The trainer, whose time is running out, just wants to survive

"...Don't laugh at me, I know it's a little weird for me to say this now, but...I do feel this way."

However, under such cross-examination by Kitano beside her, Representative Qianming’s muffled voice came out with her face buried. She slowly raised her head, as if she had searched her heart for countless times for the reason why she was feeling depressed. After answering, she finally came up with a sigh and said with a dull smile:

"I just realized in hindsight...that my life seemed to be a huge failure."

"You are always running forward alone, but there is no one behind you to support you. I think... this is probably the reason why I can't compare to Rudolph."

Chapter 38: Representative Qianming’s voice and re-joining (additional updates to the list!)

It can be said that no one except Kitano will understand what Representative Qianming said - maybe Rudolf can understand it too, but if the current Rudolph hears Qianming's words, she will The reaction may be furious.

Because in Rudolf's memory, Representative Qianming was never alone. She was even the "third party" who took away his childhood sweetheart that should have been his. What's even more outrageous was that she took away his childhood sweetheart. He also used his talents to defeat her in turn!They even fulfilled their promise for her!

Where is the loneliness here?It's obviously her Rudolf who is lonely, right? !

However, the words of Chiaki, the representative of Chiaki, who was not in the team with Kitano and them, and who did not achieve the "three undefeated crowns" under Kitano's guidance, explained why he felt this way. Impressive:

"Trainer Kitano...should know, right? I am a racing girl who has been carrying 'sin' since birth."

Qianming, who was sitting next to Kitano, recounted these past events that Kitano had known for a long time but had never heard from Representative Qianming in previous weeks.Perhaps it was because Qianming was unprecedentedly fragile at this moment, or perhaps it was due to the inexplicable trust she had in Kitano, that made her lose all her valiant appearance at this moment, and confided like a little girl:

"My parents, their relationship was criticized by the public at the time, and even my mother's side of the family was against it, so they eloped to become husband and wife."

"Of course, I never felt that giving birth to me was a punishment to me. I love my parents, and they are the most important people in the world to me."

"But...sure enough, sometimes I still feel helpless. I can only run alone."

As if recalling his past along the way, Qianming couldn't help but bite his lower lip slightly, showing a somewhat unwilling expression. Obviously, this person was the Japanese leader before the symbol of Lu Duo was born. A girl at the peak of her racing career is not as brilliant as others imagine.

And Kitano knows this better than anyone else. If he had not participated in that week, then the future represented by Qianming...may only be described as "bleak".

Because of the elopement of Qianming's parents, in the era when Qianming was not yet famous as "Trepp", it can be said that it was the "first shot" of the relationship between the trainer and the racing girl. In that era when Qianming was more profit-driven, The love between the two is not recognized by most people, and this influence has continued to Representative Qianming.

Since Qianming debuted, she has attracted more criticism and expectations than other racing girls.Because her parents were well-known in their respective fields at the time, and as the product of their desperate elopement, if Representative Qianming wins in her debut, then her title as a "product of sin" may really be It will be imprinted on your body for life.

But the success of her debut, Representative Qianming’s talent, and the education of her parents were still easy, but in the future, Representative Qianming could only continue walking alone - under the circumstances, her father fell in love with her and was in trouble. If he elopes, his central trainer's certificate has long been revoked, and it is impossible for him to go to Tereson Academy to teach Qian Ming.

"——Trainer Kitano, do you know why I haven't found a trainer until now?" At this moment, Qianming suddenly turned his head and asked softly, and Kitano, who knew Qianming well, also smiled. He nodded, looked directly into the gentle breeze-like eyes of this racing girl, and replied softly:

"You don't want to find a trainer who will restrict you. You prefer to move at your own pace and just want to find someone who supports you, right?"

This was the answer that Kitano had raised with similar questions before, and Qianming had told him personally.Qian Ming was obviously surprised that Kitano knew her so well. After her pupils shrank slightly, a relaxed smile appeared on her face again.

"It's surprising that Trainer Kitano knows me so well. Have you really never investigated me secretly?"

