Longmen Memoirs

"You know, they are family after all."

He heard the fox's voice in the quiet carriage.

"I think your next sentence is to tell me not to have too many extravagant expectations that I shouldn't have."

Chen Mo turned his head and could only vaguely see the shadow of the foxhound in the darkness.

"I have never had such extravagant hopes. From the day I contracted the disease... never."

The fox was stunned for a moment, and her eyes seemed to be covered with a dim light in the darkness.

She opened her mouth, but finally said nothing.

That's really unfair, but this earth has always been unfair.

In the end, she failed to keep Chen Mo, even though the fox had already thought of an excuse.

Fox watched him push open the car door and leave, as if he didn't even care about Chen Huijie's life or death, or in other words, since he had already made a choice, Fox didn't need to put himself and Chen on the road for a given choice. .

Even if she might really have that intention.

"Is this different from what we agreed?" Chen's voice sounded from the earphones.

"I've changed my mind."

The fox stared at the silver lighter in his hand.

"……why?!"

"Maybe it's because I suddenly feel that it would be good to let him leave quietly like this and do what he wants to do."

"I should have thought you were unreliable."

"Don't speak so harshly, Miss Chen." The fox sneered and retorted: "How much do you think you know me, and how much do you think you know him? You don't understand anything. You don't understand why people like us are alive. You should be lucky that you have a good uncle to live to this day, otherwise how could you live innocently to this day."

"Don't mention him in front of me!"

"But no matter how hard you deny it, you can't deny the relationship between you, Chief Wei, and Longmen. This is the biggest difference between us and you."

There was a brief silence in the earphones for a while.

The fox looked up at the apartment building not far away.

"Ms. Chen, let this matter end here."

"No, never."

"Then what are you going to do?" The fox asked with a sneer: "Take his hand and beg him to stay? Take him back to Longmen with you? I admit that this incident was caused by me, but let me tell you, he How did he leave Longmen? He almost killed Chief Wei, your uncle. Do you think Longmen can accommodate you, but can it accommodate him?"

Chen was suddenly stunned. The fox's words were like biting cold water pouring into her heart. Her fingers were trembling. She wanted to refute, but she couldn't find the words to refute.

"Wake up, Chen Huijie, it's time to wake up from your dream. Stop holding on to your naive ideas. Things in this land don't just revolve around you. Don't take yourself too seriously. Go back to Longmen. Do what you have to do, besides...we are the infected, and you still have a long time to live."

Fox's words were still so inhumane, as if she was completely different from the one Chen met two days ago. She was indeed such a person, and few people could guess what she was thinking.

"...You want to stop me?"

Fox's frivolous character really made her unhappy. Of course, maybe Fox felt the same way in his heart. Chen's toughness and domineering attitude also made people feel difficult to get along with.

There was a hint of sarcasm in the fox's words.

"I can't control what you want to do, but I won't help you either. Miss Chen, you are quite unpleasant to be honest."

"Heh, thank you for the reminder, you too."

"Actually, I know better than you that I am not lovable." The fox replied: "But I don't care, I never care. You can't expect everyone to like you as a person. After all, you are not just because of them." While alive, these words are also given to you, who you are now."

"..."

Chen hung up the communication, picked up the long box containing Chixiao, clutched the rusty police badge, and walked into the night streets of Londinium.

She wants to keep someone she can't keep. She has no confidence, but she is stubborn.

Chapter 77 The Lion’s Sleeping Song ([-])

I remember going to see a movie with Fox in Longmen. The movie in Longmen, in the spring just after the New Year in Longmen, was honestly hard to describe.

There was a line in it that impressed Chen Mo deeply.

Fox said she liked the movie, but then she felt silly about it, really.

She said: Only little girls would like such cool lines.

Because they are still too young, they always think that as long as they pay, they will be rewarded. However, most of the time, no matter how firm your will is, what cannot be changed will not change after all.

She said that she just wanted to say something before she died so that she wouldn't be unable to remember it.

Why is the fox alive? Maybe she, like Chen Mo, once had the right to choose, but for some reason, she voluntarily gave it up.

People have to fight for something. It doesn't matter whether it's worth it or not, only whether they are willing or not.

The fox is a very selfish little person, a little clever, and Chen Mo is also selfish and powerful. Most people like them cannot be heroes, because a hero must give up something, and neither he nor the fox is willing, so they cannot become heroes, nor can they become heroes. Unable to make selfless contributions.

