The lonely Hikigaya Hachiman wants to become the king of mystery novels

The lonely Hikigaya Hachiman wants to become the king of mystery novels Author: William Bieke

Summary:

"Teacher Hachiman, you have published so many mystery novels before you are 20 years old, and each of them has sold more than one million copies. You are respected as a once-in-a-century mystery novel genius. You have such a steady stream of ideas. Where did it come from?”

"I don't think I'm a genius. I just use the time other people spend partying and falling in love to write." Hikigaya Hachiman replied.

"But Mr. Hachiman, there are always some rumors saying that you are always surrounded by many girls."

"Well, actually those are not rumors, but I don't think it will affect my writing."

New to the book, please give me some advice.

Chapter 1 Who is Hikigaya Hachiman?

14-year-old Hikigaya Hachiman said goodbye to his sister Komachi as usual, got on his bicycle, put it away in the school parking shed, and stepped into the class door. Under his trademark dead fish eyes and poker face, he was almost ashamed. Explosive psychological activity.

It starts from the night before.Hikigaya Hachiman sat cross-legged on the bed and edited emails. His hands were pressing the keyboard of his mobile phone quickly. Every time he typed a few lines, he had to think carefully for a while, delete some of them before typing again.Like an online writer who still wants to write despite not knowing how to write, the process of trying to find words and sentences is naturally extremely constipating.

The name of the person who makes Hachiman so entangled is Orimoto Kaori. Among all the junior high school students of Hikigaya Hachiman, he is one of the few people who can chat with him. For this reason alone, Orimoto-san can be called a genius. .In the eyes of most students who know Hikigaya Hachiman, being able to chat normally with Hachiman already belongs to the category of special powers.

At this time, the reason why Hikigaya Hachiman was entangled was because he thought that the relationship between Orimoto-san and him should probably go further, and the content he edited was naturally a letter of confession.

Hikigaya-san's childhood was extremely lacking in companionship and care from his peers. His birthday was on August 8th, which was during the summer vacation. There would be no classmates to celebrate his birthday or give him a surprise in the class. Hachiman had been practicing his surprised expression for a long time. Never even came in handy.

Dead fish eyes are another debuff of Hikigaya Hachiman, which directly caused his classmates' perception of him to gradually develop from "who are you?" to disgust.During a bonfire party in elementary school, all the girls found him disgusting and refused to dance with Hikigaya Hachiman. No one liked to look into such dead eyes, and naturally, the bullying started.

Perhaps this kind of dead fish eyes also made others a little afraid. The bullying Hikigaya Hachiman received did not rise to the level of physical confrontation.Instead, they deliberately ignored him, called him by the wrong name, or gave him some insulting nicknames.

After entering junior high school, the situation did not improve.Hikigaya Hachiman's problem is three-in-one. He is discriminated against and bullied because of his lack of love and dead eyes. He is withdrawn because of being discriminated and bullied. Because his isolation leads to even more dead eyes and lack of love.

To sum up, Hikigaya Hachiman, who was promoted to the second grade of junior high school, finally met the first girl in his life who could communicate with him normally - Kaori Orimoto.

"She is actually willing to exchange email addresses with me! She actually replies to the emails I send her! Is there any girl in the world (other than Komachi) who is so nice to me?"

Hachiman roared in his heart, he regarded the etiquette in normal interpersonal communication as a great gift.

However, Orimoto-san is actually just a carefree social worker. She is willing to chat and exchange email addresses with any of her classmates.Hikigaya Hachiman is just one of the countless classmates who chat with Orimoto Kaori every night.And because Hachiman always made chatting with his classmates as grand as an older virgin's first blind date, and it took a long time to think about sending an email, Orimoto didn't have much of an impression on him.

But it doesn't matter, Hikigaya Hachiman is about to do something that Orimoto Kaori will remember him for a lifetime.

Is the email confession not grand enough, too frivolous, and unable to make the other party feel sincerity?None of this was a problem for Hikigaya Hachiman. Before his dream was completely shattered, he always believed that he and Orimoto were going in both directions.

"Hello Orimoto-san, after getting to know you, the fire in my heart was ignited by you, so please help me extinguish it. I can't do anything on my own."

Sentences filled with emotions from a junior high school boy appeared on the screen of Hikigaya Hachiman's mobile phone.

This was of course not his original sentence. Since Hachiman couldn't come up with a few words after holding it in for a long time, he had to use Osamu Dazai's famous confession sentence in "The Setting Sun".

