The Little Brat’s Sweet And Sassy

   Chapter 1250

  The day I learned that Gu Tingyin was pregnant, the weather was exceptionally good.

  The warm sun was flowing along the window sash to the desk. She stood on tiptoe and hurriedly pulled out a book from the shelf.

  Shen Zhijin encircled her waist from behind, holding the person firmly in his arms.

   "What do you want to see? I will help you get it."

  Gu Tingyin turned her head and looked, with bright eyes:

  ""Sunspot"! "Black Hole and Time Warp"! No, no, it's "theUniverseinaNutshell"! Oh, isn't "ThePhysicalUniverse" better?"

  Shen Zhi would like to laugh.

   "Why do you want to see this all of a sudden?"

  Every time she read this kind of book, she left with high spirits, lost her helmet and abandoned armor and returned, waved her hand and threw the book to him.

  But if he reads it for a long time, she will come again and take the book away and throw herself into his arms.

  Gu Tingyin opened a pair of black apricot eyes and looked serious:

  "Prenatal education! Of course, we must catch it as soon as possible! What if Tangtang is the same as me in the future and can’t understand physics?"

The name Tangtang was just taken.

  She raised her finger to the bookshelf again, muttering softly:

  "Are the few books just not enough? Or Ajin, you can help Tangtang choose?"

  Shen Zhi was stunned, but she did not expect this to be the first thing she thought of, and she stretched out her clean brows and smiles.

   "Is it too early now?"

  Gu Tingyin hummed softly.

   "Where is it early? You must work hard now!"

  Shen Zhijin helped her take down several books.

  "Shall I watch with you?"

  Gu Tingyin nodded repeatedly.

   "If you don't understand, you can tell Tangtang directly!"

  The two sat down at the desk.

  Gu Tingyin looked down at her flat lower abdomen, and seriously warned:

  "Tangtang, you have to stand up and try to be as smart as your dad in the future! Mom even bought the telescope and the nebula atlas for you!"

   Then, she picked up the "ThePhysicalUniverse" placed on the top, opened it and looked at it seriously.

  ……

  Fifteen minutes later, the book in Gu Tingyin's hand turned to the second page.

  But her eyes are too sleepy to open, and her small head is little by little.

  Shen Zhijin intends to take her back to rest:

"go to sleep?"

  "!"

  Gu Tingyin suddenly recovered, and immediately shook his head and refused:

   "No, no! The book is not finished yet!"

   She said, opening her eyes vigorously and staring at the book fiercely.

  But within a minute, the writing appeared phantom, and her eyelids closed uncontrollably.

  She struggled hard and started talking nonsense.

   "Tang Tang...Today's prenatal education is not yet..."

  Shen Zhi was cautious, but rubbed her hair.

  "Then I will read it to you and Tangtang?"

  Gu Tingyin finally relaxed and nodded:

"good!"

  Shen Zhijin hugged her from behind and helped her with the book.

   A low, clear voice sounded in the quiet room.

  After a long time, when he heard her breathing regularly, he finally stopped and looked down.

  The sun fell on her eyelashes, casting a faint shadow on her eyelids, white and clear skin, and even fine hairs could be seen.

  He kissed the center of her eyebrows, his palms lightly covered her lower abdomen, and the corners of his lips were slightly curved.

   "Tang Tang, Dad bought you a picture book and paintbrush."

   "It's better to be like a mother."

  ……

  Dark night.

  Shen Zhijin slowly opened his eyes.

  The room was dark.

  He opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling, as if he hadn't seen anything, his eyes were dark and dark, and he seemed to be darker than the night.

  He seemed to be pressing something on his body, and he could hardly catch his breath when he was heavy.

  He sits up, lifts the quilt, his chest rises and falls violently, and he breathes, vying for the thin oxygen in the air.

  Like a dying fish, there is nothing else to do except breathe.

  The room was extremely quiet, and he could even hear his rapid heartbeat.

  He pressed his heart firmly with one hand, and his shirt was wrinkled because of his force, the knuckles were blue and white, and the blue veins on the back of his hand burst.

  Still unable to fall asleep.

  As soon as he closed his eyes, there was an overwhelming fire, which made him hurt all over his body.

  The cold moonlight outlines his thin and thin body.

  He curled up and leaned against the head of the bed, leaving only a depressed breath that was almost suffocating.

  It looked like a big hole had been dug out in the chest, blood and blood.

  With every breath, the cold wind poured in frantically, causing burning and tearing pain.

  He opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything.

  Finally, he dropped his head on his knees, and his back trembled violently.

  ……

  Insomnia all night again, he sat alone until dawn with his eyes open.

  Someone knocked on the door and walked in.

   "Ajin."

