So You’re Secretly Jealous Again

"So nervous and thinking about doing so much, isn't it just meeting someone?" Shu Jinshi lowered his head and took a bite of toast, so that people couldn't tell what the expression was.

She acted very light-hearted, even when in fact she wasn't like that at all.

It's hard to describe what it feels like at the moment. It's like being locked in a cramped elevator with a lot of people at the same time, crowded and narrow, and competing for the already scarce oxygen resources.

Anyway, as soon as she heard that senior, her mood instantly became bad.

Xu Fengyi only thought that Shu Jinshi was simply complaining, and nodded along with her words: "Also..."

But she would be nervous, and not without reason.

After all, that senior has always been an idol in her life since she started studying.

The reason is simple.

That senpai is an action school who works hard no matter what she does.

The senior sister's name is Chen Siqi. She is diligent and serious, beautiful and self-disciplined, and has achieved some small achievements during her school days.

While everyone was still worried about what to do in the future and whether they could break the curse of "graduation is unemployment", many companies outside offered her an olive branch.

Probably in Xu Fengyi's sophomore year.

Because of his outstanding and dazzling relationship, Chen Siqi stepped out of the school gate and stepped into the society, and was invited back by the school to give a lecture on entrepreneurship and self.

At that time, Chen Siqi was wearing a straight small suit with a high ponytail. Standing on the podium, he pointed to the slideshow behind him and told everyone his story and ideas. He was full of energy and high spirits throughout the whole process, like a future entrepreneur, shining brightly.

At that time, Xu Fengyi was still a person whose future plans were like a mess, he was confused about the future, and was deeply anxious and unable to extricate himself.

Therefore, the arrival of Chen Siqi was like a guiding light for Zhengchou who didn't know what to do.

Under Chen Siqi's self-confidence and publicity, Xu Fengyi's eyes were naturally caught.

After class, when everyone left the table, Xu Fengyi hardly hesitated or paused, stood up and rushed out of the crowd holding a small notebook, stood in front of Chen Siqi, and said loudly, "Sister, you Well, my name is Xu Fengyi, and I want to be like you in the future."

Then……

To this day, Xu Fengyi still remembers all the details of that scene.

Chen Siqi raised his hand and put it on her shoulder: "You are the first one who dares to rush up to me and say this to me. You can definitely do it."

After that, they went out for dinner together.

Yes, no one else has this treatment, but Xu Fengyi is fishing, not to mention how exciting.

It was this meal that allowed them to exchange WeChat and brought them closer. In addition, Xu Fengyi at that time was quite in love and asked her for advice. In the long run, Xu Fengyi regarded her as her elder sister, and she regarded Xu Fengyi as her younger sister. .

It's just that after graduation, the two have been separated from each other, the span is far, and they have never seen each other again. They only chat occasionally on WeChat, but not much.

In addition, it is good to send messages to each other to ask each other during the festival.

As a person Xu Fengyi respects very much in his life, Chen Siqi has not seen each other for a long time, and it is impossible to meet again without being excited or playing drums.

Because Xu Fengyi and Shu Jinshi were both thinking about something, no one spoke, and there was nothing in the air except for the sound of chewing food and the sound of tableware colliding, and it suddenly became quiet, even the sound of breathing was extraordinarily quiet. obvious.

Shu Jinshi couldn't stand this feeling very much, so he broke the silence first: "Then will you come back then?"

"Huh?" Xu Fengyi woke up like a dream, pulled away from the memory of the blockbuster, and turned to look at her.

Shu Jinshi picked up and brushed his hair back, changed his sitting position, and ate the last bite of the salty, tender and smooth thick egg burnt: "I mean, don't you want to play with her on Saturday, Sunday, and two days? , do you want to come back to stay at night?"

Xu Fengyi shrugged: "I'll be back, she didn't let me stay in the hotel with her."

Because she didn't let her stay in the hotel, so she will come back?

Then, from another perspective, can this sentence also be understood as, as long as the senior sister asks her to go to a hotel outside, she will go?

