That Man’s 101st Bad Ending

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-You always look at me with strange eyes. Do you have anything to say?

-no. Just, I’m a little worried.

Incomprehensible questions and answers. The words she had never heard or said were definitely conversations between herself and Robert.

The Robert in my memory was a little more melted into the north.

Throwing off all the nobles in the center, wouldn’t it be trustworthy even if he was a member of the mercenary corps he was leading right now?

…However, Robert Taylor was a central aristocrat. Wearing a cloak, but that cuteness doesn’t disappear.

The unique atmosphere and the eyes that seemed to collapse at any moment. It was quite different from the Robert I remember.

Then, what are these memories that you are seeing?

Adele gradually realized that her feelings were being twisted by this fragment that often came to mind after Robert came to the North.

It was completely different from the feelings I felt when we first met and met on the Full Moon Festival.

Should I be a little more affectionate than that?

When we met eyes, a completely different emotion bloomed, and I vaguely noticed that this memory was causing confusion in me.

hallucination.

Hallucinations.

-How long are you planning to stay in the North? We couldn’t stay together forever.

-I will leave when the Grand Duke dies. Until then, we won’t go to the center.

The way he looked at himself was quite different from reality. So, is this your delusion?

Adele laughed bitterly and stood up.

The pale moonlight filtering through the curtains made her pure white hair shine.

It wasn’t hallucinations. Clearly his memories, but there were too many awkward things about that.

Why does Robert, who is leaving for the South, remain here?

Why are you looking at yourself like that? However, even that was not clear, and only vague feelings lingered around.

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Just like the black traces left when a painting is scorched with fire, only the voice and eyes remain in that black fantasy.

It has been several days that I have not been able to fall asleep due to the memories that naturally come to mind when I go to sleep.

Was it his own delusion, or did he have a relationship with Robert without even knowing it?

In an incomprehensible thought, Adele hugged my knee.

“ha.”

It is frustrating. The thing that complicates Adele lately has been Robert’s presence.

An existence that cannot be done according to one’s will, and even if one is interested in it, it quickly escapes.

Wouldn’t he be a particularly odd man in Adele’s life?

While leading the mercenary corps to unify the north, while becoming a grand duke and coming so far.

To Adele, all beings were nothing but ‘controllable’ things.

No matter how strong a creature was, it could be subdued by directly leading soldiers to slash them.

No matter what problem there was, it was solved by calling Lotos and telling him to solve it. If you want something, you have it.

No matter where else, the northern area was like a land where Adele could do anything.

Ever since I lost my parents and wandered around as a child, if I only had a sword, even the bullies in the neighborhood couldn’t use their courage in front of me.

-Now I’m going to go back.

When Robert said he was coming to the North, Adele was really thinking about keeping him by his side.

It didn’t seem like he would be very active in the center, and the ability he was hiding was not enough to be expressed as outstanding.

That’s how I made him an aide, and I tried to watch him play an active part in the subjugation of the foreign race.

It was this hallucination that came to my mind at such a time.

Memories that couldn’t be there, but memories that were naturally established as if they had definitely existed.

It didn’t take long for the slight anxiety I felt every time I saw Robert to amplify.

The moment the princess appeared alone, a tinnitus beeped in her ears.

Without even being properly equipped, he ran straight ahead.

Why did he have to be in such a hurry?

Why did he become so urgent and ran without even making a proper decision?

What I felt when I heard that Robert was going south was irritation.

It was partly because he thought he would stay in the north for a few more days, but it was more because of the unexpected situation this time around.

Even if he put a sword to his neck, he didn’t even react.

Having come to the north in winter, going out alone to save the princess.

And even trying to go south at an early stage.

None of them matched my expectations.

It seemed that he was doing it on purpose, and that he was angry at the moment when he slipped out of his hand.

There was no need to be angry. Adele rubbed her cheek in a sudden embarrassment.

“I… don’t know why I am doing this.”

It was too much interest for someone who had only met a few times and had only seen him in the north for a few weeks now.

You don’t even have to worry about what you do.

Although he had many things in common with his father, he was not weak enough to cause Robert to die suddenly.

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Just leave it alone and you’ll be fine. Even if you don’t care, even if you don’t have confidence.

ha.

The outpouring sigh was an appeal for frustration.

Robert, looking at him, he might be denying a little that he was looking at one person.

A person whose wishes were never fulfilled, a person who eventually left and completely disappeared no matter how much he tried to stay by his side.

like my father

The words to stay for two days were to organize this complicated mind.

romance? Adele smiled bitterly. It’s not that kind of feeling.

I’ve never had a romantic relationship, but I didn’t think that my heart toward Robert was close to a love affair.

It’s just that it’s annoying, and if I can’t see it, I’m concerned.

I’m anxious. I’m afraid I’ll disappear, I’m afraid I’ll just be told that he suddenly died one day like my father.

so i was annoyed It hadn’t been a few days since he had been seriously injured by the aliens, but he would go straight to the south instead of staying here any longer.

I wanted to avoid the ominous thought as much as possible, but I couldn’t help but linger in my head.

As I narrowed my eyes, I saw a dim light. He remembered what he had done and laughed for nothing.

