A world only known by the God of Lost Love

"Chasing a great guy...no matter what the outcome is, you're bound to gain something in the relationship. So go ahead and do it and I'll support you."

"……Yes."

This was the first time since she entered adolescence that she had such an in-depth conversation with her father.

Although very shy...but also a little happy.

"But having said that... Yili, you really should try to change into the clothes your mother bought you, right? For boys of this age, appearance is also a very important indicator! Always wear that pink sport Even Suzuki-san would be bored by this."

"Gu...! I know sportswear is very vulgar! Stop being so nagging!"

Sure enough, it’s better not to talk about this kind of topic with him again in the future!

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"Haha...I'm really exhausted."

After forcefully pushing his father out of the room, Goto Ichisato collapsed on the bed and let out a long sigh at the ceiling.

The fatigue she felt in the afternoon swept through her body again, and at the same time, the excessive amount of information also made her mind quite confused.

"Is Suzuki-san's ex-girlfriend..."

I didn't expect that I would get such important information from my father.

The "ex-girlfriend" topic that she has always cared about, and what she has always wanted to know, about the reason why Suzuki Ren is close to her, have all been reasonably explained.

"If your personality is very similar to mine...then you must also be a socially fearful person?"

Although it is a bit strange to say, after learning this, Goto Ichiri did not feel jealous or dissatisfied in his heart, but became inexplicably happy.

It turns out...even a girl like her has a chance to become Suzuki Ren's girlfriend.

But what followed closely was the question she had after just learning about her ex-girlfriend -

"If that's the case, then the reason for the breakup is even more concerning!"

After all, if she really becomes Suzuki Ren's girlfriend, then she has enough confidence that no matter what happens, she will not take the initiative to break up with Suzuki Ren!

That means...Suzuki-san was the one who initiated the breakup?

Well, Kita-san has mentioned this before.However, Suzuki-san said he wanted atonement and self-satisfaction... What exactly did he do to his ex-girlfriend to make him have such thoughts?

Even after narrowing down the scope, it was difficult for Goto to pinpoint the correct answer.

Then, in order to obtain more information, Goto Kazuri's focus naturally came to the "lyrics" that Ren Suzuki mentioned before.

"After reading the lyrics, maybe you can guess what happened between them."

Goto Isato muttered:

"But then again... can I really take the place of that ex-girlfriend like my father said?"

Goto Ichiri does not have this confidence at all.

Even if she knew that the other party was a girl with a similar personality to her, she still couldn't look at the matter too optimistically.

But... no matter what, what she wants to do has not changed.

"I will...become a qualified lead guitarist as soon as possible."

Goto Ichiri whispered:

"So until then, please wait for me...Suzuki-san."

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"……finished."

That night, based on the previous guidance of Hoshige Ijichi, Ren Suzuki finally completed the creation of the lyrics.

"Although it has gone through a lot of artistic processing...it still looks very complicated."

After reading the lyrics with a wry smile, Ren Suzuki couldn't help but sigh.

"By the way...what should the song be called?"

Regret, pity, escape, relief.

Crumple all your emotions into a ball and put all your thoughts into one sentence.

If that's the case... I guess that's all I can think of——

【语って】(Say it.)

Chapter 43: What kind of melody will the complex story turn into?

When people grow up, they will always habitually look at their past with a critical eye and find a lot of mistakes and regrets in vain.

But if you think about it carefully, people's growth may be caused by the accumulation of many mistakes and subsequent reflections.

Of course I am very aware of this.

At that time, I was just a simple, impulsive, and self-centered junior high school student.No matter how hard I try to think, all I can achieve is that kind of "self-righteous" consideration.

And at that time, you failed to grow into an independent person in just one year, so... you chose to escape the pain in that way at the moment I proposed breaking up.

To some extent, that tragedy...perhaps became inevitable the moment we entered into our special relationship.

Even if the two immature people reach their limit, they will end up with a bad ending in which neither of them can be happy.

You must be thinking so too, right?

We have all tried our best to fall in love, to think, to find the possibility that can make us both happy.

It's just that in the end, both of us failed.

Even now, although I still have some regrets, I will no longer blindly deny myself at that time.

What about you?

Did you realize your mistake and become stronger after that?

Have you realized your own narrow-mindedness and become more open-minded?

Have you accepted everything in the past and become happier?

