like this."

Sang Zhi gave a slump to his lower lip.

Sang Rong didn't mention it, and suddenly changed the topic, and laughed: "I heard your mother say that the first time you saw Duan Xuan, you cried in front of people, and did not hurt."

Li Ping also laughed: "I thought I was crying because I was crying, but I ended up having trouble with Ayan."

Speaking of them like this, Sangzhi also felt frustrated: "I am not young then."

"I always think about the past. When you were young, your health was not good." Sang Rong put down the book in her hand, as if recalling, "Three days and two ends, it was either allergies or fever. I told Your mother ran to the hospital every day to see that you have been crying, and then you have no energy to cry. "

Liping also turned off the TV.

"We were uncomfortable looking at it, but there was no other way. Your brother was young at the time and didn't welcome your presence. After we felt you, we didn't care much about him." Sang Rong said and said again Laughed, "I still wrote in the weekly book, I would rather have a dog at home than want this sister."

Sangzhi was upset instantly.

Without waiting for her to speak, Sang Rong said, "But when you were hospitalized, he couldn't see you, and he came to us every day. He lied to him that he had lost you and made him cry on the spot."

"..." Sang Zhi licked his lips. "Why did you say this suddenly?"

"It's interesting to think about it, it feels like what happened yesterday." Sang Rong said, "As a result, you and your brother are almost getting married."

Sang Zhi embarrassed, "I'm still early."

Sang Rong sighed lightly: "Only, my father is not an authoritarian person. He will not be considered superior because of the conditions in our family. Nor does it mean that no one is worthy of my daughter, whether it is Whoever wants to be with you will certainly be able to pick out bad things. "

"..."

"It's not that we can't just suffer." Sang Rong said, "It's just that I'm not willing to make you suffer at all. I'm afraid that you will not be able to live well in the future. I have such worries all the time."

A childish throat stunned.

"I'm just an ordinary person. I have the same thoughts as all the fathers in the world." Sang Rong said, "I hope my child will have a smooth life and a happy life."

Sang Zhi whispered, "I know."

"I wanted to hide from you, but I was afraid that if you knew it later, you would be unhappy and blame us." Sang Rong took off his glasses and murmured, "Today, Dad said something to praise."

"..." Sang Zhi froze, her lips opened subconsciously.

"I told him everything I was worried about, and I thought I should say it. Maybe these words, to a certain extent, will hurt him. But he should also seriously consider your future "Sang Rong said," You may think that it is just a love relationship, and you don't need to think about it for the time being. But if it is not appropriate, my father thinks-"

"..."

"You'd better break early."

As the words fell, the room fell into silence.

Sang Zhi suddenly understood what they meant.

It may be because of concerns about her emotions, they have never said clearly, just said they do not agree, but they will not block. But what they really hope is that she and Duan Xuanxuan will end there.

After a long while.

Sang Zhi said, "I just can't suffer at all."

"..."

"I feel unhappy when I get scolded, I don't feel happy when I can't eat what I want, and I don't want to do something I don't like, and I must do." The voice was very light. "So, it was because I was very happy with him and I didn't feel any hardships, so I always said these things in front of you."

Li Ping touched her head and did not speak.

"I'm still in college, I'm not talking about dating, I'm going to get married or something right away," said Sang Zhi. "I still can take him back to show you so often, so that you know what kind of person he is . "

Sang Rong looked at her and hummed seriously.

"I didn't ask you to accept him immediately, and immediately liked him very much." Sangzhi exhaled, "I just want you, don't pay too much attention to his family's affairs, because this is not his choice."

"..."

"In other respects, it doesn't matter what your opinions are," said Sang Zhi, "as long as you are fair to him."

The conversation between the three was interrupted by Sang Yan's arrival.

Sangzhi felt a little blocked and returned to the room. She was sitting on the bed, sulking, thinking of the response just approved by Duan, her thoughts were chaotic, and she thought of a lot of things.

For a long while, Sang Zhi sucked her nose and called Duan Jiaxu.

The end was immediately picked up, and his tone was the same as usual: "What's wrong?"

Sang Zhi picked up the pillow on the bed and tucked it into her arms. She lowered her eyes and stared at a point in the void, without knowing what to say for a moment, without a word of silence.

"Why don't you speak?" Duan Xia's voice was diffused. "I accidentally caught it?"

Sang Zhi then said: "No."

