Before I Fall

[Jessy]

I’m walking inside of my room when I saw Allen sitting on my bed and holding Kristoff guitar.

“Woah!” I said then he turns to me.

“You know how to play that?” I ask he shakes his head. I went to him and sits beside him.

“Do you know how to play guitar?” he asks, I also shake my head.

“Kristoff let me borrow it, he said to practice it on my free time so that I won’t get bored,” Allen said.

“He’s right, you can learn how to play it while you’re here,” I said.

I saw the MYX Magazine is on his lap, he is on the page which shows the chords. I suddenly look at him, he seriously looks like he want’s to learn how to play the guitar.

“JESSSY!”

We both look at each other, startled by Kristoff shouts.

“What is it monggi and you startled us!” I shouted back.

“I have an idea ate!” he said smiling.

After 10 minutes of explaining.

“Are you out of your mind! Do you want mom to get mad at us?” I shouted and smacked Kristoff on his shoulder.

“Ouch! You won’t know if you won’t try!” Kristoff said.

“Eh! Are you crazy? You want us to carry the bed on the roof so that Allen can get out.”

“I just want him to see the sky during the night.” he explained.

“Star gazing? You’re crazy, mom will kill us.”

I look at Allen. Kristoff is right, we can try to do that. He said that he went to different places because there are a lot of different people who owned the bed. So it means the bed can be carried and because he can’t get out from there, wherever the bed is he is also there.

Days passed, I’m climbing the stairs when I heard a guitar playing.

Is Kristoff inside my room?

He didn’t ask me to enter my room again? grr!

I hurriedly went to the door, I was shocked to see Allen sitting on the bed, he is holding the guitar. He looks at me, surprised.

“You already know how to play guitar?” I asked in shock.

“A little,” he answered.

I sit beside him and listen to him playing the guitar.

New year’s eve.

Kristoff and I are the only one in the house, mom is on the business trip and she will return next year. I mean on January 2, we call it next year because it’s still December 31 now.

“Kristoff! Kristoff!” I wake Kristoff because he is sleeping.

“What the heck Jessy! I’m still sleepy,” he complained.

“Wake up!” I said then I throw a pillow at him, he suddenly gets up.

“Why are you in my room? It’s still 9 in the evening!” Kristoff said in annoyance.

“Just get up and follow me,” I said.

We are outside the house.

“Who are they?” Kristoff asks while rubbing his eyes.

“They are the one who will help us,” I said smiling.

We are inside of my room and my bed is being carried.

“Ate, are you sure that they are not thieves, we might not know but we are letting thieve enter the house,” Kristoff whispered.

“What the heck Kristoff! They won’t, and I take their photo earlier and sends it to my friends, I said that if ever that something bad will happen to me, they are the suspects. And besides, I already warned them.” I answered.

“You’re right, and I also get scared when you threatened me!” Kristoff said and I smacked him.

“Where are we going to put this,” said by one of the guys.

“In the roof please,” I said then the five guys are all shock and confuse.

“This so heavy,” said by one of them, complaining.

“Jessy, where is Allen?” Kristoff asks me in a whisper.

“He is under the bed,” I whispered.

“So that’s why it’s heavy! And where did you get the money to pay for them?”

“I won in a race,” I said smiling.

When it was 7 pm, I went in a race and accepted a race in exchange for money, then I search for people that can help us carry the bed to the roof.

“We’re done!” the guys said in victory after they carried it to the roof.

“Here it is,” I said then hands them the money.

“The teens today are really out of their minds, imagine a bed in the roof.” one of them says.

“You can leave now guys, yes you’re right we are out of our mind,” I said to them.

Now we are on the roof of our house, our roof is only slightly slanted so the bed didn’t slide.

Shortly, Allen came out.

I just look at him, he is looking at the sky, amazed. He’s like a child who is just brought to an amusement park.

“The sky is really beautiful especially when you see the whole,” he told me while smiling.

I am now in the kitchen, preparing food to eat, noche buena I mean. I look at my watch it’s already 11 pm. I left them on the roof.

I climb to the roof at 11:30 pm to call  Kristoff and ask him to help me take the other foods in the kitchen, I saw him talking to Allen.

“So Allen you can only leave four meters away from the bed,” Kristoff said and Allen nodded.

“Hey, Monggi! Help me take the other foods,” I inserted in their conversation.

They both look at me, then Kristoff stands up and went down. I went and sits beside Allen the put the food I brought on the roof. We are sitting on the roof on the comforter then lean on the bed. Allen is holding the guitar.

“Monggi also has a brain, right? His plan works.” I told Allen.

“Haha yeah! By the way, thank you, I already said this to Kristoff  but I said it to you.” I glance at him, I saw him smile.

“It’s nothing, I sometimes order you and you always clean my room,” I said slightly laughing. My heart beat suddenly accelerated.

“You know this is not my firs time that I saw the night sky, but because it’s been a very long time since I saw the whole night sky and to be outside, I feel like this is my first time.” Allen said.

He’s right, he’s been stuck in that room for a very long time, imagine my grandma is still a child then when he was already there. Then you add the years that he is trapped, even me I only stay for a few minutes but I already get bored.

“You will know the value of things if it’s gone,” I looked at him when he said that.

