Seirei no Moribito

A girl who likes things and is weird. That was the impression Lynn had on her.

A girl who was only occasionally bumped into each other turned into a witness who had to be erased, and a student who helped her escape,

"... really, you're weird"

"Huh?... yeah, I guess?

Now Lynn and the girl were lurking in the corner of the "Wangdu First Educator Gate High Department" school building.

Lynn wore the uniform she had borrowed from her purchasing and was able to disguise herself as just a student if only she looked, but from Rose's and Schneidel's words, Lynn, who knew she was the “chairman” who used to belong here, of course, decided that it was dangerous for Lynn to evacuate to the training ground just like the rest of the students, even though the girl she thinly accounted for but had not yet had a definitive conversation.

In order to escape the eyes of the instructor who searches for students who have popped up on their own or who have not yet been evacuated, the two of them are now hiding in a warehouse that is turned into a tool storage area for the training ground, a place chosen by the girl as a hiding place.

Hiding the signs with a "magic trick” that made it harder to feel the signs, nevertheless being careful and aiming for the moment when the instructor's mind was relaxed, the two jumped into the warehouse, making as many gaps as they could hide by shifting the placement of the tools in grandeur for good things, just in case, fixing the placement back to a form close to the original, then killing the signs and just sitting still.

Still, the girl replied strangely to the leaked phosphorus grunt,

"... Well, usually I don't help a fugitive. I hope you're the only one who thinks it's an exception. Me, too, because I haven't sinned so many times... this isn't the first time!

"... Still, it would be unusual for the average person to do that once. Rather than weird, are you crazy?

"I would like to think that... no. I don't wonder why I'm doing this."

Sighing, Lynn skews her face in a frightened breeze at the girl squatting with her knees.

Silence also descends between Lynn and the girl, just the first time they meet each other, as only the swallowing, non-nervous talk of the students heard from the other side that separated the walls.

Two people who knew nothing about each other and continued to pretend they didn't know, that's how they just waited for the noise to quiet down.

"... strange,"

But you couldn't stand the silence, or the girl opened her mouth again as if talking to herself,

"... you wanted to know... why not? This is how we actually met and talked, and I can't remember at all. It feels nostalgic, it fits me well before... and I don't feel anything at all..."

It's unrealistic.

When that scares the girl, she shivers her body,

"... hey, can I talk to you... ok?

"... you just have to be on your own"

"... then let me take it personally"

With some reassuring grin on Lynn's attitude that seemed uninteresting, the girl began to speak quietly.

"... Irene, who was the" chairman "of this institution... I was looking for him. It's me... I don't remember anything from the incident where the Guardian attacked me. I have no idea what caused it, but... I know someone who might be involved in that amnesia, and... I've been looking into it."

……

"... to a man named Irene who was famous for his institution, there was a girl beside him who wouldn't refuse him. The kid was from the same hometown, childhood friendly... for once, he was close. 'Cause he said the chairman was a man of strength everyone would admit, but at the same time he was releasing an atmosphere that was hard to get close to"

The girl smiling bitterly, but smiling,

"... childhood tampering that the chairman couldn't even cut off if he wanted to. That was me. That said, I don't remember that at all, and I couldn't even remember the fragments of my memory when I looked into them, so I thought I was a little over-conscious. But..."

Straight, gazing at phosphorus with no cloudiness whatsoever.

- I met with you and I knew I was right.

That's something I can tell even if I don't have negative feelings like the darkness Lynn has.

"I don't remember, I can't remember... but it's strange... this is how I feel like I've been beside you the whole time. Maybe it's my fault, and in the end, there's no basis for this... I want to believe it. Even if it was a coincidence, I was... trying to help him, even at my own expense."

It was a terribly dazzling emotion, taking it to Lynn, who had nothing but hatred and willingness to kill.

off her face to escape from her gaze,

"... it would be just a hypothesis"

"Yeah. Unless I remember, that's just an event that might have happened all along. So... you don't have to remember it all, just some of it. Nothing has changed between me in the past and me in the present... I need proof that I have chosen the right path.... and I want to know the truth"

"... even if there's no way to know?

"... right. Maybe I can't know the truth forever anymore... yes, maybe, with all that ambiguity and uncertainty... but I don't want to give up. Whether you're waiting or a hard reality... even if you weren't happier to know... because I want to choose my own path"

On its side, which I unequivocally affirm with my uncanny eyes, Lynn saw the face of a girl laughing in her memory.