The actions that had been swept away by momentary emotions, and the embarrassment about them finally came to me, and a small amount of heat touched my cheeks.

Why did he get grabbed by the collar there, and it’s okay to just look at him as a strange person?

It didn’t have to be. Because he and Robert had nothing to do with each other.

He was a temporary adjutant, someone he met by chance. Just because that was all.

In the fantasy, he was quite close to Robert.

They always went together, sometimes riding wolves and wandering the whole North alone.

It must have been an illusion.

In this mysterious fantasy, I really became like that myself. This memory is really a fact that he doesn’t know, so he’s mistaken.

That would be just believing.

Adele’s eyes slowly closed after staring into space for a moment.

My head sliding down against the wall touches the pillow, and so on for a few minutes.

The eyes opened again and turned to the ceiling.

Until the pale moonlight fades and the dawn comes.

…For a very long time, I just stared at the ceiling like that.

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It wasn’t that he was so busy that he couldn’t accept the two days.

Besides, I couldn’t refuse as much as Adele said,

There was no reason to refuse, so I had no choice but to stay in the north.

two days This was not enough time to disrupt the schedule.

The only thing I was curious about was what the hell he told me to wait two days to say.

A day passed and Adele didn’t show up.

And today, the second day, it still hasn’t appeared.

I couldn’t even see it in the office where I was working, so everyone was just wondering, to the point where Lotos asked me about Adele’s condition.

Even if I asked about Adele’s condition, I wouldn’t be able to answer anything.

I just knew that he seemed sad to me, but I didn’t even know why he was sad.

Most of the things I experienced in this episode were the first time I experienced them.

It all started when I first told Theresia we were breaking up. There were no variables I knew, no circumstances I knew anymore.

Adele’s attitude was also quite awkward.

Of course, it wasn’t the first time he showed such an expression. This was the 3rd time I met Adele.

I met him for the first time when he was killed by Mirazen and died several more times and was in ruins again.

After that, we had a second meeting, saying let’s start in the north. And this is the third time.

Out of those 3 meetings, 2 times were almost always together, so I think it was a strange relationship in its own way during that time.

Isn’t it the time when Adele looked like a savior? And Adele didn’t look at me as an ordinary lieutenant.

She did not easily reveal her past. Even Lotos, who had been there for the longest time, did not know about Adele’s past.

The reason I know about her past is probably because of the feelings Adele had for me at that time.

“…Couple.”

We couldn’t reach the same stage as Miragen, but there was a time when we vaguely harbored such feelings.

It will be left as regret. I couldn’t stop the fact that Adele left for the imperial palace,

Even more so, there was a memory that I didn’t even try to go together.

-I’m not dying, Robert. So wait. I will prove your worries wrong.

I was thinking of going to visit Adele, who hadn’t shown up for the past few days, but this thought came to my mind and I hesitated for some reason.

What the hell are you doing that doesn’t show up for two days? Now, it was me who left tomorrow morning.

After a little more time, it will be night now, and Adele, who is still not showing up, is starting to get worried.

But what should I tell them when I visit them?

After tossing her hair here and there, she brushes her face and lowers her head.

It is frustrating. Just as Adele was annoyed with me, I was also frustrated.

Living with the memories only I knew, the emotions only I knew, was bound to wear out a person’s mind.

It wasn’t once or twice that I just wanted to let go of it all when I saw someone doing the same thing over and over again.

He held his wrists tightly for a moment and let out a heavy breath.

It was rather me who wanted to stay in the North.

There was no place I could feel as comfortable as here, so if I had no purpose, I would have stayed here all along.

However, I couldn’t stop any longer.

In order to end this regression and die, I had to move even if I didn’t want to.

Let’s not leave regrets, let’s not leave regrets. Just as I was thinking about it, I heard a knock on the door.

smart-

“This is Lotos. The Grand Duke is calling, are you busy?”

“No, I will go out.”

The sound that had been heard in the quiet room was cut off again.

As I adjusted my clothes and headed out the door, Lotos was staring at me with a grotesque expression.

It’s like a ‘what the hell did you do’ expression. I shrugged and opened my mouth.

“Is anything going on?”

“Hmm. No, not necessarily. The Archduke…has changed a bit. I thought there must be an outside influence.”

When he tilted his head at the word that he had changed, Lotos hurried his steps with a meaningful smile on his face.

After hearing that Adele had called, the place I went to was, of course, the office.

When I was about to open the door, wondering what had changed, Lotos approached and opened his mouth small.

“Have a cozy time.”

“…I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

However, Lotos disappeared with those words.

What kind of heart did he say that when he slowly opened the door with that thought.

At the sight that was finally revealed, I was able to understand a little what Lotos said.

“Come. I wonder if I called too late.”

There was no Archduke who always wore a cloak. The captain of the mercenary corps who raised his sword and killed the aliens did not exist.

It wasn’t rough. It wasn’t cold.

A little shy, a little soft.

A woman with a faint blush on her cheek was staring at me.

Adele, wearing a dress as blue as her eyes, looked at me with an awkward hand gesture.

Hesitating, he licked his lips.

“…It’s my first time wearing it, does it suit me?”