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No one can always obey their own reason. Even the most indifferent people will have many emotional fluctuations, obvious, not obvious, deliberate, or subconscious.

Because we are human beings first, we often cannot escape the shackles of emotions, and the so-called emotions do not only refer to family affection, friendship, and love. Maybe it is just a small move, a look up, or a word that can break the original relationship. An established fact.

Before something happens, people can never predict what choices they will make in the next moment.

People call it personal will, or personality.

He has two personalities.

The winter in Victoria was much longer than Wei Na expected. In the past 22 years, she had never felt that the winter in this city would be so long. It was so long that every minute and every second of waiting could be understood. Feel it.

It has been snowing for more than half a month, which even makes people wonder if another natural disaster is brewing. This is very painful for those natural disaster messengers who are running around in this land to warn of natural disasters. They have to brave the cold wind and be beaten. Walking a long distance in the wilderness buried in thick snow, you may encounter hungry wild beasts on the way, which will definitely not be a pleasant experience.

Few people are willing to choose a career like a natural disaster messenger. Although the salary is good and even better than most normal and decent jobs, a large group of people are discouraged by the thought of just going to an area to warn of an imminent natural disaster.

Of course, most of that large group of people are not qualified to be natural disaster messengers.

Extraordinary physical fitness, excellent mental endurance, excellent academic level, and a little bit of humor and eloquence.

Most of the disaster messengers are like this, although some of them look a little weird, a little indifferent, and even like to live alone.

But this is not something incomprehensible. When a person lives in isolation and is alone for a long time, it is naturally difficult to quickly integrate into one strange group after another with a stable attitude, especially when they are constantly integrating and breaking away. This is a somewhat boring process.

Most people will look weird.

But Wei Na found it very interesting. She still remembered that Chen Mo had mentioned to her that she had a friend who was working as a natural disaster messenger, although Wei Na paused when she saw him say the word friend.

It was not difficult for her to guess that the word friend was probably imposed by Chen Mo himself later. He seemed to like to do this kind of thing, referring to strangers who had not met recently as friends.

Wei Na thought that the person would probably be a girl. According to her understanding of Gurney, if it was not a girl, Gurney would probably not be willing to waste time talking so much in front of her. Of course, if it was a man, maybe he wouldn't either. In your words to yourself, make the other person so interesting.

He said that he might be able to chat with the other person and maybe become friends. Wei Na was noncommittal. She didn’t think that the other person could become friends with her because she understood her situation very well. Over the years, her friends had some and only good qualities. Ni alone.

In the 22 years before meeting Gurney, these two words had never appeared in Weena's life, so these two words were somewhat unfamiliar to her.

But it was different now. She was now very interested in meeting the person Gurney talked about to see if he could really chat with her as he said.

Wei Na sat on the sofa in the living room with her chin propped up, and glanced sideways at Wang Cai, who was curled up on the foot of the coffee table. The lazy stupid dog raised his head and yawned, then put his head on his lying forelimbs again.

Wei Na put her eyes away and tapped the armrest with her left index finger. She turned her head and looked out the window. Compared with the morning, the snow was much lighter, but it still didn't stop. When the wind blew, there would be snow. Pieces of snowflakes flew past her eyes.

It should be very cold outside. Even though she had never been out, Vina, who was wearing a nightgown, seemed to be able to feel the biting chill. Winter in Londinium was never gentle enough.

This may be the last winter she spends in Victoria, in every sense of the word, Wei Na thought as she looked at the flying snow outside the window, but surprisingly, there was not much regret or melancholy in her heart.

It was very different from the feeling she had when she was sitting on the stairs in the park watching the dusk in Londinium a few months ago. At that time, she only felt sad and desolate, and maybe a little bit regretful and confused.

When she landed in the city she was overlooking from the tower, she realized that the place she had been guarding for 22 years turned out to be so strange.It's a pity that at that time, she no longer had the extra time to sigh and complain.

She couldn't even find a place where she could satisfy her hungry appetite.

That was definitely the stupidest thing I had ever done.She couldn't help but think, but a smile appeared on her lips.

"It's not that bad actually." Vina whispered to herself.

Maybe without this opportunity, she would never have been able to meet such a bad person on the streets in her life, as she was always aloof. Yes, it was bad. At least in her perception and the education she had received, Gurney was undoubtedly bad. .