  Uncle Qi came in carrying the porridge, looking at him with a complicated expression.

  During this period, both Shen's father and Shen's mother fell ill, and Shen Zhijin kept locked himself here, keeping the door behind closed doors.

  Time seems to be stalled.

  He has a very good relationship with Shen's father and Shen's mother, so he made a special trip to look after Shen Zhijin.

   "Let’s eat something."

  He passed the porridge over.

  Shen Zhijin finally moved.

  In just a few days, he has lost a lot of weight, his eyes are black and bloodshot.

  He became dull, and it took a while to realize what Uncle Qi was saying, turning his stiff body, and raising his hand to pick up the bowl of porridge.

  But he had no strength at this time, he could not catch the bowl of porridge, and fell to the ground with a "bang".

  Shen Zhijin looked down. There was no expression on his face. After a while, he finally realized that the thing had fallen on the ground, and he reached out to pick it up.

   "Ajin!"

  Uncle Qi quickly stopped him,

   "The bowl is broken, I'll clean it up."

  Speaking, he quickly cleaned up the mess.

  Shen Zhijin looked at it for a while, then withdrew his gaze, without any focus.

  Uncle Qi sighed inwardly.

   "A Jin, you can't always eat or drink like this, your body can't stand it. I'll help you serve a bowl again."

  Shen Zhijin still did not speak.

  He has been like this all this time, as if he had lost the ability to speak.

  Uncle Qi turned around, walked to the door, and looked back again.

  "Ajin, everyone...worries about you very much. If she knows you like this..."

  Gu Tingyin’s name has almost become a taboo, and no one dared to mention it in front of him.

  What can happen has already happened.

  He keeps like this, I’m afraid--

  Shen Zhijin's eyelashes trembled slightly.

  For a long time, he finally spoke, his chapped lips moved slightly and his voice was extremely hoarse.

   "...I want to drink peanut milkshake."

  Uncle Qi froze for a moment, seeing that he finally spoke, and was willing to eat, nodded quickly:

   "Okay! I'll go buy it for you!"

  Uncle Qi moves very fast, worrying that the peanut milkshake is not enough, he also bought a few boxes of peanut crisps by the way.

  Actually, Shen Zhijin's stomach is very fragile now, and it is not good to eat these, but this is the only thing he says he wants to eat at the moment, and he doesn't care about it anymore.

  "You will eat a little bit first, and drink some porridge later to warm your stomach."

  Uncle Qi said, watching Shen Zhijin open the box, picked up a piece of peanut crisp and fed it to his mouth, thinking that no matter what, he finally started to eat, feeling a little relieved.

   "I'll help you heat the porridge."

  After speaking, he backed out.

  Shen Zhijin slowly chewed the peanut crisp and swallowed.

   Then, he picked up another slice.

  He moves mechanically.

   is a very familiar and unfamiliar taste.

  When they first were together, she always asked him to help eat these things, and then she came over to smell the corners of his lips.

  Later he ate less, because he could not kiss her after eating peanuts.

  It’s true that he hasn’t eaten these for a long time.

  He kept stuffing peanut crisps in his mouth, as if it could fill the hole in his heart.

  Until his hand is empty--

  He lowered his head, only to see that the box was empty.

  But, not enough.

  He took the peanut milkshake again.

  As soon as the lid was opened, the peanuts and milk flavours came out.

  He took a sip.

  The sweet and greasy smell fills the mouth.

   His stomach suddenly cramped violently.

   "Ajin, the porridge is already hot--"

  Uncle Qi just came to the door, but no one was seen.

  The sound of vomiting came from the toilet next to it.

  He was startled, only to see that three boxes of peanut crisps on the table had been eaten by Shen Zhijin. The empty peanut milkshake cup fell on the ground, leaving only a little remnant, dripping out along the mouth of the cup, a mess.

  He felt tight, and immediately walked towards the bathroom.

  Shen Zhijin knelt on the ground, leaning on the toilet, and vomiting all the things he ate before.

  Because of his weight loss, his shoulder blades became extra prominent and looked jagged. It looked like he wanted to spit out everything.

  Almost vomiting and bleeding.

  Uncle Qi's hand holding the porridge trembled slightly.

  ……

   Another late night.

  Repetitive dark night, repetitive silence.

  Everything is the same as yesterday, yesterday’s yesterday, there is no difference.

  Shen Zhijin opened his glasses, sat quietly for a long time, and finally came to the desk.

  He turned on the desk lamp, and the dim light reflected on his extremely pale face, which seemed to be transparent.

  He took out a picture album from the drawer and opened it.

  The first page is him, in the boulevard of Xijing University.

  The second page is him, in a torrential rain like a waterfall.

  The third page is him, in a corner of the restaurant.

