The devil who loved me

We made love two more times that night.

We both remained naked beneath the blanket, exhausted from the sex we had. I didn't feel guilty, with someone like Jafar, I didn't know how much time I would have with him, Toun and Abayomi's ish taught me that you should go for whatever you want, no one knows tomorrow..

I was awake but I was sure he was asleep. Even as he slept, he was so desirable. In another place, another time and in another world, I would have been happy lying next to him. But I had my fears, especially with the dream. I didn't want him to die, he meant the world to me…I was the harshest judge of myself, but in Jafar's case, I would rather be guilty being with him.

When I opened my eyes again, he was not in bed. I checked my phone to see if he had left a message but he hadn't. I called his phone, it rang close to me..i was glad he was still around. I wore the Jersey again, went to the bathroom to clean up then decided to call Timi..

Timi: hey..

Me: you haven't been picking my calls

Timi: I was busy…

Me: Timi, look I am sorry…

Timi: its alright, I guess the heart wants what it wants…

Me: we can still be close friends?

Timi: I would like that..

Me: don't forget to wear black tomorrow…

Timi: sure, my regards to Jafar..

Me: Timi…stop..

Timi: seriously..if he hurts you…tell him I will come for him..

Me: he won't…

Timi: bye …

Me: bye dear…

I felt a weight lifted from my chest after I had spoken to Timi…I called Toun…

Toun: babes..

Me: how are you faring?

Toun: I am better o…I cry less now..

Me: I am glad…

Toun: don't forget to wear black tomorrow..

Me: never…

Toun: how is Timi and Jafar?

Me: hmmmm

Toun: what has been happening?

Me: I broke up with Timi..

Toun: I expected this…

Me: I slept with Jafar last night…

Toun: wow!..you guys are together now?

Me: not really…I don't know…I suspect he will tell me I am not safe in his house and I will have to vacate…but I am inlove with him…

Toun: does he love you?

Me: how will I know, I know he likes me though..

Toun: are you happy?

Me: I am happy, but I am scared…I don't want him to die…

Toun: he won't die…

Me: are you sure?

Toun: yes…

Me: thank you dear, it's such a relief talking to you..

Toun: I would be going to Zenon house on Monday, to pick my passport

Me: that's for your UK Visa?

Toun: yes…mumsi said I need a change in environment…

Me: what if school resumes?

Toun: fvck school!

Me: Just take care of yourself dear..

Jafar came in with a cup of tea, two slices of bread and a boiled egg…

Jafar : breakfast for the lady!

Me: I have not brushed yet…I think I left my brush in Ijebu-ode..you have a spare…?

Jafar: smelly mouth….you can use mine…

Me: you can be romantic sometimes o…

Jafar smiled..

Me: I would be going to Sagamu tomorrow to stay with a friend..

Jafar: when?

Me: Tomorrow..

Jafar: what happened between Timi and yourself…

I walked to his bathroom, he followed me..

Me: nothing…

Jafar: you guys had a fight?

Me: no..

Jafar: sooo?

Me: He kissed me and I realized I couldn't kiss him back

Jafar: oh…

Me: what?

Jafar: nothing

Me: talk jor…

Jafar: i'm glad you didn't kiss him…