Tokyo underground city

Chapter 197 Facing the Shadow

After hearing the discussion between Zi Yuan and Lin Huai'en, Yuan Ximu, who regained consciousness, was silent for a moment, and nodded firmly: "If this is the only way... then let's do it!"

"But you have to think clearly. If you are not careful, you will be swallowed by your own shadow."

Ziyuan hugged her knees and looked at the two people in front of her, not looking anxious at all.

Lin Huai'en couldn't help but remind her:

"We can be resurrected after death, so you are the one who has to worry about yourself, right?"

However, Zion just tilted her head and said somewhat seriously: "Maybe for you humans, 'living' is very important, but for the "Abnormal Body", it is not."

She shook her head lightly: "If I can 'live', of course I will work hard for it, but if one day I have to face 'death', then as an "abnormal body", I will accept it calmly. This fact, back to the basics.”

"It's a pity that these are the memories I have accumulated over the years."

Ziyuan looked a little sad, holding the little golden light in her hands.

Blooming in the golden fluorescence is the beautiful tuberose.

"The memories I took away, I alone will remember them."

"When I die again, they will disappear and no longer have any 'meaning'."

"But what's the point of 'failure'..."

"Let them disappear! Then I can start over again with anger and hatred!"

Looking at Ziyuan's slightly sad expression, Lin Huai'en didn't know what to say.

But Shion is a "deviant" and he is a human being, so she doesn't need his comfort in the first place.

On the side, Yuan Ximu had already sorted out her mood, took a deep breath, and looked at the two people next to her: "What should I do?"

Shion crushed the phantom in her hand and sat up.

As she said, she was able to accept her own death, but until death actually came, she would continue no matter how ugly the struggle looked.

This may be the so-called "listen to fate and do your best".

Ziyuan narrowed her eyes slightly, looked at Yuan Ximu, and judged:

"First of all, as I said before, you need to inject enough [alienated pure water] into your body. With your current situation... you will almost be raised to level 28."

"What's next?" The girl nodded and asked.

"The next words..." Ziyuan glanced at Lin Huai'en beside her: "You need to let Lin Huai'en enter your spiritual world just like you entered Lin Huai'en's spiritual world."

"You want me (captain) to enter Yumu's (me) spiritual world?! Why?"

Hearing this, Lin Huai'en and Yuan Ximu were both a little surprised.

Ziyuan nodded: "Do you still remember what your shadow is?"

Yuan Ximu hesitated for a moment: "'You want to give up on being an actor'?"

"No, your shadow is 'compromise'."

Ziyuan said calmly: "You once entered my reincarnation world, and the power of "Shadow Forest" also played a role in it."

"So I am very clear about your 'fear' or 'shadow'. On the surface, it is 'wanting to give up being an actor', or 'escape from being a child star'. But in reality, what you are 'fearful',' What you are afraid of is the self that compromises with reality."

Ziyuan lowered her head slightly, her golden bangs covering her eyes: "For example, in your 'reincarnation' this time, what you want to forget is 'the self that did not use all its strength to perform', because you know very well and The acting level of the 'ninja leader' you played opposite."

"You know, he has worked very hard, but after all, he is not a real dungeon crawler, and he has not crossed the 'boundary' of acting to come to the 'bottom of the lake.'"

"So you have to suppress yourself and make your acting less brilliant and stunning. Don't suppress your opponent's acting so that the other person has to give up his career as an actor because of 'inferiority' and 'regret.'"

“It’s the ‘failures’ and ‘imperfections’ you want to forget.”

"And the 'shadow' you fear is 'yourself who has chosen to compromise because of others and reality.'"

"You are afraid that if you continue to compromise like this, your acting skills will become more and more mediocre, and your impression on the screen will become more and more dull. In the end, you will have to disappear in the long river of time like other child stars who pass by in a flash. .”

“It’s your ‘fear’, it’s your ‘shadow’, it’s the goal you have to cross.”

"And you can't achieve this goal just by yourself."

Having said this, Ziyuan raised her head and looked at the young man in black next to the girl——

"Only he can help you at this moment."

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Looking at the black-haired girl lying in the middle of the flower field, breathing steadily, Lin Huai'en was slightly silent.