Do I need that?Did you live with me every day?Kitano also showed a subtle smile when he heard this. However, what he didn't expect was that Representative Qianming shook his head gently and replied in a playful way:

"But unfortunately, I only told half of it, Trainer Kitano. I have never told anyone the other half of the reason. Do you want to hear it?"

However, although the tone was inquiring, Qianming had already started talking to herself before Kitano could answer. Her originally gentle tone suddenly became deeper at this moment, and she cast her gaze forward. Said word for word:

"Before I made my debut, I heard my parents calling many trainers I knew at Treson Academy. I heard them strongly recommending my talents and constantly pleading for trainers to accept me. "

"But... they all refused without exception. They were unwilling to take over someone who was born by mistake like me, and they were unwilling to risk their reputation by becoming my trainer."

"After I won my debut match, they began to regret it and contacted my parents. At that time, I had already made up my mind to prove my ability alone and use my talent and strength. , standing at the pinnacle of Japan.”

"Only then can I tell them that all their accusations are wrong and that I will be my parents' most powerful 'creation' in Japan. It's not that I can't find my trainer, but that they don't deserve to be mine." Trainer!”

Representative Qianming, who has always dealt with others in a chic and gentle way, for the first time said the words that she had wanted to say from the beginning but had never said to anyone.Even Kitano was a little surprised when he heard Qianming say such thoughts for the first time.

However, he was not surprised that Representative Qianming thought so.Although he only became Qianming's trainer after Qianming debuted, he also experienced the invisible pressure in the academy and the slightly weird looks from other trainers.

At that time, almost all the trainers at Tereson Academy had heard about Qian Mingni naming Kitano, and when they saw that Kitano himself was so sick and sick, and even failed the physical examination, they all agreed. I believe that Kitano is just a "nominal trainer" chosen by Representative Qianming as a decoration and is of no use at all.

For this reason, Kitano also accepted some ridicule, disregard, and even contempt from other trainers... Although Kitano did not respond at that time, it was also at that time that Kitano made up his mind to represent Qianming. She was trained to be the "undefeated Triple Crown horse girl" before Rudolph.

It’s not just a matter of not steaming the steamed buns to gain publicity, but Kitano doesn’t want Representative Qianaki to repeat the mistakes of history.Obviously he is also a Triple Crown, but he was mercilessly stepped on by the symbol of the undefeated Triple Crown Luduo a year later. All his efforts and achievements became the emperor's stepping stone, and he was reduced to a background from then on. ——He can't see Qianming's future becoming like this. She deserves a better future.

"One person runs, one person wins the game, one person wins three crowns, and then before he has time to rejoice, he is banned by his juniors..."

"These, I can still endure all of this. At least I have proved it and I have been glorious. Although it is only for a moment, I am satisfied."

"——Until that day you show up, Trainer Kitano."

Suddenly, Qianming's eyes turned to Kitano again. With eyes shining as bright as the starry sky, she couldn't help but smile and said softly:

"You and your responsibilities, the child named Zhongshan Jingxi broke into my world. I saw you supporting each other and trusting each other, and I saw her determination to risk everything for you on the field... I must admit, I was Impressed.",

"And, I finally understand what I am missing along the way... What I am missing is a trainer like you, someone who is worthy of my trust and supports me unconditionally, someone like you... who can make me Someone who puts everything on the line.”

"You know, actually at that time, I really had a bold idea? Please be my trainer... or something."

"It's a pity that when I had that idea, you had already become the exclusive trainer of the Jin family. It seems that this plan can only come to nothing. What a pity."

Qian Ming couldn't hide her disappointment in her tone, but she still tried her best to smile.As many of his inner thoughts were slowly revealed, Qianming's mood also recovered a lot. After taking a long breath of relief, he realized belatedly that his words just now seemed a little weird. ?

Why did it feel like the atmosphere and conversation just now... seemed like you were confessing your feelings?Is my own mental defense... usually so easy to defeat?

After Qianming came to her senses, she subconsciously wanted to get up and make a joke to Kitano to fool her. But just when she made the move, Kitano seemed to have made up his mind after careful consideration. After taking a deep breath, he asked tentatively:

"If Qianming you really need a real supporter, if you don't mind...it's okay to treat me as your trainer."

