The First Order

Ren Xiaosu felt a little strange. After Yang Xiaojin came to the 88th barrier, he didn't even revisit Yang's Manor. Instead, he always brought him to a small shop like the Peace Tailor Shop to meet some former acquaintances.

"Xiaojin, wait a minute," the middle-aged woman in the tailor shop wiped her hands, took off the sleeve on her arm, and then went to the door to reverse the small wooden sign "in operation" hanging outside. It became "closed."

It was closed at 9 o'clock in the morning. It seemed that the other party did not want anyone to disturb her and Yang Xiaojin.

The tailor shop is small. There are various cloths hanging on the walls of the shop. The room also exudes a good smell of leather, which is not pungent at all.

The window was cleaned very clean, and the floor was very clean. Ren Xiaosu could see that the other party was living very carefully and exquisitely.

The middle-aged woman smiled and smiled at Ren Xiaosu: "Introduce yourself, I was a tailor who gave Xiaojin a lot of clothes since I was a child. My name is Lan Jingchu, how about you call me Aunt Lan? The young handsome in the northwest really is different , Just like the legend, it is full of spirit and natural clothes rack."

Ren Xiaosu was said a little embarrassed. Others praised him for his powerful and combat effectiveness. He could listen to it with relish, and even participate in the discussion casually.

But once praised in person, he would show a rare shyness.

Not many people can see Ren Xiaosu's shyness.

However, what Ren Xiaosu was most worried about at this time was that he was afraid that Yang Xiaojin would suddenly tell him not to call him Aunt Lan, because the age of Aunt Lan was smaller than Grandma Lin...

Fortunately, Yang Xiaojin didn't add anything.

"Wait a minute, I will make two cups of tea for you," Aunt Lan said as she entered the back room.

There are brown solid wood tables and chairs in the house, with sugar and snacks on it, which should be prepared for guests.

Yang Xiaojin twisted a piece of sugar and peeled off the icing, and then handed it to Ren Xiaosu: "Taste it, this is what I remembered when I was a kid."

Ren Xiaosu ate into his mouth, and a thick smell of plum mixed with the saliva of his mouth.

I don't know why, as soon as the sugar is in my mouth, Ren Xiaosu suddenly feels relaxed.

Aunt Lan walked out with the tea tray, she looked at Yang Xiaojin: "Is there anything going back to barrier 88 this time? Can Aunt Lan help?"

With that said, two cups of brewed black tea were placed in front of Ren Xiaosu and Yang Xiaojin.

Yang Xiaojin shook her head. She pointed to Ren Xiaosu and said, "There is nothing serious about it. Just give him a four-piece suit and leave him a spare."

"It turns out that," Aunt Lan smiled thickly: "Then I have to do it well, but for four sets of clothes, I may need to ask the tailors of other shops to help, otherwise I will do it for a long time. ."

"Well, it's okay," Yang Xiaojin said to Ren Xiaosu, "How much is it?"

"No," Aunt Lan shook her head with a smile: "Yang's money I have saved is not used up, there are many more, I will bring you the account book, and the rest of the money for 20 sets of clothes does not matter ."

Ren Xiaosu secretly murmured, is the consortium so rich?

Yang Xiaojin said: "You don't need to look at the account book. Aunt Lan, please call me a more familiar shoemaker. I will give him twelve pairs of shoes."

Ren Xiaosu was shocked to hear this, and even Aunt Lan was a little weird: "Do I need to do so much?"

"Well," Yang Xiaojin said, "the strongest."

At this time, even Aunt Lan felt something was wrong. Who would make so many shoes at once?

And Ren Xiaosu was a little uneasy in his heart. This feeling was like a sign of separation. It was like the wife would prepare a lot of ingredients for her husband before she left. She was afraid that her husband would be hungry at home.

If the husband wants to travel, the wife will take ten pairs of shoes at home and let the husband wear them on the road.

This is a gift before parting.

Yes, what Yang Xiaojin is doing now is like she is going out.

At this time, Yang Xiaojin was still talking to Aunt Lan: "The suit should be looser on the waistline, underarms, and around the shoulders. Because of his large amount of activity, sometimes he can't catch the fight. If it is tight, The words will affect his activities. In addition, the shoes must be particularly strong. He has trampled on several pairs of shoes."

Not to mention, when the power of the transcendence suddenly erupted, the strength of the soles and shoes was really great. Many transcendentals actually had troubles with the shoes. After two battles, the shoes became crocodile mouths.

After Yang Xiaojin explained this, Aunt Lan immediately called a shoemaker on a fixed phone, and the other party was also very professional. He actually printed Ren Xiaosu's foot shape with glue, saying that this is the way to make the most suitable shoes.

