The Fugitive White Moonlight of a Powerful Minister

   I was born in a hot summer.

   It is heard that the gardenias in Xie Mansion bloomed like clouds and brocades that year, and my mother loved it very much.

  Father has always loved my mother, so following her preference, he embedded the word "Zhi" in my name.

  As the eldest daughter of the family and also the eldest daughter of the Xie family, the first thing I remember is stepping on a chair to reach candy on the table.

   Just a little bit.

  I touched the candy wrappers, and I was so frightened that I fell down when Mammy screamed.

  Afterwards, I was reprimanded by my mother and punished by my father to kneel for half an hour.

   "Hey, don't blame your father for being strict with you, my Zhizhi, she will be a queen in the future."

  My mother put ice on my knees and soothed me.

  I blinked Shang Hong's eyes and asked her: "Mother, what is a queen?"

  They said that the eldest daughter of the Xie family was born to be a queen.

  A person who wants to be a queen must behave elegantly, speak well, and even smile with a certain curvature.

  Learned piano at the age of three, poetry at the age of four, chess at the age of five, and painting at the age of six.

  When I was less than ten years old, I was famous all over the capital.

  Everyone says that I am a model of aristocratic women, a model of women in the world.

  Only I know, it's all fake.

  I like to sneak up on the roof to watch the stars in the sky at night when no one is around.

   I like to take off my shoes regardless of etiquette in the severe winter, and walk around the room with bare feet.

  I envy my cousin, who can laugh out loud when she is happy, and act like a baby in mother's arms if she makes a mistake.

  My father always warned me in my ear: "As the eldest daughter of the Xie family, every word and deed is the honor and disgrace of the Xie family, and there must be no mistakes."

  My mother reminded me from time to time: "Zhizhi, the only thing a girl can rely on is her natal family. Even if you become a queen in the future, the Xie family is your only backing."

  What queen.

  I don't want to be queen at all.

  I want to be like my cousin, choosing a clean and elegant son-in-law, and the husband and wife will close the door, laughing and cursing, doing whatever they want.

  If I don't want to be a queen, I don't like Chu Yu either.

  Chu Yu is the prince of Dayin.

  As the daughter of the Xie family, I have many opportunities to meet him.

  Nan Ci is his companion in the East Palace, and I can often bump into him when I am looking for Nan Ci.

  But since I don't like him, I naturally won't get close to him.

   Even often show him face without any trace.

  I hope that he can find that I am not as dignified and elegant as the rumors say, and that I have a bad nature, and I am not suitable to be his princess, so he rescinds my engagement with him.

   But he doesn't seem to be as smart as rumored.

  I was so obvious, but he still didn't realize it, and people called me "Azhi" and "Azhi".

   That was the Lantern Festival of the year.

  I was fourteen years old that year, and I was about to reach my age.

  A lantern banquet was held in the palace.

  Like the countless palace banquets I have participated in before, I was neatly dressed and sat at the head of the family daughter in a decent manner, listening to the compliments and flattery all night.

  Before I went to view the lanterns, I excused myself to go to the toilet.

  No one knows my secret.

  When I was in Fuchu, I was guarded even when I went to the toilet.

  Instead of entering the palace, I often borrowed the Gong room of Chaoyang Palace, and the servants who accompanied me dared to wait for me outside Chaoyang Palace without the permission of the eldest princess.

  Every time I am in Chaoyang Palace, I will dawdle for a stick of incense.

   During this fragrant hour, in the remote and uninhabited palace road, I can loosen my stiff shoulders and kick the small stones on the ground wantonly.

  This night is a bit unlucky.

  Chu Yu actually came to Chaoyang Palace to use the toilet.

  He has a close relationship with the eldest princess, and he has already moved to the East Palace, so it is not surprising that he will come here to use the toilet.

  I salute him distantly, preparing to walk around him.

  He stopped me: "Azhi, do you want to see the lantern?"

  He always likes to call me so intimately. Obviously, apart from a marriage contract, he and I are just nodding acquaintances.

