The ceo's secret

After hanging up LAN Ting's phone, I walked slowly towards the bus stop. Suddenly, I felt sad. I think my back must be full of sadness at the moment!

The streets are full of people and horses, and one's sadness is silent. The sky in Binhai city is still so blue, officials are talking at luxury banquets, and the high-end cars on the road are shining. Excited people talk about stocks, house prices and car markets, as well as movies, music and love. Roadside kiss me, I love young people for a small matter to die!

Not to mention a person's unemployment, even if a person's death, the world will not change because of you, even Binhai city will not change because of you! There are too few great men, only a few in a century. Most of us live humbly like ants, and small as dust floating in the sun!

No one is sad that you can't find a job, no one is sad that you are hungry and cold, no one is sad that you are alone!

Before I knew it, I had already passed the bus stop. Suddenly, I didn't want to go back to my rental house, the small single room where less than 200 yuan mouse was walking on the cement floor in Chengjiao. It was like a tomb. There was no sunshine, no telephone, no laptop, no 24-hour hot water!

After breaking up with my first girlfriend Ye Mei, I left H city and came to Binhai city. I've rented that small single room for more than three months! I have no relatives in this city, no friends, no colleagues, lonely as ghosts!

Sometimes I lie on my dirty single bed and look at the cobwebs on the ceiling. I wonder how many wandering souls there are in this city like me? They have no background, no relationship, and not too much talent. They are frustrated everywhere. They are bruised in the cold reality and still can't find their own sky!

Their sky is always cloudy, their heart is always hovering around zero degrees Fahrenheit, they have no credit card, no Valentine's day, no gifts, no lovely little princess! In this real society, if not a simple pretty girl, she will not fall in love with a penniless poor boy! The story of the princess and the poor boy, even in the fairy tale, is also so luxurious!

My girlfriend Ye Mei and I have been in love since we were sophomores. After graduating from University, I went to her hometown H city with her. I thought she was the little princess I was destined to be! But in the end, she left me and chose an old man who was nearly ten years older than him!

Five years of love, after all, can not resist the temptation of money, I do not know which celebrity said, women are essentially vanity! There is no woman who will not betray, only the betrayal chip that does not meet her inner requirements!

On the night Ye Mei broke up with me, I was drunk in the bar. Although I had been aware of her betrayal, there were many cracks between us, and I was psychologically prepared, I still couldn't accept the reality!

I don't understand the lovers who have gone through five spring, summer, autumn and winter together. There are so many love lives, so many vows. It takes so much time and effort to cultivate a true love! But it only takes one word to destroy a relationship!

That night, when I came out of the bar, I fell asleep on the street. Fortunately, the temperature was not too low at that time, otherwise I would probably freeze to death on the street! After that, I came to Binhai city with an injured heart, far away from the sad place. I thought that if I didn't leave H City, maybe my heart wound would not heal so soon. Every place in the seaside city is engraved with our common memory. As soon as I go out, my heart will have nowhere to escape!

After reading a pile of books on love psychology, I gradually understand that there is no love in the world itself. Love is just something that people make up to comfort human heart! Therefore, we can be ambiguous, we can flirt, we can also have direct sex, but we don't want to talk about any bullshit love! Flaubert said that love is a shameful game!

The phone rang. I can't guess who called, because since I left H City, few people have called me except for the phone contact with my hometown and the employer who informed me of the interview!

I felt out the mobile phone from my bag, but it was Ye Mei's phone! ——

We haven't been in touch with each other in the past three months. Even in the midnight when I miss her the most, I can't bear to call her! When a person's heart decided to leave, how can it be a phone call can save the outcome of such a simple thing ah! Maybe Ye Mei has missed me, maybe she has also read the old love, it is difficult to say that she is not with me an idea, not to see, not cheap, is the most sensible choice to forget a person!

But there is a final agreement between us. I met Ye Mei before leaving H city. I told her that if she got married one day, please let me know! It's not that I'm in the mood to attend her wedding, but that I can completely die for her! If I die for ye Mei, it's not that I die for love!