Doing this is a double insurance for Hachiman. If Orimoto-san can understand what he means, that would be great; if not, Hachiman is going to just put it off and just continue to be classmates tomorrow if nothing happens.He himself is also hot-headed about confessing his love. If it destroys the hard-earned friendship (Hachiman thinks), it will be more than worth the loss. Therefore, Hikigaya Hachiman does not intend to edit the content of the email to be very straightforward.

With an excited heart and trembling hands, Hikigaya Hachiman clicked the send button.

...... ......

Orimoto Kaori-san really couldn’t understand the meaning of Hikigaya Hachiman’s words.

She is not a literary girl, and socializing takes up most of her spare time, but this does not prevent Orimoto, who has normal aesthetic ability, from thinking that this sentence is very beautiful.

Is this Hikigaya-san so talented?This reads like a sentence written by a literary genius.

Orimoto Kaori asked in his mind.She decided to look up the sentence on Google to see what kind of medicine this Hikigaya classmate was selling.

"From Osamu Dazai's "Setting Sun"... Comparing the love in one's heart to a flame... There is also a hint of enthusiasm for a straight shot in the shyness..."

Orimoto Kaori's face became more and more complicated as he reread the searched analysis.

"This Hikigaya-san, is he confessing his love to me?"

Orimoto Kaori read some more analysis and confirmed this conjecture.

"This is really a big deal. Hikigaya Hachiman actually likes me and confesses his love to me?"

After being shocked, Orimoto-san had a question, who is Hikigaya Hachiman?

Of course, Orimoto didn't really forget Hikigaya Hachiman, but what Hikigaya-san did today was so different from the impression of him that Orimoto couldn't immediately communicate with the person who sent her an email and expressed his love to her with a love poem. Hikigaya Hachiman from the class responded.

"Hello, Hikigaya-san, I have received your message. I think that if two people want to be together, they still need to understand each other. At the moment, I am not familiar enough with Hikigaya-san. In the future, we should improve ourselves first. Understand, I’m sorry.”

Orimoto Kaori has never been a girl who likes to make twists and turns. She typed these words quickly, read them through again, and replied directly to Hikigaya Hachiman.

She really didn't know what caused Hikigaya's feelings for her, but after all, the other party confessed, and she had to respond. Moreover, she also said that she would continue to understand Hikigaya better, which was perfect. Reply.

Orimoto thought to himself, feeling proud of his excellent ability to handle difficult matters in interpersonal relationships.

...... ......

Hikigaya Hachiman couldn't say it was a bolt from the blue at this time, at least it was a thunderbolt.

He thought about countless reasons why Orimoto Kaori would reject him, such as being too young to at least wait until high school, such as the current task is to study hard and not wanting to fall in love for the time being, such reasons for putting relationships on hold.

Or "I have someone I like" or "We are not suitable". This kind of direct denial is not acceptable to Hikigaya Hachiman. His character determines that he will not pester Orimoto and meet again. Although it will be a bit awkward, we can still be friends.

but! ! What the hell is "not familiar enough"! ! !Am I just a little transparent in Orimoto-san's heart? !Could it be that even though I talked to her so much (Hikigaya thought), it was still difficult for her to remember me?

Hikigaya collapsed. He was a withdrawn person but his essence was eager to communicate. The biggest defense point was that he was not recognized at all.

What is "being recognized"?Spend a sum of money on YouTube to send a super chat to a virtual anchor. The anchor reads your ID and thanks you. This is recognition.Post long gachi comments on the anchor's Twitter day after day, and finally one day the anchor replies to you with one line of text, which is also recognized.

When a person's desire to be recognized reaches a certain level, he will no longer be innocent, and he will use sharper and less naughty ways to gain recognition.Anyway, thanking him and insulting him are both ways for him to be recognized. The latter is easier. At this time, people's psychology has been distorted.

Hikigaya Hachiman, who has been isolated for 14 years, has become accustomed to loneliness, but he is not willing to be alone.People are eager to express and be recognized.But now the girl he hopes to get to know him most, Orimoto Kaori, is actually not familiar with him at all. He is not special. He is just one of the countless passers-by in Orimoto's life.

After suffering a huge blow, Hachiman fell into an endless cycle of self-denial. At the last moment when he was unable to extricate himself, his eyes darkened, he fell back on the pillow, and fell asleep peacefully.

