The strongest reserve for the doomsday

Actually, I don't have much to look forward to, after all, life is very short, and there is little fulfillment.

——Excerpt from Xie Chunhua's "Just the Ordinary

" "Eh, the world is like this, some people like to pursue ups and downs in life, but these people's lives are smooth sailing. And people like me, who want to be free and live an ordinary life in wine and meat (beautiful women), and have no ambitions, have experienced so many things instead," I said.

Zheng Yan and I are still leaning on the balcony on the third floor, watching the blazing fire at our Qingshan base in the distance.

The fat man went down early, saying that he would find out where the well was, and that he would fetch water and take a bath later.

At this time, Zheng Yan also looked at the red flame and said

, "Then do you know

what kind of life I like?" Nima, to be honest, these days, but in the previous days, I haven't really thought about what kind of life Zheng Yan likes.

Is it because I don't have strong analytical skills?

I can tell from the ordinary three sentences with Fang Yao that she is super capable, gentle and tactful, and that she is interesting to me.

And Zheng Yan and I can be regarded as childhood sweethearts, and the two have no guesses. Lived together for a very long time. I can't tell what she's thinking

? Is that because I'm too lazy to think? Am I going to be the kind of person who doesn't bother to think since the Doomsday Reserve? If I hadn't been too lazy to think

, we'd have been blown to pieces by the arms dealers by now.

Is that because I don't like Zheng Yan?

She is the school flower of our high school, although I don't quite admit it, but I actually still approve of it, and I don't admit that I just tease her. With Zheng Yan's appearance, character, gentleness and sensibility, no matter where she goes, she will be a lot of people who pursue. I'm also a normal man, so I don't like it.

Then why don't I try to figure out her thoughts, which will also help me pursue her.

After thinking about it, I guess my mentality is similar to the mentality of Duan Yu when he first saw the statue of the fairy sister in "Dragon Babu": Duan Yu saw

that the statue's hair and clothes were real, and the carving was very realistic, and the appearance was very similar to a real person. When Duan Yu first saw it, he thought it was a real person, and he had a sense of awe. Moreover, at that time, men and women did not kiss each other, and when he saw a beautiful woman in the cave, he was of course embarrassed! Later, he found out that it was a statue, and believed that the woman in the image was a fairy descending to earth, and immediately felt a sense of admiration and worshiped her as a god.

And I, I guess, probably maybe, have a sense of awe for a big beauty like Zheng Yan, perhaps, Zheng Yan is the god in my heart.

I'm not a very capable person, I don't have big ambitions, I just want to be a programmer quietly, and being free from the world is my highest pursuit.

Maybe such a me, in my opinion, is not worthy of a perfect woman like Zheng Yan.

Therefore, every time I get closer to Zheng Yan, I feel guilty. And immediately kept his distance, unwilling to continue to develop.

I also dare not pursue the person I love, which is another sign of my cowardice. Those who dare to love and hate, that will care so much.

And an indecisive, indecisive, indestructible, cowardly and introverted person like me, in many books, as well as in many dramas, and on TV, in the end, is the kind that is abused and don't want to be wanted, the kind that is hurt, and the kind that cries and sings at the end:

"A broken heart is like a glass shard." The stupidity of love will never be restored. The past、Put him in remembrance。 I wish you happiness, happiness and peace".

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: The following content is not included in the number of words charged: If the text is a person, looking back on the difficult journey of chasing girls in the past, everyone must remember not to think like me. Boy, be bold, it's a big deal to be rejected, hehe, the old brother who chased here in "The Strongest Reserve of Doom", if you have any comments and suggestions, you can comment directly under my headline pictures and texts