Chapter 38

       This was the first time Shen Huiming had expressed his desire for Suo Yang so bluntly, and he wanted to be more honest.

       Perhaps the noble saints could get rid of the fascination with the body and only indulge in the splendour of the soul, but in the end, they were not saints, and they didn’t want to be saints. There was nothing wrong with being an ordinary person who not only yearned for the labyrinth-like spiritual world of your beloved but also indulged in their poppy-like skin and breath. Shen Huiming admitted his vulgarity, and he was not afraid to reveal his vulgarity to Suo Yang.

       The music started again, and the lazy female voice hummed in a language they didn’t understand.

       Suo Yang who had been drinking but was not even slightly tipsy, felt a little dizzy as he heard Shen Huiming’s words. The other party’s words were stronger than the wine Zhou Mo had handed him.

       It was not that he had never heard anyone say such things to him before.

       But it felt different.

       Those naked invitations or almost harassing physical contact made Suo Yang feel extremely uncomfortable, how could that situation be compared to what Shen Huiming had said to him?

       His consciousness was suddenly pulled back to the night not long ago when Shen Huiming sent him to the taxi and watched him leave. After he got home and opened the door, he sat on the stool by the door when the other party called.

       Suo Yang dared not recall that night easily, he felt that he had done a very disgraceful thing.

       He got aroused by a man’s voice on the phone in the middle of the night and even allowed his desire to set fire to his body, even though he was drunk at the time, which was still a bit out of line.

       But instinct. Human instinct sometimes made you completely powerless to resist.  You know it was shameful, but you kept sinking in this shame.

       Just like now, Suo Yang should’ve said something to ease the almost frozen atmosphere, but he only said one word when he opened his mouth, “Oh.”

       Shen Huiming was still nervous at first, wondering if the other party would be angry, but when he saw Suo Yang’s blank “oh”, he couldn’t help but laugh out loud.

       Suo Yang looked at him, “What’s wrong?”

       “Nothing, I think you are cute.” Shen Huiming picked up the dice again, “Shall we continue?”

       Suo Yang had no intention to continue, his whole body was now haunted by a strange thought as if Shen Huiming had planted poison in his body, and now the poison had gradually started to take effect.

       As Suo Yang regained his grip on the dice he realised that this time his instinct might have the upper hand.

       It should be from the third time he met Shen Huiming, that he had accepted the existence of this person as driven by fate, and after this concept was established, when he was getting along with the other party, every minute he spent with the other person again was a step towards them, not backwards.

       He had long ago set an ending for each other, as long as there was no major landslide in the process, he had already accepted it.

       During this period of getting along, Suo Yang had been trying to find the place where the collapse might have occurred but found that the more he searched, the more he wanted to follow the other party.

       A new round was won by Shen Huiming.

       In fact, Shen Huiming could clearly feel that at the moment, Suo Yang was out of his element, a situation that started when he uttered those words.

       This was actually a good sign. It showed that Suo Yang was not a saint, just like him.

       Who wanted to be a saint? They only want the ordinary happiness of ordinary life, and the ordinary but unique love and solace.

       Shen Huiming looked at him and asked, “I want to know what I do that would make you feel uncomfortable.”

       Suo Yang looked down at the dice in front of him and didn’t answer for a long time.

       “Is it difficult to answer? Then I’ll ask you another way,” Shen Huiming said, “Is there anything I’ve done so far that makes you feel uncomfortable?”

       Suo Yang said simply, “No.”

       No.

       Neither did the phrase ‘makes me want to kiss you’ just now.

       Shen Huiming smiled.

       Originally, Shen Huiming wanted to say that this was the end of the game, but Suo Yang became excited, and before he could speak, he had already rolled the dice in his hand.

       It was as if the other party had many questions to ask and many answers to find.

       Shen Huiming was happy to see him like this, as he himself had said before, his beloved’s refusal to ask questions of himself was tantamount to not being interested in him, which was not a good feeling.

       He wanted to tell Suo Yang everything, even things that were so private that only he knew about them.

       In the following rounds, Suo Yang was bullied miserably by ‘luck’. Clearly, he had so many questions to ask, but he kept losing.

       With another game, Shen Huiming won three consecutive victories, and he couldn’t bear it anymore, so he smiled helplessly and said, “Then I’ll ask… what do you want to ask me?”

       Suo Yang was a little aggrieved because he had lost several times in a row, and was drinking to dispel his sorrows. When he heard Shen Huiming’s question, he originally wanted to tell the other party not to have to accommodate him, but after he thought about it, he felt that there was no need to be so fussy.

       “I’ll ask one last question.” Suo Yang already had three glasses and four wine bottles empty in front of him, he had drunk a lot. “The cufflinks you dropped on me on Zhou Mo’s birthday, did you put them there on purpose?”

       Shen Huiming smiled, “You still remember that cufflink?”

       “You did it on purpose, didn’t you?” Suo Yang actually not only remembered but also cared about it a lot.

       If it wasn’t for this cufflink, he and Shen Huiming might not have met later, and then the story between the two of them would probably have ended that day.

