The Stars In Your Eyes

Jian Kang Lu looked at that solemn face that slept soundly in the seat next to him. The blanket covering his man slightly dropped. Jian Kang Lu tugged him back, to make sure his lover seeped warmly.

They're already in the plane, fly back to their country. To their original lives.

Jian Kang Lu still can't believe all the things that happened to them on this trip. 'How if all of this is just a dream?' Those lines that haunted his brain over and over, repeated on his mind.

How if this is just a whim for his kitten, just want to experience something new? Jian Kang Lu saw many things in his life. And he knew some men like to play around in their youth, just want to taste some new exciting moment.

How if his kitten regrets it? The country they live in is not the country that would openly accept this kind of relationship. Their country still despises these indecent acts..

Jian Kang Lu remembers how his kitten put his family as priority. How if, like Zhang Min, he finally chose to spend his life with a woman? His kitten also never experienced how it feels to be with a woman. How if someday he falls for a beautiful girl, and leaves him.

How if his kitten someday found he was not interesting enough, and finally saw that Jian Kang Lu was just an old man?

Jian Kang Lu touched the strand of hair falling to his kitten's temples, and tugged it back behind his ear.

'I'll do anything to tie you with me. To make you can't live without me. Just like i feel right now.'

These dark thoughts already creeped inside Jian Kang Lu's mind several times, but he never acknowledged it. He's the man who is always confident with himself. He is never jealous, never insecure, never afraid.

Until this man came and invaded his life.

Before, even with the platonic relationship with his kitten, Jian Kang Lu suffered so much when he couldn't contact his kitten. Now, tasting five days of paradise with his kitten, Jian Kang Lu really can't picture himself without this man.

The one who gives him so much happiness, and gives him a glimpse of what it means to live your life.

Jian Kang Lu is a 37 years old man. He sees many things, he hears many things. When his mother consoling his crying aunt. He knows that his uncle is cheating with a younger woman, and his aunt suffers so much.

But his aunt didn't leave his uncle. She can't. Under the pretence of children and money. His aunt didn't work, so she relied solely on him. Even now when the children are turned into adults and can live by themselves, when his uncle is caught for his debauchery act so many times, her aunt still stays in that marriage.

Because of money.

Jian Kang Lu also knew some of his colleagues cheating on their wives so many times. When he asked why his friend didn't leave his wife and that hell of marriage, his friend answer him that they only try to found that sensation, that tension of first touch, first kiss, first sex with someone new.

They still love their wife, the one who stays with them when they're still poor residents. They can't leave someone who already wasted their youth for them. So they always come back to their wife.

Because of gratitude.

Jian Kang Lu's dark mind is determined to chain his kitten. If he can't tie this man to stay by his side with love, then he'll trap him with money and gratitude.

Jian Kang Lu laughs at himself, he can't believe he turned into a despicable character. To have these kinds of dirty things inside his mind. But he doesn't care. Anything is fine, as long as his kitten beside him.

As long as his kitten stays with him.

Even if his kitten one day gets bored with him and loses his interest in him anymore, he'll make sure this man can't live without him.

Just like Jian Kang Lu can't live without him.

When they finally arrived at the apartment, it's already 6 pm. Both of them were very tired. Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten walking to his room. Does this man want to sleep separately with him?

Jian Kang Lu grabbed him, and hugged his kitten from behind. He can feel his kitten startled, but then turn his head around. His kitten stayed in his place, and didn't run away.

"Gege?"

Jian Kang Lu kisses that smooth temple, and tightens his hug.

"Can you move to my room, TangTang? Our room?" Jian Kang Lu whispers his plea.

Bai Yutang was exhausted, he just wanted to sleep. But to feel a warm embrace, with that hot breath in his ear, turn something inside him. He cursed inside. He can't believe that he's so easily aroused like this.

With a wild beating heart, and trying to suppress his desire, he can only nod. Bai Yutang let Jian Kang Lu happily take their luggage and put it inside Jian Kang Lu's room.

Their room. Bai Yutang tried to remind himsel. And he can't help but blush. He also still can't believe this is all happening for real. But he tried to be honest with himself, and just accept this happiness.

Jian Kang Lu also moved the rest of Bai Yutang's things from his room to his own. No, it should be moving Bai Yutang's things from the guest room to their room. Jian Kang Lu happily moved all Bai Yutang's things as fast as he could. As if he was afraid if Bai Yutang suddenly changed his mind.

Jian Kang Lu still took one day leave from hospital to recuperate and adjust himself with the time differences. So when he wakes up at 4 o'clock in the morning and realizes that his kitten is still laid in his arms, he's so grateful and content. Watching that peaceful face, here in his arms.

He won't let this man leave him. Forever.

Bai Yutang awoken at 7 am. He was startled. And look at Jian Kang Lu who hugged him tight while still sleeping.