Duan Jiaxu did not continue to ask, chuckled, and mentioned other things: "Your tutor has earned a lot, this red envelope is like a brick."

"How can it be so exaggerated."

"I'll give you one next time," Duan Jiaxuan said. "I didn't notice. Forget that we are only of this age, we can still receive red packets."

Sang Zhi has no mood to joke with him. Listening to his tone, the mood was even more inexplicable. She didn't hesitate and asked, "Did my dad tell you something today?"

The phone is quiet for a few seconds.

Soon, Duan Jiaxu said, "It's nothing."

"My dad told me." Sang Zhi didn't know what Sang Rong said, and he only uttered a sentence for a long time, "You don't feel unhappy."

"What do you think? Why are you unhappy?" Duan Jiaxu said. "I didn't say anything bad. Your parents are very nice, but they only raised some concerns with me."

Sang Zhi whispered, "What did they say?"

"It seems to be, I think I'm too old, you take it out to shame."

"..." Fangzhi frowned. "Can you be serious, I'm asking you very seriously."

"The uncle and aunt said so much to me one night," Duan Jiaxu laughed. "I don't know what you're asking?"

This is obviously what I did not intend to say.

He didn't want to say that Sangzhi didn't follow up.

Her mood was a little low, and she said incoherently: "Anyway, don't be unhappy. My parents are mainly treating me as a child, afraid that I will meet bad people, just like my brother ... Change them Those who do n’t know will probably say more. And what they say does not represent my thoughts. "

Duan Jiaxu: "Yes."

"Also, your father's affairs, even if others say it, really have nothing to do with you, you don't care." Sang Zhi will not comfort people, but can only say what he wants to say, "I Will talk to them again ... "

"I know." Duan Jiaxu said, "Don't mention it to them. Rarely take a vacation and get along well with your parents. Don't affect your mood because of this."

"..."

"Don't worry," Duan Xia's voice became very light, as if whispering, "I think about it again."

Sang Zhi was hesitant, and was about to ask him what time he was thinking, when the door was knocked suddenly, and Sang Yan's voice came: "Mom cooked the soup, let you go out and drink."

She raised her eyes and subconsciously answered, "OK."

Duan Jiaxu obviously heard: "Go and drink, don't let them wait."

Sang Zhi was silent, and didn't know how to ask what had just happened, but he said it again, "Then don't be unhappy."

It's been a while since Sang Zhi drank the soup and returned after washing. She flipped back out of her phone and opened WeChat. After hesitating for a long time, I entered the sentence in the chat window with Duan Xu: [You just said to think about it, what are you thinking about? 】

Stopped on this interface for a while.

Sang Zhi silently deleted all the words and changed them to two words: [Good night. 】

She turned off the light and lay on the bed, the words kept echoing in her mind.

I think about it again.

think about it.

consider.

Sang Rong and Duan Xuxue both said that they raised some concerns.

What are you worrying about?

Question of age, or is it a matter of his father?

But neither of these can be changed. Then there are only the economic conditions that Duan appreciated.

But he is not poor either.

That is, he may not be able to afford a house for the time being, but he will work hard for a few years and then work with her.

So Duan Xie was thinking about what.

Can't always be ...

Sang Zhi forcibly withdrew his thoughts about to come out.

Staring blankly at the ceiling, childish eyes were astringent, and suddenly felt a little breathless. She sat up, a mist of water floated in front of her eyes, and was forcibly returned by her.

At this moment, all firmness and unconcession become unclear.

In fact, Sang Zhi feels that one day, parents will definitely change their minds. In a short time, she would be distressed because she didn't know what to do, but she was not worried about what they didn't support.

But she was a little scared, Duan praised the idea.

Sang Zhi is very clear that he is very concerned about this matter.

So on the first day together, I mentioned this to her and would care if she minded it. Even if he knew it well, it had nothing to do with him.

But still feel humble for this.

The very deep-rooted idea was the fact that he couldn't change anything.

Sang Zhi would worry, because if Sang Rong and Li Ping said tonight, would he really feel that he was not good enough.

Is it because she is starting to get stressed.

Will he make concessions because of gratitude to Sang Rong and their opposition?

Will you really not plan to be with her again?

Will you really give up.

Mulberry pressed her lips hard. Holding back her throat, she picked up her cell phone again, and wanted to say something to him, to make him not sad, and don't care too much about it.

