The Wrong Way to Use Healing Magic

"I'm afraid to fight," were the feeble words that came out of Kazuki's mouth.

Such a reaction would be natural. And we were high school students in our original world when we were summoned. It was expected that Kazuki would feel the same way, except for Inukami-senpai.

He is not the heroic hero or the unprincipled hero in the story, he is just an ordinary boy.

"When I went to train outside the kingdom and fought ...... monsters, I was really scared. I almost lost my footing when I saw the monster for the first time."

"......"

"But when I was attacked, when I fought ...... desperately ...... and defeated the attacker. I realized once again how optimistic I had been about this world. ......"

"...... calm down, Kazuki."

Unlike Inukami-senpai, Kazuki is too sensitive.

In the case of Inukami-senpai, he has accepted this world, but Kazuki, perhaps because he has become vaguely familiar with this world, has overthought it more than necessary and has been crushed by his own imagination.

In fact, Kazuki in front of me is so emotional that his light magic is illuminating the surroundings as if leaking out from his hands. He realizes what I've said, and he stops the light, but his expression still remains dark.

"I'm sure that the demon king's army is going to attack me with the intention of killing me ...... and I'm unbearably afraid of that. But the people of this kingdom were kind to me, cheering me on. They expected me to ...... and that's what hurts me more than anything right now."

The anguish of being brave. People look at you with envy and worship you just because you are a brave man. I am not sure how much of a burden that is for Kazuki, but I am sure the weight of it is extraordinary.

So there is only one word I can say to him.

"You don't have to fight, Kazuki."

"What about ......?"

It does not matter at this point how much damage this conversation will cause to our future strength.

Those of us who are involved do not have to fight for this country. Kazuki has that right, no matter how heartless it may be.

"Because ...... nobody wants to die. I totally understand."

"Hey, wait a minute! If I don't fight, what about Usato?

I'll get out. I'm not going to die.

There are other reasons.

For the people in the lifeguard squad, for Olga, for Uluru, for Rose after .........

"That's not the point! You're not afraid to die, even Usato!"

"Don't talk about me!"

What?

I know I'm getting a little rough, but I'm going to let it go.

"It's not about me, it's about you! You're afraid to fight! Then, you know, you can run away! Neither I nor ...... maybe Inukami-senpai, nor the King, nor Sergio, nor Welshy, nor Sigurth, nor Celia-sama, nor anyone else is blaming you!"

".........a......"

Oh no, did I say that a little too much?

Kazuki, you're lying face down, covering your eyes with your hands.

What a pathetic guy I am.

I can't believe I've been so blind to my surroundings. ...... I was only looking out for myself after all. I just did the same thing as others, thinking I was good enough to do something I didn't know what to do with. It's always been that way.

I became vice president because everyone wanted me to. I fought the demon army because everyone wanted me to. I've always, always, always, always, always, always lived my life according to my surroundings. I was willing to do what everyone wanted. I hope it's just my imagination that the majority of "everyone" was female.

So when Usato told me that I didn't have to fight, the first thing I did was ask about him. If he had said, "I don't fight," I would have chosen not to fight.

But he asked me what I wanted to do.

"......I'm afraid to fight...... but..."

At first I was angry.

I was angry at first, because he had called me here without my permission and asked me to become a brave man and fight against the Demon King's army. ...... But everyone in this country is a very good person.

The king, Celia,...... and everyone else are all warm people with no secrets. So I can't stand to put them in danger.

That's why,...... too small a reason,...... but I--.

I don't want them to die."

Kazuki had been silent for a while, and I was beginning to think that it was time to apologize to him, shaking inside, when I heard him mutter something in my ear. < he said, deciding to ......?

"......I'm still scared. But you know,...... I'll give it a try."

...... seems to have made up its mind.

I'm not sure what kind of answer he came up with, but if it makes sense to Kazuki, I won't say anything. I'm not qualified to say anything more than .......

"I see."

"Thanks, Usato."