Shu Jinshi wanted to ask this question, but he managed to control it.

His eyes sank, Shu Jinshi laughed at himself and just wanted to shake his head.

Interesting, why didn't she realize that she could pick words so well before? Real cow.

Swallowing those messy thoughts, Shu Jinshi looked down at her round and smooth trimmed fingers, raised her eyebrows and inhaled, relaxed her chest, put a smile on her face again, and tried to make herself look more natural: "Then you have already thought about what you want to do. How did you play with her?"

Xu Fengyi nodded, raised her chin lightly with one hand, and thought, "I think about it."

"On the first day..."

"I'm going to take her to the Congee Congee Shop for a meal first. She likes to drink congee, that shop feels pretty good, and the Luwei Platter is also a highlight. Hey, I suddenly found that I haven't eaten that for a long time. I feel greedy just thinking about it. She likes to drink porridge, and I like to eat luwei, just right."

"Then, let's take her to the pedestrian street. Although it doesn't mean much, but after all, it is located in the center of a city. Even if it is a process, of course, you still have to understand it. Besides, what I think is boring, does not mean People also think it's boring."

"After that, I might take her to the Yucheng Twin Star Tower at night. I haven't been there yet. I heard that it can overlook the whole Yucheng and have a panoramic view of the night view of Yucheng. Well, I still have a good view of that place. Looking forward to it."

"After reading the tower, I plan to take her on a night tour 888 around the city for half a circle, and then make a string on Nan'an Street. Well...that's about it, I think it should be quite appropriate, right? As for Where to go the next day...I'm still thinking about it, I'll talk about it when the time comes."

Shu Jinshi nodded, still smiling.

OK, the travel items are quite rich, and it seems to be very attentive.

Not to mention, she has never played many projects here.

Yes, in fact, she is quite homely. The relaxation activities after work, that is, going to various restaurants to eat and eat in various ways.

Besides, she didn't bother to experience it.

Who knows, she is such a lazy person, completely different from her mother.

However, who knows, when she heard that Xu Fengyi was going to take senior sister to play, she, a person who had no interest in those mentally handicapped projects, felt a vague jealousy.

To tell the truth, she felt very inexplicable and neurotic.

Xu Fengyi didn't know what the always smiling person beside her was thinking, she just smiled at her and continued to eat breakfast.

Then, as she finished eating the rocky toast, her phone vibrated.

Xu Fengyi picked it up and saw that it was Gu Yanyu who sent a WeChat message saying that a certain dessert shop had recently released a new product, which was delicious.

After Xu Fengyi clicked on the picture, she sighed: "I didn't expect that the new dessert bear cup recently released by Abbey Dessert Shop looks so cute."

Shu Jinshi took another bite of the thick egg burnt, and although he wasn't too interested, he still spoke up: "Really."

"Well, look!" Xu Fengyi nodded with a smile, and when she turned the screen of her phone towards Shu Jin, she showed her.

It was a transparent plastic dessert cup, which looked quite big. Not only were sponge cake and cream in it, but also blueberries, strawberries and other fruits were used as decorations, and even, on the top place, there was a bow tie. chocolate bear.

The fancy food looks like a kind of sweet and greasy food, but it is the most capable of capturing the hearts of girls.

"It's pretty," Shu Jinshi nodded, "Do you like this?"

Xu Fengyi continued to smile: "Yes, I quite like the taste of its home, but it's a bit expensive. Well... But, it's expensive, and I don't eat it often. I still have to support the new products. Hey, it's this store. Well, it's too far from my company, oh, it seems that there is no way to eat in these two days."

Shu Jinshi nodded: "Then go when you are free."

Then she put down the dishes and stood up from the dining table: "I'll go back to my room to change first, thank you for your breakfast, it's delicious."

After speaking, Shu Jinshi walked upstairs without saying a word.

Well, to be honest, in fact, she didn't really want to discuss with Xu Fengyi about how to take senior sister to play, and she didn't really want to know what they were going to do together.

