A world only known by the God of Lost Love

"...It's okay not to be in a hurry, Shiina-san."

Suzuki Ren also saw the anxiety on Shiina Mashiro's face, so he immediately said to her in his usual gentle tone:

"I know that my story sounds very complicated. Let's go back today and sort out your thoughts. When you think about it, you can tell me everything in detail."

"!"

The familiar "brown" appeared on Ren Suzuki's face again, and the "dark red" that had finally been revealed was about to be buried again.

Ren Suzuki, who had completely confessed her true feelings, began to gradually return to her usual state.

Shiina Mashiro suddenly realized that if she just let Suzuki Ren continue to cover up, then she might not know how long it would take to touch his truth again in the future...

"Absolutely not."

Although the colorful colors have been trying to slow down her thinking, her consciousness is also beating wildly, trying to break free from this thick mud-like thinking swamp.

Something must be said, something must be said to refute his deep-seated misunderstanding.

His self-hiding at this time must be interrupted!

Is there anything that can refute his argument without having to think about it on the spot?

Are there any contradictions between what he said and his previous performance——

……

Ah, there is!

"Goto...Ichiri!"

With difficulty, Shiina Mashiro grasped the name from her chaotic brain.

"If Ren really believes that necessary... interpersonal relationships do not exist in this world... then for you, does Goto Kazuri fall into this category?"

"Is there anyone else in this world who can replace 'Isri Goto'?"

"…………"

The mood that gradually calmed down was once again stirred up by Shiina Mashiro's words.

For Ren Suzuki, today is probably destined to be a day that cannot be spent peacefully.

Chapter 40: From your hypothesis, I can only see the only

For Ren Suzuki, can Kazuri Goto's position be replaced by others?

the answer is negative.

If it hadn't been for Goto Kazuri's existence, he probably wouldn't have escaped from that overpass until now, let alone reunited with Hiiragi after that, and completely reconciled with his first love.At the same time, Goto Kazuri has proven to him more than once how dazzling a person who can put in hard work and enthusiasm for his goals can become.

Even though he did give her great support when she was just starting out, Goto Ichiri has already caught up with him... or even surpassed him.

For Ren Suzuki, Kazuri Goto at this time has undoubtedly become the object of his admiration and respect, and the experiences and memories of those few months have become an unforgettable treasure for Ren Suzuki.

……

So, what about the existence of Ren Suzuki for Kazuri Goto?

If there really is no necessary relationship in this world, then why did Goto Kazuri pursue his existence in the four years after he disappeared?

After participating in the school radio broadcast, she is no longer a lonely and marginalized figure, and after the band became famous, she has successfully fulfilled her life ideal.

Four years later, the band members still get along harmoniously with each other, and their rising popularity also ensures her material fulfillment.

According to Ren Suzuki's imagination, Goto Kazuri should no longer need his support and companionship at this time. However, when he met her again as a stranger, she launched an offensive against him that was completely beyond his imagination. .

Not only Goto Kazuri, but also the other three members of the band seemed to have a considerable fondness for him.

If Suzuki Ren's claim is correct, then why do everyone who ended the band have such a deep attachment to him until now?

"And if you think about it carefully... what Lian just said is a bit too strange no matter how you think about it."

Just when Suzuki Ren fell into a sluggish state due to self-conflict, Gashiina Mashiro spoke again:

"Even if you say...what you have done for me, others can do it. But in fact, the person who appears by my side when I need it most, takes care of me, and tolerates me...is Lian. Even if There are many people in this world who can do this, but you are the one who appears in front of me. Therefore, other assumptions are completely meaningless."

While Suzuki Ren was still dazed, Shiina Mashiro had gradually sorted out her thoughts from color synesthesia.

Yes, perhaps as Suzuki Ren said, there are many beings in this world who can replace him or even surpass him, but the problem is that the people who appear in front of him are not the people he assumed, but Suzuki Ren.And the only person she relies on and is grateful to is Suzuki Ren.

"It's Lian who wakes me up every day, it's Lian who helps me change my clothes, it's Lian who cooks for me, and it's Lian who helps me complete my work for the Newcomer Award. It's not a hypothetical object, nor is it the comparison you mentioned. You are a better person... All I see, hear, touch, and feel is just Lian. So to me... Lian is the only and irreplaceable existence! No! There are any other possibilities!”

slap-

Shiina Mashiro's words exploded from Suzuki Ren's mind like glass shattering.

This is the first time that he has received such direct and firm affirmation, and it is also the first time that he has been said to be "irreplaceable" by others.

……

Maybe it's not just Mashiro Shiina, but also Kazuri Goto.

Of course he was not the only one who could solve her loneliness, but in fact, the person who led her out of that small stairwell when she was most lonely was indeed himself.

A strange yet familiar feeling suddenly emerged from the bottom of his heart... just like the feeling he felt before Senior Yui left...

"Can even I be necessary to others?"

He couldn't help but ask the girl in front of him who had been staring at him.