To be honest, Ren Xiaosu enjoyed this treatment for the first time in his life.

When developing the foot shape, Yang Xiaojin was still asking how long it would take to make it better, and whether adding money would be faster.

Then ask if you can prepare some insoles, the best.

At this moment Yang Xiaojin lost his heroic spirit, but instead became a little more gentle.

After the shoemaker left, Yang Xiaojin suddenly asked Aunt Lan: "Uncle Li? How come I haven't seen him for a long time, did he rest today?"

Aunt Lan was picking up the cloth and paused. Then she slowly said: "On the night of Barrier No. 88, he was knocked down by a car that wanted to escape, and he never woke up again. "

That night Ren Xiaosu took the lead with Yan Liuyuan and others, but before leaving, Li's nano warriors had arrived at the barrier and started wanton attacks.

The relationship between that war and Ren Xiaosu was not too great, but the reason why the Lee nano soldiers were able to break through the Qing’s defense line and reach the Yang’s was also intentional.

So someone would say that when an avalanche, no snowflake is innocent.

However, from Ren Xiaosu's point of view, he couldn't say that Qing Zhen's choice was wrong.

In such a sad era, everyone is like a person drowned in water. If you want to swim out of the water to breathe, the only person you can rely on and believe in is yourself.

If you are not strong enough, then do not want to save other drowning people, because you will be caught by others and sink to the bottom of the sea.

Aunt Lan said softly: "It was his birthday that day. I closed the shop early and went home to cook. He said he would go to measure some clothes for others before going home. As a result, I later learned that he went to the flower market and bought me A bunch of roses. When I found him, the roses were scattered next to his body, soaked in blood."

Yang Xiaojin didn't speak for a long while, and Aunt Lan didn't have too much sadness. In this era, who is not used to life and death?

According to Gyeongsung’s statistics, the average life expectancy of Gyeongsang in the past ten years was only 51. On the one hand, due to lack of materials, on the other hand, the medical level was far less than before the catastrophe.

Ren Xiaosu remembered that before the catastrophe, the average life expectancy of many cities exceeded 70, and there were as many as 83 cities in first-tier cities. This is the change brought about by different medical standards.

So, this is an era when everyone is better at saying goodbye.

Not everyone wants to be good, but life forces you to get used to it all.

After coming out of the tailor shop, Yang Xiaojin took a deep breath and said, "Xiaosu, when the clothes are ready, you leave two gold bars for Aunt Lan to respond."

"Well, yes," Ren Xiaosu nodded.

"Let's go, it's noon. Please eat beef patties. When I was a kid, my favorite was beef patties, which is more fragrant than the taste at home," said Yang Xiaojin. She silently thought about it: "I will buy you something else in the afternoon ."

Ren Xiaosu was a little silent. He didn't know what the so-called other things were.

When walking on the road, he can feel Yang Xiaojin's deep nostalgia for this barrier. Even though the other party has no affection with the Yang's consortium, it carries the childhood and happiness of the other party.

In the afternoon, Yang Xiaojin bought him three brand new jackets of the best quality.

This year, the basics of buying jackets are either rich or expensive. After all, there are too few people who can get out of barriers and use jackets.

In the outdoor store, Yang Xiaojin also bought Ren Xiaosu the best engineer shovel, tent, insulation blanket, and even an emergency oxygen bottle.

Yang Xiaojin's generous shots and wide variety of purchases have left Ren Xiaosu dumbfounded.

In the evening, the peaked girl went to buy a lot of fresh spices for Ren Xiaosu, and once you bought it, it was a big jar.

Salt, pepper noodles, chili powder, soybean paste, soy sauce, oil consumption, MSG...

Readily available.

This feeling is like being afraid that Ren Xiaosu can't find anything at his disposal when he lives alone.

Finally, Yang Xiaojin bought Ren Xiaosu a piece of the most expensive waterproof ginkgo watch found in the 88th barrier.

At that time, the boss said that the watch was particularly strong. A friend of mine accidentally fell downstairs with the watch.

It is only a pity that although the watch is not bad, his friend fell to death...

Ren Xiaosu, as a person with memories of civilization before and after the catastrophe, had some emotions when buying watches.

Before the catastrophe, some watches were hundreds of thousands and millions, and they were not necessarily available.

If you want to buy a tight watch at the counter, you have to tying two cheap watches, just like buying a best-selling car, you have to increase the price.

Now it’s okay to buy the most expensive watch, and the boss happily offers you as a wild father.

After coming out of the watch shop, Ren Xiaosu finally couldn't help looking at the fading sky: "Xiao Ge, if you have anything, you can tell me directly..."

Yang Xiaojin glanced at him: "Sooner or later, he will say, don't worry."

With that said, Yang Xiaojin actually found an office supplies store and bought a pen and a small book.