“I didn’t notice the little thing that I had then, now that it’s gone I found out how much important they are to me.” Allen looks at me while saying that.

“Oh, by the way I learn a song, do you want to hear?” he said smiling, and I nod.

He arranges his handling of the guitar and starts strumming. I face and look at him.

♬♪And I’d give up forever to touch you, cause I know that you feel me somehow♪♬

Why is my heart not listening to me? It keeps beating hard.

♬♪You’re the closest to heaven that I’ll ever be and I don’t wanna go home right now♪♬

He looks at me while playing the guitar, I look at him and I’m hypnotized to him again.

♬♪And all I can taste is this moment and all I can breathe is your life♪♬

I just found out now that he has a nice voice. He has talent because he could easily learn to play the guitar for only a week.

♬♪When sooner or later it’s over, I just don’t wanna miss you tonight♪♬

He has a soft voice, it makes me feel lighter, I feel like he is serenading me though he really wasn’t. He just wants me to learn the song that he learned to play.

That’s the only reason, Jessy!

♬♪And I don’t want the world to see me ’cause I don’t think that they’d understand. When everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am♪♬

What’s this? My heart is beating much faster, so fast I can’t breathe. I just keep looking at him and he is also looking at me.

♬♪And you can’t fight the tears that ain’t coming or the moment of truth in your lies ♪♬

Each lyric coming out of his mouth, I try understanding it. I feel like I’m becoming deaf that I only hear Allen singing and strumming.

♬♪When everything feels like the movies. Yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive♪♬

Everything he says, I feel like that is what he really wanted to say and just this his way in expressing it.

Jessy, you’re really assuming and feeler!

But I really feel nice right now.

♬♪And I don’t want the world to see me ’cause I don’t think that they’d understand. When everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am♪♬

♬♪And I don’t want the world to see me ’cause I don’t think that they’d understand. When everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am♪♬

What is this? Am I falling for him? No way, I can’t love a man who lives forever! Who is forever young and has an infinite life!

Am I becoming crazy?

Jessy, you can’t!

My heartbeat is getting faster. I can’t breath properly due to the abnormal beating of my heart.

♬♪And I don’t want the world to see me ’cause I don’t think that they’d understand. When everything’s made to be broken, I just want you to know who I am♪♬

Yes, I want to know more about Allen. I really want to know him thoroughly. To know who he really was.

I just want you to know who I am♪♬

I just want you to know who I am♪♬

I just want you to know who I am♪♬

“Help!” Kristoff says, so Allen and I turned to him.

Shung! Shung! Buugssh!

We all stared at the sky suddenly. It’s already 12 midnight and the fireworks are starting to fire, the fireworks are really beautiful.

“Ate I will just take our sparkle firework,” Kristoff said after he put the foods and he went down again.

I look at Allen, he is smiling while looking at the fireworks. What is this? Why does he look really handsome? I can see the fireworks reflection in his eyes.

So hypnotizing.

Lubdub! Lubdub!

I remove my gaze from him when he suddenly turns to me.

“Oh, hurry let’s light it,” Kristoff said then he hands us the sparkles.

“We might burn!” Allen says but he is obviously excited.

“Who told you to buy this monggi!” I scold him.

“It’s just sparkle ate!” Kristoff said as he scratches his neck.

When we lit the fireworks, I saw how Allen smile grow bigger. Nyay! He looks likes a child and I can’t help laughing.

I walk a little bit and look down, I saw Mr and Mrs. Santos. Mr. Santos is enjoying while lighting the fountain, while Mrs. Santos covered his ears and his nose covered with a handkerchief, she is obviously annoyed at the noise. She really is KJ(killjoy) indeed!

Fortunately, we place the bed behind which is invisible from below. Lest Mrs. Santos will complain to mom and we both will be dead.

Mrs. Santos suddenly look at me, I saw her reaction itching to report me to my mom because I’m on the roof with a sparkle.

“Happy new year Mr. & Mrs. Santos! Woaaah!” I shouted and smiled at them, I turned around while still holding the lighted sparkles.

“Happy new year hija!” Mr. Santos shouted smiling while Mrs. Santos just snob, the heck your grandma is famous!

I walk back to where Kristoff and Allen are. We are all happy and laughing, after we lit all the sparkles we eat. Allen and I laugh when Monggi suddenly inserted.

“Jessy, we are on the roof right?” Kristoff said.

“Are you stupid? This is roof right!” I said at him.

“Something might fall at us because of the lit rocket and fireworks!” Kristoff said with his eyes getting wider.

* Pok *

We all turned at the rocket that fell on our roof and there is still slightly smoke.

“WAAAHHH!!” we all cry in unison.

“I’ll get an umbrella ate!” Kristoff said frantically.

“Are you stupid, do you want the umbrella to have holes?” I shouted at him and smack him on his nape.

“Haha!”

Kristoff and I suddenly stop fighting and turned to Allen, we saw him laughing. You can’t almost see his eyes he even shed tears.

—

When Kristoff left to get something that can cover us. I suddenly felt Allen coming behind me.

“Thank you,” he whispered in my ear, I hear the joy in the tone of his voice.

Even though I didn’t see him because he is behind me, I feel like he smiled after he said that. Which makes me also smiled.

Heart beat fast!