In the end, even though I knew it was all just a matter of uncertainty, I could understand that Lynn was the one who wanted to see the possibilities.

"... I gave up from the beginning"

Lynn was inadvertently squealing words at her for not even being a lie.

Despite the encounter she would soon forget anyway, Lynn had a masochistic grin that maybe that's why she wanted someone to ask,

"You forgot it all, all I had left was hate from the start. Everyone around them wanted to use me, and I was trying to use myself like that. I couldn't do that... because I knew deep down that there was no place else in the world where I was still."

"... so you gave up?

"... no. You're right that it doesn't matter if you give up. I don't remember one thing about her, but in the mundane moment, trivial tricks and words come back to life... and I'm attacked by a sense of loss. Emotions gushed with no place to go... and I couldn't hold it back and hit around, but I was fighting it at first"

unusual hatred and intense sense of loss. All the knights around them are Lynn's enemies. If they persist in asking about the incident even though they don't remember anything, they will look down with contempt as if they were dealing with even swelling. They will explode with trivial words and actions without being able to control their emotions, and each time they will attack their surroundings without being able to contain themselves.

It's been like that for a few days now since Lynn woke up.

Emotional unstable and aggressive. And when he is seized as if he were a child, he shall be stopped by the knight, and it shall be a spark again, and it shall be a greater noise. Again and again, they are forced to pass out, but they are asked about the situation, and again when they rumble out, they are repeatedly passed out.

That stopped shortly after Lynn found out she really didn't remember anything and the person in charge of hearing the circumstances replaced Schneidel.

If you don't know, until you tell me and remind me.

Schneidel and the deputy who was following along with those words told Lynn who she was and what the raid was, where Lynn found out she had someone important to her too.

And even if the girl is losing her memory and doesn't even remember her family and friends.

At that moment, Lynn's thinking stopped.

I don't know why. The guilt and relief made my chest bitter even though I don't remember anything, and at the same time hatred and willingness to kill dominated my head, realizing it was all for me, and broke.

If Lynn knows she's nowhere else and she'll forget about herself and live happily ever after, that's fine. That's all I've ever wanted, and other than that, I didn't even care about myself.

Lynn, who realized so naturally, laughed out loud that she couldn't help but laugh at how she hadn't noticed.

Suddenly Lin laughed and Schneidel and the others became more alert to whether she had a broken head, but Lin just laughed and did nothing.

Nothing was done, and since then, there has been no dew of emotion, no show of interest or interest as if he were alive with inertia. He had the same hatred and willingness to kill, and basically spent his days apathetically if not even stimulated by his opponent, and Schneidel threw a spoon at Lynn like that.

Until then, when it's worth using, the more you choose the means to keep the phosphorus underground.

That's how Lynn came to the underground world. To a place where only resentment and mourning curse the world.

Lynn's previously unknown girl tilts her neck as if to encourage Lynn to continue looking back at the past with a distant eye.

"... the opposite of you. I regretted not knowing the truth after knowing it. If I'd known such a cruel reality, I'd still be better off brainwashed and turned into a puppet."

"... So, you gave up?

"... oh. Though I don't remember, such a reality is what I caused. I deserved it... it got ridiculous to fight it. In the end, I chose that path myself. Whatever the outcome, if I don't have the power to change it now... if she's happy, I don't even care what happens now. I don't have a girlfriend I know... that's what made me who I am."

The only thing Lynn knows about her is that her name and she were irrevocably important to Lynn.

I don't even know minor memories of anything else. But there was only one important cut.

Whether you have a contradiction, or you're going crazy about hatred,

"... maybe it's okay for them to catch me."

What I wanted to get out of here was probably a small return of interest to them. If you really wanted to plunge them, you would have wreaked more massive confusion by turning Harnoyn around.

Because Lynn's hatred is unconvincing if she doesn't.

Exhaling small, Lynn slightly raised her mouth angle and turned her gaze towards the girl.

frowning, and to her with a sad, troubled, complex look, Lynn said,

"... out of the blue, maybe we're like each other."

She wanted to know the truth, and he was desperate to know the truth.

He gave up everything, and she scratches her feet if she doesn't want to.

The two conflicting men would have interacted if a slightly different future had come.

The girl nodded to Lynn, who described it as being similar to each other.

