The Forbidden Alpha

Odis

My wolf, Troy, hadn’t said anything since we’d left the packhouse. As soon as we started running towards town his emotions began to blend with mine. He didn’t need to say anything I could feel his hope as if it were my own.

I know these lands like the back of my hand but I have no fucking clue where he could have gone. When I can’t smell his scent in the air, Troy whines.

All I know is I’m doing what feels right and right now? Finding Gabe feels right. After we search the city, I realize there are too many sections and I can’t think of a reason why he would come into the city.

Could I link him? It would save me a lot of time but I didn’t want to bother him or let him know I was coming. What was I going to say when I found him? I hadn’t thought that far ahead yet.

If I were trying to get away and be alone, I’d go through the desert area. I’d want to go to less populated areas and I wasted time here in the city.

Troy takes off and we trail around the city while I try to pull myself together. I’m sloppy when all I need to do is put together a plan that’ll help find Gabe.

I needed to think smarter not harder. Searching the entire territory would be a waste of time and I might miss him. Where could Gabe end up going? After a long night of running…

It’s obvious he’ll go to the packhouse but it’s too public to have a conversation. Where would Gabe go? I’m hit with an obvious idea almost as soon as the question fills my mind.

Troy turns on his heels. I think I know where he’ll go and Troy agrees with me. We’re heading back in the direction of the packhouse and nerves fill my belly. I’m sure he’ll be there. I’m just hoping he didn’t already.

When the forested area beside the packhouse comes into view we pick up our pace. As we enter through the forest the cool shade of the breeze sends a shiver up my back. It’s a welcome and even though it’s dark here I know it’ll only be this way until I get to the clearing.

I’ve found myself here on more than one occasion. Picking up his scent, I knew I was right. He had either just been here or he was still here. I knew the forest called to him as much as it did to me. It was a place outside of the packhouse I could come to when I wanted to be closer to her.

Odis, Didn’t I tell you that time was the best gift?

You’re looking for him just as badly as I am.

Because I want to see him… That doesn’t mean we should see him. Are you finally ready?

I don’t know, Troy.

Maybe you should ask yourself this before you throw yourself at him… again. From my point of view, it looks like you’re running around like a chicken with its head cut off.

What does this have to do with what we’re talking about, Troy? And I wasn’t going to throw myself at him.

I’m saying you’re running around like you don’t know what to do but deep down you do. If you weren’t going to throw yourself at him what are you going to do? Do you have a plan?

I-I

Exactly. You don’t know what you’re doing. Isn’t your motto: Think first?

Yes, I’m thinking.

Are you though?

I’m thinking that I want to see Gabe.

You’re being reckless. I know how you think, you need to know what you’re wanting, it’s INGRAINED in you. What are you going to do when you find him, O?

Don’t you think I know? I’m going to tell him about Paul and I’m going to explain.

And? I’m going to tell him… I’m going to tell him that I haven’t stopped thinking about him. He’s been on my mind every single moment since I had him underneath me.

So, you’re going to go from Paul to confessing?

Yes-NO!

Then what’s the plan? I’m going to explain about Paul.

You’re going to tell him about Rick?

Yes.

What else?

…

What do you want to happen after you’ve told him everything?

…

Are you going to tell him you want more with him?

Isn’t that what telling him I’ve thought of him every day?

Don’t answer my question with a question. That won’t get us anywhere. What do you want to come from this conversation?

I want…

I don’t fucking know what I want but maybe I’ll have an answer when I speak to him. Light almost blinds me as the trees open and I find myself in the clearing.

Spotting Felix, my heart pumps twice as fast as I slow to a stop. He’s sitting with his head on his legs. When he senses me he turns and sees us and my wolf and I both look back.

His tail drops and he sits up. Now that I’ve been seen, I have no choice but to walk forward. I’ve been looking for him and now I have him in front of me. Felix shifts and Gabe is left in his place.

“What do you want?” Gabe asked. He didn’t beat around the bush and he wasn’t going to bother with pleasantries. I wasn’t angry at his tone, I should have been but I was too bothered trying to fight the need to look at his naked body. Troy let go and I shifted back.

“I… I want you, Gabriel.”

He hesitated and clenched his jaw as he stared at me. He didn’t bat an eye and my words didn’t soften his gaze. He was mad really mad.

“You don’t get to fucking do that,” he said while shaking his head.. Besides… a lot of people want me, Odis. Why should I care if you want me?”