Tokyo Girlfriend Illustrated Book

As a person who has suffered a lot, Nishimiya Glass is very sensitive to the taste of misfortune.

It is a bitter taste with sourness in it. Bitterness is black and sourness is white. Except for the taste buds that have to bear the unbearable taste, the world visible to the naked eye has no color.

Unlike bitter melon, "Unfortunately" cannot provide vitamins or satisfy hunger. It cannot provide any kind of nutrients. In addition to making people hate their own powerlessness at the time, it can only produce countless regrets to occupy people's hearts later, and continue to rob people of the happiness they finally obtained.

Before the age of eleven, Nishimiya Glass would not eat bitter melon.

Whether in a salad or in scrambled eggs, bitter melon is definitely not delicious. The fish in the bitter gourd fish stew is very delicious, and the bitter gourd scrambled eggs are also delicious. Considering that my mother has little time to cook, the fish and eggs are even more delicious.

But bitter melon is really unpalatable, but you can’t stop eating it. Not only must you eat it, but you must eat it cleanly. When you shrink into a ball with a painful face, you have to recover quickly, don't let Yuzuru see it, and be a strong sister.

Otherwise... Yuzuru will definitely pretend that he likes to eat it, and then eat all the bitter melons by himself, leaving the fish and eggs for himself.

You can't be such a stupid, useless sister, Glass!

Therefore, Nishimiya Glass worked hard to eat, shaving off the thorns from the fish and giving it to her grandmother, giving large pieces of eggs to her sister, and then eating bitter melon with her mother.

Mom is really amazing. She doesn't even frown when she eats bitter melon, her face is as expressionless as ever.

Grandma once said that bitter melon has a nickname called "Half-Life Melon". It is said that only those who have gone through half of the journey of life can taste the wonderful taste of bitter melon.

"But grandma, I can't get used to eating bitter melon even now. Not only can't stand the taste, but it's also hard to chew bitter melon. Where's the salty sauce? Do you like bitter melon?"

That’s what grandma said. Glass had seen grandma eating bitter melon.

That amiable and kind face will become "bitter" the moment the bitter gourd enters the mouth, and the face that is already full of wrinkles will become even more wrinkled.

"Hey, I don't like Glass either, but my mother seems to like it very much, so I want to try to like Glass too."

This is how eight-year-old Nishimiya Glass answered her grandmother.

"Your mother..."

Grandma's words stopped abruptly, and there were countless emotions mixed in her somewhat cloudy eyes, which prevented Glass from asking any other questions.

When she was nine years old, Nishimiya Glass, who was in fourth grade, knew why her mother didn't frown when she ate bitter melon.

That afternoon, while she was cleaning after school, a male classmate said something to her. It was very forceful and the voice was very loud. She should be able to hear it clearly. Glass had tried very hard, but unfortunately she still couldn't. Listen clearly.

She stood there hesitating for a while before putting down the broom, walked back to the desk, took out her notepad from her bag, and walked slowly and carefully to the boy who was speaking.

When she walked over, the little girl's head was always lowered, and her eyes could not see anything except her own feet. But when she came to the boy, she still mustered up the courage to straighten her head and show a flattering expression.

She had practiced this expression many times. When she was at home, her grandma asked her what she was doing. This expression was like that of a puppy that no one wants. After getting wet in the rain, someone kicked her down and she stuck out her tongue to please her.

Glass was very happy after hearing this and thought it would be nice to be like a puppy.

Inconspicuous and not annoying.

The little girl showed a flattering expression like a puppy, fearfully handed over the notepad, and was ready to pick it up.

But I didn't expect that the boy who spoke didn't throw the notepad out impatiently like other students. Instead, he took it and started writing with a pen.

Great, my efforts have paid off. Sure enough, no one will want to play pranks on the grass on the ground.

The little girl looked at the boy writing on the notepad with joy, and did not see any malice on the faces of the classmates around her.

It was a kind of malice that would make people feel chills all over.

The notepad was handed over, and the boy thoughtfully turned it towards Nishimiya Glass so that she could see the contents immediately.

"You and your mother are both unwanted women."

Oh, it turns out that classmate XX just told me this. It was obviously very simple, why didn’t I hear it clearly?