Nod, the conversation breaks again.

When was it cloudy, if phosphorus felt the darkness and looked up out the window, it was pouring pounding and raining,

"... Still"

If you recognize it, the sound of rain occupies your hearing as soon as possible, and the little voice of the girl sounds as you enter through that gap.

"... I knew I wanted to know the truth. Just be protected... because I'm sad to be told a gentle lie"

We keep pretending we don't know each other, knowing each other's names, reaching out and paying for the truth in front of us.

The girl glanced at the sword in her hand,

"... I'm sorry"

Lynn tows before she tries to talk about anything decisive.

"... I'm not going to tell you the truth. Me and you, we're just red people we know. analogy -"

Light plunges into the warehouse only for a moment, thundering.

Lin's voice was heard only by the girl beside her, and the girl whispered in the end,

"... well"

Sadly, but laughing with the utmost grin.

Even though it's not distorted and hidden, I desperately try to hide it and look good.

- Well, goodbye.

Still, the disappointment that I couldn't hide turned into a grain of tears.

Since when have I been so timid?

Lynn, who entered the room she had taken in the inn and placed her sword and hat on her desk, lay on her cot.

The innkeeper was suspicious of him for not being able to grasp his identity, but he said that if he gave him gold coins as well as a stopping fee, he could pull it down lightly and stay as long as he wasn't a criminal.

It was Lynn who, as the word goes, paid for two weeks in advance and managed to secure a place where she could hide herself, but her heart is more and more cloudy on her back.

After that, Lynn, who found out the Knights had moved their search place outside the city, broke up with a girl who only kept smiling and rolled out to the city again.

The girl gave me a large sum of money for the student to have, worried but received it as a sort, and by night after purchasing clothes and swords I searched for a place to hide for the moment.

Lynn stared at the ceiling with frustration at her chest pain, which for some reason had never healed.

"... Was it me who feared the truth"

There was an answer, and I have a masochistic grin.

Lynn - Eileen. That's who Lynn is, making him a former "wind discipline commissioner" and chairman of the agency.

A man who hated the Knights of the King's Capital, who had his parents killed by "protectors," and who had killed such parents, and lived only to avenge them.

But the only thing he couldn't get rid of when he tried to throw everything away.

That's a girl named Emilia Shenty - the identity of a girl who likes things that Lynn meets.

A girl who pretends to be ignorant yet bright, healthy, and bottomless.

The girl's presence was holding Eileen back as a person.

That's why Eileen broke down after losing her.

Desperate for everything, still only hatred and vengeance cannot be abandoned, he speaks of giving up but resists, and he expresses in his attitude that it doesn't matter anymore.

You lose the meaning of living, and you can't even find a reason to die,

"... no"

Found a reason not to kill herself before, Lynn laughs, hiding her face with her arms.

"I didn't want to live, I didn't die. I'm sure that was the last thing she wished for. Otherwise, there's still no point in me being alive."

Revenge, which could not be abandoned until the end, also does not already exist in Lynn.

All there is is is excessive hatred.

There is no thirst for life, no end to death, and like a child, you can only keep yourself by just having eclampsia and squeezing waste.

Otherwise, because Lynn doesn't know how to keep her being.

"... I didn't want to know. Such a reality."

Just as Lynn now knew the truth and despaired, so did Lynn in the past.

Desperate, you must have cried out that you didn't want to know the same.

I was wondering if there was still salvation if you didn't know.

However,

"... if I didn't know, I'd always remain someone's puppet. I don't like that..."

Even the tools and the fruitful phosphorus still held their minds together as people.

That's why he chose the path of revenge.

Leave only the negative chain of hatred, the intention to kill and curse everything and the presence of a girl trying to stop him.

But unlike past phosphorus, current phosphorus doesn't have the power to make it anymore.

Even if you want revenge, you have no power, and if you want to fight it, your sense of loss takes your temper away.

I don't want to live, but I can't die. stranded in a darkness full of contradictions and with no escape route,

"... what am I supposed to do now..."

- Even if you and I were important to each other.

I realized that the word of rejection I told the girl was one that was also directed at Lynn.

Still, I had no hope of overturning it on the girl then.

Painful of her own helplessness in a life and future where there is no salvation anywhere, the girl weeps, and likewise Lynn, an emotion that she could not afford, wets her cheeks.

Turn only your ears away from the voice of your heart asking for help.