Unexpectedly, this time is earlier than expected!

Shaking his hand to hold the mobile phone, I feel a little unsteady, hurriedly held the vertical billboard on the street, I stabilized my mood, then raised my thumb and pressed the answer button——The person on the other end of the mobile phone didn't speak, and neither did I. We had a stalemate for about three seconds -

"how are you? Ming Ming... " Ye Mei at the end of the mobile phone finally mumbled.

At this moment, hearing her voice, I can't use words to describe my mood, pain, missing, or hatred? I don't know what it is, maybe nothing, maybe everything! This voice that used to whisper in my ear for five years, this voice that used to make me ecstatic on countless beautiful nights, and now it's owned by another old man!

My pillow man! My most familiar stranger! I choked speechless, and my nose was so sore that I wanted to cry Ming Ming Do you still hate me?... " On the other end of the cell phone, her voice rang softly again.

I tried to endure the pain in my nose, the tears I was about to fall, and my choking voice said, "do you think you are not hateful?..." Do you think Will I have a good time without you?... "

"But I really can't help it! I can't help it These three months are as long as three years I had a good time Hard work You know what? Mingming! I really have no choice, I have no choice I'm sorry! Mingming! Sorry I know I'm sorry! Forget me! Mingming! Forget me completely! I'm a heartless woman! Forget me from your memory!... "

I held my lips tightly and grasped the billboard tightly. I felt that my fingers were going to be embedded in the glass. I held back my choking voice and murmured, "you're here to tell me that you're going to get married, aren't you?" Are you here to Tell me Tomorrow is your big day, isn't it really? Is it?... "

The other end of the mobile phone didn't speak, only heard her breath, and her choking voice: "Mingming! The next life We must be together in the next life How about the next life? The next life... "

I suddenly feel cold, feel funny, this life can not grasp the person, who has the right to talk about the next life! I pretended to be calm and said, "well Then I sincerely congratulate you I wish you I wish you both respect each other and grow old together

I pressed the phone decisively, and my eyes were blurred with tears -

the traffic, pedestrians and high-rise buildings in the city were blurred

I can't find a suitable way to vent my intense emotions. What can I do to comfort my injured heart? My poor career and love are all defeated by men!

Turn into an alley, head down into a small hotel, will be tired and broken body and mind fell on the window table and chair, like me this kind of down and out of the way men even injured also have no money to go to the bar to get drunk, this society is such a reality, no money man even go to the bar to get drunk qualification!

I ordered a few dishes at random and asked the boss to take a bottle of 70 degree Erguotou with half a Jin. Before the dishes came up, I had already killed half a bottle.

Xu Zhian's bitter love song "why do you love others behind my back" came from the speaker in front of the hair art shop across the street:

thinking about your face, empty face

walking numbly on the verge of collapse

I need a garden that can shed tears

irrigate this bitter promise

the most beloved lover, but hurt me the most

Why do you love me behind my back Others

women's innocent eyes, hidden cold needle

life is not clear, but expect eternity

Oh, weak soul, has fallen into too deep

Why do you love others behind my back

long cooling kiss, hidden in the heart warming

love is full of cruelty, but I am too serious

love layers, torn

I have no appetite for food, just peanuts and Xu Zhian's bitter love songs. I pour the liquor into my stomach one by one. I'm sure I have a tendency to be abused at the moment, because the strong liquor stimulates the gastric mucosa like burning, which makes me feel a little happy

I don't know how long I stayed in that small hotel or how many cups I drank. I saw several half Jin Beijing Erguotou lying on the table! When I was in University, I wanted to drink. Because I was too poor, I could only drink the cheap Beijing Erguotou. At that time, I thought that as long as I graduated and worked, I would always be with the cheap Beijing Erguotou saygoodbeye! However, nearly two years after I came out of University, I found that I still can only afford to drink Beijing Erguotou, and I can only afford to smoke cheap Zhongnanhai!

It was already dark and the street lights were on when the hotel came out.