When she just had dinner, she would ask such a question, just because she felt that since she and Xu Fengyi were in a chat state, it was not good to keep silent or show a face, no matter what, she should at least ask, otherwise she would Appears too cold.

Formal marriage is also marriage, and living together is also living together. As the other half, she felt that she should be more considerate.

Maybe this is a businessman. Even if she feels uncomfortable, she still analyzes specific problems in detail, so that the face project is done in place, and no water leaks, and no one will find out what she is thinking.

In other words, her life experience does not allow her to do childish things, even just thinking.

This is probably a shackle she put on herself unconsciously.

Therefore, even if the sky falls, she will make herself look calm, as if she doesn't care about anything.

"Oh..." Seeing her getting up, Xu Fengyi stopped her thoughts and smiled, "Okay, let's go."

"Yeah." Shu Jinshi didn't look back and walked quickly towards the stairwell.

She was tall and thin, with straight and sharp shoulders, and when she walked, no matter how slow she was, she seemed to have a gust of wind.

I don't know if it was an illusion, although Shu Jinshi kept laughing, Xu Fengyi always felt that she had something on her mind.

But if the other party didn't plan to take the initiative to mention it, she couldn't take the initiative to provoke the topic, so she swallowed the question and watched her go upstairs.

Besides, maybe it's just my own delusion. It may make people irritable to ask things rashly.

After all, everyone's temperament is different, and in these matters, it is absolutely impossible to save others by oneself.

Afterwards, Xu Fengyi also stood up from the dining table and packed up the tableware to wash.

Shu Jinshi raised his eyebrows when he heard the sound of jingle bells coming from the kitchen.

It turns out that his five senses are so sensitive that he can capture any small movement outside.

She felt that she discovered a lot of things that she hadn't noticed before, and she really re-acquainted herself.

Afterwards, she finished the last step and entered her room.

The blackout curtains were drawn in the room, which directly blocked the light from outside, and because her mother didn't turn off the bedside lamp when she left, it didn't look too cramped.

The color temperature of the bedside lamp is dim, but the range of illumination is not large, and it has been cut soft and quiet, so that many dark corners of the room are hidden in the gray, which is very comfortable.

This lamp was carefully selected by her. It is said that this kind of light can be just right, and if people are in it for a long time, they can obtain tranquility.

In the past, she also felt this way, as long as she was in such a gentle environment, no matter how irritable she was, she would soon become calm and soft, but today it did not become calm with it. Messy and smashed, it seems that the patchwork is not good.

She really felt a little nervous about herself.

The nerves reminded her of a certain youth novel she read when she was sixteen or seventeen.

In the novel, the adolescent heroine is described as sensitive and slender, possessive and full of thorns.

The heroine is always jealous when facing her friends, and she can't see that her friends are more enthusiastic about others than herself. If you make an appointment to go out to dinner together, and the other party wants to add someone in midway, she will be unhappy.

Even if her friend went to fall in love, she would start to feel lost and hostile to the other party, because she felt that it was the wild man who stole her good friend and stole her life.

Because Shu Jinshi had never had that feeling and experience at that time-she never lacked friends, and her interactions with friends were always generous and loose, giving each other enough freedom.

When going out for a dinner together, if the other party wants to bring a new friend over temporarily, she won't feel anything at all. She will only feel that one more person is more lively, and it is good to know one more friend.

So she couldn't empathize with the heroine at that time.

Not only can't empathize, but I even feel that the heroine is very hypocritical, even my friends are jealous, and tossing around all day long, isn't it tiring to be like that.

She once thought that she would definitely not be able to understand that kind of person even when she was old and dead, but who would have thought that now that she has already passed adolescence, it seems that she can understand it?

Did her puberty come too late, or did she get younger and go back as she got older?

It is said that people will be old and young. The meaning of being old is that when you get old, you will become like a child who loves to mischief all the time, and your heart is as small as a pinhole.

But how old is she, there are still several decades before she is seventy or eighty, so it shouldn't be in any case.

