That Man’s 101st Bad Ending

When the violets wither-2

There was a strange sense that I felt when I first heard the name Moonseok.

It existed at one time, but at some point it feels like it completely disappeared.

When I try to read the memory of it, what I feel is a sense of incongruity,

It was strange to think about it over and over again that the memory was completely empty, as if it never existed.

“…existed, but does not exist.”

The problem was the uniqueness of the artifact, the fact that it could not be reached even after ten years of research.

What are the characteristics of the artifacts created by the god of the moon and the dragons?

The moon rock described by Robert Taylor was about ‘return’.

To go back in time and repeat a point in time forever.

Although I don’t know why I’m asking questions about such a terrible brother, it’s true that the name Moon-seok reminded me of a strange feeling.

The same feeling as what you just muttered. It was definitely present in this world, but at some point, it completely ceased to exist.

[If the moon stone exists, the most curious thing is how it affects the surroundings. I wonder if the people around me will be able to recall the memory of the return…]

Artifacts cannot simply affect individuals.

How could something with the power to reverse time and stop space affect only one person?

Moreover, regression means turning back the time of all people, not just one person. If your predictions are correct.

Grabbing a pen, Arwen began writing down the calculations he had made on paper.

Hypotheses about regression were somewhat stranded.

It must have been that Robert Taylor brought up the story of the moon stone.

“resonance.”

A phenomenon that occurs when the effect of an artifact is manifested over a certain period of time, and the power of the artifact that can no longer withstand collapses.

I had already seen it a few times through other relics, so if it was possible to return through the moon stone, this effect would also occur on that relic.

There was no way the time that stood still could stay there forever.

Since time is inherently flowing, the essence is to move from the spot and try to come back someday.

Arwen’s eyes narrowed as he tapped his temple with a tuk-tuk.

If really, if Robert Taylor had repeatedly regressed through moon rocks. If it’s not the first time and you’ve already done it many times…

“Maybe you can remember.”

It must have been time for people other than Robert to slowly begin to recall those memories.

Memories were like colors slowly permeating.

Like the white drawing paper little by little, the memories that come to mind are far from being all at once.

maybe it will come back slowly

The memory would come back naturally enough that the person in question would not notice, and at some point he would realize that he had regained all his memories.

“…If I repeat the return, what time will I come back?”

The formulas drawn in the air move along with magic power, and a pure white line is drawn over the glowing pentagram.

When Arwen’s hand stopped in the air, a woman who would not be strange even if it was called the ‘peak’ in the study of magic.

Those eyes were just squinting. I couldn’t believe my own calculations, so to be precise.

because i don’t want to believe

“No. 101.”

Can one person endure 100 deaths?

Even if I had endured it, I thought that I would not be in a sane state of mind.

It was just an analogy. Based on the questions he asked about the relics of return and the Moonstone, he made his own hypotheses and guessed the number of times.

However, if this is close to the truth. Arwen laughed bitterly for a moment and looked into the air.

The Robert Taylor he met did not show a swaying figure.

That was the problem.

It meant that the inside of a person who seemed fine on the outside had already reached a state where it would not be strange even if it collapsed.

Apparently, a little more research was needed about the moon stone.

If a little more time had passed, the memories of the past could have been revived simply by Robert’s approach.

If that happened, it wouldn’t matter that at least some people in the Empire would be ruined.

The door of the general store run by ‘J’ closed, and a bluish light began to shine in the space where the curtains were closed.

A space full of magical energy, apparently this general store wouldn’t reopen for several months.

For the time being, it would be better to stay as the wizard ‘Arwen’.

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I’ve seen Theresia, but I don’t think I’ll go there first.

Unless there is a signal sent from there, there is no reason to move, and I came along at Adrian’s request.

It was true that somehow he was serving as her escort.

The reason why Berod silently accepted this role was because of my good skills.

But if I break away alone and disappear somewhere, even those who think I’m okay will have doubts.

If he met Theresia, there would be no way he would come back safely.

He might die, he was thinking of getting seriously injured.

I wasn’t afraid to die. But what I was thinking was after killing Theresia.

I don’t know how I’ll feel. When trying to kill Theresia,

Would it be a little relieved if she remembered what she had repeated herself and regretted it?

Even so, I think the feelings I will have will be far from exhilaration or relief.

it will be complicated It wouldn’t be strange even if my head exploded right away.

I sweat so much that my hair is drenched, and I wipe the sweat off with a towel.

It had been like this ever since he met Theresia.

He swung his sword until he collapsed from exhaustion, and then when he did, he lay down on the ground and gazed up at the sky.

It was a bit comfortable this way. Not being able to do anything helped to clear my complicated mind.

I lay there for a long time looking up at the sky, then suddenly I raised my head at the sound of footsteps approaching.

It was a white light that shone clearly even under the dark sky, so I had no choice but to recognize it immediately.

“Here you are. I came because I heard a sound.”

“Aren’t you in danger? Don’t come alone, from now on, bring a paladin with you.”

“Paladins are always hiding behind me. I know everything.”

I knew right away that Adrian was watching me for a long time.

To be precise, after seeing Theresia, he had been watching me continuously.