After hearing what Ziyuan said, Yuan Ximu confirmed that he could help.

But he himself couldn't figure it out——

"why me?"

He looked at the abnormal body next to Yuan Ximu.

"Because she believes in you." Ziyuan stroked the girl's head with some pity and replied: "She thinks that her acting skills will not hurt you, and she thinks that no matter what kind of talent she shows, you can chase her with gritted teeth. Fuck her."

Having said this, Ziyuan raised her head and glanced at Lin Huaien with some sadness——

"Lin Huaien, do you know what is the most hurtful thing for a genius?"

"Failure and setbacks?" Lin Huai'en thought for a while and said.

But Ziyuan shook her head and said:

"It's not a failure or a setback, but she clearly believed that she was about to succeed, but when she looked back, there was no one following her."

"That's the moment that can push a genius down the abyss."

"What's more, we are not geniuses, we are just ordinary people like everyone else."

Lin Huai'en took a deep breath and nodded: "You are burning yourself desperately, only to be pushed to the stake by the people you want to protect... In short, you need me to be Yuan Ximu's opponent, right?"

Shion nodded: "Yes, only if you show strong acting skills in the opposite role can Hara Yumu fully release herself and confirm that she is not climbing the towering artistic peak in vain and alone."

"In this way, she can let go of her worries, aim at the highest level of acting, and realize her dream——"

"And only in this way can she merge her own shadow and transform into a 'real perfect person'."

"It's such a harsh requirement..."

Lin Huaien sighed and sat down.

He took out the [Alienation Crystal Ingot] that Yuan Ximu had not used and started to extract [Alienation Pure Water].

Seeing his actions, Ziyuan was a little surprised:

"What are you doing? Have you reached the full level?"

However, Lin Huaien just pressed the syringe into his arm.

"Yes." He nodded, "But I haven't inspired the shadow in my heart yet."

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Listening to Ziyuan's description, Lin Huai'en actually felt an inexplicable feeling of familiarity.

He was well aware of "the shadow of genius."

Because Xu Qin once showed him that kind of shadow.

However, it was not that he chose to retreat that time, but that when he was ready to follow Xu Qin into her research field, Xu Qin chose to give up.

For Xu Qin, she has been alone for too long, and she is afraid that her research will destroy the peaceful and warm daily life of the two of them.

"Unfortunately, each of us is a traveler in time. No matter how beautiful the moment is, we cannot stay in its phantom."

The "future" separates the two, while the "past" protects them.

And now, he is preparing to use the treasures obtained from the "past" to protect his and Yuan Ximu's "future".

Lin Huai'en is very aware of the gap between himself and Yuan Ximu.

That kind of gap was not something that Shion and Hara Yumu imagined could be easily bridged.

Because he had faced Xu Qin's "shadow" once, he knew the horror of that kind of thing.

The "shadow" of Yuan Ximu inspired by "Dark Forest" is likely to be far beyond everyone's imagination. If he does not pay the same price, he is likely to be swallowed up by Yuan Ximu's shadow!

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"are you ready?"

Ziyuan looked at the shaky Lin Huai'en, and after a moment of silence, she confirmed to him.

"It's pretty... OK..."

At this moment, Lin Huai'en had difficulty even speaking. The "shadow" stimulated by [Alienated Pure Water] was more terrifying than he imagined.

At this moment, his heart was filled with negative emotions.

Those emotions usually existed in his heart, but he sorted them out very well.

And [Alienated Pure Water] was like a flame, completely igniting his gasoline barrel full of negative emotions!

However, looking at Lin Huai'en, who was surrounded by thick black fog, Ziyuan put her palms against his body without any fear - with some compassion -

"It turns out that you are also suffering from so many shadows deep in your heart?"

"Please go to sleep..."

"Sleep peacefully in my flower fields."

"I hope that by the time you wake up, everything will be over."

"Only the hope of beauty and happiness fills the depths of our hearts."

Looking at Ziyuan's golden eyes, Lin Huaien felt that his head was very heavy, and he slowly knelt down and collapsed forward.

The moment he lost consciousness, he felt something hugging him warmly.

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