Longmen Memoirs

[Maybe you can also have a better name that is more suitable for a Sakaz woman like you, just like Rhode Island. If you have a name, it will sound much warmer, right? 】

"How dare you say that?" W smiled softly.Stirring the bonfire with a branch, watching the flames float into the night sky: "...name, isn't such an unimportant thing forgotten long ago?"

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This mercenary, who had killed many people on the battlefield and was even cruel enough to kill others, fell into confusion at this moment.

"So, what are you going to do with those mercenaries?"

After the doctor quietly listened to Chen Mo's plans and plans for the future route, he put forward several opinions. After the two exchanged opinions, they were quiet for a few seconds before the doctor asked this question.

At the edge of the ship's side of Rhodes Island, the night sky in Kazdale was pitch black, and the campfires of the escorts encamped under the landspeeder seemed like not-so-bright stars in the night sky.

"That depends on Your Highness." Chen Mo put his hand on the side of the ship: "After this time, there should be no more few mercenaries who choose to stay in the Tower of Babel."

"But those two mercenary captains may not choose to stay. Hedley and Ines, you are optimistic about these two people."

"Hedley is very good. He is a seasoned mercenary and has a keen sense of politics. As a mercenary alone, he is a bit incompetent." Chen Mo stared at the direction where the mercenaries were stationed, not guessing who he was. The idea was not surprising at all: "As for Ines, I have heard about her magic. There is a shortage of people like her in Liting, and her own abilities should not be underestimated."

"It is precisely because of this that the concepts of Theresia and the Tower of Babel may not necessarily arouse the interest of veterans like them, but may make them feel good. I do not deny that Theresia has this ability. She has a This natural affinity, coupled with her identity, is not enough..." The doctor said, hesitating: "She is still not decisive enough."

"She doesn't have to be decisive." Chen Mo said noncommittally: "It is precisely because of this that she is Theresia and is standing here. Just imagine if she is really like what we hope, what will happen to me and you today? ?”

The doctor was stunned for a moment, then nodded after a few seconds.

"You're right." The doctor looked down at the camp below: "If Theresia was really like what we thought, she wouldn't have ended up in the situation she is in today."

"So we should be thankful."

Chen Mo smiled and looked up at the face hidden in the shadows under the doctor's hood. "It is precisely because of her gentleness and kindness that we have the basic premise for our next ideas."

"The stubborn disease of Kazdaele has long reached the point where it has to be cured. Even a shrewd and capable monarch cannot reintegrate Kazdaele under the current situation of fragmentation and infiltration. We all know that those rebel forces are standing behind It is impossible for anyone to rely on the royal family to force these people to give up their power." Chen Mo said: "Only a war, a war that sweeps the entire Kazdaele, can make Kazdaele now shattered. Reshuffle the cards and find a glimmer of hope from the invisible desolation and ruin.”

"Aren't you afraid that this war will bring down the last strength of this country? Maybe the situation will only get worse by then." The doctor asked curiously, and it was rare to hear a hint of interest in his low tone.

"Isn't this what you would say?" Chen Mo glanced at the doctor in surprise.

Before the doctor could answer, he said lazily: "I can't control that far. To tell you the truth, I don't think I'm very good at running a country and I don't have much confidence. I do kill people. I have some experience in this. As for this war After the dust settles... I think there's probably no need for me to worry about such distant things."

"so……"

"I even suspect now that the regent who is currently sitting on the throne in the west has the same idea as us. He is also eager for a war that sweeps the entire Kazdaele so that he can truly unify Kazdaele's current situation. The separatist forces will be more confident than they are now whether they want to stay in this land to save the nation or find another place to go." Chen Mo said, with a sense of gloating: "In my opinion, this place is originally a land of people. It's such a bad place, but Tracy is currently in that position, unable to get up or get down, which is a bit like riding a tiger with difficulty getting off."

The doctor was silent for a moment.

"...Are you doubting Theresia?"

He turned to look at Chen Mo. Although he couldn't see his eyes, Chen Mo could feel those eyes staring at his face.

