The Stars In Your Eyes

Bai Yutang felt this year was an unlucky year for him. Things didn't go smoothly for him this year. Starting from his mother denying his lover, the pile of work in his new job, and also his lover being so busy this year.

Is this the famous 7 year itch1? But he and his lover are not yet 7 year. 

They rarely go out for dinner, one month passes without them watching movies in the cinema at all. It's true that they rarely date, but now it's almost like they never date anymore.

Jian Kang Lu was so busy until he always spent his Saturday outside. He meets his residents to talk about their research, he meets his assistants to help him write the journal and collect the data, he also meets Prof Lin to speak about his next steps.

Jian Kang Lu also now often speaks in conferences, going to association meetings, and many more. 

Bai Yutang knows his lover strives to get his professor title, he tries to understand that.. Bai Yutang also knows that despite his lover's busy schedule, he still has spare time for him to visit Lu Hua together once a month.

Bai Yutang is really grateful for that, but he can't help but feel their relationship drifting away.

Moreover, when he realizes in the past three month, it's always him who initiates their bed exercise.

Previously it was always his lover who stared at him hungrily, pounced on him and tossed him around like a hungry wolf. But then his lover is always busy with his phone, his tablet, his laptop. If not because Bai Yutang kisses and seduces him, the closest skin-ship between them is just his lover putting his hand around Bai Yutang's shoulder while reading.

And what makes Bai Yutang's heart ache right now, he tries to hold himself, wanting to see how long his lover could spend his days without them making love, the result is that in these three weeks, they never make love at all. 

The last time they make love is one week before Bai Yuren's graduation in July. It's already August now.

This is Friday night. Bai Yutang stares at the cold dinner in front of him. His lover said he will reach home at 9 as usual. Now it is already 9.30 and his lover still has not reached home yet. 

This happened more than once. 

Bai Yutang knows, he really knows, that Jian Kang Lu's love for him is still the same. He also knows that he is still the only one for Jian Kang Lu. 

But.. He couldn't help but feel inferior when he saw Jian Kang Lu speaking in an alien language with his residents and his assistants. He couldn't understand what they were talking about, he also couldn't help Jian Kang Lu with anything.

The things they could speak together now are getting less and less.

Jian Kang Lu's assistants are really smart and much more superior compared to him in all aspects. Jian Kang Lu hired two fresh graduate T university students to help him. Both of them are one year younger than Bai Yutang.

One is a pretty girl with long smooth black hair. She fluently speaks and writes in English, her grades are also superior.

The other one is one tall handsome boy with round glasses, he's very good with research and statistics. 

Bai Yutang can't help but be jealous of both of them. He met them three times, when they came to the apartment on Sunday evening to finalise some of Jian Kang Lu's research. That time Jian Kang Lu wanted to submit his two finished research to international journals.

In those three times, Bai Yutang offers them to have dinner together, but both of them politely reject his offer.

Bai Yutang's low self esteem resulted with many dark creepy thoughts born in his mind, planted in his heart.

'Does gege get bored with me?'

'Am I not attractive anymore for him?'

'Is he tired of my mother's attitude toward him?'

Lu Hua boldly stated she will not be polite to Jian Kang Lu if he comes to Bai Yuren's graduation. His mother stubbornly refused even when Bai Yutang and Bai Yuren pleaded to her. This resulted in Jian Kang Lu just waiting for him in the hotel like usual.

Bai Yutang didn't cry, but his heart went cold along with the dishes in front of him.

He sighed, and finally reached his phone.

"Gege, where are you?" Bai Yutang asked when the call connected.

"TangTang, sorry, forgot to call you. I just finished and will go home now. Eat your dinner first, don't wait for me. I'm sorry."

"Okay. Drive safely, gege.."

Bai Yutang hung up and sighed again. He didn't eat, but prepared to reheat the food, for his lover to have a warm dinner when he got home later on.

They had a very late dinner that night. And as usual, their night was like how they spent the last 7 months. Bai Yutang laid beside Jian Kang Lu, while Jian Kang Lu was still busy reading and revising something in his tablet.

