Episode 57 – Resurrection

Why is it that the comment section, which was so colorful, is so easily settled?

Wondering and thinking about it, I don’t have an answer.

Because I know – and I just found out today – that the internet fire is not that easy to put out.
It’s not that kind of rationality.

I can’t think straight anymore, and then I’m all out of it with even more relief.
I sway and melt and lean against the side of the bed.

“What did you do …… Nagishiro kun ……”

It would have been more convincing if they had told me that everything that happened today was a dream.

There is a fun event, then I hit rock bottom, and then it’s over as if nothing happened.
This kind of seemingly unconnected story is, indeed, dreamy.

[I’m sorry, but I know you probably have questions or doubts, so I’ll answer them. I really have nothing to hide, so you can ask me anything you want]

And Nagishiro kun is nervous, but composed.
Well, it’s true that there’s something to be blamed for… Hmm, not without it.

If I were in Nagishiro kun’s shoes, I would not be so composed.
To say that I have no romantic feelings would probably be a lie.

So, on the other hand, Nagishiro kun doesn’t have romantic feelings for me. …… I guess I shouldn’t go any further than that.

I Shut up and watch the streaming happen.

[Why were you two together on Christmas Eve?]
[That’s because Shizuku san was busy and this was the only place she had free time in her schedule. It goes without saying that my schedule was free. It’s just a coincidence that it fell on Christmas Eve.]

This is true. The truth is that I invited him, but it is true that today was the only day he was available.

[Where did you go after this photo?]
[Well, …… I’m embarrassed to say that we went to saize. …… It’s really embarrassing, but I’m poor. …… Oh, but of course I didn’t ask her to buy me a drink or anything! I’m splitting the bill!]

This is also true. It’s cute to see him getting a little impatient with the tweets in the comments.
This kind of seemingly back-and-forth response may be the reason why the current turmoil has magically subsided.

No, but I don’t think you have to say ‘split the bill’ with pride. ……

[What did you eat at Saize, Shizuku san?]
[I feel like I should ask permission from …… Shizuku’s office before I answer that. …… we wasn’t eating anything tremendous, but just in case ……]

Why is this guy making me out to be some kind of character who likes weird stuff?
I had a regular squid ink pasta! I don’t need permission from the office for that!

[What do you think of Shizuku san?]

— and here a direct question came up.
This is a genuine question, but at the same time, someone was probably still left with a bit of doubt.
If he answers in the wrong way, the fire from earlier will return again.

And I was nervous for another reason.

“Nagishiro kun, I wonder what you think of me. ……”

Come to think of it, I have never heard of such a thing.
We chatted a bit when we shook hands, but I don’t think I ever asked him what he thought of me.

[about Shizuku san ……? Hmmmm……]

And Nagishiro kun is definitely flustered at such times.
This guy, definitely did that on purpose. ……?

[No, well, of course I think she’s beautiful. She’s so beautiful…..]

“Eh, really!?”

I’m honestly glad because I thought he was the type of person who was indifferent about such appearances.
Let’s hand down the story to my children and grandchildren until I reach the point where it’s crazy.

[And she is a very kind person and very caring. ……]

A standing compliment.
It’s a pity that it seems to be a common phrase, but I’m still too simple-minded to be happy about it.
Am I an Easy Heroine?

[I think it’s cool that she is so sincere in her work.]

And I am more than happy to receive compliments about my work.
Actually, I haven’t received many compliments on my work. That’s because I’m not there yet.

But since he’s made it so much more exciting, I know the punchline.

[But… she’s not going to be a romantic interest.]

This pattern. Up and down, this pattern.

He will say that I’m not his type, that my voice doesn’t match his, that my stories aren’t interesting, and on and on.
God dammit!

[A nice person like that would not be …… a match for me.]

…..Eh?

[I can’t come up with the idea of going out with someone. Even if I were to go out with someone who is disproportionate to me, I would immediately fall apart. I’ve never had a girlfriend, as I said before on the radio, so I’m just imagining. ……]

What, did you think I was like that ……?
Not flattering? Not flattering? No, no.

I hastily type a comment

“Flattery.”

This is internet slang for sarcasm, which means “thank you for your compliments”.
In other words, I’m flattering myself, right? It’s like asking, well, if you say it, it’s self-deprecating.

The thought that went into it goes without saying…..

[F-flattery!? I’m not flattering you, I’m telling you the truth! She’s is really an amazing person!]

Perhaps my thoughts were received, my comment was picked up by Nagishiro kun.
Perhaps others have made similar comments.

-yes, I wanted him to deny it. I wanted him to say he was not flattering.

Even that may be flattering, but it may also be self-satisfying, or rather, absolutely self-satisfying.
Still, this response…….

“So, he really thinks like that…….”

I was so happy that I wanted to cry.
I was really happy to be recognized by that Kazashiro Rei.

I have admired his music ever since I first heard it.
He inspired me to start singing too, and without him I wouldn’t have made it this far.

I was happy to be recognized in this way by the one I had always admired and loved for so long.

[She is so kind and beautiful looking, and yet she is so passionate about her work and doing such high quality work. I think it’s really amazing.]

“I’m glad I’ve worked so hard to get here. ……”

I thought from the bottom of my heart

I realized that I had romantic feelings for Nagishiro kun, but most of all I had a longing for him.
I’m not sure which is stronger.

–No, I don’t think either way.

Because these things are not comparable.

“Aaah~, hahahaha!”

I felt lighter in a real sense.

I feel like I’m clearing up something that I’ve been holding on to not just today, but for a long time lately.
When I realize it this way, I realize I didn’t have much feeling.
I even wonder what I was worried about.

And the joyousness continues.

At the end of the stream, Nagishiro Rin said this.

[I’ll be performing a song I wrote for her in a month’s time. Please listen to …… if you like.]

It was the revival of Kazashiro Rei that many people in Japan, or perhaps the world for that matter, had been waiting for.