Facing Qianming, who was slightly stunned by his sudden request, Kitano was also heartbroken, took a small gamble, and continued:

"Although I wasn't able to accompany you during the most difficult period, if you think I can make you feel less lonely, I should be able to help."

"My team also happens to be short of an excellent horse racing lady who can help me solve my problems and guide the celebration and the golden boat. If Qianming you can help me, I will be very grateful."

Kitano thought clearly that it would be very difficult for him to teach the Zhongshan Festival by himself. Now the Golden Journey has made him the designated trainer of the entire Jin family. Although he does not need to worry about the future, his current state is also It’s not that good. It’s still too much to teach two horse racing girls at the same time.

It would be bad if your life span is shortened due to carelessness or accident.Therefore, Kitano has always wanted to find an assistant, but unfortunately he did not have a good candidate before, nor did he have an abnormal horse racing girl who could convince the celebration to assist.

But now, Qianming is indeed a good candidate.When Kitano was hospitalized for recuperation, Qianming taught the ceremony for a period of time. Zhongshan Ceremony was very aware of Qianming's abilities, so there shouldn't be any problems.

Of course, more importantly... Kitano didn't want the Qianming in his heart to continue to be depressed like this.Now that she has taken the initiative to propose this idea, Kitano will naturally not refuse this horse racing girl who was once his closest friend and the most reassuring to him.

Faced with Kitano's invitation, Qianming was silent for a while. The next moment, Kitano's familiar relaxed smile appeared on her face, which made Kitano understand that this time she The choice was undoubtedly the right one.

"...Are you really confident? The ability to drive my freest wind, I should say, you are more bold than I thought."

"Are you right? Trainer-san."

An extremely natural change of title, which means that now Representative Qianming has made her own choice. She took the initiative to extend her little finger to Kitano, and Kitano also understood and also extended his little finger. , made a simple hook-up agreement with Qian Ming.

But at this moment, Qianming's eyes turned slightly, and once again made a small request to Kitano, saying:

"There's another little thing. Although Kitano is my trainer, I won't sign a responsibility agreement with you? I'm worried that Rudolph will be frightened. Then everyone in the student union will keep asking questions, and I will be very worried. Troubled."

"No problem, Qianming, you just need to know that I am your trainer and I will support your ideas."

Kitano also happily agreed to this request. In fact, he was a little worried about how to bring this matter up with Rudolf. Now that Qianming has voluntarily refused to sign the responsibility agreement and she has retired for a long time, Qianming's proposal can be said to be exactly what he wants.

Seeing that Kitano really supported his idea as promised, Qianming's eyes also slightly curved, as if some knot in his heart had finally been untied, and he revealed a beautiful smile from the bottom of his heart. .

Kitano has seen this smile before - it was when he achieved the unprecedented achievement of "three undefeated crowns" for Representative Qianaki, when Representative Qianaki took the initiative to hug him for the first time, and he will finally meet him in the future. Arrive smile.

"Then... please give me some advice in the future, Trainer-san."

……

At the same time, Qianming's parents and Tamamo, who had unknowingly moved from the first floor to the second floor to the door of Representative Qianming's room, heard the conversation between the two clearly.From the moment Qianming and Kitano reached an agreement, both parents showed subtle smiles of understanding.

"Dear, you said Qianming, she..."

"Well, if my guess is correct, Qianming's child should be..."

Although neither of the couple spoke clearly, Tamamo Shiji who was standing by had heard clearly.And I saw that this normal person who was not affected by Treson's growing weird trend also showed a distorted expression as if he had eaten a sour plum, and complained in a desperate tone:

"So, why did it become like this? Why do you feel that this is a trap set by Qianming for Kitano's trainer, just to catch him?!"

"Can Tereson Academy be saved? Isn't there a normal racing girl who has no idea about trainers like us?"

Chapter 39: The memory of Tamamo Cross’ emergency avoidance?