"Gege.. Let's sleep.." Bai Yutang hugged his lover's waist.

His lover used to get horny easily if Bai Yutang put his hand on his waist and rubbed it lightly. Bai Yutang is disappointed when his lover only hums lightly and scratches his head, indicating he is still reading.

Bai Yutang can't sleep, he turns around and reaches for his handphone, searching for design's inspirations. The project he handled is almost finished, and now they have a new project. For this project, their project manager and Gu Jianyu emphasise on green design, environmental friendly.

Bai Yutang felt sleepy after searching and browsing. He looked at the clock, it's almost midnight. He sighed, put down his phone, and closed his eyes.

The next day, he woke up at 6 as usual. Today is Saturday. He didn't need to go to the office, but his lover later as usual will go outside. 

Bai Yutang opens the curtain, looking at the park and buildings outside their apartment. The pale blue sky above, the faded green lush under. Summer is still hot, but mornings in summer have their own charm.

He walked outside the room, and didn't have any spirit to cook. He stares at the cold kitchen, then closes his eyes.

He was a man, not a woman. Why does he need to be over sensitive?

His lover will not keep accompanying him to W city if he doesn't love him. His lover also won't introduce him to his family if he doesn't commit to him.

Bai Yutang knows Jian Kang Lu's personality is not the one who only says good things at the front and stabbing on the back.

So what if his lover didn't initiate sex for months? Bai Yutang is younger, he could be the one who seduces him.

If his lover finds him not to be attractive anymore, then he will try to polish his appearance and personality to shine even more.

Bai Yutang is always afraid he will get rejection from people around him, most of all, he was afraid to be rejected by his lover, the one who never rejected him at all.

But for Jian Kang Lu, even though someday he got rejected, he was willing to try again and again. 

If this man's love for him faded, he could always try to make this man fall in love again with him. Just like Jian Kang Lu said he fell in love with him at the first sight.

He is a man. Why does he need to be the passive one?

Bai Yutang turned around, walking back to the bedroom. He goes to the bathroom, and brushes his teeth. He looks at the shower, thinking whether he should just wash his face or take a bath.

Finally he took a short bath, carefully cleaning every cranny and nook of his body. He dried himself, and carefully walked to the bedroom.

Naked.

Bai Yutang climbed to the bed, walked with his knee on the bed, and knelt on both sides of his sleeping lover. He pressed his palm on both sides of his lover, then kissed the sleeping beauty under him.

He carefully licked and savoured the sleeping beauty lips, then smiled to see his lover frown. Bai Yutang swept his wet tongue, carrying the fresh mint breath of him toward Jian Kang Lu's sexy neckline, moved down to the collarbone.

His lover was wearing a thin T-shirt. Bai Yutang, in the middle of sliding the T-shirt up, wants to search for the two buds on his lover's chest when Jian Kang Lu awakens.

"TangTang?" Jian Kang Lu's voice is slightly hoarse in the morning. The deep low tone was ringing near Bai Yutang's ear, burning him back with desire. Clearly he was the one who tried to seduce his lover, but why with a single call from his lover, he was the one who seduced?

Bai Yutang answered by continuing to slide the T-shirt up and slowly put his tip of velvety tongue on the small buds on that sturdy chest. He teases the left nipple with a light touch, just like a dragonfly swipe along the water. Softly.. Slowly.. Circling the small round nub, before it gets wet from his saliva.

Jian Kang Lu awakened and looked at his kitten savouring his nipple like he enjoyed the most tasty snack in the world, and he could feel his kitten's other hand rubbing his waist slowly. His kitten clearly knows his waist is his sensitive spot.

Honestly, Jian Kang Lu felt like he was in the middle of a beautiful dream, since his blurry eyes focused and then saw his kitten seemed to be naked on top of him.

His kitten raised his eyes to look at him while his naughty tongue was still dancing there. Playing with the bud, teasing him like a naughty kitten asked to be punished.

"Gege.. I've been waiting for you to wake up.." Bai Yutang tongue sliding up, press the bud with that agile wet tongue. His face carried temptation, his pleasant voice and the dullness of desire.

"I want you.. I want you so badly, gege.."