This idea came to the little girl's head for the first time, and a deep apology appeared on her face.

"Did you hear that? You and your mother are both unwanted women. Your father doesn't want you because you can't hear, you annoying guy!"

"sorry"

The boy's voice sounded again, and Glass subconsciously apologized, but then he realized that the other person didn't understand what he said, so he quickly picked up his notepad and was about to write sorry, but he was pushed to the ground before he could hold the pen firmly.

"The annoying guy no one wants" "The annoying guy who speaks alien language" "..."

Cheers of joy rang out, and the boys and girls ran out of the classroom in a swarm.

The notepad fell in front of Nishimiya Glass. She looked at the words on it and knew why her mother didn't even frown when eating bitter melon.

It turns out that the bitterness of bitter melon is only insignificant to the mother.

"Mom... I'm sorry... Mom, I'm sorry..."

Nishimiya Glass picked up the notebook and held it in his arms, saying sorry constantly. Tears flowed down her cheeks and into her mouth, making the little girl's desperate cries even more bitter.

It is unimaginable that on an ordinary afternoon, during an ordinary cleaning, a child who cannot even write the Chinese characters for "no one wants" and can only use a pseudonym would release such strong malice.

Glass did not tell her mother about this, but kept apologizing to her mother.

"It's all because of me. It's because of my father that I left my mother. It's because of me, Yuzuru, that I don't have a father. It's all because of me..."

Glass kept confessing that if it weren't for her lack of vocabulary, she might have used all the dirty words in the world to insult herself.

The little girl couldn't imagine that even she, who had just transferred to a new school, had classmates who knew about this. How much malice would her mother, who had been working in the same place, bear?

"The woman who gave birth to a useless child" "The woman who was abandoned by her husband" "It turns out that she worked overtime because no one was waiting for her at home" "..."

Just imagining it for a moment, Glass felt enveloped in a deep cold of despair.

"I'm sorry, mom, it's all my fault, it's me..."

The little girl burst into tears, her words becoming even more unclear. She was crying so much that she couldn't breathe, and she just thought about how nice it would be if she died like this, so that her mother and sister could get rid of herself as a burden and form a good family again.

Mom, she must have thought so too, so she was always so strict with herself. How much of the suffering in her heart is caused by herself?

The little girl scolded herself in every possible way, wishing that she could be blamed for the destruction of the dinosaurs.

But hidden in the heart under the tears, I still humbly hope that my mother can comfort me, even just one sentence. As long as my mother says it's okay, then I will be willing to commit suicide immediately.

The little girl didn't dare to expect her mother to forgive her, she could only hope for a perfunctory "It's OK".

But no, my mother’s tired face remained expressionless, like a bitter gourd.

I don't know if he shed too many tears, but Glass could clearly feel the heat leaving his body.

Mom's arms are not warm at all, very cold.

"Don't cry, Nishimiya Glass."

"Don't apologize, Nishimiya Glass."

Suddenly, my mother's stern voice sounded. She was so stern that even Nishimiya Glass's tears were afraid of her. The tears that were like a flood bursting through a bank were so frightened that they stopped immediately after hearing "Nishinomiya Glass" twice in a row, and even the sobbing did not exist.

The little girl raised her head and looked at her mother through her tears, looking at the face that was as cold and hard as steel.

"People will attack those who admit their mistakes. To apologize is to admit that you have done something wrong. Since you have done something wrong, then it is right for me to push you to the ground and throw stones at you, right? Put your Cutting your indoor shoes in half and throwing your schoolbag into the bathroom is something you should bear, right?"

The mother's voice became more and more severe, but every word was clearly imprinted in Glass's head.

"If you make a mistake, try to make up for it instead of constantly apologizing."

Glass had no time to think before he heard his mother continue.

"I am an unfit mother..."

"No! Mom..."

Glass eagerly wanted to refute, but was cut off by her mother's cold voice.

"I'm an unfit mother. I didn't prepare breakfast for you and Yuzuru in the morning, I didn't accompany you to the park after school, I didn't accompany you to watch a pot of plants grow, and I didn't even attend the entrance ceremony. I just I will work overtime day and night..."