   "Thank you, Your Highness, for your reminder, the servant girl will..."

   Before I finished speaking, he added: "Let's go to Chang'an Avenue to see."

   My words stopped on the tip of my tongue.

"I made an agreement with Rong Hua, she will let you and me play chess at Chaoyang Palace tonight." For the first time, I looked at Chu Yu's face squarely, with Zhang Yang hidden in his handsomeness, looking at me with his chin raised, "How? Go or not? go?"

  His Royal Highness, this is not in line with etiquette.

   A word, rolled in the throat can not be said.

  When I was fourteen years old, I only saw the appearance of Chang'an Avenue from the gaps in the carriage.

  Both father and mother said, Xie's daughter should not show her face in public.

   "Let's go!" Chu Yu smiled and came over to pull me.

  It is inappropriate for an unmarried man and woman to be so intimate even if they have a marriage contract.

   But I simply can't say no.

   That was my first time on Chang'an Avenue.

   Seeing that I was a little embarrassed, Chu Yu bought two masks from the vendor.

  Covering up my face, without the risk of being recognized, I gradually let go of my hands and feet.

   I always remember that night afterwards.

  Chu Yu took me from the street to the end of the street, introduced me to every storefront, every stall, and bought all the items that my eyes stopped with a smile.

  He took me on a boat and took me to listen to operas.

  He said Ah Zhi, how about I often take you out to play in the future?

   Oddly enough, I didn't refuse him again.

  That night we played until the end of the market before returning home slowly.

  I've never been so happy, I couldn't stop smiling when I took off the mask.

  Even when returning to the yard, his footsteps could not help but be brisk.

  I think Chu Yu would be pretty good if he wasn't the prince.

   But this lightness did not last long.

  Mother is waiting for me in the boudoir.

   "Zhi Zhi, did you go out with the prince?"

  I keep my head down.

  Mother will not scold me.

  My mother's surname is Wang, and she comes from the second largest family of Dayin.

  She is truly dignified and elegant, calm and generous.

  She never speaks loudly to even one of the servants.

   But I know it's not the right thing to do tonight.

   "Is Zhi Zhi happy tonight?"

  I hang my head lower.

  Mother took my hand lovingly: "Zhizhi, the prince is indeed very handsome and graceful."

  "He is in a high position, but he puts down his body to make you happy, do you know why?"

  I grabbed the handkerchief in my hand and looked up.

   "Because you are the daughter of the Xie family." The mother smiled, "Because you are the eldest daughter of the Xie family and the only daughter of your father."

   "Oh." I lowered my eyes again and let go of the hand holding the veil involuntarily.

   "Zhizhi, it's natural for a man to love a woman, but you have to remember that your honor is given to you by your family. Without the Xie family, you are nothing."

   "You can be tempted, but you can't fall, understand?"

  I lay on my mother's lap: "Yes."

  After that, Chu Yu really often took me out to play.

  He is the prince, I have a marriage contract with him long ago, and he often pulls the eldest princess as a cover. Although my mother feels that it is not good to get too close before marriage, it is not easy to refuse.

  Actually, every time I go out with him, the eldest princess disappears immediately, leaving me and him alone.

  Chu Yu is familiar with every interesting corner of the capital, and always has some novel ideas.

  He is not so conformist, even a bit retrograde.

  He even dared to take me to places like Goulan.

   But I have to admit that being with him is much happier than being at home with me.

  He is elegant, gentle and considerate.

  He often fixes those deep pool-like eyes on me, as if I am the only one with all his heart and eyes.

  Sometimes I can't help but want to ask him: If I wasn't Xie's daughter, would you still be so kind to me?

   But this question is silly.

  If I wasn’t a daughter of the Xie family, I wouldn’t have a marriage contract with him, or even know him.

   How about talking about it?

  Two months ago, my marriage with Chu Yu was on the agenda.

  Before the engagement date, my father called me to the study and had a solemn talk with me.

  He asked me if I really wanted to marry Chu Yu.