What a mess.

Shu Jinshi frowned and pressed the button of the electric light next to the bed with a "snap", and the dim yellow light instantly disappeared into the darkness.

Then she closed her eyes, turned on the light again with a "snap", took a deep breath, turned around and entered the cloakroom, where she picked out a white silk pearl white shirt and a black overcoat as if nothing was wrong.

There are just a few combinations of work clothes and so on, you don't even need to think about it, and you don't need to get a mirror to make a gesture on your body.

Afterwards, she put on a simple make-up for herself, focused on brightening her complexion, and then opened the door and walked out.

Then, she heard Xu Fengyi humming a little song in the diagonally opposite room.

She is singing Doraemon's theme song, it's a little out of tune, a little out of tune, but it seems, very happy.

Maybe looking forward to a Saturday-Sunday date?

Shu Jinshi's eyes dimmed inexplicably.

After a pause for two seconds, she glanced at the door handle of Xu Fengyi's door, and finally turned around and went downstairs without saying anything.

Entering the garage, after picking out a black car based on what to wear, what to do today, and who to meet, Shu Jinshi sat in it, drove away, and turned on the "FM102*" channel.

Generally speaking, when it is only herself in the car, she will listen to the radio.

But in fact, she didn't like listening to the radio much, just listened to it.

So, I don't like this channel much, I just don't want to tune it, so I just make do and listen.

Then, as in the past, instead of going directly to the company, she went to a take-out coffee window called "Vivi".

But instead of going through the door, she asked for an Americano through the take-out window.

Summer is ice American style, winter is hot American style. Unconsciously, she has maintained this unchanging habit in many cities for many years, and it has almost become a part of her life.

Because of this thing, it can keep her mind awake.

After seeing her, the little girl from the window smiled at her before she could speak: "A big cup of hot American style, right?"

Yes, because they come here often, the little sister has already gotten to know her well.

"Yes." Shu Jinshi took out his mobile phone and scanned the code to pay the bill.

The owner's sister smiled: "Okay, wait a moment."

Shu Jinshi nodded and looked down at the phone.

At this time, a tall and beautiful woman wearing a small workplace suit with a big bright ponytail stood next to Shu Jinshi with a mobile phone and started talking to someone on the phone:

"I think I've been weird lately. Remember that new colleague I told you about two months ago?"

"He is very handsome and tall. He often invites me to have staff lunches with me, and the relationship with me has become quite good."

"Didn't I go on a business trip for a while? When I came back, I found that he had expanded his relationship and had a new dining partner. It was Miss Li from the department next door to me. I wanted to ask him to have lunch with me yesterday, but I haven't called yet. I saw Miss Li trotting all the way to his side, and the two of them chatted and laughed all the way to the restaurant."

"Later, Mr. Huang still saw me and asked me to come with me. But I didn't because I felt so tired."

"Follow him? Or don't."

"I know that I may like him a little bit. But I also know that he can't like me. He can't like me if he likes anyone."

"Why do you ask me? Because I can carry water and walk a lot of floors by myself, no boy would like such a fierce woman. Besides, he calls me brother, obviously he calls other women normally."

"So I thought I should stay away from him while I don't particularly like him."

...

At this time, outside the street, a piercing whistle suddenly cut through the sky, shattering the silence of the smoggy day, making the surrounding birds flutter away in shock, and only returned to reality when I heard people talking on the phone and I could hear Shu Jin.

Looking up again, I saw that at the window, the little girl had already handed out a hot American.

"Thank you." Shu Jinshi took the warm coffee cup and turned to look sideways at the woman who was still talking on the phone.

Then she turned and got into the car, pulled the door, and blocked all the noise, including the woman's voice on the phone, from the outside.

Inside the car, the FM102* channel is still playing.

The host's voice is very good, and he talked about a real-life version of a man who hates a woman.

Shu Jinshi didn't listen and turned off the radio directly.

Then she put the coffee aside and started driving.

