Longmen Memoirs

That life that is wantonly manipulated by others, that person who is supposed to be high up and overlooking all directions, is actually just a puppet in the final analysis, a caged bird with no freedom at all, a beast that has been raised in captivity and has its claws and fangs cut off. .

What is the meaning of such a life?

But even this kind of life is envied by many people, rather than feared.

"You think so too, don't you?" Wei Na asked, without much doubt in her tone. "I think so too, but they are following me now, no matter what the reason is, at least for now, so I think it is me who should say these words to you."

"I thought you weren't affected by today's crude funeral."

"They didn't have to die," Wei Na said.

"But more people may die in the future, on the way out of the city, and possibly after coming back."

"So I want them to survive as long as possible, I want them to survive."

"You can't expect to save everyone around you, wildcat." Chen Mo said in a deep voice, looking into Wei Na's eyes: "There are always some people you can't save, and there are always some people who have to die for you, even... Yourself, once you start thinking about it, people are going to die, and their death is going to be on your shoulders, and it's not your fault, no, or it's not something you can control, and you have to learn to accept that if it's not My proposal is that they won’t die, at least not now.”

Wei Na suddenly fell silent and just looked at Chen Mo.

"Now you understand." Chen Mo asked. "Want to avenge them?"

Wei Na shook her head.

"I don't understand, you're always going to be reasonable, Gurney, but I chose you and I chose to accept your offer, so it's my responsibility to keep them alive as long as possible."

"You want to prove it to me?"

"Proof?" She raised the corners of her mouth slightly. "How to prove it, it is the fact."

"I thought you would say, why do I need to prove it to you?"

She really isn't fit to be a "great" person.But Chen Mo seems to have forgotten that whether he is great or not is not determined by himself.She walked silently in front of the rows of people. Even the sound of her footsteps was inspiring enough. Perhaps, this was the reason why some people were willing to follow her.

Wei Na thought for a few seconds: "You want me to say this to you? If so, I might as well give it a try."

A light word couldn't be simpler.

"Isn't it insincere just to say it?"

"It's just a word anyway, it's not too troublesome."

"You should really change that lazy attitude."

"It doesn't matter." She shook her head and said, "It's not easy to get the chance."

"Don't you want to live a leisurely life like this?"

"That's not bad." Wei Na took two steps back, distanced herself from Chen Mo, and said meaningfully: "It's a pity that some people may be anxious."

"Is this a threat?"

"I won't threaten anyone, and of course I won't ask you." Vina said, "I just want to tell you a fact that we all should know, Guinevere."

After becoming more familiar with Wei Na, Chen Mo realized that even though she was polite, she actually had another look, and those words of politeness and humility were just to distance herself from other people.

And Chen Mo, I don’t know when, may have crossed this line.

"You really gave me a **trouble."

Chen Mo looked at her with a headache. The smile on her lips fell into Chen Mo's eyes, which made people feel helpless.

"If you want me to do anything for you, it is your responsibility to share my worries." She raised her chin slightly, and only at this moment did she show a little dignity.

"I didn't force you."

"You can only count me as unlucky?"

"None of us are lucky." Wei Na replied, looking at Chen Mo and said slowly: "But I never regarded you as an outsider."

"That's why you gave me this problem."

"You think it is, it is."

"Are you so unreasonable?"

"Sometimes using your brain a little is actually a good way to spend time."

"Should at least some compensation be given?"

"I have put everything I have into your hands. People who are too greedy will not have good results. I don't hope it will be you."

She seemed to want to use this to warn Chen Mo.

"Only this time, Guinevere." Vina raised her index finger: "Only this time."

If she had no other choice, she would not use such a "barbaric" method.

Sometimes, Chen Mo is indeed a greedy person who wants to get more. As Wei Na said, people who are too greedy will not have good results.

But even if he knew it, Chen Mo still had many things that needed to be done, and these things forced him to become a greedy guy, asking for more and more things day by day.

Neither he nor Weina should think about such a long future. Just focusing on the present, Chen Mo needs and lacks too many things, so much that even Weina can see through his hidden urgency and anxiety.

Chen Mo suddenly remembered what Wei Na once told him.

She said: Don't get lost in the past.

Probably from then on, she had understood Chen Mo's thoughts.

Chen Mo had to admit that compared to Chen and Xiaota, the person he was more familiar with and understood now was Wei Na standing in front of him.Over the past ten years, when he faced Wei Na, he seemed to be the same as when Xiaota faced him.

Considered a familiar friend, Chen Mo's pretense of being smart suddenly became so ridiculous in Wei Na's eyes. It was ridiculous, but Chen Mo couldn't smile. He was left with helplessness and self-mockery after someone exposed his lies.

"Don't forget what I told you, Guinevere. If you forget, I will be angry."