  My father is strict with me and has high expectations for me, but he also loves me.

  I know what he meant by asking this sentence.

  His Majesty also has several talented princes. Chu Yu's crown prince is not so stable.

  But who I marry will definitely determine who Xie supports.

  I nodded without much hesitation.

  I am no longer so naive.

  I was born to be a queen, not because of my marriage contract with Chu Yu, but because I am the eldest daughter of the Xie family.

  My father allowed me to choose among several princes, which is already his great love for me.

  Since she always wants to be the queen, then Chu Yu should be the emperor.

  My father saw that I was decisive, and sneered: "He will work **** you."

   And said: "If he treats you badly in the future, just tell your father."

   "I am Xie Chang Yuan's daughter, I will not be wronged!"

  Chu Yu didn't treat me badly.

  The three years when I was married to the East Palace were the happiest three years of my life.

  There are only Chu Yu and I in the East Palace. The first thing he does when he returns to the dormitory every day is to drink away and ask me to put down the shoulders I was carrying.

   "Aren't you tired of sitting like this all day?"

  My elegant sitting posture, which was praised by others, made Chu Yu extremely disgusted, "Old man Xie is probably abusing you!"

  He said that I can do whatever I want in the East Palace, climb the roof if I want, go barefoot if I want, and pull out the tongue of anyone who dares to speak nonsense.

  He still often takes me out to play.

  Teahouses, restaurants, markets, Ci'en Temple, Wanggui Mountain, Tianshan Pool, we are everywhere.

  The whole capital knows that His Highness the Crown Prince loves the Crown Princess and is inseparable wherever he goes.

  Once he took me to and from the place of fireworks, saying that there was a new oiran with a first-class singing voice.

   As a result, he was bumped into by an old minister.

   On the second day, I read one of his books, saying that he disregarded etiquette and was out of order.

  He retorted at the court: "What does the lonely princess have to do with you?!"

  The veteran did not sue him, but I was called home by my mother.

  At that time, my mother was sick.

  She was as usual, holding my hand gently: "Zhi Zhi, remember what I said to you?"

   "Why does the prince spoil and protect you so much?"

  I lowered my eyelashes: "Mother, don't worry, my daughter will remember."

   It is nothing more than that Chu Yu has a wolf in front and a tiger in the back, and needs Xie's full support.

  He pampered me and protected me, and made it for the world to see, and also for Mrs. Xie.

   "After being married for so long, there is no movement in the belly?" The mother asked with a sick face.

  I shake my head.

   Worrying about her overthinking, she added another sentence: "I didn't do much."

   means that I have not avoided children.

  Mother shook her head: "Silly Zhizhi, this kind of thing is not something that only women can do. How could he let you know if he did it?"

   sighed: "Just look, he still doesn't dare to make you pregnant.

  I don't want to be called home by my mother again, so I don't want to follow Chu Yu any more.

   Being able to stay freely in the East Palace, and climbing up to the roof with Chu Yu to look at the stars from time to time, I am already very satisfied.

   But even such a time is too short after all.

  In the third year of my marriage with Chu Yu, Your Majesty passed away.

  When His Majesty was seriously ill, the situation in the court was already tense. Not only his father, but even Nanci frequently entered and left the East Palace.

  In the past few years of my marriage, Nanci has become more and more prosperous, won many battles, and has a lot of prestige among the people.

  With them here, and Chu Yu is the Lord of the East Palace, I am not too worried.

  The result was as I expected, Chu Yu inherited the Datong without any risk, and we moved from the East Palace to the Imperial Palace.

  The night before entering the palace, my father came to see me.

   "The next time we meet, I will call you Niangniang."

  After getting married, I didn't see him many times.

  But every time we meet, I feel that he is more energetic.

   Just like the official titles that Nanci continued to confer, his father's coercion became more and more severe.

  I stood beside him serving tea: "Zhizhi will always be my father's daughter."

  Father took the teacup with satisfaction: "Do you still remember your last name?"

   "My surname is Xie." I replied.