  ……

  He is all above this.

  From first sight to now.

  She drew a thick book.

  Drawing his eyebrows countless times, so that a person like him, who has never cared about his appearance, clearly remembers what he looks like in her eyes.

  He read it page by page, and on the last page, there was more sugar in his arms.

  He stared at this page for a long time before turning back.

  Blank.

nothing left.

  He took a pen, and the nib fell on the large blank space.

  ——Yinyin.

  ……

   Yinyin, I have insomnia again today.

  You probably don’t know, I haven’t slept well recently, and I can’t eat well.

  In fact, I really want to have a good sleep, because only then, maybe I can see you.

  But now even this has become a luxury.

  Are you still angry with me? It's all my fault. You should be angry.

  But you have many ways to punish me. Why is this one? You don’t even give me a chance to ask you whether it hurts or not.

  Yinyin, I don’t like peanut milkshake now.

  In three more hours, the day will dawn, and it will be another day.

  But I am afraid.

  I’m afraid that tomorrow will be sunny, the sun is very strong, and the wind is very hot, so you won’t come to me and ask for directions.

  I’m afraid that tomorrow will be a rainy day, with heavy rain and mud all over the ground. You won’t come and let me hold an umbrella for you.

  I am afraid that the weather tomorrow will be very good, and I am also afraid that the weather will be bad tomorrow.

  Because you will never come again.

  I'm afraid every tomorrow without you.

  I tried hard, I tried to sleep, tried to eat, tried to read, tried to get my life back on track as before.

  But I can’t do it.

  The orbit of the planet will not change due to meteors, but it turns out that it loses its star.

   can only be confused, collapsed, and destroyed.

  I don’t know if you still remember the law of conservation of energy that I taught you when I was in class.

  It turns out that love also obeys this law.

  Love will neither arise out of thin air, nor disappear out of thin air, but will only transform from one form to another, from one person to another, while the total amount of love remains the same.

  It's about you gave me too much, and now it's finally my turn to pay back.

  One day, every year.

  I can pay it back, but now, I finally don’t even have this chance.

  ……

  He finished writing the last word and put down his pen.

  Outside the window, the sky is faint.

  He looked at his left wrist, the scarlet blood slowly seeping out.

   is very strange and does not hurt.

   may be even more a relief.

  He slowly leaned over, closed his eyes, and let out a breath.

  This time, I finally don’t have to be afraid of tomorrow.

  ……

  He seemed to have a long dream.

  In my dream, it was pitch black everywhere.

  He doesn't know where to go, he stands in place, the wind is piercing through the bones.

   "Ajin."

  Someone called him.

  He was shocked and looked back.

The darkness around    quickly faded at this moment, leaving only the overwhelming whiteness.

  She walked towards him.

  He froze there, unable to move.

  He hasn't seen her for too long, too long, and he is not willing to miss a glance at this time.

  "...Yinyin."

  He heard his voice tremble.

  She stood still in front of him, took his hand, frowned, her small face was full of distress.

   "Ajin, do you hurt it?"

  It hurts.

  How can it not hurt.

  He has a stiff chest and a blockage in his throat, but he can't say a word.

  She gently blew the wound on his wrist and raised her face.

   "A Jin hurts, I also hurt, and Tangtang."

  He seemed to have been stabbed hard in his heart.

  "Don't Ajin hurts."

  She hugged him, shook her head, and murmured.

  In the silence, a piece of silence, he heard himself say--

"good."

  ……

  When I woke up again, I was in the hospital.

  Uncle Qi was guarding the bed, and seeing him open his eyes, he finally breathed a sigh of relief and whispered:

   "A Jin, fortunately, I found out in time, you are fine. I still keep this matter from your parents, but you can't do it again in the future—"

  He didn't say the rest, but the meaning could not be clearer.

  Shen Zhijin was silent for a long time, his voice slightly dumb.

"Not anymore."

  Uncle Qi didn’t dare to believe it, and when he was about to ask again, he heard Shen Zhijin suddenly say:

  "Where is the nearest flower shop?"

  Uncle Qi was taken aback.

"What's wrong?"

  Shen Zhi would like to look out the window.

  The sun is warm and bright, even a little dazzling.

  "Yinyin likes camellia, and I haven't bought it for her this week."

  He said.

  He is not willing to let her hurt, so even if the inside is **** and the pain is extreme, he can bear it.

  Even if time is long, there is no end.

   But he promised her, of course he will do it.

  He faced the light, watched for a long time, and finally smiled faintly.

  In fact, why bother.

  He has died in that brilliant sun.

  　 After writing the book for so long, I shed the most tears for Shen Zhi.

  　　Today, I can finally draw a full stop.

  (End of this chapter)