Is it obvious that my expression is dark?

What she saw must be my inner self, so it could have been something she couldn’t hide even though she wanted to.

He raised his body from lying down and patted the seat next to me.

The sweat she had already shed had already been blown away with magical power.

Originally, I would just let it flow, but it was just bad manners to do that next to Adrian.

Adrian, who carefully sat down following my voice, realized that he was right next to me and his shoulders trembled.

“Is it because you’re too close?”

“It’s not like that. It’s just that you seem to be having a hard time these days.”

“I didn’t think I was showing off too much, though.”

“The world I see is a little different from what Robert sees. Did you have any concerns the last time you went out with me?”

I smiled a little at that cautious question. It sounded like he was blaming himself.

From her point of view, since I’ve changed since I went out with her, she must be thinking that something is wrong.

It wasn’t Adrian’s fault. If I had to question it, it was my fault for not making a cool judgment.

“You don’t have to blame yourself. This is my personal matter.”

“…is that so.”

“Maybe it will be resolved soon. So there is no need to worry.”

If I kill Theresia with my own hands, I think this trouble itself will be resolved.

Adrian didn’t have to care.

This was the first time I had a relationship with her, and it was too insignificant for a woman who had done nothing wrong to worry about me.

However, Adrian looked at me quietly.

Her mouth, which was slightly closed, seemed to deny what I had said.

Before long, the voice that came from the open mouth was a little high. An uncharacteristically gruff voice came from her, as if she was angry.

“I don’t think all of Robert’s judgments are right.”

“what-“

“Even if you try to embrace everything alone, you can’t always go in a good direction. Are you familiar with it already? Just because you don’t confide in anyone and go alone doesn’t mean everything will come true.”

His voice was quite determined, and I was momentarily taken aback by his unusual attitude.

My lips, which I was trying to answer, didn’t open like I thought.

Her words seemed to penetrate my heart. It seemed like he knew everything and pointed out me, who tried to do everything alone.

“Sometimes, really sometimes. I think it’s okay to be honest. Even if it’s so absurd that other people won’t believe it, won’t at least one person believe it?”

a theoretical word. It’s something anyone can say, but Adrian was the first to say something anyone could say.

I was feeling a bit emotional. Looking at the woman who was the first to hear these obvious words, she slowly wiped her face.

My return was such an absurd word.

If one person repeats the same time forever,

Who would believe that he repeated death just to earn the trust of the people around him?

But now I was just trying to put an end to this regression.

He had the intention of killing the crown prince, but he had no regrets even if he died in the process.

Rather, if death were to come, I would just laugh.

He hoped that this would be his final death, and he might laugh at the peace that finally came.

In the past, I might have confided in Adrian about my return after hearing this. However, it wasn’t anymore.

Because I wished for death, I did not want anyone to harbor such lingering attachments.

I laughed bitterly for a while. The moon in the sky was always pale, so I slowly opened my mouth while staring at it.

“I don’t have anything to tell you. I’ll be honest with Adrian, but it’s not a big deal.”

“really?”

“Absolutely. What am I going to lie about? You said you were friends before, but I’m not the only one thinking that way.”

“That, isn’t it?”

It’s a lie. To be completely honest was a lie, as always.

It wasn’t nice to lie to someone.

Even though I was laughing like this, I couldn’t laugh comfortably, and it was just like wearing a mask.

“…well, I don’t think it’s a big deal now. Now, I think it’s a concern that I just have to share.”

“Then I’m glad.”

The more you say a word, the more the weight grows.

The chains that bound me would haunt me until I died.

The closer you get to someone, the more you move towards your own death.

These chains placed on me will gradually add their own weight. However, that was the path I chose.

Even if the truth about this is revealed and hated, even if the person I had a relationship with turns their back on me.

It meant that I could endure it because I chose it.

I stared at Adrian’s face for a moment.

A face that never frowned was always smiling softly.

“I believe in Robert. Robert is a good man.”

“Did you see inside me?”

“Yes. No matter how empty I am, I am a saint. You can know that.”

When I laughed at Adrian’s words, Adrian, who laughed along with me, swallowed his laughter with a chuckle.

Being a good person, I wanted to correct what she said.

I look at Adrian again.

I felt a sharp pain in my chest thinking about how that smile would change when everyone knew what kind of person I was.

Every once in a while, I wondered what it would have been like if I hadn’t met Adrian.

If that laugh turns to contempt, if the voice that whispered softly to me turns cold.

At that time, I didn’t have the confidence to endure it.

“what if. Really, if only.”

“yes?”

“If I suddenly disappear one day, even if I suddenly disappear without saying anything.”

There wasn’t much left before he could face Theresia.

I don’t think there’s a very high chance that I’ll die there, but my death was definitely in the future.

If that day comes, he still hoped that Adrian would smile softly.

No regrets, no regrets. I wanted you to forget me like that.

“I hope you don’t hate me too much.”

Adrian was puzzled by that, but I said nothing more.

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Just for a long time until the moon was covered by clouds again. I was just staring blankly at the sky.

The flowing wind was telling me that time was approaching.

By the time the violets wither, the time to pick them myself is soon approaching.