Trapped In Hisstory

Chance noticed the change in the expression of the princess. She looked both shy and sad. It might be because she was embarrassed to tell them something that does not sound believable, and she knew that they would not take it seriously.

Chance was surprised when he saw the princess had tears forming in her eyes as she put on a smile, "I thought so, brother thinks it is weird as well." she said.

The historian admitted that he was surprised when she first told them about the one she loves, but he will not find it strange nor tell her to stop because it is impossible. After all, him coming to this century to relive Charles's life just to know about the dead lover's romance was far stranger than being in love with a man in a dream.

'Back in my time, many girls your age are in love with fictional characters, they do not exist as well, so I will not find something like that weird.' he said inside his mind, wanting to tell it to the princess but it will only confuse her.

Chance went near her and wrapped his hand around him, "No, I do not. Do not worry." he whispered, trying to comfort his sister.

"I have been having it every night, brother." she said and gripped tightly on his clothes, "Every day I wake up in tears. Every day I miss someone whom I do not even know, I miss someone whom I never even met before."

"I do not even remember what he looked like nor remember whatever happened to us in the dream, yet my heart always longs for him." her voice started to break. Chance was in a daze as he listened to his sister. He pulled her sister on his chest to let her cry.

"I can still feel his touch. It felt like I knew well that I was with him. As if I was living another life in another world. But every single time I wake up, I do not remember anything." she said, "I lost my memory but the emotions I had with him remained."

"The feeling of loving someone without even knowing whether they exist or not is the worst!"

All the words that the princess told her rendered him speechless. It was too much to take and he did not know what to say so he just stayed silent while caressing the back of his sister. Carmilla pulled away, "What if there really is another world? Is that possible? Is there a chance that I can meet him?" she asked.

Chance knew that it would hurt the princess but he had to. He shook his head as a response and all hope the princess had was shattered. 'Those dream of yours, it might be you in the future,' he thought, 'Milla, the cafe owner.'

He cannot say that to her, as that would be even stranger to hear than falling in love with a man in a dream.

Princess Carmilla teared up, "What should I do, brother…" she said in a low voice, "There will be a time where I will marry a man, yet my feelings for him will still remain."

"Can I still continue loving someone whom I know I will not be with until I die? Can I still continue even though I am not sure of what will happen in the future?" she asked.

At that moment, Chance lost the ability to speak. He does not know why he cannot let out a single word. Her words suddenly made his heart ache, as if it was being pierced.

Before he could even respond, he saw a hand in front of him. He looked up and saw the butler of the princess, "William," he called out.

He gently put his hand on the princess and pulled her away from the Crown Prince. He took out his handkerchief and wiped the tears of the princess. It must be because of the butler's gentle touch that the princess has fallen asleep. 

William stared at the princess who fell asleep from crying then turned to the Crown Prince, "I apologize for the trouble, Your Highness. I will take it from here." he said, "My lady will be resting, please forgive us for making your stay shorter than usual."

Chance waved his hand, "No, it is all right. We will let her rest now." he said.

William bowed and guided them to the door. They all stepped outside, "I thank Your Highness for the time. We will invite you again soon." he said with a lowered head.

They all walked without saying a word and Chance was lost in his thoughts.

~~~~~

William stared at the Crown Prince after hearing his words that were full of confidence. Even he himself, who was about to lose hope for the feelings he has for the princess would not be able to say such words that they will be together.

Although he agrees with what the Crown Prince said that no one can tell you not to fall in love, for a servant to be with the princess that would be a talk of the town, or rather the entire kingdom.

How could he be with a princess who everyone loves, a royal, someone who has everything she needs. "If I...continue on with these feelings and try to pursue her. I would be happy, but that would make me selfish!" William exclaimed and the shy butler disappeared and was replaced by a man in despair.

"Do you not want to be together with Milla?" Chance asked.

"...I do." William answered and smiled bitterly, "But I do not want it to happen." he added, which left the Crown Prince in confusion.

"Why not?" Chance asked. 

'He wants to be with the princess but he does not wish to be together? This is the first time I heard someone say that.' he thought. 'Well it is not like I have other people to talk to. What a lonely life.'

"Being with me does not guarantee her happiness. The two of us may be happy at first, but Her Highness would be the one to suffer in the end."

"She will soon be the topic of the ladies and their attitude towards her will change. Everything that she could easily have, could disappear in an instant because of me." William said, meaning every word that comes out of his mouth. "I am not selfish enough to only think about my happiness."

"Have you made up your mind?" Chance asked, making sure of his decision, "That you will not be with her?" 

William bit his lip and clenched his fists, and was about to nod but the Crown Prince held his chin and made William look at him, "Do not nod your head and listen to what I will say before you make up your mind."

"As someone loyal to the princess, you might live as her butler until the day you die."

"You will be with Princess Carmilla until you are old, you will live your life watching her grow into a fine lady, marry another man whom she might or might not have feelings for." Chance noticed the butler flinch at the thought of the princess marrying another man but he did not say anything.

"Are you sure it would be all right for you as you look at her from afar, with her husband and her future children, seeing that it is not you by her side? Regretting that you never told her about how you feel?" Chance said, trying to get every word into his head. 

Chance's mood started to drop as well, as he felt his situation, "Regret…" he said and his hand that was on William's chin dropped to his shoulder, "is the worst feeling that you will carry until grave."

~~~~~

"Caliber," he called out and the Canopus Prince looked at him, "What is something that you had almost done that you would regret the most?" he asked in a low voice.

Caliber stared at him then looked up, as if he was thinking deeply about a moment where he almost did something he would regret. He returned his gaze to the Crown Prince and smiled, "That time at the celebration of my brother's after coronation."

~~~~~

He also lay down on the ground, gazing at the starry sky beside the man. Chance's mouth agape as he saw a quick glimpse of a wishing star in the starry sky. He immediately closed his eyes and wished that all would go well in his mission.

"Amazing."

Chance opened his eyes after hearing the mutter of the man. "The star?"

"The kiss."

Chance sat back up and kicked him, "Stop repeating that!" he exclaimed, making the man laugh. "But it is the truth, I could not help it."

His brows furrowed, "Do you normally just kiss back someone like that? You could have just stopped me." he asked.

"Then why did you kiss me?" he questioned back.

"I'm the one asking here."

He sighed, "Of course not. Do I look like I would kiss back anyone who kisses me? Seriously." he answered.

'You do look like someone who'd do that.' Chance thought.

He stared down at the man, "Then why did you respond to my kiss?" he asked with a serious tone.

The man who was staring at the sky turned his gaze towards him, with the enchanting amber eyes that could swallow him all. "Because I feel that I would regret it if I did not kiss you now."

~~~~~

"Gosh, up until now you still had that kiss on your mind?" Chance said and looked at him with a weirded out expression.

Caliber laughed, "Of course."

He smiled, "But I am serious, not kissing you that day would have been the biggest regret I would have." he said. "If it was not for that, we would not be like this today." he said and intertwined his fingers with him.

Chance had a slight blush on his face and they both smiled and continued walking away from Carmilla's chamber.

But his sister's words still left an impact on him.

"What should I do, brother…" 

"There will be a time where I will marry a man, yet my feelings for him will still remain."

"Can I still continue loving someone whom I know I will not be with until I die? Can I still continue even though I am not sure of what will happen in the future?"

His grip on Caliber's hand tightened, it was his sister's feelings but he felt as if her words were a question to himself.