Longmen Memoirs

Chapter No.17 Heart knots are easy to tie but not easy to untie

After leaving the camp.

Chen Mo sent Theresia back to the Rhode Island.

"Mr. Chen Mo, don't you want to ask me why I came here alone? And I just happened to appear there."

Theresia asked suddenly.

"Although the court exit report is sent to my office every day, I have not heard about this matter in the report. If the doctor had not mentioned it accidentally, I might not have known about it."

There was no blame in Theresia's words, but the look in her eyes when she looked at Chen Mo did not hide her complaint, as if she was angry.

"Sorry, Your Highness, it was my dereliction of duty."

So he is a doctor? Chen Mo thought, so by telling Theresa this, you are paving the way for my future situation.

Thanks, Hooded Man.

He didn't believe that the Doctor would accidentally mention it. It was unlikely that such an oversight would be made in the Doctor's style. Everything he did had a purpose.

"Is it just a dereliction of duty?" Theresa asked: "Or Mr. Chen Mo never thought of telling me about this in the first place. I'm a little angry now."

"A person who is really angry will not tell others that he is angry, Your Highness." Chen Mo said. She looked at Theresa, who was walking side by side with her on the road, with deliberate dissatisfaction on her face.

"What about the explanation?"

"I know you care about the sacrifices of these people, Your Highness, but this kind of thing will happen from time to time. Instead of coming here to watch them, these warriors who you don't even remember their faces and just met for the first time are buried in the soil. I think you should spend some time." Spend more time thinking about how to prevent these from happening. Soldiers will of course die on the battlefield, and as the leader of them and those of us who are still alive, what you have to do is to make their deaths not in vain and let more people Live."

Chen Mo said: "I didn't do a good job at this point. I can't remember the names of some of them, so my adjutant Ni Yan is more sad than me in terms of personality and appearance. She and them We have been together for a long time and fought side by side.”

"At this point, I didn't do a good job either." Theresa sighed softly: "You are right, Mr. Chen Mo. It is the first time for me to meet many of them. I can't call them..." Tell them their names, if I hadn’t come here this time, I wouldn’t even know who they are, but they must know me.”

"I'm very grateful for your kindness, Your Highness." Chen Mo said, looking at Theresa with dark eyes: "But I still have to tell you, you are wrong."

Chen Mo stopped.

"Do you think they died because of you?"

Theresia stood beside Chen Mo.

Chen Mo continued: "They did not die here because of you, nor simply because of your identity, but because of the name Theresia."

"I know what you are thinking. Seeing these people die, you will subconsciously feel guilty. They could have lived a good life, but because they followed the Tower of Babel, they died here and could no longer breathe. They cannot see the unfamiliar scenery with their own eyes, and they stay here forever, in this barren land."

Chen Mo said, looking into Theresia's eyes: "If you always think like this, if you think that if you die, this war will end, and there will be no more wars continuing to evolve in Kazdaele." , Kazdel, the Sakaz people will not continue to bleed, then I think... you are not worthy of their sacrifice."

Theresia was stunned.

She looked at Chen Mo who said this in disbelief and was slightly absent-minded.

"You know."

She smiled forcefully, her smile unspeakably bitter.

"Although Ms. Kelsey never revealed it, I saw the child named Amiya appearing on Rhode Island." Chen Mo said: "I didn't think about it at the beginning. I have never had this idea, and secondly, I don’t know enough about the situation at the Tower of Babel and Kazdaele.”

"But now I can make some guesses. Yes, I don't deny that the current situation of the Tower of Babel is undoubtedly that of flowers blooming and fire cooking oil. On the surface, the lords and clans from all over the world are dependent on it, but in fact it is in danger." Chen Mo said.

"Although the concepts I told you have strengthened your thoughts, your plan in your heart is actually not what I thought, right?" Chen Mo asked: "You are not sure whether your condition can be relieved, and you are not sure either. Are you sure that after your death, the current situation will collapse? You will not even have a chance to make amends by then, so you chose Amiya. Even if I didn't show up, you still chose that child. , I want to pave the way for her and place my hopes on her."