       Shen Huiming took a sip of his wine, chuckled and said, “If I say yes, will it affect your judgement of me?”

       After getting an affirmative answer, Suo Yang looked at him with a smile on his chin.

       “No.” Suo Yang said, “But if you say no, then it will.”

       In fact, this matter couldn’t be more obvious. The reason why he had to ask was to know whether Shen Huiming would deceive him in order to maintain the so-called ‘fatalism of love’.

       Fortunately, Shen Huiming was not only smart but also upright in a timely manner.

       “At that time, I took the opportunity to play a little trick to create opportunities for myself.” Shen Huiming said, “You also know how difficult it is to ask you to meet.”

       Suo Yang looked at him with a smile in his eyes, satisfied with Shen Huiming’s answer.

       “Let’s do it one last time, an exciting game.” Shen Huiming picked up the dice again and proposed, “Do you dare to play with me?”

       Suo Yang sat up straight, heard him say ‘an exciting game’, and subconsciously licked his lips, “What game?”

       “For the last time, no more truth.” Shen Huiming looked at him with a sly smile, “Let’s play a dare.”

       A dare? Of course Suo Yang was not afraid, because he was already taking risks.

       “Okay.” Suo Yang picked up the dice and shook it with Shen Huiming.

       When the dust settled on the result of the last game between the two, Suo Yang looked at the dice on the table and his breathing went haywire because he lost.

       The feeling of both nervousness and some anticipation made him restless.

       Suo Yang seldom or almost never felt this way. He had always been calm and restrained, but today he was on the verge of losing his composure.

       Shen Huiming was very satisfied with the result, his dice points were only a little higher than Suo Yang’s, but only by this point, the other party had to obey his orders and embark on a ‘dare’.

       “What do you need me to do?” Suo Yang raised his head and asked him, willing to admit defeat.

       Shen Huiming looked at him and smiled, then got up and walked to him.

       Suo Yang’s gaze was always glued to the other person as he watched that person get up, watching that person approach, and watching that person stop in front of him. He sat there looking up at Shen Huiming, and when he was wondering what the other party was going to do, a kiss fell on his face.

       A kiss as simple as a seal of approval, and Shen Huiming’s name was stamped on his face.

       Perhaps, if there was no music, Suo Yang’s heartbeat would be heard by everyone present. But fortunately, the music never stopped, and he hadn’t been exposed yet.

       The faint breath of wine exhaled by Shen Huiming touched Suo Yang’s skin, penetrated into his body along the pores, and melted into his churning blood. Just for a moment, Suo Yang felt drunk.

       It turned out that this was his ‘dare’.

       When Shen Huiming straightened up, he said very gentlemanly, “Thank you.”

       He spoke so sincerely that Suo Yang almost thought that he had really made some generous contribution to the other party.

       Suo Yang stared at him blankly, the place where he was kissed seemed to be burning with fire.

       The century-old bell tower not far away could actually make a sound, and the deep and heavy chime that wouldn’t even be drowned out by the music in the bar just came through.

       Dang… Dang… Dang…

       One time, two times, three times…

       Each stroke seemed to hit not the ancient bell, but Suo Yang’s heart.

       When the bell finished ringing, Shen Huiming said to Suo Yang, “We still have ten hours.”

       As soon as he finished speaking, Suo Yang, who had been sitting there looking up at him, suddenly put his arms around his neck, pulling the man towards himself and kissing him.

       The fire that had originally only stayed on my cheeks was not enough to stop there and spread completely.

       This was something Shen Hui Ming had not expected.

       It was also completely out of Suo Yang’s own plan.

       This isn’t a gay bar, right? The people who come here may be reminiscing with old friends or gathering with colleagues. The action of the two men kissing attracted the attention of the people around them.

       But it was almost the first time in his adult life that Suo Yang disregarded the eyes of passersby. He even raised his other hand and wrapped it around Shen Huiming’s neck, deepening the kiss.

       Shen Huiming was surprised but responded quickly.

       There was nothing more suitable for a lingering and long kiss than this moment.

       Suo Yang’s sense of shame came late after the kiss was over. He had always felt that intimacy in public was inappropriate and disrespectful to others, but he didn’t expect that one day he would do this kind of thing himself.

       His cheeks were flushed, and he didn’t know whether it was from the alcohol or the kiss just now.

       But despite the shame he felt, he just couldn’t look at the people around him, and when faced with Shen Huiming, he could still look at each other calmly.

       Two-thirds of his kisses were based on instinct, and the remaining one-third were still rationally thought.

       This was what he initiated and what he wanted, and what he showed was what he wants to express.

       “Drunk?” Shen Huiming squatted beside him, put his hand lightly on his lap, and looked up at the person sitting there.

       Suo Yang smiled, “Do you think I kissed you because I was drunk?”

       He took the remaining half glass of wine on the table and drank it down. When he put down the glass, he even picked up the wine-soaked cherries.

       He brought the cherry to Shen Huiming’s mouth and watched him open his mouth to eat it.

       “I’m kissing you because I want to.”

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