The Forbidden Alpha

Gabe

“Fuck your ass feels warm and tight around my cock,” he said. I moan and time disappears as he fucks me slow and hard. The feeling of his cock claiming me combined with the pressure of his flesh against my cock feels so fucking good.

“Please, Odis,” I begged. “Oh, Goddess, please,” I moan.

“I love hearing my name coming from your mouth. What do you want, Sweet sweet Gabriel?”

“Please,” I cry.

“Tell me what you want,” Odis said as he continued his slow torment. I won’t be able to stop even if you beg me. His words echo in my head. I won’t beg him to stop. I’ll do the opposite.

“Fuck me, fuck me hard and fast. Please,” I groan as he pulls out and slowly thrusts into me. Every slow thrust feels like the first time he pushed into me; opening, stretching, filling. He pulls out of me and thrusts to the balls. He does this again and again while keeping that painfully slow pace.

“I like seeing you like this,” Odis murmured, his breathing ragged as he forces himself to pull out and thrust in slowly. “Needy, aching, pleading looks good on you.” I moan as he pulls out and slams into me.

He and time stood still as he stared down at me. My chest rises with each breath I take. Odis starts moving again but this time he gives me what I want. The only thing left was him above me. His fingers grip my skin painfully and he pulls out and slams into me over and over again. His balls slapped against my cheeks and it only adds to my pleasure. Odis’s muscles flex around me and his cock thickens. Oh, Goddess, I can’t.

“Odis,” I cry as he slams into me. Each thrust harder than the last. “Oh fuuuck, I’m coming, I’m coming.” I come hard and fast for him. He grunts above me as I squeeze around him, my come spurts out and coasts our flesh.

“Yes, fuck, like that, just like that” Odis groans. His thrusts become faster, his cock thickens and his grip tightens. He pumps into me hard and fast as he empties himself into me. We’re a panting jumbled mess of arms and slick bodies.

He leans down and kisses me. It’s warm and soft and everything I didn’t know I needed. Silence settled over us for a moment, as we come down from the high of our orgasm. My body went slack and I relaxed against the bed.

My eyes flutter and I know if we stay like this I’m going to knock out. Odis moves first and my eyes follow him as he pulls up off of me. I just had sex with, okay no, Odis fucked me but still. Odis and I just had mind-blowing sex and I wasn’t sure what to say. The bed dipped as he got off the bed and I watched as he disappeared into the bathroom.

I rested my eyes and was about to fall asleep when something warm and wet pressed against my ass. My eyes flew open and landed on Odis between my legs. Emotion threatened to strangle me as I realize he was cleaning me up. I wanted to cry at the tender way he took care of me. I didn’t want to think about the last time I’d cared for someone or had been cared for by someone. I wanted just a few more moments of this, peace, this calm that Odis gave me. He sat at the edge of the bed and I made my way over to him. I leaned my head against his back.

“I’m sorry,” Odis spoke first. “I don’t know what came over me. I brought you food this morning because I knew you’d need energy after how drunk you were last night. I was only bringing you food. When Leo came out of your room, the thought of you two together hurt more than it should have.”

I listened to his heartbeat as he talked. This is the first time we were having a conversation about the sexual tension, the misunderstanding. We were communicating and it felt good. I wanted to hear what he was thinking and I wanted to know how he felt.

“When I left with the bag of bagels in hand, I think something snapped. Next thing I know, I’m charging into your room trying to lay claim to you,” Odis said.

“Do you regret it?” I asked.

Odis didn’t respond.

“You don’t have to worry about Leo. We’re partners, friends even.”

“See that’s the thing though. I’m not yours and you aren’t mine. You shouldn’t have to explain your relationship to him.” I lifted my head from his back as confusion started to seep into me.

“What are you trying to say? I was explaining why you had no reason to apologize for being angry. I know I’m not yours but… am I nothing to you?” I whispered.

“I’m saying this shouldn’t have happened,” Odis said firmly. “I’m Beta and the pack is my responsibility.”

“What does the pack have to do with us? Are you pushing me away because of the pack?” I asked. Odis sighed and I could hear the faint sound of what remained of my heart cracking. I wasn’t asking for him to be my boyfriend, I wasn’t asking for more, I just… I liked being with him. . Why couldn’t he just admit that he wanted me?

“This is about her, Gabe,” Odis said. “I love her, you love her. This? This feels like a betrayal to her.” His words are a slap in the face and thoughts of her flood my mind, my chest. Followed by the reminder of the gaping hole in my chest her death left.

“It’s because of her that this wasn’t. Our love for her brought us together. This… I feel with you.”

“That’s selfish,” Odis said. He was being cold again and I didn’t have to look at him to know his indifferent mask was in place. He got to his feet and started to get dressed. My heart reached out to him but I forced my hands down.

“Can’t we be selfish?” I asked as tears blurred my vision. “I’ve missed her, I’ve mourned her, and I’ve hated myself for not being able to help her. She’s gone and she’s never coming back!” Odis didn’t look at me, he hadn’t since he’d been in me.. He opened the door and walked out without another word.