The Forbidden Alpha

It’s been a couple of days since the trial. The Half Moon pack and all of their pack members left, not including Gabe. Mavy and her parents left after the trial, I didn’t get to say goodbye but I think it’s better that way. I know things won’t be the same but that doesn’t stop my stomach from churning.

Ethan is busy during the day but we get to share dinner together. At night we cuddle, we haven’t done anything yet. I’ve started getting used to seeing him when I wake up in the morning. I know he wants me though, I feel him every morning.

Kor wants me to jump his bones and ride him until kingdom come. I haven’t seen Gamma Olivia and Gabe though. Odis is around but he keeps his distance. I’m not sure what he’s thinking but I would like to get to know him better.

“Adea?” Kor asked, her tone sounding lighthearted.

“Yes,” I questioned, doing my best. to try and hide my emotions from her. I could feel her intention, taste it on my tongue.

“Why haven’t you completed the mate process yet?” Kor asked, causing a wave of knots to settle in my stomach. Keeping my thoughts at bay, I took a. deep breath and prepared. myself to answer.

“I-” I started, but Kor cut me off. I wonder if she even cared about my feelings.

“I know what you want to say but I honestly don’t believe that that’s the reason.” She shook her head and her fur sway with the movement.

“I don’t want to have to relive my time with Shane to try and make you understand me.”

“You can’t heal from this if you don’t even try Adea.” Kor sighed and I could feel her irritation and sadness seep through our bond.

“Sometimes Kor… people don’t heal. It hasn’t been that long and you’re rushing me to jump into bed with Ethan!”

“He’s not some random person Adea, he’s our mate, our Goddess-chosen mate. He won’t hurt us like Shane did. He cares for us and it’s unfair. What you’re doing to him is unfair.”

She takes a deep breath. “Mates complete the mating ritual and mark each other within the first day of finding each other!”

She’s pissing me off. Isn’t she supposed to be my other half? She’s supposed to understand me.

“You’re supposed to understand me Kor. I won’t screw Ethan just to complete the mating ritual. It’ll be when I’m ready!”

My mind wanders to simpler times when all I needed was a run through the forest to be happy. Feeling the ground beneath my feet, and the smell of the trees to help me through the day.

Something soft yet firm shifted against my stomach, fingers brushing against my bare stomach. The sparks spread like wildfire across my skin. The sensations were overwhelming. The sparks tried to soothe me, reaching over my nerves, gently caressing.

I swallowed and for a brief second, I welcomed the sparks and let my mind wander. Kor’s thoughts blending with mine. My toes curled and a needy sigh fell from my lips.

The feelings of affection, awe, sexual tension, pulling at my soul begging for me to return the feelings. I pulled myself from his grasp and sat up.

The emotions were encouraging me to lay back down and to give in to him, give in to the mate bond. I stood up and looked at the bathroom door, I’ve never felt something so strongly before.

“I can feel you fighting it,” Ethan’s low gravelly voice came from behind me. His big rough hand closed around mine and I closed my eyes trying to steel my resolve.

“Just let him, love us,” Kor pleaded.

“I can’t, Kor,” I tell her. “I don’t know how to be loved, how to let myself be loved.”

“Just sit back down, and feel what he does to us,” her voice begged.

“He wants to take care of us, let him,” Kor says, her voice pained.

“You said the other day, that you didn’t hate what happened with him. You told me you liked it, please don’t backtrack. Go forward, keep going forward.” Kor says more confidently.

“Give him a chance, if not for you, at least for me. Please, I want to meet my mate,” Kor confides.

I’m doing this to Ethan, to her but I’m also doing this to Ethan’s wolf. I open my eyes and lower myself back to the bed.

“I’m not trying to fight you, Ethan, I’m…” I trail off.

“I know this is a lot but you are mine, and I, yours. You don’t have to explain anything to me right now. Just please, don’t pull away from me,” he says as he leans forward and kisses my neck.

His warm lips on me cause a shiver to run down my body as his hand slides up my arm. His tongue caresses my neck as his lips slide down my neck. I turn around and wound my around his neck, and my fingers toy with the hair at the back of his head.

His muscular arms wrap around my body, holding me against him as if he needs me as much as he needs air to breathe. Every inch of skin that met his felt like fire within my soul.

I wrapped my legs around his torso and our chests were pressed together, my breasts squished against his. He kisses down my throat, and I tangle my hands in his hair, unable to stop myself from moaning.

His hand glides up my stomach and slips up through my bra, my nipples straining against him. His hard cock is pushing against my stomach and he lets out a grunt.

I reach down when his hand stops me, “I can’t have you touch me right now, I might not be able to stop.”

“We can do other things…” My voice is thick with lust and I’m surprised by how bold I’m being. I put my hands on his shoulders and slowly push him back until he’s laying flat on the bed.

His brown hair is messy and it only multiplies how hot he is. He’s looking up at me in surprise and I feel confident, strong.. I feel in control and maybe that makes this easier with him.