Don't start thinking about what he said, think about it again.

At this moment, Sang Zhi felt powerless and weak to the extreme.

Sang Zhi feels that he can be good to him all his life, and hopes that he will no longer be unhappy because of the past and will not be hurt by it.

But he seemed to be hurt again because of her.

She slowly put down her phone.

Sang Zhi's thoughts were empty, and suddenly remembered.

Downstairs in the community where Duan Xuan lived before, she was very careful, and she expressed her thoughts in a serious manner. His eyes were stained, and he reached out and hugged her, kissing her forehead.

Then he said sloppily, "Well, I like you too."

The next morning, Sang Zhi was pulled away by relatives early in the morning. Noting that her mind was not here, Li Ping did not force her and found a reason for her to go back.

After coming out of a relative's house, Sang Zhi went to find Duan Xuan.

Because he was going to work on the seventh day of the new year, he didn't plan to stay long, and the ticket he had previously booked returned to Yihe tonight.

Duan praised his business as usual, and it seemed that he had not been affected.

Sang Zhi emphasized a few more words to him so that he should not be unhappy. He put on a funny look and said, "How can you be like a kid?"

Before boarding the plane, Duan Jiaxu thought about it and calmed her a few words, and then said, "I'll spend the whole year here, play for a while, and then return to school."

Sang Zhi nodded absently: "Yes."

"It's going to take me a few months," Duan Xu said playfully. "But don't cry because of homesickness."

Sangzhi stared at him, his lips moved, and wanted to ask something, afraid of getting bad answers. She was silent, but nodded again.

Sang Zhi didn't know what he was worried about, but he didn't dare to ask what he was thinking about. She was extremely vigilant and felt that she would stay that way as long as she didn't ask.

She felt like she had become a pessimist.

Think of nothing but the bad side.

But thinking too much, Sang Zhi will feel that he is scaring himself.

If Duan Xu really thinks that way, he certainly won't have that attitude now.

Sometimes, many ideas are changed because of some normal little things. After Duan Jiaxu returned to Yihe, he became very busy, and his contact with Sangzhi gradually decreased.

This is actually a normal thing in normal times.

Not only refers to the years later, the previous paragraphs of praise also often have to work overtime, always busy. Sometimes she came to him, he didn't reply immediately, and Sanzhi didn't care too much.

But during this time, Sang Zhi always thought of his phrase, "Let me think about it again." All emotions are constantly backlogged, like a balloon filled with gas, which will explode the next moment.

Combine that with his behavior.

Sangzhi would think if he was hiding from her.

Will it really be considered.

Do you want to separate.

That night, Sangzhi slept extremely restlessly.

She had a night dream.

Dreamed that Jiang Ying appeared in front of her again, and said to her, "Do you really want to divide? It doesn't matter, Duan Jiaxuan will not be too sad, he will think that you can find a better one."

Dreaming that she did not go into the kitchen to help Li Ping that day, and then saw Duan Jiaxu's smile froze immediately after hearing Sang Rong's words.

Dreaming of Duan Xuan said with a mockery: "I'm afraid you mind."

He dreamed and said with a smile, "I think, your parents are good people. They helped me that way, I can't be sorry for them."

All the pictures are interlaced and they appear real in this illusion. In the end, Sang Zhimeng didn't accept the red envelope that she sent that night, and whispered, "Otherwise."

The next moment, Sang Zhi opened his eyes and woke up.

Sang Zhi covered her heart, her head was still blank, and she felt confused after the dream. She couldn't remember the dream she had just dreamed for a while, she couldn't remember it.

After a long while.

A great sense of emptiness occupied her whole person. Sang Zhi grabbed the quilt, and suddenly began to cry, and there was an uncontrollable sob in her throat. Fearing that Sang Rong and Li Ping would be noisy next door, she could only endure with all her might.

Sang Zhi picked up her cell phone and wanted to make a call to Duan Xu.

Noticing the time, her motion stopped, with a very blurred field of vision, watching the screen gradually go out.

I do not know how long it has been.

Sang Zhi decided to wipe away her tears, lit her cell phone again, and booked a recent flight back to Yihe.

Sang Zhi can only book a plane at ten o'clock the next night. After waking up, she told her parents that there was a temporary incident at the school, so she planned to go back in advance.

After having lunch, San Zhi started packing, and when she saw the milk bottle on the window sill, her eyes stopped and she walked over to pick it up.