"Don't you doubt it?"

Chen Mo looked at the doctor without hesitation.

Neither of them spoke. After a while, the doctor looked away.

"It's not that I haven't thought about this possibility..." The doctor said softly: "Theresia's condition is getting worse day by day. Although she didn't mention it, I can see that she has no intention of doing this. Although these people under the Tower of Babel said... They are elites, but they are not an army after all. They place their hopes on the clans and lords... I don’t see a chance of winning.”

"But you still stayed in the Tower of Babel." Chen Mo murmured.

The doctor seemed to smile softly, looking at the dark night sky, the night wind blowing the coat that remained unchanged all year round.

"Maybe I haven't thought about where I'm going after I leave here." The doctor said frankly: "Theresa trusts me, so I think I should stay with her and help her do something."

"What does it mean for a scholar to die for his confidant?" Chen Mo asked.

"A scholar dies for his confidant?"

The doctor was stunned, neither confirming nor denying.

"What about you..." He asked back: "As far as I know, the things you want to deal with at Longmen have been dealt with. There should be no reason for you to continue to stay in the Tower of Babel. Since you can see that Trey As for Thea’s plan, it doesn’t matter whether you stay or not.”

"You want to say, I'm forcing Theresia?" Chen Mo asked.

The doctor didn't object.

"I, like those people in the Tower of Babel who have placed their hopes on her, are forcing her to take this road." Chen Mo said: "In fact, when I first came here, I thought it was quite funny. , Theresia’s ideal and the philosophy of you people, you want to keep saying that you want to save this country, but you have never thought about how to do it, you only have one purpose, and then you are aimless on this road. Walk and wait until the day you die for this purpose or wake up."

"Theresia told me some of her ideas..." Chen Mo paused: "It's a very beautiful idea, but also very unrealistic. I didn't think too much about it at the time. I just wanted to survive and prove that I was a little bit better." You have some value, and then I went here looking for someone to win over, and unfortunately, I found you."

The doctor shrugged.

"That's really unfortunate."

"Who says it's not?" Chen Mo pretended to sigh: "So I told Theresia some specious things. She is a very capable person, although not decisive enough. If she is a philosopher, As an artist, she may have a bright future, but as a monarch of a weakened country, her character is clearly unqualified. At this point, I am more optimistic about Tracy."

"Tracys is a very skillful and strong man, and what this country needs is a master like him."

Chen Mo spoke out without any concealment about these people who might cause huge repercussions and even disgust once other people in the Tower of Babel knew about them.

"Me too."

The doctor was not surprised at all and replied calmly: "Teresis is indeed more suitable to rule this broken country than her. For Kazdaele, Theresa's idea is indeed very inappropriate."

Chen Mo was not surprised.

Because he believed that it was impossible for the person in front of him not to be able to detect these thoughts that he could see. Maybe Kelsey had already understood this.

Unlike the group of Sakaz who were still eager but confused, they had more contact with Theresia and saw more than just the surface.

Kazdaele urgently needs a war to unify this dispute and end his chaos, so that Sarkaz can have a chance to breathe. Otherwise, such endless internal strife will only drag this race towards destruction, and there will never be a day when it will come forward. Kazdare, the homeland of Sakaz, will also exist in name only in a real sense.

Maybe Theresia had seen this a long time ago, so she gathered this Tower of Babel.

Her ideals are not suitable for Kazdaele, Kazdaele cannot accommodate her ideals, and she has no time to see them.

Chen Mo couldn't help but tighten his hand on the guardrail.

"As long as Theresa is dead, the chaos in Kazdaele will never be settled." He said aloud, as if he was asking, but also as if he was talking to himself.

The doctor finally didn't hide anything.

"This is what she hopes, and she is willing to sacrifice Sakaz." The doctor's voice was surprisingly calm: "The Tower of Babel has almost no chance of winning in this war. Decades of fighting have already exhausted Trey. The real heritage of Thea’s stay in this land, and another massive war, no matter what the outcome, Kazdaele will be in ruins.”

