The Broken Prince

The air felt very cold as I walked out from the restaurant that we just ate in. Something in me wanted to stay there with them and I did not know why. Nevertheless, I eventually left sooner than expected. I found out that they were having dinner when I went to go and look for Kaval and found him nowhere. Then I saw his aide and then you basically know the rest.

I thought that if I did go there, I'm going to ruin their nights, especially Alexander but oh how the tables have turned. I ended up looking like a child which is as embarrassing as it is and, I ended up having fun spending with them. More importantly with Alex there. My feeling says that it's okay to feel that because I basically the same with everyone else but I couldn't brought myself to it.

I wanted to say 'hey, look at that. I think I can now live with Alexander around me.', but no. My feelings were saying that it's okay but my mind thought other way.. It reminded me of the things that happened in the past and no matter how I wanted to say that no one controls me, I know that I am still chained and bounded by the past which haunts me every time sleep starts to visit me.

The pain refreshes and the anger burns even brighter whenever the memories haunts me. Years has gone by and many people from the kingdom has already healed from the wounds of yesterday but for a boy to loose his mom that instant.

"Prince Hade? Are you awake?" I fluttered my eyes opened as someone dared to wake me from my precious slumber. Mother has always told be to get sufficient sleep so that I will become the man I want to be and for me to find that person.

"Yes?" I answered while my eyes were still closed. My view caught a sight outside the window and it the sun has still not rise.

"Why am I awakened this early? The mighty sun is not up yet?" I asked demanding to know the answer. Then I saw my aide, Zoren. We had the same age and were the same height. Only I looked toned for my age and he was quite leaner. His eyes held sadness within them so I immediately sat up from my bed and looked at him with all of my limited and forced attention.

"You look saddened Zoren. Mind telling me about it since you already woke me up?" I tried to say it in the nicest way. I am not a morning person and never will me. People inside the palace always calls me grumpy every morning because I would get up from my comfortable bed and go out to eat breakfast with a grumpy face. When I was still younger than I am now, I'd get mad because of them calling me that but I'm over it now.

"Y-Your majesty, I_I'm sorry." Zoren broke into a crying mess after that. I have never seen Zoren cry in my entire life so what might have happened must have affected him deeply for him to act like this. I jumped from my bed and held both of his shoulder.

"What is it Zoren?" I asked calmly trying to comfort him. Zoren was about to open his mouth when the door of my room was opened harshly. Eyes wide, I turned to look at the person who now I recognize as my father.

He looked very shocked and very disoriented. The sight of him being like that brought fear to me as what could it be that happened for these two to loose their stance like this.

Father always looked very strong and intimidating even to me and mother. He never smiles in public and he's all about business and duty. But mother and I knows how he is when he's with us. He is not at all a soft person but he shows his affection to us the most whenever we are behind closed doors.

Father started to walk directly towards me and at this point, my heart was starting to beat abnormally. He looked so defeated as he looked at me with his disheartened eyes.

Zoren moved to the side and continued to sob. What happened? The both of them are acting very strange. I don't hear chaos outside which means we are not being attacked. What could possibly happen for them to be this sad.

"F-Father. W-What happened. You look d-defeated." I asked. Father towered me as he looked down at me. I felt a pang of pain as I swore to see a pool of tears forming a puddle on his eyes. My instinct acted on its own as I wrapped my hands around him tightly. My eyes were wide, heart thumping loudly and fear starting to dawn on me.

Father knelt to the ground and hugged me tightly. Teardrops rolled down on my face as I heard the strongest man I know released a loud cry. My throat was starting to close up as I started to choke on my sobs that I wanted to suppress.

"Fera!" My father cried mother's name with such pain. At that point, my heart stopped as many bad things started to form in my head. I was silently praying to the gods to let everything be fine. Mother is fine. I know she is. She is the strongest woman in the kingdom, how could she be in danger?

"Father? Is mother okay?" I spoke without stammering but my voice was shaking. I felt father's grip tighten as his tears seeped through the fabric of my clothes. We spent the following moments in dead and eery silence. Breathing started to get harder from the anticipation as every seconds passed.

Father released me from his grasp and held both of my shoulders. I stared at his eyes and I could immediately tell how broken he is. He stared at me with such sadness that I could almost confirm the thoughts that I still am praying for to not come true.

"Hade, your mother. She was found dead in the library." My world immediately stopped spinning as father's words came crashing down on me like bricks. I could no longer breathe and my throat felt very dry.

I suddenly felt empty and void. I did not start to cry even harder. I just stared at father like I heard nothing. I did not know how to react at that time. My mind was in chaos but my feelings suddenly disappeared.

My hands fell down on my side as I looked at my surrounding. This has to be a joke. I looked for any signs but I could not find it. Zoren was looking at me with tears and despair. Father was looking at me with sadness as he clung to his broken heart.

The only think I could do was to ask.

"How, father?"

Father looked at me strangely. Maybe because I did not show any kinds of emotions when the information did down on me. Nonetheless, father stood up and the pain from his eyes immediately disappeared and was soon replace by a hellfire that will burn everything in its path.

"Her aide left her in her command but she said that she was drinking tea at that time. When she did came back, she was sprawled all over the floor all pale and lifeless." His voice was shaking but it was no longer because he wanted to cry but because of his thirst for vengeance and justice.

"We have yet to figure her cause of death." He added.

At this point, I no longer know how to figure everything up. What father told me made feel the pain silently but I chose to not show it, not that I could.

"Where is mother?" I asked.

"She's in our room now." My feet started to move without my will but I knew it will lead me to where my mother is now lying, lifelessly. I left father and Zoren without a word as I continued to walk to where mother was. The numbers of the steps I took to get there, was how many times my heart and my soul was shattered. I stopped in front of a huge door and just stared at it for a very long time.

My hands touched the knob then before I knew, the door opened wide and my sight caught a woman lying on the bed so peacefully. Maybe because she's already in peace or maybe because she's lifeless.

I walked silently towards her, everything dawning on me. The pain, every kind of hurt came down on me like the rain. Tears started to fall from my eyes as I now stood right beside my mother who is now gone.

"Mom, wake up. I need something to eat." My voice broke as I said the last words.

"Mom, wake up." I touched her hand before falling on my knees. Tears fell on the carpet as I released my pent up cry. Mother, who killed you?