Wei Na's voice rang in Chen Mo's ears. The finger that touched the side of his face was just a fleeting touch, slightly cold. There shouldn't be much nostalgia, but it still made people feel strange.

Chen Mo looked at her leaving back. Her dazzling blond hair was so brilliant under the white light, just like this person who should have been as brilliant as the scorching sun at noon, looking up at the setting sun above the tall buildings in the city at dusk. figure.

She couldn't hide the loneliness in her eyes.

One day, we will make them pay with blood.

Chapter 63 Gray Fate

【——You are about to die...】

【--I know. 】

【——Any last words? 】

【--No. 】

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Many people like to talk about the word tomorrow. In fact, they don't even know what will happen tomorrow. They just hold a hopeful heart and hope for nothing is not too bad.

But often things like good or bad are not determined by words. Just like Chen Mo, who could have guessed that a door that is usually pushed open will lead to so many changes in life, and an inexplicable curiosity will cause so many things in the future. of right and wrong.

He failed to answer Weina's question, but wanted to avoid the answer while copying. Weina had no intention of going into details, so she acknowledged Chen Mo's perfunctory attitude, but after all, this perfunctory attitude was only temporary and could not last long. , just like Wei Na at this moment, under the calm expression, I don’t know what kind of magnificent thoughts she has.

Her country, her duty, her Glasgow gang.

Chen Mo thought that Wei Na would not be short of such thoughts, even though she had always looked half-dead and lived a lazy and negative life.

Chen Mo was not sure whether she wanted to live like this. No one would be willing to be ordinary, and no one would be willing to put his life and death in the hands of others. At least, Chen Mo thought that he was not such a person. To put it another way, someone like him People are probably very timid. Because they are timid, they are afraid of death and trouble.

Besides, people will inevitably do stupid things sometimes, which is called impulsive at best and stupid at worst.

It is generally difficult for such people to achieve success. They see small gains and forget the great righteousness. They want to do big things but cherish their own lives. They are afraid to move forward and are indecisive.Only when you die will you suddenly wake up and say, "How can the long sky be inferior to me?" In the end, under the butcher's knife, I ended up with a body cut into five pieces, with no bones left. To put it harshly, the bones may be bruised and ashes will be scattered, and I will never be reincarnated.

But at least in the future, at least he will have to enjoy a temporary prosperity and dominate. Chen Mo's fate will probably be more miserable than that. Before he starts, he can already start preparing for his funeral.

Find a good cemetery. If there is a chance, he hopes that his ashes can be sent back to Longmen. Although he has never liked that city, if he really wants to find a place where he can close his eyes and rest forever, Chen Mo hopes It's there.

It was a very strange mentality, because he felt in his heart that the only place in the world that could make him feel a little bit familiar was that strange city that couldn't accommodate him.

The word "die in a foreign land" was not far away from Chen Mo's mind before. When he first came to this world, Chen Mo thought that he was ready. Later, he suddenly felt that it was not a big deal. It was not until he opened the door that this thought came to his mind. It came to mind again, so in the end he didn't pay much attention to it.

Because Chen Mo knew that sooner or later he would have such a day, but he still felt unwilling to give in. It was just a simple unwillingness, and he had no idea of ​​going back. This situation was already a fantasy, so why bother bothering others, not to mention that even if he gave it to him now? His one chance to choose was just more trouble.

But today, it once again appeared in Chen Mo's mind, lingering.

Watching Weina's retreating back, Chen Mo returned to the room. After opening the window, through the deep night, the bright lights of the city's high-rise buildings came into view from a distance.

It seems to be no different, similar to the memory, in the same late night, whether it is high-rise buildings or neon lights, the smoke of fireworks hidden in the hustle and bustle of the city, the flashing lights of the past and the crowds hiding in the city streets.

He thought of Colombia, which inevitably led him to think of Sfeldt and Black Steel, which also involved many people, and finally came to the Tower of Babel and Kazdaele.

I still feel a little bit congested. Although my heart is beating in the roar of the night wind, it still seems to be a beat slower, a beat slower than the world, and seems out of place. I feel a little bit sad, and I am slowly drifting in the seemingly familiar scenery. Return to silence.

In fact, the human world is very small. It is limited to the people you know, the places you have been to, and the sights you have heard of. These are just these. Compared with this vast world, they are small and sad.

Life is full of strangeness and strangeness, but when you think about it, transitioning from one world to another is no different, just like when you fly from your hometown to a foreign country, you have changed a place and a different environment.

But you will still feel different, as if you suddenly moved from the city you have lived in for a long time to another city. Everything around you feels familiar and unfamiliar. Naturally, you will also feel worried and afraid.

People are really weird.

Often we only miss things we cannot get, and we often don’t care about familiar things, so we cherish them. But we talk about cherishing so much, as if we are familiar with each other, and we can no longer remember what we should cherish. There was nothing to cherish, so I threw it away.

