To Be His Dream Girl

Mother, don't cry

he Xinying's eyes are innocent and frightened, for fear that she will do something wrong unconsciously.

Seeing her like this, Shen Junquan could not help but feel a trace of heartache.

"It doesn't matter." He went up to take her hand and said in a deep voice, "it's all right."

Shen Junquan never shows boredom or does not want to help her because he knows from the bottom of his heart that he Xinying's illness is rooted in himself.

How could she have become like this if it hadn't been for the stupid things he had done before.

Therefore, the more he Xinying is like this, he will only feel more distressed and will only double his kindness to her.

It's just this time it's really strange.

Clearly has been in accordance with Dr. Zhao's instructions to do, how can still get sick?

Shen Junquan began to doubt.

Just as he was meditating, he was attracted by he Xinying's short shriek.

He Xinying stared at the wound on Xiaochen's face in disbelief, with regret in surprise.

"Xiaochen Is mom the one who hurt your face? "

Xiaochen nodded and shook his head. He knew that his mother was just sick, so he didn't want to make her sad again.

He Xinying see him so also understand how to return a responsibility, painfully gently stroked Xiaochen's face.

"I'm sorry, Xiaochen, mom, I'm sorry for you..."

She can't tell how sad she is. She usually loves Xiaochen the most. Although she doesn't like Shen Junquan, she has never been willing to beat him.

But now because of their own disease, so good-looking face into this She really doesn't deserve to be a mother.

Originally, she thought that her illness was getting better, so she would rest assured to stay with Shen Junquan. But now when she saw Xiaochen like this, she almost immediately had the idea of giving up.

It seems that her illness will not get better. If it goes on like this, it will only drag down the child and Shen Junquan.

If she had known that, she might as well have insisted on leaving.

This is often the case with people. As soon as negative emotions come up, they seem to ignore others.

Not to mention that he Xinying has been sensitive to everything since she has a tendency of depression.

Shen Junquan looks at her unexpectedly. He doesn't expect that he Xinying still likes to blame herself as before.

It seems that even if the drug withdrawal is only part of the possibility of her relapse, the real reason may be more complex?

He secretly decided to go and have a good talk with the doctor tomorrow.

He Xinying didn't look away from Xiaochen all the time. The more she thought about it, the more she felt powerless. She couldn't help feeling sad and sat down on the ground crying.

"New tassels..." Shen Junquan was not so nervous at first. Seeing her like this, he did not care about many things. He knelt down on the ground like her and said softly, "it's all right now."

He knew that at this time, in addition to her fear, she also did not believe in herself, which seemed to be tormenting her all the time.

He Xinying sobbed: "what can I do, brother Junquan? I will hurt Xiaochen. I beat him. How can I be so vicious..."

The more she thought about it, the more she felt sad, regretted and hated her illness, and cried more and more.

"It's not your fault." Shen Junquan only hoped that she would stop crying. As soon as she cried, he remembered how she had been tortured by him and cried at the top of her voice

Strange to say, since he Xinying came back to him, his memory of the past has never been so specific and fresh.

Maybe this is God's punishment for him. He must experience the same pain as her.

"It's my fault, it's my fault..." He Xinying cried and said, "it's my fault that I hurt Xiaochen I don't deserve to be a mother... "

Even if no one said anything, she had been oppressed by her remorse. How could Shen Junquan have the heart to criticize again? Besides, it wasn't her fault at all. Everyone was surprised when this happened.

"Mom, stop crying." Just as Shen Junquan is thinking about how to appease he Xinying, Xiaochen suddenly comes over and reaches out his hand to help him dry his tears.

He Xinying didn't expect that he would act like this. She took him by the hand and asked softly, "Xiaochen, don't you blame mom?"

If he blamed himself, she might feel better. Now he is so sensible, he Xinying feels ashamed.

"No wonder." Xiao Chen shook his head, "my father told me that my mother was just sick, not on purpose."

He Xinying looks up at Shen Junquan. She didn't expect Shen Junquan to say this to her children.

At this time, Shen Junquan and Xiao Chen are looking at her with an expectant eye, which makes her feel a little embarrassed.

Sensible children and tolerant lovers, what else should she ask for? She should be satisfied, shouldn't she?

"Xiaochen didn't lose faith in you." Shen Junquan stared at her deeply, "promise me, you don't lose self-confidence."

She is too self abased, always worried that others will dislike her, if not such a character, perhaps the disease will be better soon?Shen Junquan remembers that she didn't feel this level of sensitivity in her mind in the early years.

In the final analysis, it's still the debt I owed in the past.

"I promise you..." He Xinying wiped away her tears.

Maybe she really needs to change her mind

"Good." Shen Junquan gave her a smile, and the words were reassuring, "I'll always be with you."

"Until I get better?" He Xinying couldn't help asking questions as if she wanted to make sure.

She was really afraid that her illness would one day make him impatient to continue, although she knew it might be ridiculous.

Shen Junquan looked at her deeply: "No."

He Xinying's heart was tight, but she heard the person in front of her say seriously: "until I can't accompany you."

He Xinying was stunned for a moment and slowly hugged him. "Thank you." She buried her crying voice on his shoulder, "brother Junquan, thank you."

"Fool." Shen Junquan stroked her hair.

It's just his duty. Now that he's determined, how can he leave her alone.

The next day, Shen Junquan took he Xinying to the hospital.

When Dr. Zhao heard that he Xinying's disease had recurred, he had some accidents, so he took time to do a series of tests for her.

"We suspect she has a serious drug addiction." Dr. Zhao looked at the inspection report and said, "although the drug has been stopped before, the ingredients of the drug seem to be greater than the side effects we expected. In this way, she will have a stronger reaction after withdrawal, such as depression or emotional loss of control

In front of he Xinying, he didn't speak so clearly, but they knew that this was Huo jingnian's medicine.

"But hasn't that medicine been sent for examination before?" Shen Junquan asked, "do you mean the test results at that time were different from those today?"