The Tears of a Prince

Song of the day: BlueBloods by Laurel

A few hours before

Lun had found himself in the same place again but this time he was alone. He couldn't just overlook the way the queen had silently told him to step up, not because he cared about her but because he cared about Xan and Kai. Sitting back and watching his friend die was the last thing he could do. Kai after all was a prince while he was a nobody. He had many people caring about him while Lun, well not even his own parents would come to get him out, not even Xan would be willing to help him. 

The handsome vampire snorted, his head falling back as he looked at the dark stone ceiling. Death was not scary, his only regret leaving back that hopeless lover of his. A smile lingered on his face, dripping with sadness and disappointment as he closed his eyes. He had tried so hard, all he had ever been doing was trying just to end up here, at the bottom. He had waited so patiently for him just to see him hesitate when he needed him the most. Xan was a knife into his heart, every time he looked at him the blade was twisted into this excruciating pain. Xan was that and at the same time his only hope to move on. As he closed his eyes, breathing in the heavy air of the humid room his face flashed before his brown eyes. 

He was so handsome in this coldness of his, in his rare vulnerability and in his even more rare smiles. Xan was his light but why when he found himself in another dark room he couldn't see him lighting his way out in the end of the deep black. 

He would end up detesting his love. He had always been the strong one, the one not affected by feelings and he would also make fun of Kai for being so soft when it came to Philip. He was a hypocrite because if Xan asked him he would take his own life in the blink of an eye. Loving someone more than they love you, being unsure, he hated it. 

"Why did it have to be you?" He asked himself out loud, rubbing his face. 

"Are you talking about me?" Lun heard Xan's familiar voice reach him. He opened his eyes, seeing the crown prince standing in front of the bars, just like he did before when he was the bearer of bad news. 

He hadn't heard him, he had been so preoccupied thinking about him that he hadn't noticed him being right before him. Maybe that was one of his flaws, he was invested in the image of Xan that he had in the past that he was missing the man he had become now. He had this idea on his mind that disappointed him again and again but still he couldn't stop loving him. 

"What are you doing here, your highness?" Lun asked him sarcastically. 

"I tried to help you." Xan said, wrapping his palms around the bars, looking sullen. "I was just too late."

"You tried?" Lun asked him, not really believing him. "What did you do?"

"I wanted to get Ash so he could find the weapon but that kid was nowhere to be found. By the time I got to him they had found it first." he explained and the tall vampire laughed, bitter. He stood up, his hands were cuffed with a special kind of restraint, it limited his powers so he wouldn't be able to run away. He stood behind the bars, his characteristics partially hidden by them and Xan looked at him. 

"Why didn't you just go do it yourself?"

"You know I couldn't."The crown prince told him, embarrassed. "I am sorry Lun, I really did want to help you."

"But you wanting to keep yourself out of it was stronger than me being alive." he commented, his sardonic expression making Xan's chest tighten. He felt guilty already, hearing Lun say that was just breaking his heart more and more. He was helpless, a coward, again and again he would tell himself that. What was the point of getting on his knees, begging his mother when he could have gotten both of them out of it unscathed. Now he was just able to clean up the broken pieces, salvage what was left. 

Xan sighed, unable to say anything. He searched his pocket, his long fingers finding the small key and he brought it out, Lun scanning him with his eyes as he unlocked the dungeon. The tall vampire was frowning. 

"How did you get that?" he asked him.

"I begged for you." Xan answered him, his blue eyes on the verge of tears again. "I was on my knees, pleading to my mother to let you live because I can't lose you. I am sorry Lun…" Xan cried, pulling the man away from the dungeon and hugging him. "I am sorry this is all I can do for you, I am sorry I am like this but I can't let you die. I won't let it happen."

"You told your mother about us?" Lun asked him, bug eyed as he watched Xan cry. 

"I did, what else could I do to not lose you? She gave the key, she told me I should come and free you, you can run away but you need to hide. You will be announced as a criminal, the whole kingdom will be looking for you but I swear, I will find out who did this, I will make sure to bring you back." he explained, the tears trailing sad paths on his pale face. Lun exhaled, feeling his heart race and he raised his hands, still in his restraints to wipe his tears. Xan looked at the thick dark metal, keeping Lun from moving comfortably and without a notice he grabbed the chain that united the cuffs snapping it in two before he placed his fingers on each one of them individually and crushed them. "I never want to see you in them again." The crown prince told him and Lun smiled. 

"You annoy me. You annoy me so much I want to punch you. You annoy me because I just can't hate you and it drives me mad." Lun said, not looking the tiniest bit mad with him. Xan laughed, taking his hand in his. "Thank you, even for this. I know how hard it was for you to reveal our relationship to your mother."

"Please Lun, stay safe okay? Just a few days, no, a few hours before I find out the bastard who did this. Then come back to me, alright?"

"I will always come back to you. Even if you don't want me to. Xan you're my light." 

"I love you."