"That's why I don't believe that a princess would have such naive thoughts." Chen Mo sighed helplessly, and then asked: "Where is Rhode Island?"

"According to the original idea, Rhodes Island would leave Kazdel to inherit Theresia's last wishes after her death. The child was her chosen successor, and she still had several years to teach her," the doctor said. : "This war is happening two years earlier than originally planned."

"Amiya?" Chen Mo suddenly thought of the scene in the camp where he saw Theresia teaching this child to play the violin.

He fell silent.

"What do Kelsey think?" Chen Mo asked.

"Kelsey... will probably choose to respect Theresia's idea?" The doctor was not so sure.

"You're not sure?"

"Originally, before you showed up, I was 70.00% sure." The doctor glanced at Chen Mo.

"Now?"

"It's hard to say." The doctor said, "Kelsey seems to have put her hope in you, and what you told Theresia and Gray's changes also caused Theresa's thoughts to waver. "

"What about you?" Chen Mo asked. "What do you think now?"

"I..." The doctor hesitated for a moment and did not answer directly. Instead, he asked: "Let's not talk about me first, but you. What do you think?"

"You didn't stop me from taking charge of leaving the court. I resigned as the guard in the Tower of Babel. I guess Askaron is in charge now." Chen Mo said: "To be honest, I am an outsider and I shouldn't have interfered with your Babel." Regarding the tower matter, looking at it now, Theresa’s original thoughts were undoubtedly taken advantage of by me..."

The doctor snorted slightly.Chen Mo didn't look at him.

"Many people died in order to create Liting Court. At the beginning, I brought 600 people out of Grai. Now I count 230 people left. In two years, I was still working as a mercenary when I was in Kazdale. Nails were buried in the system, and 110 people died, and after leaving, another 250 people died one after another."

Chen Mo whispered.

"I don't feel like I have anything to say sorry to them. The only one who feels sorry for them is the Tower of Babel, but I am their commander after all. They chose to join me. Before joining, everyone believed that they could change this land. Maybe Not everyone, but most of them may have had similar thoughts." Chen Mo said: "Furthermore, I also have an adjutant. During the years when I left Kazdale as the hands-off boss, she worked diligently and worked tirelessly to continue to maintain the divorce. Ting is on Kazdale’s network. She said that she is not good at being a leader. She is indeed not very good at it. Otherwise, she would not have killed so many veterans and a prodigal woman..."

Chen Mo smiled as he spoke, and the doctor did not answer, but Chen Mo knew that he was listening, as if he had clearly told himself what he had guessed Theresa's thoughts were.

"I don't think I'm a good person who repays kindness. There's nothing wrong with being selfish. You can just say that this is Theresa's own wish. There's nothing to say. I won't blame Theresia for this idea. How can she be worthy of those who trust her? After all, what she did is not right or wrong, especially for someone like me who is not even a Sakaz."

Chen Mo loosened his grip on the railing, put his two forearms on the railing, and looked at the dark night outside the wilderness.

It's not as good as Longmen's singing and dancing.

There is no peace and tranquility in Colombia.

The wilderness of Kazdare is a lifeless and bleak place, with only the howling cold wind seeming to remind people that they are alive.

He didn't have any obvious mood swings after getting the unexpected answer. He just seemed much calmer.

Because he doesn't look like a young man, he doesn't have that much passion, and he has suffered a lot, so he is inevitably a bit colder.

"I don't plan to watch Theresia make sacrifices for her Sakaz, doctor." Chen Mo said aloud. "I also promised those who died that Kazdel would one day rise again. Although I was called a liar in the past, I am not so crazy that I would even lie to the dead."

"Even if it's just an insignificant Sarkaz."

Chapter 13 Talking about harming the country

The doctor looked at the young man who said these words quietly, and said that he was young because he was compared with the doctor himself, compared with many of the soldiers in the Tower of Babel today, and compared with those of them who had always followed Theresia. Compared with others, he is undoubtedly too young.

But compared with those of them who are not too young, he seems to be older, with an indescribable air of twilight.

The doctor said nothing.