Chen Mo originally thought that he had already made plans.

But it wasn't until he met Chen here that he realized that he was not as open-minded as he thought, nor was he as easygoing as he was at the beginning.

Chen Mo wanted to live and leave Longmen, not because he wanted to fulfill the agreement, but just like them, he... actually hated that city and the world.

So he chose the most convenient and immature way, which was to escape... But people can't keep escaping. What should come will eventually come, and what should happen will always happen.

Self-deception will always be exposed, revealing bloody wounds. Old wounds have not healed, and new wounds have been added.

Chen Mo suddenly had this idea in his mind. While scolding himself for being stupid, he would inevitably feel a little excited about it. After all, a person who rarely makes stupid mistakes suddenly one day got interested and wanted to do a stupid thing that cost his life. Everyone will be a little excited.

Hot-headed people don't think about the consequences of what they do. Chen Mo feels that he is not that kind of person. At most, he can only activate a backup plan, and this plan is still in the process of being brewed.

He left the window and opened the computer on the table. When his fingers were placed on the cold keyboard, a trace of reluctance appeared in his heart after a long absence. It was not until his fingers hit the Enter key that the trace of reluctance finally turned into ashes. substance.

Chen Mo felt as if he had lost something and became relaxed, as if all his strength had been drained away. He slumped down at the table, even the air he breathed was cold.

His heart kept twitching, as if a large piece was missing, becoming empty and boring. Only then did he suddenly realize that the unwillingness and melancholy before were all illusions, because he knew what he was going to do next, so he Will suddenly become sentimental.

He had lost a lot of things, and there might be more in the future. When he glanced at the mobile phone beside the table, his heart began to tremble, and a trace of panic filled his heart.

Chen Mo suddenly wanted to stay in Victoria and Londinium forever, but this thought was just fleeting and was dismissed from the back of his mind. If he really did that, what would greet him would be more than just now. panic.

In the next few days, nothing major happened to the Glasgow gang. Life went on as usual. When she met Indra occasionally, her expression did not change much, as if nothing happened that night. It happened, she was probably such a person, nothing could really make her take it to heart.

But Chen Mo still noticed a difference, because it was rare for her to have any conflicts with herself anymore.

That feeling is a bit depressing, like a tiger that has lost its ambition and goes from prime to twilight overnight. In the remaining life, it seems to lack interest in everything, even if it still shows a hearty smile, there is no need to adjust it. He said some funny things in his tone, but it made people feel too deliberate.

She would still stand in the car and yell, kick her younger brother's butt, and yell to make herself look arrogant and uneducated.

It seems as if nothing has changed, and as if everything has changed, but that kind of change can only be discovered when you understand it.

It's like if you like a girl and you know she doesn't like you, but she hasn't said this to you personally, you can still like her with peace of mind, but after she says this, you suddenly I feel that there is some subtle distance between you.

This is probably the current situation of Chen Mo and the Glasgow Gang.

Of course, except for Morgan, this little man who is full of evil, Chen Mo doesn't think he has any similarities with her, and they don't look alike to outsiders, but only Chen Mo and her understand that in the entire Glasgow Gang, they We can stand together if we are driven by the same interests.

In Chen Mo's opinion, in the entire Glasgow Gang, this little man is the only one who can be considered smart. Unfortunately, smart people are often the hardest to deal with and the hardest to gain trust. Because she is too smart, she treats everyone Everyone is wary, let alone an outsider like me.

But this does not hinder their cooperation.

This lasted for half a month, and the pressure faced by the Glasgow gang was increasing. Gedag and Gawain were often missing, and even Indra rarely stayed in the gang. The whole city seemed They all united, as if there was a force pushing them behind, and began to rush towards this gang located on the edge of the slums in the lower city.

Fortunately, the official did not make a clear statement, as if they were worried about something and did not make the already difficult situation more difficult, but everyone can clearly feel the current situation of the Glasgow Gang.

The scope of the "territory" continues to shrink, starting from the edge of the lower city and the upper city, and is constantly being squeezed by gangs from all directions. Finally, it continues to shrink. The situation becomes increasingly weird, as if all the gangs in the lower city are united and standing together. Opposite the Glasgow gang.

And the entire Glasgow Gang just watched all this happen, trying to do anything but being powerless.

Because everyone knows that even if the Glasgow Gang has the ability to drive out all these gangs, it will not have much effect. They are just chess pieces that some people use to avoid getting dirty hands.

It's just that these chess pieces are still difficult for the Glasgow Gang to deal with, and they are the things standing behind them.

Members continued to be injured and withdrawn. Eventually, the originally slightly large force shrank rapidly and could only shrink to the few remaining districts.

But the situation at the top has been stabilized, and they feel that the time has come to clean up the last remaining remnants.