This BL Novel Is Ruined Now

Chapter 106

Translator: Yonnee

RP: Haebaragi_syk

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“I’m sorry, Ethan.”

Before this, she had done her best to seduce the man in front of her, but now that she was in the defensive position this time, she could only feel ashamed.

Still, what could she do? With how much the world was changing, it’s as if everything was reacting to each and every little action she took.

With an exhausted expression, Reina took Ethan’s hand and stood up.

“Is it because of Lehman?”

“……”

It was the very name that she didn’t even think would be uttered by Ethan’s lips. However, as it was mentioned, Reina frowned as though she had tasted bitter coffee that didn’t suit her preferences.

‘Lehman Karr…’

The area around her eyes started feeling hot. She was in no position to cry, but she kept tearing up about it.

It’s all because of you. It’s all your fault!

She was just trying her hardest to survive… She just tried to live a life that’s just a little more comfortable this time around… Why was the world so twisted?

Her shaky gaze eventually fell to the ground.

“Reina. Look at me, please.”

Ethan held her cheeks carefully.

“Why are you crying?”

How could she not cry?

Lehman lost everything, the plague began to spread widely around the land, and people were struggling and dying in pain when they didn’t need to be—all because of her.

She closed her trembling eyelids, shutting them tightly. Her tears trickled down to Ethan’s hands.

“It’s not your fault, Reina.”

No, it really is my fault.

“The nine households’ judgment was not excessive.”

That’s not true. It was definitely a step beyond the normal course of action.

“The punishment he had been given was proper.”

Right. Everyone thought like that. The treatment Lehman Karr received was justifiable. In this world, where nobles lived above all others, and where the nine households were above even those nobles, the decision was just.

Unfortunately, however, this was not the case for Reina, who had once lived in modern society.

“Ethan… What if Lehman was also a member of the nine households?”

Through the hazy view brought upon by her tears, she saw his black eyes.

“I don’t know anymore, Ethan.”

“You’re all living such easy lives just because you got lucky to be born into good families. I loathe every single one of you.”

“What’s right and wrong… I really don’t know anything.”

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Through his fingertips, Ethan could feel Reina’s cheeks. They had become thinner than before.

‘You’ve lost weight again.’

She tried to hide it, but she kept sighing, too.

Why did she care so much about Lehman? Why in the world did she care about that scoundrel who’s even lesser than an insect?

In all honesty, Ethan could not understand Reina.

For him, who would live for hundreds of years, humans were nothing more than ants passing by the road anyway, and the interests of such ants were of no consequence to him.

So, what was so important about the nine households taking excessive measures to protect their own interests?

Right now, the only one that mattered to him was Reina.

She was the only emotional variable Ethan had amongst all these ‘amusing’ ants.

Ethan lowered his eyes, looking at Reina’s wrist.

“……”

That day when Reina had been thrown into the rose thorn bush, a wound still remained, deep and thick. Just the mere sight of that wound aroused anger that boiled as dangerously as lava at the pit of his stomach.

That wretch should have been deprived of one of his arms. If not that, for the crime of carelessly running his mouth, his voice should have been removed.

‘Should I just kill him.’

Even if Lehman were to die, none of the nobles would dig into the incident.

However, after a very brief period of seriously considering the idea, Ethan came to his senses.

No. Suppress it. She’s going to be scared.

After the incident with Lehman, as though utterly swept by confusion, Reina stopped responding to Ethan.

He couldn’t figure it out at all. Why was she having such a hard time? What was she so scared of? What the hell was causing this obstruction in their relationship?

He was like a man wandering through a desert, deathly thirsty for days on end. However, he endured it.

It was due to his own foolish mistake that Reina had stopped calling him ‘my love’. One such mistake was enough.

“Ethan… I don’t know if it was right to do that to Lehman.”

He sorted through his mind, meticulously trying to find the right words to return to Reina. Then, he chose the answer that he thought would be the most correct response.

“Reina. Even if the punishment he received was excessive, what Lehman Karr did before that cannot be justified.”

But as soon as his words were uttered, Reina’s fine lower lip quivered.

It must be the wrong answer.

‘…This isn’t easy.’

For him, who had just started to feel human emotions, it was genuinely difficult to be sensitive to the feelings of Reina, his love.

But what could he do? Her existence was no longer a mere matter of choice for Ethan.

Right now, Ethan would not be able to go on without Reina.