He closed his hands and put them into the cuffs of his coat. No one in the entire Tower of Babel, and perhaps those who met him in the past, had ever seen the doctor's true appearance, just like his true thoughts. Not many people can guess it.

He did not tell Chen Mo that he had placed spies among the mercenaries sent to Longmen, nor did Chen Mo mention the doctor's involvement in the court.

How many people in Li Ting are the secret piles laid by the doctor? Maybe one day this man who makes people unable to see the true and false will treat the entire Li Ting as a discarded child that can be easily discarded.

This is not surprising, he must be able to do such a thing.

They are not people who can trust anyone wholeheartedly. Trust is too rare and relatively luxurious. They are not "generous" people like Theresia, and they will never be as generous as him.

"Have you thought about it?" the doctor asked, no longer like that snowy day a few years ago.

At that time, Chen Mo, who was still alone and helpless in this Tower of Babel, after acting as Theresia's bodyguard, tried every means to protect himself and had conversations with him that sounded a bit exaggerated.

It's not like the first real meeting between the two of them one night when they were sitting in an empty cafeteria.

The poor and miserable mercenary boy who arrived at the Tower of Babel has truly squeezed into a place in the Tower of Babel. He has one foot in the door and one foot outside.

"There's nothing to think about." Chen Mo replied calmly: "I had to stay here before. I was afraid that because of my status as a foreign mercenary, I would fall outside and be killed by the mercenary team that came out as a bounty. I also thought about giving myself some advice. Increase some capital, now... I don’t think so much anymore. After the Longmen matter is resolved, to be honest, there are some regrets, and they are not that important."

Chen Mo said and looked at the doctor: "It's you...I thought you had to be secretive, just like your appearance. It's rare that you are so straightforward this time."

"Want to know why."

"Probably can guess some."

"I'm about the same as you..." The doctor seemed to sigh, but he still explained: "In the final analysis, I actually don't care what Kazdel will look like in the future, whether it is Sakaz or the Tower of Babel, I don't care much about their success or failure, and I don't want to change my mind. But like I told you, after leaving here, I didn't think about where I would go or what I would do. Instead of leaving, It’s okay to stay, at least I’m used to my current life.”

Looking at the back of the night gives people an unfounded feeling of loneliness, indescribable loneliness and wandering, but he is the field commander of the Tower of Babel. Although this field commander is somewhat unworthy of his name, and what he has done The battles he commanded made everyone in the Tower of Babel fear him more than respect him.

They are all the same, but the difference with the doctor is that Chen Mo will put words like changing Sakaz in his mouth, while the doctor rarely utters such words, he is taciturn and serious most of the time, so no one guesses To know what the commander was thinking, the hood that covered his face made it impossible to see his emotions, anger, sorrow, and joy. He hid everything in the shadows.

Hidden away, the mystery naturally also makes people feel alienated and awe-inspiring.

Not many people are willing to deal with such a person, except for people with a personality like Theresia. Even Kelsey treats the doctor with more caution than trust, not to mention the soldiers who died on the battlefield because of his tactics. .

The field commander of the Tower of Babel was undoubtedly a very outstanding person, but few people know that his most outstanding thing was not commanding war. He was not a natural commander, and most of his knowledge had nothing to do with war.

People said he was cold-blooded, indifferent, and cruel. He didn't defend himself, he didn't try to correct people's ideas, and slowly he became such a person.

Understanding is easy to say, but actually difficult to do, especially when you know that sooner or later this will kill you indirectly. Rather than understanding, people are more likely to follow the crowd and go with the flow.

Not to mention the precarious Sakaz.

But is it worth it, you ask?

Maybe it's not worth it, for these people who don't believe in me, for this ideal that I don't really believe in either.

But it might be worth it.

At least Theresa is willing to believe him, at least there is a small group of people willing to hand their lives to him, and at least this kind of life does not make him disgusted or tired.

Sometimes gentleness is more like a knife than harshness. It kills people without blood, but cuts straight to the vital point.

It does not want your verbal allegiance or your dedication.