"Come on, Trainer Kitano, this chicken stew with mushrooms is Qianming's favorite. Eat more of it."

"Ah...thank you, Mrs. Qianming."

At noon, Qianming's living room was also very lively. Kitano and Tamamo were enjoying the day's dinner with Qianming's family.When they met for the first time in the morning, Qianming's parents, who were still a bit tense with Kitano, showed great enthusiasm at noon, which can really scare ordinary people into being unable to adapt.

Fortunately, Kitano himself is not a normal person.In addition, he had been in contact with Qianming's parents in the past, so he understood very well that these two couples, who are now in love, are essentially very kind people. As long as it is not related to their daughter, they will not care. There won't be any extreme reactions.

They really don't care much about Qian Ming's life, but this is precisely because they love their only daughter so much. They know their daughter's character, so they respect her independent choices and all the decisions Qian Ming makes that they think are right. ——Because even if they want to stop it, they absolutely can’t.

Kitano is deeply aware of Qianming's parents' open-mindedness.After all, he was able to allow his daughter to choose a dying man as her trainer. Even in the publicity of the external media, his outstanding daughter even had a lot of scandals with this dying man.If it were any other parent, Kitano would have thought he would be beaten.

But Qianming's parents affirmed all of their daughter's decisions.This also allowed Kitano not only to not be blacklisted by the couple, but even to be recognized by them.It can be said that Kitano has a very good impression of Qianming's parents.

It's just... the enthusiasm of Qianming's parents today made Kitano feel that something was wrong.Doesn't this seem like the level of intimacy you would achieve when you first meet?It's more like when he helped Qianming win the three undefeated crowns, he reached a level of hospitality similar to today, right?

Kitano was a little suspicious in his heart, and this seemed to be keenly caught by Qianming's parents. Qianming's mother immediately smiled and said to Kitano who was a little restless:

"Trainer Kitano, thank you very much for persuading this child Qianming. You know this child's temper. She is very stubborn. Sometimes she won't listen even to our words, so this time it really makes us anxious. Woolen cloth."

"But fortunately, you still persuaded this child to come out and have a good meal. Today's meal is not only to thank you, but also to supplement the nutrition of Qianming's child."

Oh, I see.And Kitano also reacted with a sudden realization, because this time he had a heart-to-heart talk with Qianming, and he unintentionally learned many parts of Qianming that he didn't know. In addition, he later became Qianming's trainer, and he had forgotten all the surprises. This time I came to persuade Qian Ming to go out.

If that's the case, everything today makes sense. After all, what this couple loves most is their daughter.At least he has solved a problem, so he deserves a little care, right?

But at this moment, compared to Kitano who is careless, or has no concern for Qianming's family, the quiet horse racing girl next to him has a completely different view...

Make it up, keep making it up.However, Tamamo Shiji, who was sitting aside quietly cooking rice, was not entirely focused on this unprecedentedly sumptuous meal for her. Now she was more concerned about the thoughts of the Qianming family and what they thought about it. What is Kitano's attitude?

Because he also participated in the eavesdropping, Tamamo naturally observed the expressions of Qianming's parents. Combined with their expressions now, Tamamo is absolutely sure that these two people definitely came to receive Kitano with the idea of ​​​​seeing their son-in-law!

When thinking of this, Tamamo couldn't help but feel a little speechless.She was one of the group of racing girls who debuted relatively early. Even Rudolf had not long since become the student council president... But Representative Qianming was also a senior racing girl in her eyes. She never expected that , Qianming actually had the idea of ​​​​looking for a trainer today after retiring for so long.

Moreover, you can look for it if you want. Why are you staring at this person?Tamamo stared at Representative Chiaki who was exceptionally quiet beside her, her eyes filled with helplessness - because she knew very well that her friend Oguri Hat was also particularly interested in Kitano.

Especially the cooking made by Kitano has made Oguri Hat no longer overeat in the past few days, but after her appetite has returned to a relatively normal level, Tamamo is sure that in the future, if there is someone who can completely cure Oguri Hat's mental illness , then Kitano is the most likely candidate.

