The Alpha King

How on earth would he know, when he was with me the whole time?

Killian ignored my protests and dragged me outside and around a part of the castle to a secluded corner. He looked around and then focused his gaze on me.

I crossed my arms and waited for him to start speaking. This whole not knowing was really starting to get on my nerves.

"Luna...I don't think you are going to be very happy with what I have to say..." Killian said slowly and tentatively. I narrowed my eyes at him slightly and said,

"Killian, tell me."

He looked around again and once he was sure no one was around to over hear what he was about to say he took a deep breath and said,

"Alpha thought, well he probably thinks we are cheating on him."

What, I scrunch my eyebrows up in confusion at his words. I know Xavier was mad at seeing Killian on top of me but why would he think we were cheating on him?! That's absolutely crazy!

"Why on earth would he think that?!" I screeched and Killian covered my mouth with his hand, in an attempt to quiet me.

"Luna, please softly." He said slightly angry and annoyed. Oh, the old Killian is peaking again.

"Do not shoosh me Killian." I said glaring at him angrily. I wasn't even that mad at him I was more mad at his words and I let my anger out on him.

"I only 'shooshed' you because I do not want anyone to over hear this!" He said as he clenched his teeth.

"This whole conversation is becoming pointless! Can you just tell me why Xavier would think something like that."

Killian took a deep breath and then closed his eyes and opened them again.

"While we were fighting in the clearing, well it was mostly Alpha bearing the crap out of me, he mind linked me and he was beyond furious. He said that he couldn't believe I would betray him an-"

"Wait, why would you betray him?"

Killian pursed his lips at me and said irritably,

"If you'll let me finish, you'd know."

Rubbing my forehead, in an attempt to try and ease the growing heartache, I replied, "Right, sorry, do continue."

"As I was saying, he accused me of betraying him. I told him I never did such a thing and he said he didn't believe it as well until he saw me on top of you. I was really confused as to what he was saying so I asked him what exactly he didn't believe. He said it was that you and I were cheating on him.

I was so shocked I went stiff and he got the upper hand and that's when he threw me against the tree. I tried pleading with him and telling him it was ridiculous and then, and then he said..."

Killian clenched his jaw and his fists were clenched at his sides. My heart was racing, the more he talked and once the final words left his mouth I saw complete red.

"He said, Kathryn went to his office and told him that she saw us kissing in the forest, he didn't believe her but she had a guard as a witness as well. One I'm sure she bribed or seduced. Alpha was so mad he trashed the foyer and once he came to look for us, I'm sure the position he saw us in didn't help one bit."

I was shaking with rage. I could practically feel my entire body heat up. I was burning.

Killians eyes grew wide and he took a step back.

"Luna, are you okay? Your eyes, they are turning blue!"

"Killian, where exactly is Kathryn." I said calmly.

"I mind linked someone as soon as we reached the castle and they said she disappeared around the same time that Alpha did."

"I don't care what it takes but you will find her and once you find her, you will bring her to me, and only me. Do you understand."

"Yes Luna, I will go right away and speak to the trackers."

I nodded and Killian left.

My mind was reeling. I couldn't seem to control my emotions, they were all over the place. First I had to deal with those awful memories and then being told I freaking invaded someone's mind, to finding out my mate was missing and to top it all of, that he now thinks I am a cheater.

Great, just great! My life is a goddamn mess.

Why does everything have to be so darn complicated. My headache was growing but I didn't want to go back inside to all the chaos just yet. I noticed a tree a little further away from where I was standing and strode towards it.

I sat under the shade of the tree and tipped my head back onto the bark. I closed my eyes and took deep breaths, trying to calm myself down.

I can't believe Kathryn would make something up like that and possibly try to destroy our relationship and trust. Who does that?!

What kind of person would knowingly do something so spiteful? I just knew she wasn't someone trustworthy from the moment I saw her. I knew she wanted to sink her claws into Xavier and possibly the crown.

There's just always someone like her, isn't there.

I just pray that Xavier returns home so that we can sort out everything that happened and I can explain to him that there could never be anyone else for me but him. I only want him and I could only ever want him.

I need to explain to him that Kathryn is a little lying snake and I need to find that so called guard that lied along with her. He won't see what's coming for him.

Next, I need to find out about the mind invasion and see if it was a once of thing or something that could possibly become a problem.

I kept having to chant all the things that needed to be done mentally because I couldn't focus. My mind kept drifting back to Xavier and what state he might be in right now. I don't want him to be hurting. I don't want him to be alone or saddened. Maybe he hates me now.

Maybe he saw what a complete mess I am inside and he wants nothing to do with me.

What if he thinks I'm just not worth it anymore?

I knew something like this would happen. I'm not allowed to feel loved am I? Just when I thought things were going okay, I get this thrown into my face.

My own mate ran away from me. He couldn't stand the sight of me but I guess it's also my fault. I didn't really make an effort to strengthen our relationship. I wanted to end it for the most part of it and I made it extremely difficult for him. I resisted and protested and acted childish and bratty.

I was so focused on what I wanted and what I thought he wanted that I never stopped and actually asked him.

He was there for me after the kidnapping and he sat with me through my nightmares and held me and not once did I ask him how he felt and how he was. I didn't bother to see if he was okay or how he was dealing with being parted from his mate and that was incredibly selfish.

Deep down I know that, that is partially why he probably left.

It was so easy for him to love me and it will probably be so easy for him to unlove me.

****

Four weeks later

It has been four agonising weeks without him and still he has not returned. The pack is anxious and I've tried my best along with Killian and Luca to lead them and handle all the pack matters and it's been hard.

The hardest part being parted from him.

We searched everywhere but the King does not want to be found and so the King shall never be found.

I slept in our bed and wore his t-shirts to bed, because I desperately craved his scent. My wolf was so depressed, she couldn't bare being parted from him for so long.

It was strange that his absence had such a strong effect on me, more so than when I was kidnapped. It was almost as if I couldn't even breathe properly without him. Perhaps being tortured and completely destroyed everyday dulled my need for him. I don't know but that's the only reason I can think of because I've never felt as if I needed someone so much before in my life and I don't understand why?!

I tried every day to mind link him but the only thing I got in return was complete darkness.

My wolf and I have been on edge and acting rather strange for the past week. We've been increasingly aggressive and snappy and I've lashed out at multiple people.

I thought it was because he wasn't with us but I was so wrong.

It started an hour ago as I was lying in bed. First the sheets were kicked off, then it was my pyjama pants, until I was in nothing but my panties and his oversized t-shirt.

I tossed and turned for minutes but it felt like hours.

I couldn't sleep.

I couldn't think straight.

I was sweating so badly, my pillow was soaked.

And then it happened,

The burning.

The heat.