When I arrived at the company, I nodded my head with the person who came over to say hello, went to the office to put away two documents and bags, took the secretary to the meeting, and went to the reception room to meet the cooperating customers, and it was half past eleven.

Then Shu Jinshi asked his assistant to go to the cafeteria to get a meal, then went back to the office and sat in the swivel chair behind the computer, playing with a gel pen.

Two minutes later, Shu Jinshi turned the swivel chair and looked at the world outside the huge floor-to-ceiling glass window behind him.

The weather is really bad today. The tops of most high-rise buildings are hidden in the haze, which is extremely gloomy.

Inadvertently, what the woman said on the phone in the morning echoed in her ears like a broadcast.

She wasn't sure if she and the other were in the same situation, but she also began to think about whether she should learn from that woman.

For example, usually keep a distance from Xu Fengyi.

Otherwise, you may become more and more strange.

She really didn't like that feeling, and she didn't like being so petty.

That kind of self would make her feel sick, and that's not an adjective.

What's more, although she didn't know whether it was a belated sensitivity, or just like that woman had towards Mr. Huang, she had already developed some abnormal feelings for Xu Fengyi.

But one thing is certain, just like that Mr. Huang won't like that woman, Xu Fengyi won't like her either.

People just agreed that they would not like her, so they agreed to live together and get married in the future.

If I really like her in the future, and she doesn't like me, then it will be embarrassing, and then it will be 100% blown away.

My brain suddenly felt a little dull.

I don't know if I think too much, or I haven't had a good rest recently.

Shu Jinshi put down the gel pen in his hand, raised his hand and gently rubbed his forehead.

It may also be that she hasn't rested much recently. She really stayed up too late.

At this time, there was a knock on the office door, and the little assistant walked in with the bought meal, put it on her dining table, and then backed away respectfully.

Shu Jinshi stared at the meal for a while, then let out a light breath, took it over and untied it, and started eating.

The moment she picked up the chopsticks, she made a decision.

From now on, she will keep a safe distance from Xu Fengyi.

Not too close, yes, not.

After finishing, Shu Jinshi started to eat.

In a blink of an eye, the day passed and the night came.

At eight o'clock in the evening, Shu Jinshi finally finished all the things at hand, got up and left the company.

After getting into the car, Shu Jinshi went to a tea shop to buy a cup of hot tea, took a sip and was about to leave, but his eyes were suddenly caught by a dessert shop next to him.

Because on its plaque, the words "Abi Abi" are written.

Inadvertently, what Xu Fengyi said at breakfast suddenly entered her mind.

Xu Fengyi said that Abi came out with a new dessert, which was very beautiful and wanted to eat.

Just too far.

But who knows, this shop, which is here now, was accidentally bumped into by her Shu Jinshi.

If Xu Fengyi was here, he would be very happy, right?

Looking at the door of the store, Shu Jinshi could imagine her smile like honey when she was holding that cup of dessert.

Immediately, Shu Jinshi touched his back teeth with the tip of his tongue, and suddenly laughed at himself.

Didn't she want to keep a distance from Xu Fengyi?

So, what if Abi Abi has a new product?

What if Xu Fengyi really wanted to eat?

What does it have to do with her Shu Jinshi?

Thinking like this, Shu Jinshi raised his head and took another sip of tea, then screwed on the lid, got into the car, started the car, stepped on the accelerator toward the northeast, and galloped away.

The black car carried a warm and shiny luster, like a shadow, and quickly disappeared at the end of the street.

However, after ten minutes.

The shadow slowly returned to the door of the dessert shop.

Then, the door opened, and Shu Jinshi walked out.

Taking a deep breath, Shu Jinshi closed the car door, straightened his clothes, and stepped into the store. Facing the clerk, he pointed to the window and raised his eyebrows: "Give me a bear cup, wrap it up, thank you."

The clerk kept smiling: "Okay lady."

"But Miss, ours is a little bear, not a bear..."

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The author has something to say:

Shu Jinshi: ...I have a high probability of being a neuropathy