Since the day they're together, this man is always sleeping and hugging him tight. Never let him move away even for an inch. This gesture is one of the things that make Bai Yutang see that this man really likes him.

Even though Bai Yutang still doesn't understand why.

Bai Yutang is struggling to free himself from Jian Kang Lu's tangling arms. He needs to cook breakfast. Bai Yutang now really thinks that cooking is the only thing he could do to Jian Kang Lu.

And he is also happy to see Jian Kang Lu's happy face every time he eats the food that he cooked.

They spend the day just resting, and separate the things that need to be given to their friends and colleagues. Bai Yutang also wants to wash their dirty clothes. But Jian Kang Lu said he doesn't need to do that. Just put everything in the laundry downstairs.

When Bai Yutang wants to refute that and remind Jian Kang Lu about their rules, Jian Kang Lu stares at him.

"Baby, I think we need to talk about those rules again. You're my lover now, not a stranger."

Bai Yutang really still can't get used to hearing the word 'lover'. So he just mumbled. Jian Kang Lu heard that mumble but couldn't hear it clearly. So he grabbed Bai Yutang's waist and put him in his lap.

"TangTang, baby, don't say that you don't want to be my lover. You agreed to give me a chance." Jian Kang Lu said with a pleading voice, mixed with a warning tone.

"I do…" Bai Yutang answered softly.

Jian Kang Lu grip his arms tighter around that waist, and smell the scent emerging from his kitten's nape.

"So.. We need to revise the rules. You don't need to do anything. Just stay here with me, together with me. You're my lover, not my housekeeper."

Bai Yutang was a little bit angry to hear that. "So you don't want me to cook for you again?"

Jian Kang Lu stunned, why does he feel like stepping into a dangerous zone again?

He hurriedly said, "You can do anything you want. If you still want to cook for me, of course i'll be very happy. I told you, the food you cooked is the best in the world, the best I ever taste."

To see his kitten back into a docile state, Jian Kang Lu was relieved.

"Can we talk about these rules again, baby?"

To see Bai Yutang nod obediently, Jian Kang Lu can't help to kiss his kitten softly.

"Of course i prefer you cook for me, you don't know how happy i am to eat the dishes created by your hands. But i don't want you to cook because you have to. If you're tired, then we can just order. Okay?"

Bai Yutang nodded, then said softly, "I am also happy when i see you eat the food i cooked, gege.."

Jian Kang Lu kisses the tip of his kitten's nose, and his beautiful lips.

"Then next, about the allowances. Like i told you before, you're my lover. So I want you to accept the card that i'll give you. You can buy groceries and everything you need with that. No fixed allowance. Just use it."

Jian Kang Lu saw his kitten want to refute his words. So he added, "I think we need to talk about these matters. Hear me first, please?"

Bai Yutang really wanted to refute that statement, but then he closed his mouth. He needs to listen to what this man wants to say first.

"I already finished this apartment's instalment right before I met you on the plane that time. That's why I go for a holiday at that time, to celebrate my freedom from paying for this apartment's instalment. When I think about that, I feel so lucky. I met you, and now I can hold you like this. Really the best decision I ever made in my life."

Jian Kang Lu kisses his kitten's lips again, and inhales his kitten's scent more. It was so addictive. "So I have no debt. I earn enough money to support both of us, I can show you my bank statement. I can even give all my salary to you if you want to. The point is, my financial state is stable, and you don't need to worry about these kinds of things."

Jian Kang Lu caresses his kitten's waist, and continued, "You know I rarely go out, I rarely buy anything. I also invest some money, you know my father and my brother are good at these things, right?"

Bai Yutang nodded. He doesn't really understand what Jian Kang Lu's father and brother's do, but he understands that they deal with money and investment.

"My friends and my brother often said that I just stack my money without knowing where to spend it. That's why I agreed to buy this apartment when Hongjia built this. But they're right. I don't know where to spend my money. So now when i have you, why can't i spend it on you? On us?"

Bai Yutang can see this man who looks so mature and reserved, turn into a spoiled one. This man snuggling at his neck, tickling him. Bai Yutang could feel that his own heart was filled with so many emotions.

Happiness. Content. Relieved. Grateful. Loved.

"So, could you just make me happy and receive what i gave to you. It was nothing compared to what you gave to me. Your cooking really is truly something i can't value with money"

Bai Yutang can't believe this man could act coquettish like this. So he just helplessly nodded. No harm done with just receiving this man's card. Bai Yutang decided just to spend it according to their first rules. 5000 yuan per month. He knows if he says it, this man will try to change his mind again. So it's better to just silently agree with it. Save all the hassle.

To see his docile kitten sit in his lap obediently, and smell this soft musk with a hint of cedar wood underneath from his kitten's nape, aroused something inside Jian Kang Lu.

This man is really dangerous.