Still, Wait For Me

The terrible thing about the word "goodbye” is that it is a reunion and a farewell.

Xu Tiansheng saw Xiang Jie when he was 31 years old, and he sat in his own small shop in the alley that day. After more than a year of opening this small store, Xu Tiansheng's "lively" reliance, successive entrepreneurial failures have erased all his energy.

Many courtyards who have surrendered to fate are no longer interested in business, and most of the time, he has focused exclusively on computer screens.

“Boss, how much is this? ”

Perhaps because of the numbness for too long, Xu Tianjuan had even forgotten the sound, no matter how much he loved its owner.

But he remembers this headband, which is a little outdated, but he also has it in his shop, because the guy who used to wear it, she always likes to wear it, revealing what is said to be a very expensive forehead with a “bony bone," which is her favorite style.

Xu Tiansheng most of the time doesn't like to be in contact with the Guest's eyes, as if he was afraid that others would see through his difficulties, but he would always look up at the girl who bought this headband, not because he was expecting her to show up, just... Well, he was expecting, just expecting, expecting, just looking at her again.

At the moment Xu Tiansheng raised her head, she saw the familiar face and the equally familiar smile. Her change, very small, very small, may not have changed at all.

Ancient people describe many emotions very well, such as "sour hearts”. The sourness spreads across the chest, and tears cannot flow homemade for a moment.

“How did you get back here?” Xu Tiansheng said. This is the city where she went to college and where they fell in love.

“I'm here for a training session.” Item condensed.

“Where do you teach now? I found out that you passed the exam, the third written exam, the third interview, and the medical examination, but I couldn't find out which school you were in.” Xu Tiansheng said.

“Wenyan Elementary School. ”

Xiang Jian said that while paying, Xu Tiansheng was overwhelmed by the process. He tried to find a little more money. Xiang Jian was polite and handed some back. Xu Tiansheng became more embarrassed and overwhelmed as a result.

The item condenses toward the door.

“Are you married?” Xu Tiansheng asked voluntarily.

Xiang turned his head and smiled. He shook his head gently.

“Yes, can you stand for a moment?” Xu Tiansheng stood up and lifted his hand and put it down. He couldn't find a place to put it.

“No, I just... wanted to see you again, and tell you that I always thought you'd come to me.” Xiang Zheng overstepped and Xu Tiansheng didn't get to see her expression. She had put up her umbrella and walked into the night and rain screen.

Xu Tiansheng's brain was blank for about a minute, and then he took out his phone and called Huang Yaming and Fu Cheng. Xu Tinsheng said on the phone: "She showed up, just a minute ago, in my shop. ”

They all understood that, as best friends for more than a decade, they knew Xu Tiansheng's situation over the years, including emotions.

“Go after him.” They said one after the other.

“Chase?” Xu Tiansheng said.

“Sure, she'll come back to see you, which means she can't help it either. ”

“Okay.”

The same dialogue took place twice.

Xu Tiansheng stood up and hurriedly crashed the stool behind the cash register.

“Pong...”

Several of the Guests still wandering around the store turned around and looked at him.

“Boss, don't you want to see the store?” The customer joked.

This is a reminder to Xu Tiansheng that in his current life, in his current situation, there was a voice in his head that said, “So what?... tell her what? Leave her with what? … keep her and drag her down? ”

“So what if we catch it? ”

“So what if we catch it? ”

“So what if we catch it? ”

Xu Tiansheng sat down, as if the whole person had finally been sucked off his last strengths.

* * * * * * *

Xu Tingsheng, a rural family born in the outskirts of a small county, was 19 years old when he lost his father due to an accident and the family has been struggling in a difficult situation ever since.

Xu Tingsheng later went to a teacher training school and graduated as a history teacher at a high school in Jinnan City.

He worked in this position for four years.

During this period, my sister graduated from college, successfully entered the IRS, my mother was healthy and in a happy mood, and Xu Tiansheng paid off debts owed by her family in previous years, but still couldn't come up with a down payment for the house.

In 2011, Xu Tingsheng, 27 years old, was invited by college friends to start a small building materials company. In order to completely change fate, Xu Tiansheng chose to work hard and resign from the sea.

On the third day after Xu Tingsheng's resignation, he met his lifelong fate - Xiang Jinxiao, a junior at Graduate University (soon after senior year).

A year later,

The company encountered difficulties, one of the three partners absconded, Xu Tiansheng failed to start a business and bore a million debts.

Shortly afterwards, Xiang Jin graduated and successfully passed the examination to become a primary school language teacher, but no longer found Xu Zheng.

Xu Tiansheng suddenly disappeared from Xiang Zheng's life.

Many courtyard students at this stage, in fact, still have hope, still dream of a successful day, go back to find a condensed one, he misses it every day and is expecting it.

Until then, he failed to start a business twice in a row.

……

In 2015, Xu Tiansheng saw Xiang Jie again when he was 31 years old. At this time he had just stood, but suddenly in his twilight years, he was dead and depressed.

* * * * * *

That night, Xu Tinsheng closed the store early and wandered the streets aimlessly.

There are so many places in this city that have left their shadows together, sweet, laughing, happy, sad. Xu Tiansheng seemed to see the person who was once familiar and strange. They held hands and stood there far away, smiling and waving at themselves.

There is a junction where Xiang Jie used to sit and cry.

At that time, Xu Tiansheng said goodbye. Xiang Jie sat here crying. She walked away crying. Xu Tiansheng did not catch up. That evening, Xiang Jian called Xu Tiansheng and said that he had lost his wallet on his way back crying. He asked Tiansheng to accompany her to find him and break up with him when he found him.

Xu Tiansheng certainly knew it was fake, but when a girl who had been chased by many men, who was proud and accustomed to it, was willing to lie and cheat for you like this, what could not be satisfied? What else can't soften your heart?

On that day, they looked for a long time, a long time, pretending to be serious, looking very carefully, until they looked at each other and couldn't help laughing.

At another junction, Xu Tiansheng once sat there crying.

“Uncle” Xu Tiansheng didn't like to take selfies. Xiang Jiang had to take selfies several times in the beginning. He refused to take selfies, and she didn't insist. On one occasion, Xiang Jiao went to the toilet, Xu Tiansheng looked at the bag and looked at Xiang Jiao's phone boringly.

He found that Xiang Jie's phone had a folder called "Sweet", which was filled with photos of her and Xu Gardener, except that most of the gardeners in the photo were asleep, or looked elsewhere and did something else. Only Xiang Gang looked at the lens, pulled her face over and smiled like a flower... she took these photos secretly, secretly... photographed her boyfriend.

Xu Tiansheng cried very badly that day. Xiang Jie returned from the toilet and saw it and was frightened. Then, many of the gardeners with their tears and nostrils pulled Xiang Jie to take a photo of themselves. She was ugly and confused.

……

Xu Tinsheng walked towards him.

An Audi rushed towards him.

The lights were dazzling and he forgot to dodge.

The sudden tires rubbed the floor making a sharp sound, and the pretty woman in the co-pilot's position screamed in panic.

Xu Tiansheng felt herself flying, her body in the air, feeling weightlessness.

Pain can also be felt, but it lasts for a short time.

Then, the infinite darkness.