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When talking about this, Su Jiaxian's face showed a mocking smile. As an audience member, I thought this statement was a bit ridiculous.However, faintly feel that this kind of love is very respectable.

No one has come from any age, and no one has ever had an unforgettable love that feels so stupid afterwards.But at that time, I felt that this kind of love was great and moved.

I can feel Su Jiaxian's inner feelings, and can also imagine the great love concept between the two of them at that time.

After smoking this cigarette, Su Jiaxian took another cigarette from my hand and held it in her mouth, and said with a vague look, "I haven't smoked it for a long time, and I really feel a groggy feeling. Now think about it at that time. Feel it."

"After Feng Xiaonian finished saying these words, I was so moved and cried for a long time. I decided at the time that I would tattoo his name on my ear, because people’s ears are facing outwards. I put his name Written behind the ears and on the head. It means that he will always be in my mind, and my ears symbolize protecting him and loving him forever!"

"However, when I got the tattoo, the tattoo artist told me that if I wanted to get a tattoo on my head, I couldn't get anesthetic, and I would suffer from sequelae in the future. I would have a headache whenever it rains on a cloudy day. I didn't care at all and insisted on tattooing here. Because Feng Xiaonian was also very painful when getting tattoos, so I chose to suffer the same as him, proving that I love myself more than I love him!"

"In this way, the process of tattooing was terrible. I cried many times in pain, and my head was buzzing and uncomfortable. But because of this tattoo, after returning to the place where we lived, the feelings seemed to heat up a lot. "

"I was pregnant after that night."

"It's really ridiculous to think about it now. Our great love didn't last for a year, and then he cheated. At that time, we said very well and planned to get married. We all met each other's parents. However, he cheated when I was four months pregnant, do you know Brother Fei? I had all the desire to die at the time, and I was so sad!"

Su Jiaxian was talking, tears streaming down his face, but still smiling.

"So, the first child in my life just disappeared. The child was already formed at that time, and it was his result. So I hate him, how much I loved him before and how much I hated him later I even named our baby and bought a bottle. I thought we could really get married, but I was wrong, I was too wrong!"

Su Jiaxian gritted her teeth bitterly, and I could feel the hatred in her eyes.

As the father of a child, I can feel the feeling in Su Jiaxian's heart.Especially when she, as a mother, was full of expectations for the love between the two of them, Feng Xiaonian chose to cheat.This is really a feeling of madness and collapse.

Su Jiaxian suddenly laughed again, "I just killed our child in the feeling of desperation. When he knew that I went to the hospital by myself, he kept calling me and said he loved me. , He kept telling me, crying with me, he just couldn't hold back his loneliness, he derailed on impulse, hope I can forgive him!"

"But I'm sorry, I am a very principled person. Even though I love him so so so, but once is a hundred times. Even though my heart is broken, all my thoughts are ashamed. I have decided to leave him, if I forgive him, I Fear, I am afraid that I will have a shadow for the rest of my life, and it will cause an indelible shadow for our next generation!"

"So, after he made 87 calls, I chose to shut down. I remember very clearly that he made a total of 87 calls to me. After I shut down, I broke down with tears. When I turned on the phone after I got out of the operating room, the phone call came overwhelmingly."

"Now, I still keep the text messages in that phone. I can't bear to delete them. There are 13 text messages in total. I will remember them all my life!"

Su Jiaxian took a deep breath when she mentioned these things.

But I frowned and said in a puzzled way, "If you hate him so much, why do you still keep those text messages? I feel, especially when he has other women, you will not keep them. Now, people’s thoughts fade away with time and growth.”

"Yeah. I know. But he will never have another woman again. He made a mistake that time, and there will never be a second time." Su Jiaxian said this, she was stunned and then continued. "Maybe, maybe he will have the next or more women. But my memory of him can only stay on that day!"

"Think about it now, maybe he really still loves me, and his love for me has not changed. What has changed is his inner desire! Because after I got out of the operating room that day, I didn't even look at the message he sent me. After I got out of the hospital and took a taxi back to where we lived before, I received a call from his friend saying he had a car accident and he was in the hospital!

"I was very weak at the time, and I didn't have the strength to walk. But when I heard the news of his accident, I dragged me to the hospital. In the end, he still couldn't be rescued. I didn't even have the last face of him. I have seen it. Because of his incident, his father had a heart attack and became a vegetative man. He has not recovered until now. Now his mother is the only one supporting him in the family, and his mother is the only family in the family."

"So for so many years, whenever I have time, I always go to see his mother and chat. His mother keeps saying that her son delayed me and made me pregnant. I'm sorry. But, people It's all gone. What's the use to say these. I also learned later. After he was hit by a car, he probably felt that he was going to be dying. He sent me the last text message that I love you!"

"The person is gone, what does he think. Does he love me or not, how long can he love! These have lost their meaning, and there is no way to prove it. I can only live in fantasy and memory, imagining that I have been together The future is beautiful!"

"The driver who hit him was the son of a big entrepreneur in City Y. He ran a red light and speeded to cause the accident, but in the end he lost money and was fine. So I made a wish at the time, although he was sorry. Me, but I want to pay tribute to the love we once had, for him who has lost his life because of me. I decided that one day I must take revenge, I will wait ten years if one year fails. So for so many years, I have been waiting for an opportunity, The opportunity to make myself stronger, even I haven’t felt love again until now. With Li Guohao’s brother, I just want to find a backer to take revenge!"