When Ren Xiaosu saw her buying a pen and a notebook, she felt a little giggled. Is this to write to herself? The kind of leaving a letter after saying goodbye?

After returning to the hotel that night, Yang Xiaojin shut himself in the house by himself, and asked Ren Xiaosu not to sleep first.

Yang Xiaojin said that no matter whether Ren Xiaosu has any doubts, there will be an answer tonight.

In summer, the wind blows at night.

Ren Xiaosu climbed out of the window to the top of the hotel by himself. He silently looked at the Wanjia lights that had not been extinguished, and suddenly felt a bit lonely.

Unprecedented loneliness.

In fact, Ren Xiaosu never mentioned some of his thoughts with others, and even Yan Liuyuan had never heard of his thoughts.

Sometimes, he feels that he is not worthy of owning a home.

Finally an apprentice was accepted, and the apprentice sat down.

Finally, a group of bandits gathered to rebuild their homes, and the bandits disappeared.

Finally, there was a younger brother. The younger brother went to the northern grassland.

Finally, there was an elder Jiang Xu who was assassinated.

Ren Xiaosu is like walking alone on a long dark long street, and once it turns out, no one is waiting under that dim light.

Under the light, there is only one sentence to say goodbye.

"Master, I'm gone."

"Brother, I can't go back."

"Xiaosu, take care."

In the summer nights, the hot breeze came across and gently blown away. The humid air in the south was like a hot and humid breath. The occasional coolness in the wind was like the singing of the singer after plucking the guitar.

Ren Xiaosu looked back in his memory. On the long road he came over, he was still only himself.

On the road, there were only muddy footprints and messy thorns.

Other than that, nothing was retained.

"I'm just a broom star," Ren Xiaosu smiled bitterly: "I can't even keep a home."

It turned out that the home of Anning East Road No. 144 that I wanted to go back to was the only one in the end. The other party didn't want to go back.

The minds of teenagers are complex and fragile and sensitive. Ren Xiaosu, who first encountered love, suffered and suffered like all teenagers.

However, at this moment, a window below him opened, and Yang Xiaojin leaned out and waved to Ren Xiaosu on the top of the building.

Ren Xiaosu froze for a moment. He thought that the other party would leave a letter. The result... seems to be a bit different from what he imagined?

He crawled down the wall, and when he got into the room of Yang Xiaojin from the window, he saw the other party handing him the small book in his hand.

"Is this...?" Ren Xiaosu hesitated. He was a little afraid to open it.

It's just that Yang Xiaojin has changed the silence and calmness of the past two days. She smiled and said, "Open it and see."

Ren Xiaosu opened the first page, and in the center of the book was written "uselessly using the volume."

Turning over the first page, there is an explanation on the back: I won’t regenerate you with this volume, and will give you a big hug.

On the second page, the center of the book reads "Just go and use the volume."

Turning over the second page, the back reads: After using this volume, you will go to the end of the world and I will accompany you.

The third page is "Gentle and Thoughtful Scroll". After using this volume, I will become the gentlest little angel in a day.

The fourth page is "Massage Roll". After using this volume, I can massage you for 120 minutes and become your gold medal technician. I am good at wrong bone massage.

The fifth page is "Deluxe Breakfast Roll", after using this volume...

Ren Xiaosu turned page by page, and that page of "privileged use of volume" was like warm red charcoal in the snow, and all bad moods were ironed out.

The privileged volume has a total of ninety-nine pages, and the last page reads: Duration of Use, Forever

Make a payment and love you Yang Xiaojin.

Ren Xiaosu silently looked up at Yang Xiaojin. He wanted to say something, but he couldn't say anything.

Yang Xiaojin smiled and said, "Do you like the gift I gave?"

"Like," Ren Xiaosu took a deep breath and said, "But, you two days..."

"Ignore you, don't you? I deliberately mad at you," Yang Xiaojin said with a smile: "The next time I run to a far place without saying a word, there are more brutal punishments. Ren Xiaosu, remember, you will have this later When something like taking a risk to someone appears, I'm going to hit you."

Ren Xiaosu: "..."

"What else do you want to ask?" Yang Xiaojin asked.

"Why are you so obsessed with taking risks with me," Ren Xiaosu asked softly.

Yang Xiaojin said seriously: "I have lost you once, so I swear that I will never lose you again in my life."

Ren Xiaosu asked again: "Why did you suddenly give me so many gifts, such as clothes, shoes, such as..."

"When I learned that you were 240 years old, I was actually quite lost," Yang Xiaojin said. "It turns out that I have missed your time for more than two hundred years."

At the moment of the wizarding country, Yang Xiaojin suddenly felt like he was looking at Ren Xiaosu across the river.