Theresia did not answer. Her expression was no longer as gentle as usual, but after taking off that gentle coat, she revealed the calmness and calmness that a ruler should have.

"Maybe you have other ideas, more and more long-term considerations than what I'm saying now..." Chen Mo was not moved at all by Theresia's changes: "But you haven't thought about your future path. It’s a long time… You want to save more people this way.”

"So, Mr. Chen Mo, do you think I did something wrong?" Theresa said slowly: "Put your hopes on a young child, keep Amiya by your side, test her, train her, choose Determine her."

"No, you did nothing wrong. If it were me, after seeing no definite hope, I would also want to pass on the fire in some way. At least you have done everything you can, and there is still someone who can inherit this Legacy."

Theresia closed her eyes slightly and opened them.

"...Although it is a bit cruel to that child, if Amiya cannot bear this mission, then even if she gives up this path in the future and chooses to live a mediocre life." Theresia said, as if she acquiesced. Chen Mo's words. "For those soldiers who fought for this... I am not worthy of their sacrifice. Maybe this is the best ending. They should not continue to bleed for this, so... if that day comes, Mr. Chen Mo, I hope you can stay with Amiya, watch her, guide her, protect her, this is my request, no matter what choice she makes."

"I think you would say the same thing to the Doctor and Ms. Kelsey."

Theresa shook her head.

"No... I know Kelsey would do it even if I didn't say it. Kelsey is just like that." Theresa smiled softly.

"Forgive me for refusing!" Chen Mo said. After Theresa was stunned for a moment, she showed a hint of regret.

"That's right...I respect your choice."

"Have you given up like this? Your Highness." Chen Mo asked: "Put this future on others and let it become illusory again. I don't know which way you will choose to die, but I can imagine what will happen to you after your death. What will happen, the Tower of Babel will fall apart, Rhode Island... So this ship will leave Kazdaele with the remaining people who are willing to stay and the legacy of the Tower of Babel, and continue to wander around this land to find another place. A way to continue that ideal you have in mind.”

"Those of us, the soldiers who left or stayed behind in the Court and the Tower of Babel, will also disappear without a trace overnight like the Tower of Babel... You have disappointed many people. In order to prevent them from despair, I imagine you would make your death sudden but not unacceptable, like... death at the hands of an assassin rather than death from a terminal illness."

After a long time, she said: "You are really amazing, Mr. Chen Mo."

"Because I know that you are not only as gentle and kind as you appear on the surface. Your Highness, you are also wise. You have a long-term vision and greatness that many people cannot imagine." Chen Mo said sincerely: "But again, you cannot Denial, although you have considered it comprehensively, you have failed many people."

Chen Mo paused for a moment: "...it also allowed more people to survive. I have to admit that after you gave up the pursuit of practicing your ideals with your own hands, you will indeed end this war."

He has sacrificed so much that he gave up even his own dreams and pursuits, Kazdaele also gave up, just so that the current people can live, and that the future will be inherited.

"Is it worth it? Your Highness, are you willing to die like this?"

"In my opinion, it's worth it, because I know that even after I die, there will be people like you, Mr. Chen Mo, alive. That's enough for me. As for being willing to do so." She smiled: "Indeed, it is I'm a little bit unwilling...I don't want to die like this."

Chen Mo looked at Theresia in front of him.

The Theresia who had her inner thoughts revealed to him.

"Ah, I don't know why, but after I said these thoughts that were suppressed in my heart, I felt a lot more relaxed." Theresa breathed a sigh of relief.

But Chen Mo felt that the relief on her face was so heavy, and her smile was so dazzling. It was the last wish and the last sustenance of a dying person.

He opened his mouth.

"I agree to your request just now, Your Highness." Chen Mo said: "I will watch Amiya grow up, guide her, and protect her."

Chen Mo said, Theresa was stunned for a moment and was about to speak.

"But... I also hope that His Highness can promise me something."