She poured out the stars inside.

Until now, Sang Zhi still remembers which brother star paper he used, wrote down his original mood, and put it in the bottle.

Sang Zhi reached out and took two stars of the same color inside, and put them in his pocket.

At about the same time, Sang Rong drove her to the airport.

Sang Zhi passed the security check by himself and waited in the departure hall, hesitant to send a WeChat to Duan Xuan, but did not receive a response after waiting for a while.

She pursed her lips and still didn't tell him that she was going back to Yihe now.

Get on the plane and sit in the aisle.

Sang Zhi fastened her seat belt. At this moment, she suddenly remembered that when she was a freshman in high school, she secretly ran to Yihe to find him. It is also the same as now.

The better positions have basically been picked.

It was not the first time she had flown, but the first time she had gone so far alone.

Pretending that you are not afraid of anything, pretending not to feel uneasy, pretending to be extremely brave, and not getting any results.

Just go and see him.

Sang Zhi put her hand in her pocket and touched the two stars that she had just put in. Her palms collapsed, and they quickly loosened, as if something had been decided.

Three hours later, San Zhi got off the plane. She took out her mobile phone, switched it on, dragged her suitcase, and walked towards the exit.

Mulberry picked it up.

"Just, I just heard your brother say, are you going back to school today?" Duan Xiaoxuan's voice came from the earpiece. "Don't you come back on Saturday?"

Sang Zhi whispered, "Well."

"Here?" Duan Jiaxu paused. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"I want to tell you." Sanji's voice was dull, "but you ignored me."

"It's a bit of an issue this time. I didn't look at my cell phone very much, didn't I ignore you," Duan Jiaxu said.

"The chair next to exit t3."

"Um." Duan Jiaxu coaxed softly, "wait there obediently."

Sang Zhi sat in position and took the two stars out of her pocket. She rubbed her eyes and thought extremely firmly that she would not cry this time.

About five or six minutes later, Sang Zhi saw Duan Jiaxu rushing over.

Duan Jiaxu stepped in front of Sang Zhi, took off her overcoat and wrapped it on her: "Having been in Nanwu for a long time, I do n’t know the temperature in Yihe?

Sangzhi stared at him.

Duan Jiax raised an eyebrow: "What's wrong?"

Sangzhi lowered her head and handed him the paper stars in it.

Seeing this, Duan Jiaxu took over: "What is this?"

What she always wanted to hide.

Things he didn't want to let him know in this life.

In her opinion, she was extremely embarrassed, like a defeat.

In this relationship, naive inferiority. She felt unequal, so she wanted everyone to feel that Duan Jiaxu was the one who was more engaged in feelings.

She wanted him to think so too.

She hoped that he could never leave her.

"Do you remember the time I came to Yihe when I was a freshman?" Sang Zhi raised her eyes again and said seriously, "I said the time I came to find someone online."

"Well, why did you suddenly mention this?"

"I actually didn't come to find someone online."

"..."

"I don't have any online dating partners." In fact, Sang Zhi didn't want to cry at all. She felt that crying was too embarrassing, but she choked up inexplicably. "I came to you at that time."

As if she didn't understand her, Duan Jiaxu squatted in front of her: "What?"

"I heard my brother say that you talked about your girlfriend." Sang Zhi didn't dare to look at him and finished speaking in a crying voice. "I stole my ID card and bought an air ticket."

"..."

"I'm not. I didn't like you until after I came to Yihe." Sang Zhi wiped her tears with her back, and some couldn't say, "I lied to you, I'm afraid you think I ..."

I told you all.

I told you everything.

In this case, can you know that you are good.

Can you just because I like you so much, don't be shaken by anyone's words, don't feel bad, and stay with me forever.

I like you, I like you very much.

It lasted for nearly seven years.

From a young age to the present and even her entire future.

Sang Zhi was absolutely certain that he couldn't be like this and liked someone so much.

Duan Jiaxu felt very helpless for the first time.

Have no idea how to react.

His throat knot slipped up and down and suddenly understood something. He lowered his eyes, slowly opened the two stars inside, and saw the handwriting left on it.

Immature and astringent.

—— "Although I don't want to admit it, I seem to really like someone. 2009.11.05"

—— "His name is Duan, Jiao, xǔ. 2009.11.05"

Do you believe?

Before you know which word your name corresponds to.

I just like you.