At that moment Yang Xiaojin was more lonely than Ren Xiaosu, just like there was a hand in the time that was pulling Ren Xiaosu away.

However, Yang Xiaojin is a very neat person. Since there is a distance, she will pull the distance back.

Ren Xiaosu was stunned. He was about to speak, but was interrupted by Yang Xiaojin: "Don't speak first, let me say."

"In the past two days, I took you to my favorite bun shop, and took you to my favorite tailor shop, including the store that used to buy outdoor supplies," Yang Xiaoshan said: "Actually, I want you to see Look at my past life, let you know me in front of you, just like you have lived by my side."

"I give you gifts, I also want to make up for the life I missed you. Every time I think of you without me in your 221 years, I will be difficult to control the loss. So I want to make up 240 birthday gifts for you, so I don’t There will be shortcomings. In the future, since you have received a gift, you must assume that you have been with me for the past 240 years."

She gently hugged Ren Xiaosu, and then gently pressed her face to Ren Xiaosu's collarbone and said: "Xiaosu, everyone is the first time to meet love. I don't know how to maintain this relationship, nor how to express it. All I can do is leave no room for myself."

Ren Xiaosu stared blankly at the cap girl in front of him. Yes, both of them were the first encounters of love in their lives. No one had any preparations. This hot feeling came unguardedly.

The feelings of the two of them seem to be more enthusiastic and fuller than the others. They have fought side by side, died together, separated and reunited.

The other party does not have any love experience, but is treating him with the most sincere feelings.

People always say that companionship is the longest love farewell.

What Yang Xiaojin wants to do now is to accompany him throughout his life, whether in the past or in the future.

At this time, Ren Xiaosu suddenly asked: "Why didn't your key door open in the home of barrier 144? The wizards said that the key door will open where you want to go the most..."

As a result, Yang Xiaojin was stunned for a while. "That's my home. I can go back anytime. Why should I drive there?"

She said that she was stunned by Ren Xiaosu.

The opening end of this key door is actually the inner needs. Everyone's psychological needs are different at each stage. Children want to go to the candy house, and aging wine wants to go to the beach to avoid the world, which they can't get.

According to Yang Xiaojin, the way to open the key door is actually: go to a place where you can't go.

Ren Xiaosu has never had a home, so even if there is a "home" now, there are some troubles in his heart.

And he was in the wizarding country, thousands of kilometers away from home, and there was no Yang Xiaojin around him.

Yang Xiaojin is different, she has subconsciously regarded it as a destination, so the level of her inner needs has dropped a lot: you can go back anytime.

Ren Xiaosu always felt a little wrong: "Are you afraid of losing that home?"

"Lost?" Yang Xiaojin wondered: "How to lose? Do you want to abandon that house? Do you dare?"

"Cough," Ren Xiaosu hurriedly said, "Dare not dare..."

"That's not over," Yang Xiaojin said.

In fact, Yang Xiaojin is the one who entered the psychological stability stage earlier. She already has a sense of security, and Ren Xiaosu has not.

Ren Xiaosu sighed: "I thought you'd mind my age these days, I want to leave without saying goodbye."

Yang Xiaojin's mouth twitched: "If you don't give you a long memory, what will you do if you still run around?"

"No running, no running," Ren Xiaosu quickly assured.

"It's about the same," Yang Xiaojin proudly said: "But you're having a little trouble with your birthday in the future. It's terrible to think about inserting 240 candles. It's terrifying to think about your birthday friends."

Ren Xiaosu: "???

Why do you say such things at this time? !

"Right," Ren Xiaosu asked, "So are you counting the gifts you are giving? Now 240 are enough?"

Yang Xiaojin shook his head and said, "No, now it is 239 pieces. Only 99 privileged use volumes are the only 239 pieces."

Ren Xiaosu froze for a moment: "What's the last thing?"

At this time, Yang Xiaojin suddenly took off his peaked cap and said softly, "The 240th gift is my own."

Ren Xiaosu shivered: "Please don't materialize women..."

However, before he had finished speaking, he saw that Yang Xiaojin threw the cap in his hand and smashed the light switch in the house: "I think when are you going to counsel!"

Xia Guiyue, red sleeves do not need to cry.

At this moment, Ren Xiaosu suddenly remembered what his father said to himself in that letter, Xiaosu, do you already have love?

Love is when you suddenly feel that you can feel happiness without conquering the whole world, without getting ahead, without making a name for yourself, without being entangled.

I even lost a bit of my ambition, and I think it's good.

You mind everything, and you can compromise.

Love is the result of panic and panic, some people are lonely, and some people finally understand that all panic and waiting are worthwhile.

Love is at the right time and meets a person who wants to promise a lifetime.

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This chapter really made me think about it for a long time...