Based on this alone, Tamamo had to find a way to bind Oguri Hat and Kitano together.In this way, I don't need to worry. After I graduate, who will take care of Oguri Hat's affairs at Treson? Tamamo is really worried. Without her, Oguri Hat will die of gastric perforation due to overeating the next day. At Trayson College.

Therefore, this time Tamamo took the initiative to ask Ying to come here to "supervise" what happened at Qianming's house.Unexpectedly, when I came here, I became a lightbulb. I witnessed the scene where Qianming revealed her feelings to Kitano. On the contrary, she felt a little bloated before eating.

"No, no, we have to come to our senses. It just so happens that no one is watching us now. Let's send Xiaoli and tell her what's going on here."

Tamamo also shook her head and broke away from her thoughts.While everyone else was talking, he secretly took out an old clamshell machine from his pocket, opened the email almost relying on muscle memory, and began to send the situation here to Oguri Hat.

In order not to leave any suspicion, Tamamo did not take her eyes away from the meal throughout the meal, and was always observing everyone's reactions, but her fingers had already typed the first line.

...Speaking of which, was this really the first time they met?I feel like we get along really harmoniously, just like a real family.

Tamamo observed everything on the dining table of Qianming's family. Qianming's mother enthusiastically kept picking up dishes for Kitano. Qianming's father was also drinking sake alone, sighing that if Kitano was in good health, he must have a drink with him, but Qianming immediately represented him. Dispelled the idea:

"Dad, trainer, he's not in good health, so don't even think about letting him drink."

"Qianming really cares about Trainer Kitano." When Qianming's mother saw that her daughter looked so nervous even when her father made a joke, Qianming's mother couldn't help but smile ambiguously and said with emotion:

"This reminds me of the past, mom. Your dad was also a heavy drinker at the time, but in order to get your grandpa to agree to our marriage, he actually drank a lot of wine. Mom, I also advised your dad in the same way at that time. oh."

"Yeah, then I got drunk and slept directly at my father-in-law's house. If I hadn't been drunk at that time, Qianming, you might have been born a few months earlier."

"father!"

Sure enough, after Qianming and his wife said these very deliberate words, Representative Qianming also made a big blush for his parents, who are still in a relationship, especially since the words they talked about were quite private. It made Qian Ming finally unable to help but stand up to stop all this.

…It’s great, such a family atmosphere.But apart from being a little poorer, our family is no worse than theirs.

Tamamo watched the interaction between Qianming's family, and a flash of envy flashed through her eyes. Soon, her thoughts couldn't help but think back to her own family... Although it was in a very remote countryside, her family's She also has many children, but her parents also tried their best to give her the best...

Unable to help herself, Tamamo fell into short memories. In her memory, when was the best family gathering she had ever had?

"Ah, how cunning, there is an extra piece of fried pork chop on my sister's plate! My sister is using her power for personal gain!"

"Idiot! That's for your brother! If it weren't for your brother, our family would still be eating croquettes made of potatoes. How would we be able to afford meat! You have a grateful heart, you stinky brother!"

...Huh?elder brother?When did this happen?Who is the "brother" those brats are talking about?

Moreover, why does the dining table in my memory seem to be richer than ever before?I've never had such a good meal even during Chinese New Year, right?And from what I said just now, it seems like all the debts owed by the family have been paid off?Isn’t that something you have to do after you get the bounty?

However, Tamamo gradually felt that something was wrong with this non-existent memory, but soon, a strange silence appeared in the memory. Finally, the doubtful voice from his brother came faintly:

"...Sister, it's been several years. It's time for you to accept the facts, right? Brother, he has -"

"what!"

Suddenly, as if the video being played suddenly jumped, Tamamo Cross suddenly broke away from her memory, and when she reacted, she found that she was panting heavily and she was covered in cold sweat. , the whole person seemed to have had a nightmare.

Wait... what did she just... think of?

However, the memory that originally frightened her was as if she had lost her memory and could not be recalled at all, as if... some protective mechanism in her brain was triggered?When encountering an extremely bad memory, he immediately subconsciously resists the memory and protects the master's spirit.