Theresia seemed to have guessed what Chen Mo would say, and she pursed her lips.

"You don't have to..."

"Whether Rhodes Island is the ark you choose to carry your hope, whether Amiya is your chosen heir, Ms. Kelsey, Doctor, and the soldiers who will stay in the future will choose and leave the court. You can choose as much as you want. Go arrange these, I will also help you, you don’t want to tell others..." Chen Mo pointed to himself and then to Theresia: "So I will keep this secret for you."

"But I hope..." Chen Mo said: "I hope you won't give up until the last moment. You are not a coward in the first place. You are the most competent leader I have ever seen. If you choose this way If you leave this way, Kazdel, whose hands should you leave your country to? Even if it is a future that sacrifices for those who died because of this, there is a one in ten thousand possibility... you should leave. Go down."

Theresia did not answer immediately.

Chen Mo smiled.

"Without sacrifice and bloodshed, it should be meaningless. Your Highness, I just said that you are not worthy of their sacrifices, because if you make a conclusion without even trying, you are certainly not worthy of their sacrifices. Kazdaele passed by There has been enough meaningless bloodshed and sacrifice. Even if the choices you make for them will allow more people to survive, but... if you are afraid of death, why should you take this road? If you want to fight for life, Why should I follow in your footsteps and the Tower of Babel while I’m alive?”

Chen Mo said: "Even if this hope will not come to fruition, having visible hope is better than nothing. This is my original intention and the original intention of Li Ting and Tower of Babel."

"We don't live to live, and we don't die to die." Chen Mo said. He stretched out his fingers to put Theresia's long hair behind her ears. The path in the forest was full of fallen leaves.

他 说:

"What I want to tell you is... we are not only fighting for you and the Tower of Babel, we are also fighting for ourselves, so you don't have to put the responsibility on yourself, and don't feel too guilty. We deserve to die for this, Enjoy it with joy and have no regrets."

Theresia was quiet for a moment, and a bright smile broke out on her gentle face.

She suddenly raised her hand and grabbed Chen Mo's hand.

"Your trick won't work on me..." She said with a sly smile: "Although I don't deny that my heart did feel a little moved because of what you said just now, but Mr. Chen Mo..."

Theresia kept a straight face, pretending to be dignified.

"What you are doing now is a serious act of disrespect and transgression."

Chen Mo was stunned for a moment, feeling a slightly cold and soft touch on his hand.

He said helplessly.

"Leave it alone..."

Heart knots are easy to tie but not easy to untie.

ps: So the princess has done well enough in her position and situation. The doctor said something: You don’t know what she is willing to sacrifice for Sakaz.

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Chapter 18 w

That was the first time Chen Mo met the mercenary named W. Her smile was malicious and she was always smiling.

May 21

Kazdaele East

Tower of Babel Camp

Grai-Bar, a mobile city formed by the merger of two small mining cities, has undergone earth-shaking changes in just two years.

When Theresa mentioned it, she told Chen Mo in a somewhat mysterious way, which would definitely surprise him.

To be honest, Chen Mo was indeed a little surprised.

Since the bloody battle of Grai broke out, this only city actually affiliated with the Tower of Babel has become the political and cultural center of Babel.

Thanks to Theresia's identity, the eastern lords and their forces have signed long-term trade contracts with Grai. A steady stream of supplies and materials are being transported to Grai throughout Kazdaele's eastern front, and are gradually moving towards Grai. This passing city was built into the new eastern administrative center.

Now, the arrival of Rhode Island has officially announced that Grai will become the eastern heart of the Royal City on the Western Front. For a barely mid-sized city, this will be a huge test.

Compared with two years ago, the Eastern Border has been expanding Grai in the past two years. The traces of the original industrial city have become increasingly diminished. Compared with the old streets and dilapidation that can be seen everywhere, it is no longer the same.