...... ......

Hikigaya Hachiman opened his eyes, but now he was no longer the original Hachiman inside.

"Am I, soul-pierced?"

(New) Hikigaya Hachiman muttered to himself as he looked at the completely unfamiliar room and unfamiliar body in front of him.He stretched out his hands, opened and clenched them, and so on.Then, making an action that he had not done for a long time in his previous life, he stood up from the bed.

In his previous life, he had a car accident when he was a child, which caused his legs to become ornaments. Although his family worked hard to integrate him into the group, the discrimination caused by his physical disability was difficult to eliminate, so he was too lazy to waste time on In terms of meaningless interpersonal communication, he became a completely withdrawn person.

He studies hard every day and reads or watches movies after class to enrich himself. He thinks that in the future he will have a good career as a writer or something like that.

In order to facilitate his short-distance travel, his family bought him an electric wheelchair that can be operated with only one hand.For him who can't ride or drive, this is a very addictive experience.

Until one college summer vacation, when he was driving on a road he passed every day, his wheelchair suddenly ran out of power and stopped in the middle of the road. He didn't have time to think about when he started to be too lazy to charge the wheelchair frequently, and he just started to get out of the wheelchair. He flew out and fell in the middle of the road not far from home.

"Damn it, my last life ended in such a frustrating way."

Before the new Hikigaya Hachiman had time to express his emotions, memories about his new body flooded into his brain like a tide.

...... ......

"...The co-author is also a young man with a defective character, and he has just experienced a one-sided lovelorn... It's a bit tricky, and the fold... From these memories, I feel She is like a loudmouth who will talk about this confession experience in her group... maybe she has already told others about it in the email... ..”

The more Hikigaya Hachiman thought about it, the more desperate he became about the situation after going to school. What was even more desperate was that it was actually almost time to go to school.

then

14-year-old Hikigaya Hachiman could only say goodbye to his sister Komachi as usual, got on his bicycle, put it in the school parking shed, and stepped into the door of the class. Under his trademark dead fish eyes and poker face, he was ashamed. Psychological activities that are about to explode.

Chapter 2 Hikigaya Hachiman made up his mind

Hikigaya Hachiman seemed to have used a lifetime of courage just to step into the class with one foot.

Bracing himself and walking into the classroom, Hikigaya's image of himself becoming the laughing stock of the whole class did not appear. He was still the little transparent one.He quickly walked to his seat and sat down, observing the class secretly.

The first is Orimoto Kaori, she is always the loudest and most eye-catching presence.At this time, she was laughing and joking by the window with a few of her best friends as usual.If a small group of students like this wants to maintain a stable relationship for a long time, topics that everyone is interested in are indispensable.So now, what topic is the most explosive for Kaori Orimoto, the founder of this small group, and is certainly of interest to everyone?

The answer has come by itself.

"Ah! Hikigaya-san, you're here!"

Orimoto walked towards Hikigaya Hachiman enthusiastically, and her loud voice quickly attracted the attention of the whole class.As for her best friends, they smiled at Hachiman without concealment. Sure enough, they had already known what happened last night from Orimoto.But this was not a smile of ridicule or amusement, but a smile of simply thinking that Hikigaya was very interesting.

"It's over, it's over, it's over, it's over, it's over, it's over..."

Hikigaya groaned.

As a person with 20 years of life experience in his previous life, Hikigaya knows that compared to the rapidly growing body, the mental development of junior high school students is far from keeping up, and emotional intelligence is still in the training stage.Some behaviors that are unconscious, subconscious, non-malicious, or even considered well-intentioned may cause psychological harm to the other party and have irreversible consequences.

It is in this situation that many students unknowingly become participants in school bullying.

"Ahaha... What's going on? Orimoto-san, you see the teacher is coming soon, why don't you go back to your seat first..."

If you can, just put it off. The whole class is watching here now. If Orimoto reveals what happened last night at this time, she will be completely screwed! Damn it!Hikigaya Hachiman thought desperately.

But Orimoto didn't seem to hear Hikigaya's words at all, and continued to speak to Hikigaya in the high-spirited voice of a junior high school girl.

"Hey, how did you come up with the idea of ​​confessing to me by sending a love poem via email yesterday? I didn't expect you to be quite romantic,"

The students in the class were already preparing for class. This sentence was like the ultimate move of Mask of the Void, freezing all the students in place and unable to move, except for Orimoto who released the skill.