I have no way of knowing.

That's why I'm asking you questions here.

Even if I don’t get an answer, I still want to ask——

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"The lyrics are done."

The next day, Ren Suzuki came to [STARRY] to find Ryo Yamada and gave her the lyrics.

"If there's anything that needs to be modified, just tell me."

"...OK."

Yamada Ryo nodded and then took over the lyrics.

However, after getting the lyrics, she did not rush to read them. Instead, she took out her mobile phone and showed the screen to Ren Suzuki:

"By the way...I received a message from Little Boqi at midnight last night."

Displayed on the phone screen was the chat page between her and Ichiri Goto.

"She agreed to accept my proposal... It seems that you really helped me convince her."

"Although we did chat a little bit, it wasn't in the way you said."

Suzuki Ren shook his head and said:

"She just agreed to it for herself and for the sake of this band."

"...You're still talking like this."

Yamada Ryo pouted:

"There's nothing wrong with standing on stage for the person you like. You don't need to care so much."

"Even so, I want to reduce the impact of love on her as much as possible."

Ren Suzuki said:

"There are many factors and ways that can promote a person's growth, but falling in love... is definitely the worst one."

"Well...okay."

Yamada Ryo didn't intend to argue with him about this. Anyway, the result she expected had been achieved, and the rest of the things were not hers to worry about.

But... what Suzuki Ren said just now was still well remembered by her.

"Then, in order to concentrate on arranging the music, I will read the lyrics after I get home."

Yamada Ryo said:

"You can just wait for my good news with peace of mind."

"Well, hard work."

Ren Suzuki's expression was a little complicated.

Because the lyrics are based on his own experiences, Ren Suzuki is still a little ashamed of adapting them into a song for everyone to listen to.But at the same time... Ren Suzuki himself is also very curious about how his lyrics will eventually be performed, and what kind of melody the emotions hidden in his lyrics will be transformed into.

But no matter what... Even if the story behind the lyrics does not end satisfactorily, Ren Suzuki still hopes that this song can become a good song that satisfies people...

…………that night…………

"…………Is this guy crazy?"

After reading the lyrics written by Ren Suzuki several times, Yamada Ryo immediately put down the guitar in his hand and couldn't help but complain:

"This is my first time composing lyrics and you have given me such a difficult problem. Could this guy be a little too confident in my ability?"

Yamada Ryo, who originally thought that the lyrics would tend to focus on a single theme such as sadness or regret, was immediately dumbfounded after seeing the first half of the lyrics.

The contradictory feeling of regret and relief, the self-questioning and self-answering statement, and the story that makes people imagine endlessly...

What kind of melody should be used to interpret such a complicated thing?

"However... although these lyrics are troublesome, if they can be successfully written... they will definitely become popular!"

Artistic conception, literary quality, and even storytelling are all present.

For Ryo Yamada, who attaches great importance to the content of songs, lyrics like this are a rare treasure!

Although he was at a loss as to how to start arranging the song, Yamada Ryo recognized the value of the lyrics.

At the same time, this also gave Ryo Yamada a more direct and fundamental understanding of this guy who had been hiding his true emotions.

Most attractive men have many stories.

Ren Suzuki...surely has many secrets worth digging into!

"Speaking of which... I really need to show Little Bochi these lyrics."

Yamada Ryo murmured as he picked up the lyrics again.

"After all, no matter how you look at it, the inspiration for this lyric... comes from a person who is super important to Suzuki."

And if nothing else, this person's influence on Suzuki seems to have continued to this day...

So, the person mentioned in the lyrics and Ren Suzuki... sure enough, they have that kind of relationship, right?Not only that, judging from this lyric, something terrible happened between the two people.

Do you really want Little Boqi to know this?

With her personality, she would definitely feel uneasy about this, right?It was obvious that she had just confirmed her feelings, but she found out that the person she loved actually had such a deep and complicated secret...

But no matter what, as long as Little Boqi plans to continue this relationship, she will definitely have to face this sooner or later.

……

After thinking again and again, Yamada Ryo finally took out his mobile phone and took a photo of the lyrics.

"Although I don't know what little Boqi will think, but... let her see it first."

Yamada Ryo murmured.

"As for what choice she should make after this...it depends on herself."

After saying that, she opened the chat box with Goto Ichiri and sent the photo directly...