This is a very ordinary person, neither outstanding nor outstanding enough.

He doesn't know any etiquette, and he never even shows humility. He is shrewd and philistine, self-righteous and sentimental. He always likes to act like he can handle things by himself.

He can't solve anything and will only make things worse. He can't even see his own feelings clearly. He is slow and numb, indecisive and hesitant, looking forward and backward.

Wei Na will not like people with this kind of personality, let alone put the other person's existence in her eyes.

That guy can be said to be useless, but he always thinks that his lies can deceive others. In fact, he is also deceiving himself. He clearly knows that the lies are told by himself, but he stubbornly believes in what he says. lie.

Foolish and smart, there is no one as bad as him in Weena's knowledge.

But even if you want to hate someone like this, you can't hate them no matter what.

Wei Na can no longer find anyone who is willing to take her in when she is desperate, and can no longer find anyone who is willing to call her a friend even though they know who she is.

She thought that she might never meet such a shrewd fool again, who was willing to accompany her into that gorgeous mansion when he knew what she wanted to do. Maybe what was waiting for them there was not late. Greetings, but the five hundred hidden axemen, who would separate their corpses with just one order.

She will never find such a liar who can deceive himself and others. When she is still thinking about how to speak, he puts into action what she has not yet said. Is this really a reciprocal transaction?For a long time, Wei Na could not imagine that her value could reach this level.

Maybe, there is such a person.

As she walked past people mourning in silence one after another, and as she listened to the priests who were part-time members of the Glasgow gang reciting the eulogy in a slightly delayed tone, he would gently hold her clenched palms behind her back. .

When she feels a little sad, she will tell some humorless jokes to lighten her mood.

When she feels confused, ask her if she has thought about what she wants to eat tonight.

When she is determined to fight, she will defend her back.

……

The magazine was actually nothing interesting, and the content on it was not enough to attract her attention, but she was still willing to flip through it because she knew that when she almost finished flipping through the magazine, he would appear in front of her.

Wei Na couldn't remember when he had done so many things. She only knew that she might have become more and more accustomed to his existence.

That's not so bad, is it?

He seemed to be hiding a lot of secrets. Weena had this feeling when she met those visitors. She only knew some from the old count and him.

Maybe it has something to do with myself.

This is a cliché story. An orphan who lost his parents disappeared mysteriously when he was a teenager, and then reappeared in the world many years later. At that time, he had an extra name - Snake.

Vina disliked the name so much that she wanted to replace it with another name, Gurney. She knew that the old earl should be faithful to his proposal and told him the absurd story, but he was not from Victoria. , will probably never understand what Guinevere represents.

She knew about his past earlier than he expected. She already knew part of his past when she came into contact with the Glasgow Gang.

But Wei Na never asked for confirmation, just like he never asked her for confirmation. Neither of them told each other about this matter.

He may be a little slow, but most of the time he is very sharp. After all, if he wasn't sharp, he wouldn't have survived this long.

This tacit feeling is very interesting. At least Wei Na didn't hate it at first. She just felt that both parties knew something that they could understand. It was more like there was more tacit understanding. But once one direction wants to change this kind of thing, When you understand one party, it will become an obstacle.

What lies between them is not only the gap between infected and non-infected people, but also what her identity represents.

The conservative Victoria would not be willing to accept an outsider to tarnish their sacred bloodline, and the continuation of most sacred bloodlines and pure bloods was all through internal marriages and peace talks.If one day, she can really return to this land, she will not be able to avoid the support of those conservatives.

People often cannot live as they wish.

Guinevere has been resisting that such things would happen, and Vina is not opposed to returning here, but they both know that this is not without cost.

Perhaps, this kind of life now is what I really want.

Wei Na suddenly had this illusion. She didn't have to live so heavy, and she didn't have to think about those many things. She just needed to wait at home with peace of mind, waiting for someone to open the door, and when the cold wind poured into the house In a moment, she would turn on the light in the room with her own hands.

This may be considered love.Wei Na thought, because in her opinion, love should not be so conspicuous and eye-catching, it should be plain.

Ordinary, just like the life she has adapted to now.

A knock on the door sounded softly in the room.

She shook her head to clear away the increasingly chaotic thoughts.

"Are you coming..."

Wei Na picked up the mobile phone on the table and opened the door.