"By the way, I didn't know what you meant when I just saw the email last night. I checked the sentence you sent online and figured it out. It turns out that this poem was written by Osamu Dazai. I didn't read it. After reading his works, I thought he was a person who only emits emo emotions. It seems that I have also read his books."

Orimoto-san continued to talk like a barrage of words.

Dazai Osamu is indeed not an emo man as people think, but Hikigaya Hachiman is really close to being emo now.

"Stop talking...stop talking..."

Hikigaya Hachiman could only shake his head mechanically at this time.

Even using his past life experience, Hikigaya Hachiman cannot handle the current situation.Does Kaori Orimoto have any malicious intentions?Not only did she not, she was even fulfilling what she said in her reply last night to "increase understanding with Hikigaya-san". She also offered to read Osamu Dazai. She typically wanted to start a chat by looking for common topics. If this If the introduction to the conversation hadn't been last night's confession, it would have been perfect.

"What are you all chattering about? Come back to your seats, it's time to go to class."

Hikigaya Hachiman didn't like this Chinese teacher, but at this moment, his voice made Hikigaya happy.

Although the start of class just made the storm come a little late.But Hikigaya had at least one class to think about countermeasures.

"..."

Hikigaya found that he was thinking too much, and he couldn't calm down to think at all.During the class, from time to time one or more pairs of eyes would be directed towards Hikigaya.

Orimoto Kaori is the catalyst for the atmosphere in the class. At the junior high school stage, many boys also have a vague affection for Orimoto like Hikigaya.The looks they cast contained admiration, curiosity, jealousy and so on.

Hikigaya wants to slap his old self more and more. You said it's not good for you to confess your love to anyone. Even if you like a man, why do you like a monster like Orimoto Kaori? ah.

This class was not long at all. As soon as the bell rang, the teacher left immediately. He was very ruthless and Hikigaya hated him even more.

Not surprisingly, Orimoto-san came closer again, but the difference this time was that many other students also came closer curiously, wanting to hear some exciting news.

"That's great, Hikigaya!"

"I didn't expect that you usually don't say anything, but you just had a big surgery."

These are male classmates with whom I don’t usually get to know each other well.

"Hey, Hikigaya-san, can you repeat that love poem? I also want to be more romantic."

"Kaori is a good girl, you have to be more dedicated in the future, Hikigaya, hahahahaha."

These are Jia Zhi's best friends.

"..."

Fortunately, the new Hikigaya was mentally stronger than the original one, and there was no malice in these words. The first day after the failed confession passed in such a noisy way.

However, the malice of junior high school students does not take too long to ferment.

After several boys also confessed to Orimoto and were rejected, in order to cover up their loss and prevent themselves from becoming the target of public criticism, they took the matter to Hikigaya Hachiman.They believed that ordinary people like Hikigaya Hachiman, who had no sense of existence, lowered Orimoto-san's evaluation of boys.They also discovered that Hikigaya took the same route home as another girl in the class every day (actually they just walked the same route for a while, and Hikigaya even deliberately kept a long distance from the girl to avoid misunderstandings), so they spread the word privately. It is rumored that Hikigaya is in love with another girl and is a stalker. Such gossip is very popular in the small circle of junior high school students, and everyone knows after spreading it three times.

...... ......

It has been a month since the new Hikigaya came into this world, and the situation around him is even worse than before.

"God has given me a chance to start over, but apart from being able to walk with my legs now, what is the difference from me in my previous life? I am still lonely, still not understood, and still discriminated against."

On a dark and windy night, Hikigaya Hachiman was lying on the bed and thinking while emulating.

"Misunderstandings are difficult to eliminate because they are purely malicious. All they do is to ruin your reputation. Junior high school students lack judgment and it is difficult to reason with reason. If this situation cannot be reversed, Then it will be the same situation in high school. So there is only one way..."

Hikigaya wanted to be a writer in his previous life, not only because he loved reading, but also because the creative profession of writer held a very high status in Neon.

Many Japanese look down on Two-dimensional, thinking that comics and the like are cancers, and those addicted to comics and animation are hopeless.But they do not discriminate against cartoonists. A cartoonist who can be serialized in magazines and publish single volumes will be respectfully called "teacher". This is the difference that the identity of the creator brings to them.

If Hikigaya Hachiman can become a recognized writer, he will naturally gain respect, not only to solve the immediate problem, but also for the sake of his life in the next few decades.