   "I understand what my mother taught me." I said.

  Father is more joyful: "In this way, there is no need to say more for father."

   Drank the cup of tea in one gulp, and walked away.

  I lowered my eyes and put down the teapot in my hand, and lowered my shoulders.

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   The days when I moved into the Imperial Palace were very different from when I was in the Eastern Palace.

  Chu Yu is busier, and it is even more impossible for me to go out of the palace. The palaces of the Imperial Palace are higher than the East Palace. When Chu Yu is not around, I can no longer climb to the roof to look at the stars.

  Chu Yu ascended the throne and gave the Xie family many awards.

   Xie's popularity was second to none.

   In the first year of entering the central palace, my mother passed away.

  Before she passed away, she stroked the hair on the top of my head over and over again: "My Zhizhi, mother knows that you are caught between the emperor and the Xie family, but as a woman, you are already struggling."

   "You have inherited the glory of the family, so you have to bear the corresponding responsibility."

   "Besides, mother's prediction is not wrong, right?"

   "Zhizhi, you have never been pregnant."

  As I have done countless times before, I obediently lay beside my mother, answering her softly.

  I didn't tell her that I wasn't pregnant, she reminded me last time.

  I'm using Chu Yu behind my back, and I'm using child-avoiding medicine.

  Chu Yu had just ascended to the throne, and most of the court officials and generals were under his father's command.

  Father didn't take Chu Yu seriously.

  If a prince is born at this time, I can guess my father's next move.

  A young emperor who is learning to speak is easier to control than a young emperor who has begun to develop strength.

  At that time, the queen mother's surname is Xie, the chief assistant's surname is Xie, and the general's surname is Xie. Dayin, who only needs to change one surname, will be the empire that his father hoped for.

  Chu Yu doesn't seem to think so.

  He often touches my lower abdomen before going to bed, but there is still no movement.

  He wants a legitimate eldest son, he wants him to be born as the most honored prince, he wants him to be completely different from him, not to suffer the crime of being excluded, and not to suffer from the pain of seizing the heir.

  Many times I couldn't help but want to ask, can you really not see your father's ambition?

   He could see it.

   It's just that he doesn't care that much.

  His mother and concubine gave birth to him but did not treat him very kindly. The previous emperor made him the crown prince, but made him betray his enemies everywhere.

  His brother either cast him out of the East Palace or put him to death.

  In his eyes, the so-called family affection is like a gorgeous dress, which only hides ugliness.

  He took it for granted that I was like him.

  He often said Ah Zhi, we are husband and wife, we are the birds in the same forest.

   In his war with his father, he had no doubts that I should be on his side.

   And he is just as conceited as his father. He doesn't think he will lose this war.

   So what if I give birth to a prince?

  If the Xie family has misbehavior, he will just take the opportunity to win over the imperial power.

  I can't accuse my father of being a wolf and make him give up the hidden heart of Sima Zhao; nor can I tell Chu Yu to let Xie continue to dominate for me.

  All I can do is to make their war break out later, and later.

   In a few more years, Chu Yu's throne will be more secure, Xie's power is not as strong as it is today, and my father has no chance of winning. Even if I give birth to a prince, he can't touch a stone with an egg.

  I carefully reconcile the relationship between the two parties.

  In front of my father, I have always been well-behaved and obedient, and Xie is indeed my only backing, and he never doubted him.

  In front of Chu Yu, I have always been gentle and submissive. He gave me all his hot emotions, and he never doubted it.

  They were all eagerly expecting me to have a child.

  Father pointed to this child to make Xie's position in the court more stable. With the prince in hand, he could have another plan.

  Chu Yu pointed at this child to make me and him more inseparable, making us a real family.

  Only me, drinking bowl after bowl of Bizi soup, praying that this child will not come at an untimely time.

   But the world is like this, what to be afraid of, what to come.

   Not long after my mother passed away, the imperial physician diagnosed me as pregnant.

   (This article is first published in Xiaoxiang Academy, please go to Xiaoxiang Academy for updates.)

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