The Undefined Love

Lifen pushed Deming hard and freed herself from his grip but still her heart was beating erratically. Her hands were still on Deming's chest to keep his distance from her in control.

She was still trying to calm herself down completely oblivious of her hand which was on his chest. "Do you feel it?" he asked suddenly.

"Huh?"

"Do you felt my heart that's beating only for you?" his words seemed so sincere but she shrugged it off.

Lifen looked up at his face, her eyes was full of chagrin, "Are you stupid? What were you trying to do? Don't you have any control on your heart? Don't you fear losing your dignity with such absurd acts? For God's sake, you have a girlfriend, at least respect her. Respect your relationship with her".

Deming's lips instantly curled up in amusement, "You do have many questions to ask me, Little Cat. Are you testing my memory to remember all your questions?".

"You...", Lifen was getting more and more irritated with her words and to her surprise she was actually at a loss of words. Her mind has gone all dumb due to the close proximity between them before and the way his warm breath brushed over her ears. Her hands which were on his chest was now clawing his suit's half jacket.

"Okay, okay, don't be mad. I know that I have given you the name 'Little Cat' that really suits your wild character but you don't have to prove me by scratching me. If you went any more deep, my blood might ooze out", he chuckled when saw her frowning. Her anger always triples the cuteness. She was a way too cute to him.

He then continued, "About your questions, I will answer them all for you, one by one. For the first one, I am not stupid as you think me as because if I was one, then my company 'Wang Corporation' won't be so formidable and successful "

"...", this person is such a narcissist.

"For your second question, I was not trying something on you. I was just confessing my feelings with sincerity and was making you realise your own feelings which you are deliberately ignoring".

"...", his words again left her speechless. Do her really have to make his absurd acts, look so rightful.

"The third answer will quite interesting to you, and you were almost right guessing it. My heart is isn't in my control anymore. It has long lost to you but it's my bad that I didn't realise is until today. Now now matter what I do, it won't listen to me. So please be a little considerate to it because your words and ignorance really hurt it bad".

"..."

"And the last one, if I would fear to lose my dignity then I will surely lose you and you comes above everything to me, my first and greatest priority from now on to the rest of my life. And about Jie being my girlfriend, dont worry about that because I will soon rectify everything. I just came here first because I don't wanted to delay my confession. Losing you is the greatest fear I have".

All this time, only Deming was speaking while Lifen was only listening quietly to his words.

"Are you done now? Or is there anything more you want to say", she said calmly folding her hand to her chest.

Deming thought that he had said enough already so now it will be his actions that will speak not his words. It's time to prove his sincerity towards her, so he nodded to her.

"Okay, then let me clear something to you, I really don't care what you feel or for for whom your heart beats because I have already moved on in my life. I was wrong before that I trusted you and in return I learnt a great lesson of my life", her eyes were filled with disdain.

"Now I won't repeat that again. A relationship can only survive if there is trust and reliability but I don't think that I trust you enough to give my heart again to you and about being reliable, seeing you ignoring your girlfriend like this, I can rely on you ever".

Trust and Reliability! She didn't trust him to give her heart to him ! The words again turned into a painful jab on his heart. But it was true, his has smashed and destroyed her trust with his own hand. Whom should he blame now? It was all him to be blamed.

"What should I do win back your trust? Tell me I will do anything you ask me. But just give me a chance to prove my sincerity to you", he urged desperately.

Lifen looked at him, for a moment her heart got soften but she can let her heart sway like this. She can't snatch someone else boyfriend who was soon getting engaged. That would be really immoral. And the most importantly, they have been in love for more than ten years which wasn't a small time. She can't become the culprit or destroyer of someone's relationship. For her, love is the most sacred thing.

"Really? Will you really do anything I ask you?" Lifen asked him to make sure that he can't back off.

"As long as it pleases you, I will do it", his words were full of sincerity.

"Okay then proceed with you due plans. You should fulfill your promises you made to Jie. Get engaged with her. And in return I promise I won't ignore you in the future like I have done in past few days and will always maintain our friendship", Lifen said without any feeling in her words.

Deming was shocked with her request. He didn't ever thought that she would ask something like this. "But I love you. How can I get engaged with her?" he again tried to make her believe him.

"I don't think so, it's just a short period infatuation. You will soon get over me and realise that the one that mattered to your heart is none other than Ms.Long . Haven't you said before that you have loved her for ten years. And furthermore I don't love you anymore. It was just an mistake for me too for being swayed with your actions before. Now after thinking carefully, I think I have always loved only one person in my entire life and will always love him only. So for us, I don't think there is a chance", Lifen said calmly.

Her words was her truth. She has always loved only one person that that was none other than Deming himself but she won't tell him anything because there is no need for it. He has long forgotten her and already moved on in his life ten years ago, so she will go with the flow.

She has believed that 'if the thing is meant for you than no matter what happen it will come back too you'. She was a strong believer of destiny so she will continue to believe and rely on her destiny. God might have something for her in his treasure which is yet to unfold.

Saying her words, she turned to walk into her house. Deming remained silent and rooted to his place.

When she was about to get in, he said calmly, "Since this is your words, I will accept it. I will take this as your punishment. I will do as you wish but if I ever got any hint that you still cared for me, no matter what happen then I won't let you abandon me. I will then not let you run off from me. And I am sure that will surely happen because after listening about destiny from you, I have also started believing it. Be there on my engagement, I do want you to witness me taking your heartless punishment".

Lifen paused for a moment but then again resumed and walked inside the house without giving any further attention to him. Tears were accumulated at the corners of her eyes but she didn't let it roll down her cheeks.