Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter

In the middle of the night, Tang Kai couldn't sleep, and went out of the dormitory door and went downstairs.

The dormitory area was very quiet. She sat under a tree for a long time.

Looking up, I saw the sky and the lush canopy of trees. The corridor lights on each floor were blurred by tears and turned into white dangling.

"I've been keeping this from you, I'm actually... the person who was with you that night." The voice of her speech was a little choked. She is such a proud person, with her head slightly lowered in front of her, with tears in her eyes.

"Why... so?" Tang Kai's body was stiff, and she uttered a few words mechanically, but her heart told her that what she said was true.

They looked at each other for several seconds.

Tang Chilei's eyes gradually blurred Shi Ci's expression, Shi Ci stepped forward and hugged her again, "Chirp..." She didn't know what to say.

Both of them are a little at a loss, and they don't know how to deal with this sudden dilemma.

"I'm going back." Tang Kai wiped his eyes.

"Well, let's go back first." Shi Ci took her hand.

Tang Chi was silent, took out his hand, and whispered: "I want to go back to school..."

After giving speeches several times, he stopped and respected her decision, and sent her back to the dormitory. When she walked in, the speech looked at her and said: "You rest tonight, shall we talk about it?"

Tang Kai didn't say good or bad.

When the wind blew, Tang Kai's neck was sore, and she hung weakly.

She once again tasted the feeling of panic and powerlessness. She didn't even know where her coping method was, whether she should cry or laugh, she just felt absurd, and there was a vague sense of hatred for whom she didn't know.

This feeling of being awakened in happiness is really uncomfortable.

She thought she was suffering, and the worst was over. From then on, there will be only good, and there will be better.

She thought she was stronger than the fifteen-year-old herself, strong enough to deal with every setback brought about by the rest of her life.

She was wrong again.

At one point, her heart was full of black resentment, resenting the heavens, resenting the earth, resenting herself, and also resenting...

No, how could she complain?

Tang Kai's tears flowed out again.

Wouldn't it be worse if it weren't for her? She should think so, is she only thinking this way?

But she can't control herself.

She remembered the night when she was sick. At that time, she had not dared to accept the feeling of resignation. It was she who appeared here, holding her hand. At that time, her heart was aching with joy and expectation.

In addition to her parents, another person loved and cared for her. She didn't dare to think how long Shici could love her.

The speech is perfect in her heart. She doesn't completely like her, not completely loves her.

Shici is the person she is the most dearest, most admired and most dependable person in the world.

The next day was Monday. I guess I couldn't wait for the speech. I sent a few WeChat messages to tell her if I could find time to meet in the evening, and I wanted to talk to her.

Tang Kai stared at the phone screen for a long time, but finally refused.

It is really busy and helpless to give speeches, and this kind of thing can't be explained clearly on the phone.

She can only send a long message, "Tweet, I know you may not be able to accept it for a while, and I understand it. Please believe that I didn't intend to hide from you, I really like you. Do you understand my heart, right? I’m very busy lately, but my cell phone will be on me. I’m waiting for you to contact me."

Tang Kai saw a stubborn throat, and his heart became more confused.

A message seemed to be unable to fully explain what the speech wanted to say. She sent it again, "You are going to summer camp in July. I hope it will not affect the mood and performance of Tweet. Of course I know it won’t. I hope that Don’t think about anything, and put our business aside for the time being. This is the most important thing. I am also very confident in you and look forward to hearing good news from you."

She is not only her girlfriend, but also her big sister.

Tang Kai wiped tears.

She has always been like this, so good to her, how can she be like a one-night stand?

She is not biased against one-night stands, she just can't accept the side of the speech.

She had an ex-girlfriend who had been beloved for many years, who died after all. To her, it seemed to be her last life to give a speech.

The ex-girlfriend who came to see her was a bit responsive, but it was okay.

Maybe she has other ex-girlfriends she doesn’t know about, and other things she doesn’t know. For the first time, Tang Kai felt that she didn’t know much about speeches, didn’t understand the world, and didn’t even know what she minded. I really want to say it, isn't she doing more unbearable things?

Tang Kai solved the knot in his unhappiness.

She can only not think about it for now.

In mid-July, Tang Kai went to the summer camp of Beicheng University of Foreign Languages. In fact, he has been considering the university's undergraduate study, but for foreign language students, Beiyu is an irresistible temptation.

In just a few days, she visited the campus and listened to several lectures. I was in good condition on the day of the written test, and I consciously answered very well. It was mainly for interviews, and there were several tutors, one of which was the dean of the Gaofan Academy, a very famous teacher in the industry.

Tang Kai felt that his interview time was much longer than that of others. Several teachers took turns asking questions, very kind and kind to her.

When she came out, the clothes on her back were soaked.

She sighed deeply, and she felt confident about it. As expected, she was named an excellent camper on the last day of the summer camp. Basically it has been set.

Tang Kai was pleasantly surprised for a moment, and then more confused. Is she coming to Beicheng?

Shi Ci didn't know that she was coming to Beicheng, and she also called, but Tang Kai did not answer. She looked at the phone screen in a daze. The longer she passed, the emotions seemed to become more and more complicated. On the contrary, she didn't know how to talk to her anymore. .

Sometimes the most suitable time is missed, and the next time becomes more and more wrong.

Zhang Zinan didn't plan to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and went straight back to her hometown, Beicheng, where she found an internship for her. Tang Kai went to look for her. After a few days, she didn't have high salary requirements, her appearance and internship were good, and she quickly found a job in a translation company.

Zhang Zinan's parents rented her a house, and Tang Kai moved in to live with her, and the two shared the utility bills and food expenses.

Tang Kai is basically doing miscellaneous work in the company, helping to copy, pour water, translate some basic materials, integrate and enter data. Things are trivial and busy. Zhang Zinan’s is a foreign trade company. At the beginning, he was not qualified to follow the orders. He followed his predecessors and learned experience.

The needs are more, and the adaptability of the two is not weak, and they soon adapted to the role of social people, but every day they are too busy to go back to bed and sleep, sometimes it is too late to take off their makeup.

Tang Kai thought that she would have a lot of sleepless nights, but in fact she didn't, but occasionally had nightmares.

In the dream, she returned to her childhood, holding her with two hands, and she smiled happily.

Soon, she grew up and disappeared holding her hand. She was in the hurried crowd, and countless people passed by her. She was the only one who looked around in a hurry. She was anxious, panicked, and ran wildly, identifying and searching.

A person before, suddenly turned around and smiled at her, "chop..."

She ran over excitedly and ran towards her wildly.

But for a short distance, she couldn't run in front of her no matter what.

The man's smile suddenly darkened and he lowered his head. Turned around and gradually disappeared in front of her.

Tang Kai woke up suddenly and touched aside. The screen of the phone is still on, and there are no new calls or private messages.

She did not dare to wake Zhang Zinan, curled up her knees, crying silently.