"We're friends, don't worry about it."

"............ Oh, God!"

Ha, I'm so embarrassed!

If there's a hole, I want to get in it. This is not my character at all! I feel like I was a much drier character. ----! And don't, don't look so glum, there's no turning back now.

"Heh heh, I'd better get back to the castle. I'm sorry I woke you up at night. I'll figure out the rest on my own.

Good luck.

Good night, then."

Kazuki runs down the moonlit road. His back looked tougher than before.

I watch him until he is out of sight, and then I see him stretch out his arms and walk back to his quarters. I have another training session tomorrow in preparation for the invasion of the Demon Lord's army. I have to go to bed soon.

"I'm so ...... sleepy, I'll go back to bed."

"Oh no, is that what you call male friendship? I've seen some pretty good things."

A voice behind me.

But I know who it is and I don't look back. I call out to him anyway.

"I'm sorry, but I'm too sleepy to give you any attention. ...... Could you please do it tomorrow if you can, Inukami-senpai. ......"

I didn't recognize him at all, but I figured he could have been here, so I wasn't that surprised.

"......Hey? Isn't your reaction funny? This is the place to say, "Hey, why is Suzune-senpai here? And "Oh my gosh!!! It's Suzutan!" And I thought you were about to raise your voice!"

"Please don't change my name for my senpai without my permission ......, anyway, you're my senpai, so you must have noticed something strange about Kazuki's behavior ......."

I never called her "Suzune-senpai" or "Suzutan".

As you can see, Kazuki is in a state of deep thought, and there is no way that Inukami-senpai, the student council president, would not have noticed it. Probably, he had followed Kazuki who had run out of the castle in the middle of the night.

If he was there, he should have come out from the beginning. ...... Well, in a way, he must have read the air.

"Hey, Usato-kun, you seem to be kind of dry with me, don't you? Did I do something to offend you? Let me know if you can, and I'll fix it right away."

"Why are you so desperate ...... or why don't you go back to the castle ......?"

"...... I'm about to cry."

You must be joking.

I don't know, maybe a senior cries.

No, I'm thinking of getting down on my knees if she actually cries, but as long as she says to herself "I'm going to cry soon," I think she'll be fine.

I was about to start walking, but the appearance of Inukami-senpai made me stop my legs again.

Inugami-senpai is standing next to me, looking up at the moon and muttering emotionally.

Kazuki-kun seems to have blown it. He lacked initiative in a different sense. ......"

"......I ...... really wanted you to run away. I really wanted Kazuki to ...... escape."

What he said to Kazuki was his real intention.

If you don't want to fight, you don't have to fight. What is so sad that we have to send you to a place where you risk death?

As I looked in the direction Kazuki ran, Inukami-senpai put his hand on my shoulder.

"......Usato, don't you want ...... me to fight?"

"That's right, of course. But I don't think you don't want to fight.

"......... So if I say I don't want to fight, you're going to comfort me!"

"What are you talking about?"

"Hmmm, I've finally lost the honorific."

I don't recognize him anymore.

After all, Kazuki and Inukami-senpai are fundamentally different.

"I won't comfort him, because Inukami-senpai is a senior. If you're a senior, you don't need to be comforted by someone younger than you, do you?

"Mhmm, it has nothing to do with seniors or anything. ......"

"Kazuki is my classmate and friend. That's all that matters to me."

He turns his back on Inukami-senpai and starts walking toward his dormitory. When he turns his back a little, he sees a senior standing and looking down.

......I may have said that a little too harshly. I should follow up. I feel bad.

But..."

"Usato-kun, you are a little too difficult to conquer. Show us more dere. ...... hmm? Were you just about to say something?"

"......... is nothing."

"I see. I'm going to ...... go back to the castle now too. ...... good night."

"Good night, senpai."

I was silent when Inukami-senpai's words came over my words, and after I left her, I quickly returned to the dormitory.

I wonder what Inukami-senpai wants to do with me. I'm really curious about it.