Although Kazdaele is barren, it mostly refers to the country as a whole. Compared with the upper-class nobles, Kazdaele is not poor. Years of war and chaos have seriously hindered and restricted the development of Kazdaele, but in Under the command of the Tower of Babel, the nobles and powerful forces on the Eastern Front still made concessions because of Theresia's noble status, in order to demonstrate their "loyalty" to Kazdaele's only nominal successor. ".

Of course, the price is also huge. On the basis that Theresa does not involve their actual rights and interests, the nobles and city lords do not mind showing the greatest sincerity, in order to measure the legitimacy of their demands for rewards if they win the war in the future.

This is not a difficult business to choose.

no matter what.

At the very least, Grai is rising and changing with each passing day. Thanks to the special identity of the Tower of Babel, it has won the resources and space for development of the city. Thanks to Theresia's identity and policies, countless Sakaz are emerging. Entering this brand-new city and becoming a part of it, naturally, a large number of spies and spies are not excluded.

This reminded Chen Mo of Longmen.

In Longmen more than 20 years ago, when Wei Yanwu first took the position of ruler of Longmen, he spent 20 years building Longmen into an economic and cultural center comparable to the core administrative units of various countries. Of course, he does not rule out serving as the leader of Longmen. Gantry provides influence and international reliance.

But it cannot be denied that Wei Yanwu did it. He transformed an unknown city into one of the few international metropolises in the world. And the most incredible thing is that he did it all in just a short time. In just 20 years, he was indeed a very outstanding ruler, businessman, and politician, but he will never be a good friend, a good elder, or a relative.

Grai still has a long way to go. Compared with Longmen, the situation of Tower of Babel, Grai and Kazdaele is completely different. The original development route of Longmen was not suitable for this city, and Theresia also It’s not Wei Yanwu. Kazdael itself is a huge and complex struggle network, and Grai is just the tiniest microcosm of it.

Maybe in the future, it will have the opportunity to become a city like Longmen, but maybe, its current prosperity and rise are just a flash in the pan, a dream.

Chen Mo didn't know.

But for Hedley and Ines, the mercenaries who came to Grai for the first time, another thought arose in their hearts, a strange, unbelievable, yearning and timid emotion.

The dream appeared in front of me, and I was afraid that it was just an illusion, and that when I woke up, everything would still be the same ruins as before, dripping with blood, and running around in embarrassment.

Just like when Scout and Chen Mo were talking about Longmen, Scout once said that he hoped that one day in the future, Kazdaele would be as prosperous and stable as Columbia and Longmen.

Many Sakaz people are fighting for this, and they all firmly believe that they are moving towards this path and doing the right thing.

For the dream that can be vaguely seen now, for the peace that should belong to Sakaz, and for this land that the Sakaz people long for but are terminally ill.

But for Chen Mo himself, what is the purpose of him who is not Sakaz?

Chen Mo walked on the passage inside the Rhode Island ship, occasionally passing by the current crew members of the Rhode Island ship. His hard-soled military boots stepped on the flat inner deck of the ship. The front of the ship was dug out from the underground ruins of Rem Billiton. Civilization relics, many places have familiar traces in his memory.

For example, there are integrated circuits that are difficult for Kelu Hill to understand, and there are also special structures that Ke Lu Hill is interested in. Chen Mo thought that if it were in the past, he would probably have all kinds of weird associations because of this, but now he He was very calm and didn't have any thoughts to speculate on these things or get to the bottom of it.

If you can even believe in your own existence, then things that are beyond the norm will no longer be so unacceptable.

"It's you……"

The Sakaz mercenary in front of him had short white shoulder-length hair mixed with two strands of red. Chen Mo, who was about to pass by her, stopped because the raised foot of the man in front of him blocked his way.

"Is something wrong?" Chen Mo asked. He looked at the mercenary in front of him. He saw that the mercenary was not carrying a weapon. Although he was still dressed like a mercenary, he had taken off his anti-cutting vest and tactical belt.

"Yeah, something happened."

She nodded, a brisk smile on her face.

He put his left hand behind his back, leaned forward, raised his right hand and extended his index finger. He looked like a curious girl next door, but this guy was far less harmless than his face showed.