"Mom...that's not the case..."

Niazi's tears burst into tears again. She didn't feel anything when she scolded herself, but when her mother said this, she was so heartbroken that she couldn't breathe. Nishimiya Yaeko turned a deaf ear and continued to talk to herself.

"Everyone advised me to send you to a special school. I knew you would have an easier time there, but I still let you go to a regular school. Even if you were bullied, I wouldn't care. I would just keep calling you. Transferring schools will prevent you from making any friends..."

"Mom, stop talking, stop talking..." Glass shouted desperately.

"As a mother who has done so many excessive things to my daughter, I have never said sorry to you."

Nishimiya Yaeko's cold and fierce words like a machine gun finally stopped for a moment.

"No, Mom, you are not wrong..."

Glass groaned and said, then she saw her mother's expression change.

The face that was as stiff as arctic ice softened like the spring breeze.

Ah, my mother's hands are so warm.

A pair of big hands held Jiazi's little face. They were a pair of rough hands due to constant disinfection, but they were very warm and gentle.

Glass felt her mother wiping away the tears on her face with her hands. While she was immersed in the long-lost maternal love, her mother spoke again.

"If mom is right, then Ni-chan is right too."

The voice was as gentle and reassuring as moonlight.

"You didn't do anything wrong, Ni-chan."

"Don't apologize, Ni-chan."

"Don't cry, Ni-chan."

My mother's voice seemed to be ringing in my head. It was clearer than ever before, and every syllable was so beautiful.

Mom's embrace is so warm, even if winter comes, I won't be afraid.

In that warm embrace, listening to those gentle words, Nishimiya Glass understood why her mother didn't even frown when she ate bitter melon.

It's not that the bitterness of bitter gourd is not worth mentioning compared to the bitterness of mother's heart, but that as long as she doesn't frown, others will not know that she is bitter.

Those who throw stones at their mothers will be afraid of their mothers if they cannot see their mothers cry or hear their mothers apologize, and they will stop throwing stones at her.

On the dining table of the Nishimiya family

My mother still ate the bitter melon with an expressionless expression, as if it was no different from eating rice.

My sister still tried her best to eat the bitter melon, and then gave the fish and meat to her grandmother and the eggs to her sister.

Grandma still couldn't chew the bitter melon, but she didn't seem to like fish very much, because she always gave the fish her sister brought to her sister, sister, and mother.

The younger sister still looked at her elder sister strangely, wondering why she liked eating bitter melon so much.

Nishimiya Glass still doesn't like eating bitter melon, but fortunately she knows that this is not a strange thing, because her mother, grandmother and sister don't like it.

People in the Nishimiya family don't like to eat bitter melon.

By the time the girl really fell in love with eating bitter melon, she was already eleven years old and it was her ninth time to transfer to another school.

That was the last chance. The next time I transferred to another school would be a special school. Not everyone can understand mothers. In serious cases, mothers may even be deprived of the right to raise themselves.

watergate municipal primary school

The little girl grew up into a little girl here and learned to eat bitter melon.

She likes the bitter melon with fish flavor in the bitter melon stewed fish. She can also chew the bitter melon mixed with the eggs in the bitter melon scrambled eggs. She even likes the bitter melon salad.

"Sister, I always thought that you were trying so hard to eat the bitter melon to leave other delicious food to me. I didn't expect that you really like to eat bitter melon. You are about to become as powerful as mom."

This is what the stupid sister said. Glass wanted to tell her the story of how he fell in love with bitter melon, but after thinking about it, he decided not to tell her. Let this little kid always be afraid of bitter melon!

I will also be cried to the point of frowning, I will be cried to the point of grimacing, and occasionally I will cry in pain, but I can enjoy the unique taste of bitter melon.

Why does Nishimiya Glass do this?

Because of that Hojo Kyosuke who has been studying desserts since he was a child?

No, not even the almighty Kyousuke-kun can do anything about bitter melon. If he bribed Sakura with bitter melon dishes, he would be kicked out of the house immediately, and his nose might even bleed from being hit by the door.

Although in terms of nutritional value, bitter melon and papaya are comparable, but Kyosuke-kun is so smart, how could he not consider this.

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