The Elixir is for You, The Poison is for Me

《Pills for You, Poison for Me》 actually concluded yesterday, but it was quite late, so I didn't write a summary and postponed it until today.

Since there's no reason to postpone it any further, after finishing Suiyi *dalao*'s Elden Ring 'Macho Man' guide, I still need to sit down and properly write.

This book started serialization on December 14, 2020, and it's now exactly one year and three months.

Various things have happened during these one year and three months. I won't mention the outside world, with the repeated epidemics, quarantines, and floods, the economic downturn, the increasing pressure on employment, and then the war starting next door, and now the stock market is plummeting (my funds and stocks have also lost a lot, but I don't use leverage, so I just closed the software and pretended to be dead, haha, let's encourage each other).

And besides these messy things in the outside world, I myself have also had some problems one after another.

First of all, physically, being over thirty is completely different from being in your early twenties. Many small problems that you wouldn't have thought of before start to appear one after another. Many people in this industry don't have very regular schedules. Writing... inspiration always comes more easily late at night.

Everyone generally stays up late, and coupled with maintaining a sitting position for a long time, and possibly not controlling their diet very well, it's easy to have problems. I should be considered okay. I basically cook my own meals, and I also maintain daily exercise, but last year's physical examination still sounded an alarm.

Therefore, I also advise everyone to eat on time, maintain exercise, and try not to stay up late, because it's very possible that when you're in your teens or twenties, your recovery ability is strong and you can do whatever you want, but that doesn't mean it has no impact on your body, especially when you're in your thirties or forties, you'll have to pay the price, and when you're even older, the decline in quality of life will be terrifying.

Although it's a bit of a cliché, health is indeed the most important thing. No matter what you want to do now or in the future, this is your capital.

I am also reflecting on myself, hoping that I can maintain a healthier schedule in the future.

Then, let's talk about this book.

My initial plan for this book was actually to write a *shuangwen*, because I read a wide variety of books myself, for both casual and experienced readers, single-female lead, harem, and even gender-bender stories.

When I'm in a good mood and have slept well, I want to read novels with rigorous logic, full characters, and twists and turns. And sometimes, after a busy day, I feel very tired and can't muster any energy, so I might go read some *shuangwen* to cheer myself up...

《My Day Has 48 Hours》, well, more accurately, after finishing 《Interstellar White Rabbit Candy》, I was looking for *shuangwen* to read, but I couldn't find anything I particularly liked, so I thought, why don't I write one myself, so everyone can be happy together.

But at that time, I really underestimated many things.

There are many authors on Qidian, and everyone has different styles and topics.

Most authors cultivate deeply in a certain genre, and there's a reason for this, because readers who follow books have different tastes, and when they follow a book they like, they will remember the author and label them.

For example, when you mention infinite flow, everyone will think of a certain author. When you mention basketball or soccer novels, you will think of a certain *dashen*. When you talk about harem, you will immediately and subconsciously think of some names.

I myself am the same way. When I want to read a certain type of novel, I always go to check out the works of some of my favorite authors first.

Life in this world is always inevitably labeled.

Because labels can help you quickly summarize and categorize, making it easier to find what you want.

But this also has a problem. For example, if you remember an author whose label is single-female lead, and you click on their next book and find that it's a harem, you will inevitably be very disappointed.

And the situation on my side may be even more serious.

From 48 to Pills, I'm no longer just dealing with the issue of harem or not harem, even the style has changed.

My original plan was to write a *dihua shuangwen*, and *dihua* inevitably comes with a certain amount of intelligence reduction, which would make some readers who came to follow my novels because of 48 or White Rabbit Candy very painful.

And I should have thought of this kind of thing a long time ago.

Because when I was writing 48, I did this kind of *sao* operation. The style between different instances sometimes changed quite a bit. The most obvious was the Lego chapter. Looking back on it, the reviews were very polarized.

But because it was infinite flow, readers who didn't like it could skip an entire scenario directly, so the impact was still controllable.

But when it came to Pills, because it was an entire complete story, the contradictions couldn't be suppressed.

To give a simple example, regarding Lu Jing taking Gu Caiwei, the question of whether Gu Caiwei was a virgin or not, if I followed the standard process for handling it in a *shuangwen*, I should have written her as a virgin.

Some readers also raised this question with me. Later, after thinking about it, I made a patch, but this patch triggered a strong backlash from another group of readers, and everyone even scolded the reader who made the suggestion in the comments section, which made me feel quite guilty.

Because in my opinion, neither side was actually wrong... This responsibility lies entirely with me.

I know where everyone's disappointment comes from. Many old readers, who have followed me from 48, or even earlier works like Natural Born Ditz, have a fixed expectation when they click on a book.

I failed everyone's expectations, and then I made a second mistake.

I started to look back, wanting to write something more logical, but this weakened the *dihua* part, and the *shuang* feeling also decreased.

The result of the compromise was that neither side was very satisfied, even though my original intention in doing so was to make more people satisfied.

If I could choose again, I might want to write a *dihua* routine *shuangwen* according to the original framework.

Ah, but there are no ifs...

The story of Pills has ended, and I still hope that everyone who has followed me here can find some happiness in it, then this story will not have been written in vain.

Finally, let's talk about some personal matters. As you can see, my mental state was not very good when I wrote the ending of this book. In the last month, it basically became a daily update.

One reason is the accumulation of fatigue. Writing a story is like a marriage that has gone through the seven-year itch, with a lot less novelty. It requires filling in the holes and finishing up, and it's more about solving daily trivial matters. Another reason is that I basically didn't rest at all between 48 and Pills.

It's like a long march.

Furthermore, I myself also ended a relationship. To be honest, seeing many of my classmates and friends in my WeChat moments already having two children and showing off their babies, while I am still struggling through emotional reincarnation, my mood is also quite complicated.

I was muddleheaded for a while, and I was looking for videos to watch on Bilibili, and I accidentally saw popular science about HSP (highly sensitive people), and I found that I am a complete HSP.

I want to write a short story, about 200,000 words?

This novel was started after my first heartbreak, and I wrote 30,000 words intermittently. I took it out to look at it some time ago, and I felt it was quite fun.

So I want to complete it, but of course the beginning has to be revised.

I'll do it now. The book title has already been applied for, and it's called 《Immortal Cultivation World Breakup Recovery Program: Non-Prescription Edition》. It should be available tomorrow or the evening after tomorrow. If you want to read it, you can bookmark it then~

I wish everyone happiness forever ( ' ' )