"For me at least, Lian is an absolute necessity."

Shiina Mashiro also expressed his opinion again.

"If it weren't for Lian, I might not be able to button my buttons until now."

"...How dare you say it? You were wearing the wrong buttons the morning before yesterday."

"Doesn't that further prove the necessity of Lian?"

"…………"

Ren Suzuki opened and closed his mouth several times. After a while, he said in an unprecedented and weak voice:

"Do you really insist on thinking that? I will get carried away because of this."

"Please let me know."

Hearing Suzuki Ren's unprecedented voice and the "dark red" fading at a speed visible to the naked eye, the corners of Shiina Mashiro's mouth couldn't help but curl up slightly.

This time, she won.

"I'm tired of seeing the same brown color."

"You..."

Always confident, always strong, always on the right path.

That's why he would always take advantage of senior Yui and people like Mashiro Shiina.

"In short, I understand what you just said, Shiina-san, but... I still need some time to think about it."

Although he has fully accepted Mashiro Shiina's statement, there is still a distance that cannot be ignored before he can fully adapt emotionally.

"Before that, please let me be alone for a while."

"……I see."

Looking at the little dark red color left in front of him, Shiina Mashiro nodded.

"Then I'll go back to my room first...Lian can come to me at any time."

After hearing Shiina Mashiro's reply, Suzuki Ren shook his head.

"Don't use this kind of word casually in the future. It will cause misunderstandings or give excuses to others."

Shiina Mashiro immediately tilted her head after hearing this:

"Huh? But didn't Lian just promise me the same thing?"

"It doesn't matter if it's a boy, but not a girl."

"In other words, can I still come to Lian at any time?"

"Well, I don't plan to withdraw this agreement."

"!That's great."

Shiina Mashiro, who had been hugging Suzuki Ren's quilt tightly, suddenly had an extremely bright smile on her face. Then, under Suzuki Ren's somewhat doubtful gaze, she walked briskly off his bed, and did not move at all. I left here without any regrets.

"...Are you happy to this extent?"

Ren Suzuki couldn't help but feel confused as she watched Mashiro Shiina leave the room.

Sure enough, he still couldn't figure out what the child was thinking.

but……

"Irreplaceable, isn't there any other possibility?"

While recalling what Shiina Mashiro had just said to her, Suzuki Ren threw herself onto the bed.

"This is really... a good lesson for her."

Having said that, from the beginning, this smell like daisies and vanilla mixed together was...

……what.

"In the future... let's fill up another chair."

It’s time to make this overly empty room a little more humane.

Chapter 41: Common situations when minors watch sitcoms

"Let me tell you, given Mashiro-chan's conditions, as long as he goes straight up to A, he will definitely win!"

"How could it be that simple? And that's Shiina Mashiro. You want her to take the initiative to chase boys? This is a bit too far-fetched."

"Is this such a fantasy? When a girl meets a boy she likes, she has to take the initiative!"

"So, Shiina Mashiro and you are not the same as ordinary girls... Oh, forget it, even if you put aside the female perspective, Suzuki-kun has many problems, right? If his problems are not solved, even Shiina No matter how proactive my classmates are, there is no chance."

"Well... this is... eh? This voice?! Mashiro-chan has come out! Hey! Mashiro-chan, here, here!"

"...?"

Shiina Mashiro, who had just walked out of Ren Suzuki's room, heard Misaki Kamikusa's call and immediately followed the voice to the living room.

At this time, Misaki Kamiigusa and Jin Mitaka were sitting in front of the paused TV, seemingly discussing something...

"Hey, how was your chat with Suzuki-kun?"

As soon as Mashiro Shiina came to the living room, Misaki Kamikusa immediately waved to her to sit next to her.

"When he brought you into the room just now, his expression was quite strange... You two probably didn't quarrel, right?"

"? Not at all."

Shiina Mashiro shook his head.

"Rather, we two had a great time chatting."

"Are you happy? That's good, that's good... I thought Suzuki-kun would be angry with you! It really scared me to death."

After hearing Shiina Mashiro's reply, Misaki Kamikusa breathed a sigh of relief.

Mitaka Jin on the other side couldn't help but shook his head.

"Didn't I just say that? Suzuki-kun was in such a state that he wasn't going to quarrel. He was just too surprised so he didn't manage his expression well."

"Hey, I don't understand things about boys. I'm just worried about our little Mashiro!"

As Misaki Uekusa said, she hugged Mashiro Shiina, who looked troubled.

"Usually, people like Suzuki-kun who are always kind and friendly are the scariest things when they get angry... Mashiro-chan must also be afraid that Suzuki-kun will be angry with you, right?"

"Get angry..."

Shiina Mashiro tilted her head and tried hard to imagine Suzuki Ren being angry with her. However, no matter how she imagined it, there was always only Suzuki Ren's gentle and patient expression in her mind...

"If possible... I would really like to see Suzuki-kun lose his temper once."

"Eh!? It's a lie, Mashiro-chan actually has such interest..."